yungmoney

people just live.

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

how many horrors hold me hostage

shake and jirate u set my hips to your advantage

do u know what horrors hold me hostage?

this night like every other

a battle through a time that surrounds me like bondage.

yet our two souls hold union like marriage

then you'd pick me up in ur arms till i hover

so though apart i'll seek no lover

i love u like a mother

u hold me like a brother

and i miss u like my father

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

surviving off this daily snicker bar and YES it's almond.

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

can't u see i've collected a long string of facts to nag about us n life and the events between this and then ?

can't u see i've been at war in my brain night and day to convince myself my mind is more than a silly shape and it holds all the seconds of every day to day can't u see i pay i pay ! everyday im mentally fraying

stuck down praying for the news to come. deep down

all i want is for u to come

if u asked me why

youd think im dumb

and ur looking at me

pointing laughing

u say to me can't u see ?

u never mattered to me

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

how many horrors hold me hostage?

shake and jirate u set my hips to your advantage

how many horrors hold me hostage..

this night like every other

a battle through the time that holds like bondage

two souls hold union like marriage

in ur arms u pick me up till i hover

though apart i'll seek no lover

i love u like a mother

u hold me like a brother

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

lost all my connection to what i thought we once had

what i thought i had gathered

it's been months did it matter?

all this talk just sends me backwards

i see u in every dream my reality shatters

every day i wake up empty bed -fuckin battered

lost in a space where i once mastered

using thoughts of you as a measure

to my consistent will to ruin everything i treasured

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

i can barely eat. i eat in one week what people eat in one day. i can barely stomach anything. because i simply don't need food im beyond the laws of man i'm divine. it doesn't make sense how perfect i am then it all comes down to the fact i don't consume like the pigs. the swine and the cattle. i won't eat the meat. i won't eat the flesh. and in my mind is the pearl that grows from ceasing ur greed and gluttony.

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

my body, a malicious canvas

lines I can't erase

man-made and unnatural.

Scars on my skin seep in my heart and I know who stamped them that way

bad girl slim fate,

I happen to misplaced my finger for a blade

hips to my rib cage.

I'm speckled with the tiger paint

White Tiger Saint.

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

will the scars in my skin pass to my kin?

woe the warrior hidden under the fleshiest sin

violence owed for time in this vessel

pay up pay up

blood is issential

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

i love and i love and i love

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

this will pass

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

now i know what i’ve done

this was the shame i’ve felt creeping for years

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

i want to go

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

i hate coming here

i hate being here

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

there is so much guilt

what had i done that was so bad

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

tell me

tell me

tell me

tell me

tell me

tell me

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

I was

I was

I was

[diaryfreecocoamilk]

this will pass