Somewhere Out There

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No one fucking cares

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I want to die

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Have you ever wrote a suicide note? A “just in case”. I did tonight.

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I just want to die. There is no reason for me to be here. I’m taking up air that someone else could use. Someone the was here to be loved

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I wish I wouldn’t wake up tomorrow

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What do you do when you are just feeling sad. You can’t tell anyone cause no one cares. They are all in their own little bubble.

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No one would miss me. Mom and dad. But after they are gone no one will notice if I leave the world behind

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I feel alone. I have these 2 guys and they make me feel used and alone and like I’m not worthy of anything. I really wish they would both just leave me alone. Cause I know if they message me I’m going to message back and I don’t want to. I want to disappear

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The days are staring to get unbearable again. Like I just can’t handle it. None of it. I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel like no one cares about me. I’m just so confused on why the fuck am I here.

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I’m tired of being me.

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Chester wouldn’t even come out to see me. 😭😭😭

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I really feel paranoid like impending doom. I took 40mg of Prozac along with my usual meds. I hope that helps enough to at least get me through work tomorrow

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I’m so tired. This world is so crazy. I wished it would end. I’m ready, I don’t care where I end up.

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Going to bed in hopes that you don’t wake up in the morning. That’s where my mind is right now.

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Why can’t a 48 year old single woman with no kids find anyone in this fucking world that wants to spend time with her?

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People never cease to disappoint me. No matter who it is or how long they’ve been in my life.

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I have a lot to be thankful for but I’m still depressed. The weekend is over and I have to go back to being around people