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guys

I just realized I am an actual bi disaster

I am bi, neurodivergent, depressive and suicidal, I have anxiety and ADHD. I wear flannels and cuffed jeans and oversized hoodies.

I mean, I am literally a bi disaster

#shitpost #bisexual #bi mess

today my best friend came out to me.

it was lunch break and we were outside, enjoying the sun and the warm breeze. she stopped talking at a point. she looked at me and I could tell how afraid she was of whatever was about to pass her lips.

she said "I like girls". like that, like it was nothing. but I saw it on her face. it was so terrifying, for her, to tell me her big secret.

I said "oh". like it was nothing. it looked painful to her, like I just slapped her. but what could I have said ?

I said "oh", but that wasn't what I meant.

what I meant was "who did this to you ? who made you ashamed of who you are ? tell me, and I'll kill them on the spot."

what I meant was "it's alright, you're still you, still my best friend." because losing a girl I love over who she loves would be so absurd.

what I meant was "don't worry. I like girls too. I never told you but we're the same."

what I meant was "I hoped you would tell me this one day. I've been in love with you for years."

but I just said "oh", like a coward, and we moved on with our lives.

#writing #short story #wlw

it's my birthday guys. I'm 18. I'm an adult now.

#birthday #adulting

imapursoon

let me pet the forbidden cats goddamn it

imapursoon

HE JUST WANTS A HUG

dianartemis

HUG THE CATOON

finally figured out why the posts only update during at night

im european

you guys are american

time zones

#i know im dumb #very very dumb #sorry

oh my god I actually worked a full week what the hell

#werk werk werk #how

status : obsessed with "we don't talk about Bruno" from Disney encanto

#yeah he sees your dreams #and feasts on your screams #jk he's a cutie

yesterday I stayed on the phone for three hours with a friend. I should have been at a party. but when she called, I decided to answer the phone instead of going.

she told me something that almost made me cry. a year ago, in the same situation I made the same choice. answering the phone. I stayed up all night with her sobbing her heart out. she was suicidal, she called me because she wanted to kill herself.

yesterday wasn't the same. she was laughing at moments because her new puppies were trying to lick her nose (long story). maybe halfway through the conversation, she interrupted me and told me she had someone to introduce. I heard another voice. it was her boyfriend, and he sounded so nice.

she said she was happy. really happy. and I heard it in her voice. she's not the one who cried yesterday.

so trust people when they say it gets better. just hang on a little longer, even if it's not for yourself. even if you survive for a loved one. hang on, because one day you will laugh when your puppies try to lick you, and you will introduce your boyfriend to an old friend, and you will make them cry of joy.

#suicidal thoughts #it gets better

don't you find it funny that, when we're young, we're afraid of things that are not human

and when we grow up, we are afraid of humans themselves

but no matter our age, we are all afraid of things that look vaguely human

#shitpost

getting my driving exam tomorrow.

I'm not fine.

#driving license #adulting

I came back on tumblr a week ago

I saw horse plinko

I left

I came back again

I saw eeby deeby and blorbo from my shows

and I was just there, whispering "what the fuck what the fuck what the fuuuuck" while my mom was looking at me, worrying about my mental state

so congrats, guys. in the span of three days, you managed to horrify me more than my own life (and it's not easy)

#horse plinko #eeby deeby #blorbo from my shows

eeby deeby ?

HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO UNDERSTAND ?

that's it I'm leaving tumblr

why the fuck was I on this website again ? oh right, I wanted to find weird people. guess it's done.

#eeby deeby #wtf is this #help

hey there

I kinda need help

I am non-binary and I currently present as feminine. the problem is that I have long hair and I don't want to cut it, but I'd like to look more androgynous

do you know how I could do that ? I mean, I already wear oversized hoodies and flannel (bisexual aesthetic lmao) but I want people to look at me and think "I don't know their gender but fuck they're hot"

so yeah I need help

#non-binary #lgbtq #androgynous #need help

I have an idea

let's call feminists normal people

and non feminists are now sexists

you're either a normal person or a sexist

how does it sound ?

#feminism

yall need to listen to Jour meilleur by Orelsan

even if you don't understand french

im crying and there's no reason I should be the only one

I mean... "When you have a desert to cross, there's nothing to do except move forward" ? like im not the only one who feels that right ?