Why does she want to be with me. Everything apparently is always my fault. It's always me that's part of the blame according to the things she says.
She hates my family, hates most of the things I do. Hates most of my friends, doesn't like half if all the things I do in the house. Constantly negatively talks to her friends about me. It's like if I ever meet her friends, I just imagine that they already have this negative connotation about me that it wouldn't matter if I made a good impression or not.
She says she wants to be with me and loves me but I don't feel that. She says she feels disconnected from me and the romance is gone but why am I the one that has to entirely or souly be putting in the romance on my end. Why is it not a two way street.
I truly love her. I truly want to be with her. But I can't stand constantly being thanked for something, then getting shit talked out loud about the things she just thanked me for like are you really thankful?
Shes asked me repeatedly along our relationship whether or not I've ever considered breaking up with her. I've never once thought about that. But what concerns me is constantly asking me the same particular question. Makes me feel as if she's thought about it before.
So I ask myself again. Why does she want to be with me?