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me: ok. how bout you. how are you doing
jaime: i'm questioning the validity of every life choice i have ever and ever will make
me: i. oh. i take it the 'killing your uncle' thing isn't going over well.
jaime: no. it isn't. thank you for asking.
me: how do you feel about sycamore being your most developed relationship
akiyama: great. i love him. in my heart we're married.
me: shut up
akiyama: bros before nos...
me: wh-- nos?????
akiyama: yeah. nos
akiyama: haha because i get dumped and divorced
me: ok
akiyama: so they're nos. but sycamore is five-ever
me: STOP!!! TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY!!!
akiyama: [twirls mustache he does not fucking have] i'm always serious
episode iv: divorce strikes back (ok)
the Official Commentary i got is "i wish it had come sooner". this could mean a lot of things and it does, in fact, mean a lot of things. the whole thing is the kinda feel when you think you have a character figured out and then they tell you the situation is a bit different than anticipated and its like... ok! thats fine.
i think the biggest part i neglected to realize is that... akiyama is not an idiot. you dont come from a broken marriage and not know something is going wrong. hell, you dont come from a split home growing up and see your mother go through a second divorce and not know the signs when you see them. its not something hes surprised by and its not at all something he didnt see coming.
he's not really the type (not after lance, at least, i guess) to stay in love with someone with those signs in play, either, because there isn't a point to it. in the end he wants it more for the kids then he wants it because of any feelings for her, but when it comes to divorce, there's a sense of regret in letting it drag out that long with the phase of uncertainty. and of course he's never the type to regret the marriage (not when it produced his children, and not when his children are his whole life) but for the very end of a dead marriage there's a feeling of remorse for that particular point of it. yeah.
it goes well? it goes well. the girls are mostly living at school anyway, but that's the part he takes hardest, is having less time with them... he's fine without the marriage, that's best for The Ex and it's best for him too, but the kids aspect is hard. it takes getting used to and he strives to talk to them as often as he can, i think, but that stems a lot from his own Father Issues and his desire to be the opposite. his lack of a father figure has always been a prevalent albeit underlying issue for him and he strives a lot to establish himself as someone better.
in terms of feelings re: hikari, i guess it's complicated? of course it is. by the time the divorce is finalized he's not really in love with her but there will always be a part of him that belongs to her, in a certain sense. there's never a time where she doesn't mean the world to him and he will always owe her everything for their brief life together and their children; she was a very important factor in his life and she continues to be. he still talks about her like she puts the sun in the sky and he's amicable as one can be about her.
post-divorce is still a turbulent time for him. he takes a month off with work (being a famous champion has its perks i guess Ha Ha) to take time to himself and figure himself out... i guess... it's a little bit of a crisis point... he hangs out with his brother a lot more in person (they're still close but have conflicting schedules, usually) and naturally sycamore because Of Course He Does, so things are good. he doesn't talk about it much. the only time he does its with his mother and very sparingly, but i think they connect a lot around this time because he has a closer perspective on how much she really sacrificed for her children and how much she loves him. he hangs out with green more at this point, too. so that's good.
he gets back to work and remembers for the first time in a long time how much he genuinely loves battling (he's always been more of the traveling and enjoying it for fun type so champ status doesn't really suit him much), and its the first time in his life he's genuinely loved his job. it lasts for a good stretch and hes the happiest hes been in ages, but as pikachu ages and needs to be retired from the harshness of Championship Battles, theres not really a point to it-- more than anyone else pikachu is the one who has seen him through everything in life, and the job means nothing without his partner. unsurprisingly, he steps down soon after.
he goes back to travelling and challenging random trainers, and its a good time. pikachu comes with him and participates in more lowkey matches... sycamore proposes the idea of formally moving to kalos and working with him, doing field work related to the pokedex, and akiyama eventually decides why not! and its nice. his life settles into place and i think for the first time he's genuinely happy with where he is in life, in all aspects, and happy with himself too.
& then i guess he marries calem, so, Swaggie
rook: i can't believe anyone would ever /like/ me
me: yeah i'm surprised too you're so-- wait a minute you had like three girlfriends and a boyfriend too
rook: i can't believe anyone would ever /like/ me!!!!!!
akiyama: do i really get married
f!akiyama: i don't know. i mean i could be like, your extensive dream reality. like inception.
akiyama: that's not how that movie went at all
f!akiyama: wow! tag your spoilers?
f!akiyama: do you ever love someone so much you just look at them and cry
me: i hope you're talking about your wife and not l--
f!akiyama: what? no. i'm talking about my daughter.
me: .
f!akiyama: my wife too, though. minus the crying part. that's a baby thing. mostly
me: ok nice save pal
f!akiyama: i'm being serious. it's like being a light bulb and marrying a star, y'know
me: aren't most stars like. delayed rays of light when a lot of them are dead--
f!akiyama: shut up. i was being metaphorical, jackass
me: thats so tacky-- YOU CANT SAY JACKASS YOU HAVE A BABY!!!
i don't even want to talk about this but he won't shut up and i'm too mortified to put it on his blog because i hate him
he dated the Aforementioned Girlfriend when he was seventeen. he assumed that because they were friends and he was amicable towards her that that meant he Liked her (why is he so stupid, honestly). her name was shiloh and she was a bombshell (dyed) blonde that everyone around unanimously agreed was too cool for him. apparently she was a delinquent. they're still friends though? apparently she grew up to be a beauty class lmao... she was definitely his first Sexual Experience (GOD) in an upstairs bedroom at a dumb drunk teens party. this was apparently when he realized the difference between romantic and sexual attraction and what he felt for her, and he broke up with her two days later. it was incredibly awkward when he apparently told her that he thought he was gay but she was actually incredibly understanding of it
he dated two other girls after her (their names were apparently renee and sharon) in that unsure period. the relationships never really got too serious; sharon dumped him because he seemed fairly uninvested and noncommittal, and he broke up with renee at the realization that, yes, he was very sure he was gay, but also on the basis that he was growing a lot busier at the time. sharon (rightfully) has a certain dislike for him but he still talks with renee now and then.
he had a pretty prominent thing for [redacted] for a while and i don't think it ever quite died
rook: also i want to do coordinating
me: what. no
rook: i'm planning on specializing in the cute category
me: you literally cannot--
rook: with my rattata
me: shut the fuck up
rook: what if i just didn't like sleeping with that one girlfriend i had one time because i'm gay
me: oh my god you literally said you were something entirely different yesterday. and like, three years ago.
rook: yeah, well. i think i might be gay
me: why didn't you just say that TO BEGIN WITH
rook: this is a shocking revelation for me
me: SHUT UP
also kiddies
i don't remember how many kids animeclub has but i feel like it's two
sycamore definitely has two kids
(two is such a nice number because it's clearly divisible and then everyone involved can work out deets for one kid or something. idk i've never done it)
hypothetical
wally wants kids... he can't have them biologically, but he's really invested in the idea of adopting. he's from a big family (not in terms of household but just in general) and i think he likes the sound of that but it's really up to may if they have kids at all
i want mckinney to get married and have three kids but that's weird because he doesn't even have a canon so i can't do that, and it's no fun by yourself! sorry punk
^ yukimura, klarin, and cassius all also have no futures but would be cute dads
honestly i want to see brendan adopt one kid but i just kinda feel like ultimately none of his relationships will ever work out (and he'll never get the ones he wants) so he'd probably be a single dad. idk yet
JAIME JAIME JAIME
absolutely not
tabitha... he doesn't even know how to interact with children and avoids them at all costs
will never has kids of how own but honestly if wally has kids he's definitely very involved with them! he loves kids but is very neutral about ever having his own kids, but ultimately i just don't think it happens (he'd be cute/good with them though)
wallace grimaced at the very thought, made a comment about his perfect figure, and asked if lisia counts. i wish i could strangle him
fp!wally never has children, although he wanted them
was thinking about what partners ever liked in akiyama
there wasnt a romantic aspect to their relationship but valerie liked his sarcasm, at the time... in general that certain side of akiyama brought out a lot of valerie's traits in private that weren't really in the public eye, and i think a lot of their friendship was/is based on the fact that they met at a time in their lives where they could be very themselves with each other and few other people
brock didn't ever really like anything. i mean, not like that. akiyama just sort of confessed and brock was at a weird sort of period of questioning himself so he halfheartedly tried to make himself believe there was something there that wasn't, because hey, they were friends! (turns out it was a bad idea)
anabel mostly found him very curious at first. i would say 'odd' but that sounds slightly negative... but i feel like that was the word used (only intended in an entirely positive way-- anabel was just like that, i suppose) and anyway the first time they spoke anabel approached him over something he was reading, and they bonded over mutual interests... so that was probably what anabel liked best-- they had a lot in common. even beyond interests, they were similar on certain levels, so they meshed well. yeah
i don't think lance knew what he actually liked about akiyama for a long time... uh... which is sort of a bad sign. he just sort of did, but in the early stages, i think it was akiyama's earnest sort of traits; he didn't show a lot of that to lance directly, but it's obvious in certain aspects, and particularly in reflecting on his early career. beyond that i don't think there was anything specific he really liked, and he never thought much on it. i think in a lot of ways he just never really knew akiyama all that well because akiyama felt so compelled to hide a lot of aspects of himself to seem more likeable / adult
i want to talk about akiyama's relationships so i'm going to! yeah!
daisy oak
they don't actually have a relationship, but she's his first crush as a boy. that's really it. nothing ever comes of it and it's a baby crush affair, but still noteworthy. he's quite fond of her the rest of his life (and oak, too), but no adult romantic interest in her. they get along very easily.
valerie
the first person he dates; he meets her through sycamore when he's in kalos on sort-of-business, and they become friends. their relationship is a media attraction and nothing else, but they do genuinely get along and care for one another, in a platonic sense. they don't date for long before they break it off on amicable terms, and they're still in contact / fairly good friends.
lance (initial)
gets a separate footnote. he meets lance through the league once he becomes champion; lance is well-known, obviously, and akiyama is a little star struck. he harbors feelings for him quickly but doesn't act on them (akiyama is seventeen at the time; lance is ten years his senior). he finds lance intimidating and difficult to approach (this is more due to akiyama's nature than lance's) in general and makes an effort to avoid him. the issue is never so much resolved as it is set aside and forgotten about.
brock
the first time akiyama dates someone he's actually romantically interested in. the crush is weird and he only brings it up to get it out of the way, but to his surprise, brock agrees to trying things out for a while, though he's somewhat hesitant. their relationship is brief and not particularly serious, but akiyama was honestly into it. brock breaks up with him after his birthday on the basis that it's just not working for him. their split is pleasant enough, but akiyama ends up feeling worse over it than he lets on, and their friendship gets awkward. i don't think it's ever quite the same after that; they hang out less and less, and brock is the only friend akiyama really has in kanto (where's the other kanto kids? i don't know, probably together). it's a hard time in general.
anabel
he meets her while checking out the sinnoh league (he doesn't challenge it or anything, just, y'know, sight-seeing). they meet at a bad time in his life-- i don't think it's long after brock-- but she's very good for him, and they have a lot of common interests. the dating thing just sort of happens, and they go very nicely together. anabel ultimately becomes someone he's very close to and feels safe with, but over time her feelings sort of sputter out, and they end their relationship; they stay in close contact though, unlike his first relationship, and he gets over her. they're still very close. she's easily one of his dearest friends. if i had to describe their relationship as anything it would probably be "soft". it did a lot for him emotionally.
sidenoting ; anabel is asexual panromantic. akiyama is very demisexual and i think he took comfort in being in a very nonsexual romantic relationship. they date for about a year.
clair
they don't date, but it's a weird sort of thing. he starts talking with clair more at another darker time in his life (for someone who was a happy kid he grows up to be very prone to depressive periods) when the lance thing is coming back up, and for a short while, he almost misinterprets this as an interest in clair. i don't think she's interested in him, and the topic is never brought up. they aren't really friends, either, exactly, but... associates? anyway, it's just a weird phase, and not a very lengthy one.
lance
they officially start dating midway through his twenty-fifth year. akiyama doesn't mean to confess to him so much as they end up at the overnight party of a mutual acquaintance (probably clair) and akiyama ends up making a very drunk mistake. it was an honestly sort of unpleasant and likely unhealthy situation-- he's a mess when it comes out, and has been for a while, again-- and lance looks after him until the next day. they talk about it more that night and tentatively agree to start dating once akiyama confirms that he meant it. it's a secret for a while.
they date for... two years? i think? it's easily the most serious relationship akiyama has been in to date, and while they go well together, there's always a degree of... hmm. there are always certain walls there, issues that never get resolved. akiyama is wholeheartedly in love with him and i'm fairly sure lance was too, seeing as how they date so long, but i don't think it's to the same degree. they discuss engagements once or twice but lance is reluctant and so akiyama does not pursue it.
i don't think he ever feels confident in the relationship, or 100% genuinely happy. it's not lance's fault-- akiyama honestly isn't too confident to begin with, and lance is... mature. he's smart and sophisticated, he's put together, he's good at everything he does. akiyama finds this intimidating, and he compares himself to lance constantly (i think it's less lance and more the pedastal akiyama sort of puts him on) and at every turn finds himself lacking and unworthy. he never quite feels good enough, and throughout the relationship, he tries to change a lot of himself to be more what he thinks he should be if he's with lance. they don't share a lot of common interests when they start dating either, and while lance is encouraging and tries to take interest in what akiyama likes, akiyama ultimately abandons a lot of himself through this period in order to be more "adult".
lance is the first person he sleeps with, not long after they start dating. i think this is something that impacts him a great deal, and something they were both unsure about / shaken by. it leaves a lingering impact on akiyama that i'm not sure how to adequately explain, but there is no aspect of himself that he's not self-conscious about with lance. ultimately, it's his pervasive discomfort-- combined with lance being a bit lukewarm throughout the relationship (this, i think, also contributes to akiyama's worries and doubts)-- that strongly contributes to their breaking up... and, i think, lance feels somewhat guilty for reasons related to their age gap. he breaks up with akiyama under the pretense that akiyama shouldn't be wasting his life with him, and technically... technically speaking, the breakup is a peaceful one, but akiyama avoids him unless absolutely necessary afterwards.
lance calls a few time to try and check up on him, invite him out for coffee, and akiyama ignores the calls. lance worries, i think... the period after the breakup is easily akiyama at his worst, but in a quieter sort of hurt than he was before they started dating, i suppose. for a long while he stops going out much, and he moves back with his family (he was living with lance throughout their relationship). i think he almost gives up the championship, and even when he comes back up out of it, i don't think he ever really does all the way.
his mother never approved of the relationship even once it became open public knowledge, but his brother thought lance was Super Cool. i think that played a part in exactly how hard akiyama fell for him (he's very close to his brother) but also a lot of anxieties (he's also close to his mother, and likely misinterprets her disapproval as meaning he's not good enough for lance).
he never actually said anything about wanting to when the topic was discussed but i think he would have married lance if he'd asked. he cared for him a great deal.
hikari
IDK LOL i think katie and i agreed they meet at a christmas party? did we? i think we talked about it... i don't know how they become friends / start dating / get married. the akiyama who is aware of the fourth wall finds this extremely troubling and worries endlessly that she really ought to be marrying someone else. he can shut up
general... verse... upkeeping. i guess.
PRverse ; jaime, riley, pr!sycamore
???verse ; akiyama, main!sycamore, wallace, fp!wally
PFverse ; brendan, rhee-park, cassius, will, tabitha
PLverse ; morty, cheren (+LP)
pokeslice ; klarin
verseless ; mckinney, yukimura
also for my reference; akiyamas timeline to date (24 current) (if i don't post it here i'll forget)
received his first pokemon (bulbasaur) at age ten. he spent that summer training and caught pikachu the same year. it wasn't until the next summer that he earned his first two badges; he wanted to be prepared. when he was younger he would get very worried / anxious if his pokemon were hurt, so he avoided letting them be knocked out as much as was absolutely possible.
got his third badge at age 12, fourth at age 13, fifth at age 14. took a break for a year (he got busy in general, doing things with his brother, helping his mom out, etc... just, life stuff) and then got six at age 15, seven at 16. at age seventeen he dropped out of high school to pursue a battling career formally, got his final badge, and took the championship. it's at this point that his home life gets rocky (over his dropping out) and he leaves home for... two... years? that he spends on mt silver. it's not a secret where he is or anything. he comes down off and on, but never goes home.
sidenote ; he meets lance shortly after taking the championship and harbors a crush on him for... a long, long time, off and on after that. he doesn't act on it due to the age difference. sidenote 2 ; since the rp he was first in is technically non-canon, he didn't go to any fancy school, i'm pretty sure... he didn't exist in fp, so. he just went to an average school in kanto.
at nineteen things start to get better again. he makes up with his mother and he's living back at home. he starts traveling for pokedex related reasons for a while, visits other regions... he meets sycamore around this year. why do they become friends? hell if i know!!! at the end of this year he starts taking a foothold in international tournaments, including the unova one.
nothing major happens career wise. after a while the job starts to get old; he doesn't like it, and he never liked it, but he was good at it and he wanted to make money fast, so he puts up with it.
he dates valerie for a while. they're friends, but neither one really likes the other or anything like that... it's good for public images, so he does it because he's advised to. it doesn't get serious. they stay friends after they split, though, and at current time still get along.
he starts hanging out with brock around... twenty? i think? starts liking him halfway through twenty-three. they date for about two months before brock breaks up with him two days after his twenty-fourth birthday. it's a great time. they're still friends but it's... really awkward.
new years roundup
akiyama
had a party at the league. he hated it and didn't really want to, but, well... regional champion means social obligations. he brought his younger brother along, partly for company he likes, partly for an excuse to avoid other people. he locked himself in the bathroom for a while to get away from agatha. it didn't work out so well. overall it was an... okay night... the party watched the ball drop together.
he hasn't made any resolutions this year, specifically, i think... he's not feeling well lately. i think he's at the point where he broke up with brock recently, actually.
jaime
spent it with astor...? it's officially his birthday now. he doesn't enjoy this time of year much at all, but his birthday the very least; he misses his parents a lot. he's been introspective and withdrawn lately. things are getting big for him, so he doesn't have much time to devote to these matters anyway, but i think he at least had a decent evening... i hope so. he deserves that.
brendan
went out partying. probably with sidney. his new years resolution is to make sidney his boyfriend. i'm disgusted.
wally (+ will & cassius)
he was hanging out with... willie and cassius... i don't know when will and cassius became friends, but tonight was the first time wally met him. for some reason he gets along really well with those two? they had a lot of fun. wally doesn't drink, but cassius drank a bit and will ended up drunk. they played board games all evening until will got bored and wandered into the other room to Jam Out and then they watched a movie until the ball dropped.
he has a lot of health related goals, you know, in general... he also wants to do more socially. he has a very well rounded goal set and he's very hopeful. will teased him about wanting to kiss may lmfao (cassius brought up wes until will kissed him to shut him up, they are both terrible)
klarin
i think he watched a bunch of movies and drank a bottle of (very cheap) champagne at home. i don't know if he really has friends who would invite him out. that's depressing wow
mckinney
stayed home with his mother. they ordered pizza and meant to stay up to watch the ball drop but they ended up passing out on the couch by 11.
tabitha
i take back what i tweeted earlier; he worked DJing through the evening. it was... well, it was something to do, and i suppose he enjoyed it. mostly it's not like he has anyone to spend it with anyway, and he doesn't go out by himself, so why not?
wallace
also attended a league party. i think he was at least a little bit intoxicated upon arrival. he very blatantly flirted with several people and made eyes at steven. i wish i could kill him.
sycamore
HAHA HOO BOY... hoo boy... he had a work party earlier and he wasn't even drunk by the end of it. he was planning on a nice night, which is, well, i don't know. i had a word in mind but i lost it. the point is that didn't happen. halfway through the night he got into a fight with lysandre, left home, called some friends, and went out to a party with them. there's a difference between "drunk because it's fun" and "drunk because I'm angry" sycamore and the latter is... not good? not good. i think he started out acting like everything was fine but by the end of the night everyone could tell it wasn't. i don't know where he is right now other than he tried a hotel but didn't have a reservation, couldn't get diantha to answer, and is very adamant on not going home for... some time... i think (hope?) he's staying with a friend for the night. i know he called akiyama for about half an hour from the lab when his cell died; i don't know why they're so comfortable voicing discomfort to each other.
i don't think he'll go to diantha's tomorrow just because obviously that's the first place to find him and he wants to be left alone until he decides he feels like not being quite so angry anymore. i don't think he MEANS it but starting the year off fighting after barely getting engaged turned into "well if he's so unhappy about it maybe i should just call it off".
~*~new years!~*~
*talks about jaime’s father instead of jaime* whoops
jaime’s father, aldwyn, was very much the opposite of his own son in his youth; boisterous, outgoing, hated his studies but loved the feel of a sword in his hand. a bit of a wild child… very passionate, headstrong. he had a way with people— and talking— that let him talk his way in and out of most things, but he could be a handful… it was probably very frustrating for his parents and teachers! he wouldn’t listen to anything he didn’t want to and thought he could do everything himself, but i think he had the sort of air that often made people believe he could. very confident.
of course, as with most youthful rebellious streaks, he mellowed out with time… he was more well-rounded and mature by the time he took the throne.he still had his confidence, but it had quieted out some, grown up from how cocky he was in early life. his people were his greatest priority and his greatest passion; he was very devoted to the welfare of his citizens during his rule, and he was very diplomatic in foreign relations. he strived to create strong ties with foreign powers and to maintain peace.
he felt very “love at first sight” about the woman who would be his wife and queen; he was quite smitten with her from the moment they met, and all the moreso as he got to know her in private. there can be little doubt that the former queen was someone who aldwyn very much considered his equal— openly so, although it was a bit odd, considering the timepoint, and i suppose there may have been some minor rumors about the matter— and that, while their marriage was arranged for political purposes, the two genuinely fell in love with one another. he was a very doting husband and his wife put the stars in his eyes… he was a very affectionate man, and it was very clear to anyone who spoke with him about her that he loved her wholeheartedly!
in regards to his son, jaime, his love ran just as deep as it did for his wife. while the two were very different in a lot of ways, they shared similar interests, and they had a very healthy and strong bond as father and son; there was never a moment where aldwyn was not fiercely proud of jaime, and never a moment where he considered his son to be anything close to a disappointment. while at first his son’s distaste for things like swordplay worried him, he undoubtedly loved jaime all the same, and was very supportive of the areas his son was interested in; in fact, the two bonded over a mutual fascination with history and foreign relations, and he was very proud of his son’s eye for tactical strategy.
it wasn’t uncommon for the king to shirk minor duties in favor of spending time with his son, a somewhat annoying habit for the people who had to deal with it in his stead, but naturally it was only very minor business. spending time with jaime was “more fun”, and while aldwyn was certainly a capable and matured ruler at that point, there were some things that time could never change— like his willful streak and certain aspects of his playful personality.
in terms of his persona as, well, king… solemn business was handled accordingly. he knew when and how to be serious if he needed to be, and when it was necessary, he was capable of whatever he had to do— he was firm, but at all times fair. he valued mercy just as much as he did justice. situations where being so iron faced was not needed… meeting with dignitaries and the like, that sort of thing; he had the polite manners expected of a king at this point, but there was still a lot of personality there.
like, he was very personable! he was a natural with people from his earliest years, it seemed, and that stayed in adulthood. if he was not required to be entirely serious then he certainly wasn’t; he liked to joke, he liked to treat everyone around him— nobles, foreign royalty, castle staff alike— like he considered them a friend, like he really cared about them. and he did. he had a very big heart and was very empathetic towards other people.
he took a genuine interest in other people’s stories, especially about themselves and where they were from. he hated studying growing up but he’d always been curious and loved to learn about people, about the world… but he found books on the subjects to be lackluster compared to first hand accounts! it’s better hearing it from a real person, right?
all in all he was a very… friendly, good-natured man. very much a natural socialite; he was a man who enjoyed his get-togethers, liked to invite foreign nobility to kanto… he wanted to help and was the sort of person who felt deeply when anyone else suffered. tl;dr i think he was a good king !!!! (wow duh)
his wife passing was a struggle, and his health seemed to go fast after that, i think… he loved her so deeply. i think he tried to seem strong for jaime, but it was clear that losing his wife took a great deal from him. i think he handled the loss the same way jaime did, despite their many differences; they both internalized it, but it took a great toll on him, and by the time he himself fell ill and died you could see it just looking at him, that he wasn’t quite what he once was? thinner, paler.
he kept up good relations until his death, but he became much less socially active; not any less polite, or caring for that matter, but simply too tired for parties and traveling and that sort of thing.
he’d be very proud of jaime, i think.
pbbbth still young jaime but post death of his parents
was largely the same, i suppose? he began to withdraw after his mother died birthing his brother-- he was very close to her-- and melancholic, but that's natural... when his father also died, it hit him hard. he withdrew into himself a lot at that point, i think. he had a hard time coping and knowing how to deal with it, but didn't know how to rely on others, either.
begins talking less (he wasn't much of a casual conservationist to begin with, but he would talk with others often enough-- he at least liked to listen-- and would even do so passionately in regard to topics he cared a great deal about) even with the people closest to him. i think he talked the most to oak, though.
uhhh let's see... he's around twelve at this point. considering the time period and his position, he's expected to act strong at this age! he probably does. he carries on as usual but it's clear that he's struggling. i assume this is probably taken as another sign of weakness.
i think he's just shy of thirteen (just past it?) when his uncle decides to Get Rid Of Him. katie says it's a poison plot, so that changes the situation a little bit... well no, not really, but i think at first he has a hard time believing it. if it wasn't oak who saved him he probably WOULDN'T believe it... he was a little naive, i guess, and didn't want to think that his own kin would be capable of turning on him! i mean, i guess no one wants to think that! inside he takes it hard, but it doesn't turn into anger until later.
i'm thinking he assumes that neither freddie or his aunt had any knowledge of it.
oh my god my hc notes are always so messy don't look at me