Behind Her Facade

|A female specie born in the year 1997| Dear Diary Sometimes I wonder of this heart, how fast it beats like a dart, how it can make me unease, and how I can't see things it sees.

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*Turns to another page* "That chapter is annoying." *Grunted as she remembered 'who' was the author* 8/7/16

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Must I call it an obscured part of my life? I fell in an ocean's deepest mile, 'cause you have that sweetest aura in a mist, That I can never ever resist. 6/29

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*_*)/ @teamkayecal @kaye_cal Found this randomly in Youtube. ©dhez

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*_*)/ "'cause you're so beautiful..." http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNQ-vtQ1U7i3bWJYzaqdbUt-rRO4zsdXW @teamkayecal #PushAwardsTeamKayeCal

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That chapter of our life story when we suddenly stopped and realized that the path we're walking on isn't the right way to what your heart desires, but then you continue again thinking this is what the people believe in you expect you to do. ➰〰➰ 7/27/16 #PassionInVain

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Mindfulcreation.com 👍

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>_>)/ xD

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The heart is pure and innocent in its own way, and it doesn't choose a perfect love to be happy but accepts all the flaws about love. Simply because our hearts are not even perfectly made to demand. It has no eyes to determine who is the most beautiful or handsome. It has no mouth to speak about what is true and what is right and what's not when it comes to loving a person. But every beat is worthy of a perfectly imperfect true love. (^_^)/ Sa wakas natapos ko na rin. :) Super nakakakilig, nakakainis, at nakakaiyak. Ms. @simply_author Good job po!

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One of the most sincere love stories I've ever read. It is not because it is based on a true story, but it was able to show how a simple love can be so romantic and how someone that's so in love with you won't ever recognize your flaws. It gives hope to anyone who thinks they will never meet their princess or prince charming because of a disability they have. World can be unfair, but it doesn't mean it will always be.

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Para Sayo Na Nasaktan... ko

Monster. witch. bitch. freak. crazy. Contemptible. Despicable. Call me anything you want. I deserve it. I have no pleasant personality. I deserve to be treated like I do not exist. I deserve to be treated as if I am a stranger. I deserve to be treated as if we have not known each other for almost six years now. I deserve to be treated like that by you. I will willingly accept whatever pain or heartaches you’d give to me. I deserve it for treating you so bad. I deserve it for treating you like you’re a nobody to me.

As long as it will ease the pain, even a bit, that I’ve inflicted in you. I will say sorry for many times. I know it won’t change anything, but the idea of making me feel the pain too will at least give you a good feeling. I’ll be accepting whatever harsh words you want to say in front of me, scream them out, shout at me. It’s okay. I deserve it for humiliating you in front of everyone. But if you don’t want to see me, to even talk to me for a while, then I will accept it. Do it; don’t talk to me and ignore me. So my conscience will never stop hunting me. It is okay. I deserve it for giving you so much pain not even knowing that I’ve been hurting you for years now.

If only I could turn back the time… that time when you treated me so well. That time when you did nothing but to help me. That time when I should’ve smiled at you. That time when I should’ve thank you. That time when friendship would’ve been made. Then maybe, just maybe, you wouldn’t have been so cold to me and I wouldn’t have been afraid of you. You wouldn’t have been just a classmate but a good friend and I wouldn’t have lost someone like you. You wouldn’t have been like now and I wouldn’t have been like this; feeling pain for how much my conscience stings. We wouldn’t have been in this situation, treating each other like we haven’t known each other for so long. I should have been friendly and approachable. I should’ve been kind. But instead, I was being snob and harsh not just to you, but to almost everyone. I am not familiar with a surrounding like I have to adjust with everyone. I am always afraid of getting out of my comfort zone, and that is to stay away from the likes of you. I am not a man-hater. It is just that I am always startled, nervous, whenever a guy approaches me. Maybe I am crazy for feeling that way, for acting as if men are beasts and should be avoided and despised. When in fact, I should be the one to be despised. Ridiculous it might seem to be, but that is me; wanting not to be friends with anyone like you. But after knowing what I had done… I am such a heartless beast. I am the one should be called beast. I think I’m a little unwell.

For all the heartache I gave, I can’t even measure the amount of sorriness I feel. I am a fool for not knowing how long I’ve been such a heartless person. And so I deserve to be treated like I am not a human, lifeless ad not living.

Ang manhid ko grabe. Ang tanga kong tao. Ang gaga ko. Napakawalang puso kong tao.

Sorry na po.