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I.D. - EVAN.

“Well I’m accepting and shouldn’t that be all that matters? Nines too, he accept you as well I’m sure of it. Hell even dad would, you know how accepting he is.” That man wouldn’t had loved Connor- any of them any less if he knew about their sexualities. Evan kept running his hand through Connor’s hair to sooth him. Evan decided to try something that always worked with calming them down. Its what their dad did, any time they scrapped their knees or fell their father would comfort them by pressing his forehead to theirs.

Evan leaned in close and pressed his forehead to Connor’s hoping his younger brother knew the significance of the gesture. “You’re not a freak, not to me.”

            OF COURSE HE REMEMBERS  the way their dad would comfort any of them like this whether they were upset or scared or had fallen down  &  gotten hurt.  it calms him a bit  ,  the  familiarity  of the gesture reminds him of  SIMPLER  times in his life.  his eyes close for a moment  ,  he’s less tense than he has been in a long time.  slowly  ,  connor starts to relax  ,  taking in  shaky  breaths to try  &  calm himself.  of course  ,  he’d known his brother wouldn’t hate him for this  ,  but even knowing that connor still wasn’t prepared for  ACCEPTANCE  ,  he’d always prepared himself for the worst  ,  for the fallout that would never happen  ,  for the disaster that never came.  when he speaks  ,  it comes from a bitter laugh  ,  a last wall hiding so much  hurt  beyond it  ,  lying just out of anyone’s reach.

                 ‘ yeah, well, tell that to the rest of the world.  bet they don’t exactly feel the same. ’

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I.D. - EVAN.

“Get use to it? No! I will not get use to it!” Evan was shouting, how dare Connor tell him to just accept that fact that he was dying. How ok he was with just fading away leaving Evan behind- leaving Nines behind! Evan already buried one family member he won’t do it again. Evan should wait until his anger passes but he can’t, and the words are already leaving his mouth.

“How can you be so selfish?! How are you so ok with leaving me and Nines behind? You telling me to get use to it, how can I get use to the idea my brother is dying! Dad would be ashamed at you for this behavior! Giving up so easily, taking the easy way out cause you don’t want to put in the effort. You’re no better than Shanon!!” Evan roared at Connor, throwing the name of their absent mother who abandoned them like venom at Connor before he stood up and left the bathroom, left the apartment with a slam of the door.

             ❝ Don’t, don’t fucking compare me to her, this is my fucking choice Evan !!  I’m being selfish ?!  You’re the one trying to take away my choice, that sounds pretty fucking selfish to me !!  And you know what ?!  We don’t all have the luxury of choosing how we die, what if I got shot at work, huh ?!  You’ll call me selfish at my god damn funeral ?!  ❞

                   THE YELLING AGGRAVATES HIS  torn up throat  ,  makes him spit blood into the bathroom sink.  he wants to follow after evan  ,  this isn’t over so quickly  ,  but the very thought makes him  wheeze  ,  chest tightening in pain already.  connor forces himself up  ,  forces himself to go  AFTER  his brother  ,  this isn’t something he’s willing to lose his family over.  they’re spitting words full of  venom  ,  they’re both defensive  &  hurting  &  they need each other now more than ever before.  he calls out to his brother  ,  reaching out to catch him by the shoulder to speak again.

                   ❝ Listen, call me an asshole, call me selfish, hate me, whatever.  But we all knew I’d end up getting myself killed for someone else, didn’t we ??  I....I don’t want to fight about this, it’s......it’s fucking terrifying, okay ??  I’m scared to hell, but if you want to hate me, go ahead.  Get in line, even. ❞

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I.D. - NINES.

Whoever this person was Nines wanted to remove, wanted to make them suffer instead of Connor cause Connor didn’t deserve this. Didn’t deserve to die and it made the roses inside Nines’ constrict tighter around his biocomponents.

“They are a fool and are undeserving of your love if they can’t see how much this hurts you.” Nines then moved forward and embraced Connor in a tight hug holding him close to offer some comfort to the android. Also to steal away an embrace of the one who make his pump ache and the roses tighten.

             ❝ No......I just don’t think they know that I love them.  But that’s okay, really.  I.....wouldn’t want to lose them over something like unrequited love.  He......They mean too much to me.  ❞

                  CONNOR’S SMILE IS BITTERSWEET  when nines pulls him into a hug  ,  head resting on the taller’s shoulder  ,  a bit of thirium from his mouth staining the white fabric of his jacket.  he’s so  terribly  in love with nines that it’s killing him inside  &  out  ,  but he doesn’t dare say a word of how he feels.  connor’s so  AFRAID  of ruining things  ,  of losing someone so important to him that he’d rather  die  than say how he feels  ,  to be  HONEST  with himself for once.

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ARCHIVED

ok !!  i’m going to continue to do some drafts on here, but after that, connor will officially be moved to his new blog !!  if you’d like to follow me there, the new url is devihunt !!

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I.D. - HANK.

A small grin tugged at Hank’s lips as their kiss parted, hands running over the lace babydoll greedily as Connor settled. Lips ended up pressing along the pale expanse of his throat, biting and kissing in his wake. A hand ends up slipping beneath white lace to smooth a hand over Connor’s cock, greedily stroking the android. He loved Connor for so many things that were both emotional and physical in nature. To Hank, Connor was perfect no matter how many times he stumbled and regained his footing.

“You look so pretty baby. I’m so proud of you, do you know that?”

            CONNOR WHINES UNDER THE  attention being given to him  ,  the flush on his skin  darkening  when hank’s hand finds his cock.  the praise given to him only makes his breath  CATCH  in his throat  ,  unsure of how to respond.  when connor  does  speak  ,  it’s quiet  ,  words spoken honestly  ,  almost making him seem  VULNERABLE.  it was strange  ,  connor had always viewed himself as inherently  flawed  ,  but hank didn’t seem to notice or seem to care that he was.

               ‘ ......I suppose I do now. ’

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hey guys !!  so, i’ve decided that i’m going to reboot connor and move him to a new blog, to start fresh, because i still love writing him.  before i do this, i’m going to ask that you all link me to any threads you’d like to continue, because once it’s set up, i’m going to reply to them on the new blog.  i’ll also post the link/url here when it’s finished, so anyone who wants can follow me there !!

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pardon the unformatted mobile post, but i’ve been doing some thinking, and i’ve realized that being on connor has somewhat contributed to my terrible mental health. i love connor as a character, but right now, i’m not in the headspace for him. i’ve got some…..pretty heavy stuff going on in my life right now, both personal and school related. so, for the moment, i am going to be more active on my other main blog, but i completely understand if you don’t have any interest in finding me there. i think once everything passes, i may come back to connor, whether that be a reboot of this blog or whatever. but this isn’t me abandoning connor, i’m doing what makes me happy for right now. as always, if you have me on discord, you can find me there, and i love all of you and wish you the best, truly.

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pardon the unformatted mobile post, but i’ve been doing some thinking, and i’ve realized that being on connor has somewhat contributed to my terrible mental health. i love connor as a character, but right now, i’m not in the headspace for him. i’ve got some.....pretty heavy stuff going on in my life right now, both personal and school related. so, for the moment, i am going to be more active on my other main blog, but i completely understand if you don’t have any interest in finding me there. i think once everything passes, i may come back to connor, whether that be a reboot of this blog or whatever. but this isn’t me abandoning connor, i’m doing what makes me happy for right now. as always, if you have me on discord, you can find me there, and i love all of you and wish you the best, truly.

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so i think i’m gonna reduce connor to a semi-hiatus just because i’m.  no longer happy here, all i have is anxiety.  this may lead to me rebooting connor in the future but who knows.

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so lately, i haven’t been feeling too happy being on connor.  in fact, logging on to make this post is making my stomach turn, and i absolutely hate that.  so, until i can feel better about connor, i will be entirely absent from this blog.  of course, you can ask me for my discord if you don’t already have it.  until then, you can find me on my other blogs, mainly my alphonse elric blog over at @armorian, where i do have a detroit: become human verse and others for my other mutuals here if you’re interested !!

i may come back to connor at some point, i’m not entirely sure, but who knows anymore, i’ll make another post when i’ve made my decision.

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so lately, i haven’t been feeling too happy being on connor.  in fact, logging on to make this post is making my stomach turn, and i absolutely hate that.  so, until i can feel better about connor, i will be entirely absent from this blog.  of course, you can ask me for my discord if you don’t already have it.  until then, you can find me on my other blogs, mainly my alphonse elric blog over at @armorian, where i do have a detroit: become human verse and others for my other mutuals here if you’re interested !!

i may come back to connor at some point, i’m not entirely sure, but who knows anymore, i’ll make another post when i’ve made my decision.

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fuck it.  until i feel better mentally, you can catch me over on @armorian.  being on connor is upsetting me too much

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hm.  i’m feeling very discouraged from writing here and.  kind of in general.  i feel like people only like me because the d:bh fandom is kind of alive and thriving.  i’m just.  kind of upset and feeling a little alone.  so if i sound distant on discord, that’s why.

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ughhhh i don’t wanna go to calc i’m tired

[fortvnegod]

“nothing will happen to you. you have my word.” “you lied to me, connor. you lied to me…”