Dissociative Dolly

Hello! Welcome to our little slice of life. So far I know of about 7 distinct parts. Polyamorous, pansexual, demi-slut, gender non-conforming, she/her/they.

[ulibeanzz]

when the months keep passing by even though you’re not in the head space to emotionally process them and you realize it is impossible to escape the passage of time

[sweetsteeths]

person: hey you ok?

me, dissociating: 

[thelatestkate]

[punk-hound]

I’ve never related to an image more.

[diddolly]

To the little girl still stuck in that place

You and I don’t really talk. Sometimes you feel more like a shadow or a wisp of smoke. I almost can’t imagine that you and I are one and the same. Not because I don’t see myself in you, or see you in me. No, I can’t imagine we are the same because I left you alone for so long. I didn’t intend to; nor would I have done so if I had a choice. But you were tucked away into the far parts of my mind when being you was far too painful. I know that I’m not as strong as you; and frankly I don’t know if I ever will be. Because you experienced all of that pain. You were the one who had to wake up every morning, and go to that hellhole. The one who endured all of it. And then you got packed away to be forgotten about.

Out of the both of us, you are the strong one. I survived it because of you. Because you lived through it that meant that I did. And you are allowed to feel the pain and the hurt, even now. Because nothing can ever make what happened right. And nothing can ever change that you have to live with those memories. But it’s safer now, and we won’t ever have to go back to that place ever again. You have us there to help guide you, to help you learn to cope with all the sadness and hurt. We are all here supporting you in your process of healing from that place. 

[diddolly]

Dear Cupcake,

It’s been a while since we’ve had the safety and stability to really talk like this. There hasn’t been a lot of time to actually dedicate to giving everyone a safe and reliable space. And I’m sorry about that. Even though its a big part of self care, it’s also a really difficult part of self care. It’s a part of self care that isn’t always safe or possible to set aside a place to give everyone their space. I know that out of everyone you need a lot more time and safe space. And that’s ok, you can need all the safe space you need. 

It’s ok to be afraid of the nightmares, they terrify most everyone. It’s ok to want someone to be that minor safety net; that role in your life of attention and caring giver (but definitely not someone who is going to try and make you seem like a child in the process). It’s ok to attach to the people in our life who give you the warm fuzzy feelings. And it’s ok for those warm fuzzies to be whatever you think fits best. They don’t have to be romantic or sexual fuzzies. They can be platonic or squishy fuzzies. Because everyone deserves those as well. 

We know that things have been really tough in the last couple months. But you are a fighter, just like the rest of us. You are so much stronger than you will ever know. The job you’ve been given isn’t easy, but its a job you do with grace and poise beyond your years. And we are all so proud of you for that. 

[positivepastel]

[didimemethat-blog]

[icecreamsandwichcomics]

Pizza on the mind pizza on the grind

Yo I’m trying out making comics on an iPad Pro. So far so good but sometimes things are a little awkward. Normal things like the undo or save shortcuts. I think I might still be on the fence about it. Will report back with more info.

[mementt0mori-deactivated2020051]

understanding yourself is power.

[eearth-deactivated20180601]

loving yourself is freedom.

[phillymadeleek-deactivated20230]

Forgiving yourself is peace

[miotw-project]

There are 5 types of post-traumatic stress disorder: normal stress response, acute stress disorder, uncomplicated PTSD, comorbid PTSD and complex PTSD.

Normal Stress Response

The normal stress response occurs when someone has been exposed to a discrete traumatic event. They experience intense bad memories, emotional numbing, feelings of unreality, bodily tension and distress. Individuals usually achieve complete recovery within a few weeks.

Acute Stress disorder

Acute stress disorder is characterized by panic, mental confusion, dissociation, severe insomnia, suspiciousness, and being unable to manage even basic self care, work, and relationship activities. Treatment includes immediate support, use of medication and brief therapy.

Uncomplicated PTSD

Uncomplicated PTSD involves persistent reexperiencing of the traumatic event, avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma, and emotional numbing. It may respond to group, cognitive-behavioral, pharmacological, or combination approaches.

Comorbid PTSD

PTSD comorbid with other psychiatric disorders is actually much more common than uncomplicated PTSD. PTSD is usually associated with at least one other major psychiatric disorder such as depression, alcohol or substance abuse, and anxiety disorders. The best results are achieved when both PTSD and the other disorder(s) are treated together rather than one after the other.

Complex PTSD

Complex PTSD (sometimes called “Disorder of Extreme Stress”) is found among individuals who have been exposed to prolonged traumatic circumstances, especially during childhood, such as childhood sexual abuse. These individuals often are diagnosed with borderline or antisocial personality disorder or dissociative disorders. They often exhibit behavioral difficulties, extreme emotional difficulties, and mental difficulties (such as fragmented thoughts, and dissociation). Treatment often takes much longer, and may progress at a much slower rate.

[cptsdvarric]

[didimemethat-blog]

I know someone posted this on their blog (from our facebook page), but here it is again!

[dpdr-dreams]

My shit brain: hey u know what this rare moment of comfortably falling asleep needs?

 Me: dear god don’t, please

 Dissociation: SHAKEY WAKEY, HEADS A’ BREAKY

[antiblackness-archive]

i feel like everybody has potential to change and grow but if you’re an abuser people have the right to remember and know you only as that because that’s part of who you are, and the results of your treatment are apart of who you made your victims become. once you’re abusive you can’t take it back and say “i’ve changed” you literally ruined somebody’s life, to them you’ll always be an abuser and it’s not something you can decide to say you aren’t anymore. you don’t make those calls.

[neurodivergentaf]

teacher: please split into groups of four or five people me and my alters: done that

[penitential]

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