Thinking about Nexus again.
But more specifically, I'm thinking about how Nexus haunts the narrative.
How Sun still thinks about him and brings him up, only to strangers if vaguely. That he can bond with Dahlia the war veteran about killing your loved ones and his deep sympathy for Zombie Dazzle and a lot of his actions in this arc are informed by Nexus's death.
I'm pretty sure while unspoken the reason he holds back in fights and can't or won't unleash his full power a lot of the time is what happened to Nexus when he did.
And I actually like this a lot and it's a real compelling part of Sun's character.
Same can't be said for Terra.
I know Terra/Earth never appears in the show anymore unless it's to talk about wedding plans and I'm sure the next big appearance will be the actual wedding.
But I find her life so... Weird and kinda sad.
Like she feels she was betrayed by Nexus maybe only mentioned him once in that q&a two years ago in that "hmm well he hurt me, so....." .... Was also disabled by Lunar/Cosmo and he's given like some grace to still hang around her after a time. But I'm pretty sure she didn't bring up Nexus at all in that arc despite that being super relevant. Only to make Sun to force promise he will never hurt her and they won't hurt eachother.
So she feels she was betrayed by her whole family in her mind, and everyone will eventually hurt her, due to unresolved issues with her father is well. And the only ones she can fully trust are Sun and Monty.
Her world has gotten infinitely smaller, and she just hangs around the house baking and working on her wedding and attempting to start her own business and living her tradwife dreams.
Yet she never talks about Nexus.
He's never haunting her narrative despite so many reasons why it should.
He's dead to her. She doesn't think of him.
While she's in communication with Cosmo.
When she casually talks to Titan who is just evil Cosmo/ aka Nexus at home.
Sun suffers and thinks of Nexus often.
Earth/Terra thinks of her wedding and baking and interior design and living the most escapist fantasy life possible. To the point where she doesn't even want to hear news or anything that her family is doing that doesn't involve her directly. Other then the vague idea that Carme and Dahlia are friends of her brothers. Like we have gotten to the point where the family can literally have guests over and Terra will be practicing her pre wedding/meditation yoga which must not be interrupted and more or less not bother to talk to people who aren't her immediate family other than "hi. Bye"
(I'm sure the model was broken or something but it came off as such a bizzare interaction. )
While there is nothing inherently wrong with distancing herself and focusing on herself and I really don't want her to be "woe is me" forever either.
The way she lives her life just screams Trauma victim to me.
I'm not even sure if that's the intention but Earth/Terra has so much complex PTSD from so many things that transpired.
And her avoidant behavior is mainly why I think she doesn't think about Nexus.
She played an essential role in his downfall. Maybe more then Sun, who expresses deep regret and reflection of how it all turned out.
Terra/Earth is constructing a dollhouse made of glass that doesn't allow for any regret or retrospection and has not thought of Nexus in two years.
All she thinks about is how he hurt her when she does.
Not that she confronted him and backed him into a corner before he had ever done anything wrong. Even before he lashed out and called her "not a real therapist" a true statement by the way.
I swear if Sun ever brings up Nexus to her she'll be like "yeah... Unfortunate how that worked out. He just went evil and crazy."
Ignoring the very active role and many factors leading up to everything And her direct involvement and the close bond they once shared.
Anyway, all this to say, it's crazy to me still, two years later, Sun thinks of Nexus very frequently.....
Terra doesn't think about anyone or anything but herself in a way that is a severe trauma response to the point she never wants to get involved in anyones life again.
It's beyond self care at this point.
...yet she's so happy and loving her best life guys. Girly pop. 💅 ✨
