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yeah had so much fun. glad we did it.
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@dietcokemara
om i had such a fun time on our little coffee date last night, thanks for making it happen
-@the1andonlyiris
yeah had so much fun. glad we did it.
nothing is more humbling than gaining the weight back after promising yourself you wld never
is she treating you better? i hope?
for the night, definitely.
oh I WISH.
youre in a hospital bed i'm in her panties
youre sobbing her name she's moaning mine
you went too fast and lost her i'm taking slow and she's loving it.
how's it feel?
#loserexboyfriendmoment
i'll be right there i just gotta find some clothes that don't smell like ranch.
wearing goatshit perfume to pick up a girl isn't exactly what i call sexy.
@sanctuary-terri
Take your time! dont worry:)
i can hit him with a horse tranquilizer if you want.
if that dork won't leave you alone, i'll make sure he's out for at least 3 days to give you some peace.
and also, if you're into women, i'll help you make him jealous. 😈
@sanctuary-terri
I meannnnnnnnn 👀
i'll pick you up tonight if you want with a tranq dart for him and a strap for us if ur into it
btw do you like dogs?
what time we talking?? and yes I love dogs
when are you off? we can get dinner for you while i eat you for supper.
im off in the next hour or so. You dont need to buy my dinner. Im never hungry after work anyways!
oh babes i'll make u hungry after. i'll cook you something good. something a hottie like you deserves. that is if you don't get full on my kisses beforehand
oh wow. im looking very forward to this.
alright, me and zeus will be waiting for u outside PTMC 😉
alright! See you there :)
i can hit him with a horse tranquilizer if you want.
if that dork won't leave you alone, i'll make sure he's out for at least 3 days to give you some peace.
and also, if you're into women, i'll help you make him jealous. 😈
@sanctuary-terri
I meannnnnnnnn 👀
i'll pick you up tonight if you want with a tranq dart for him and a strap for us if ur into it
btw do you like dogs?
what time we talking?? and yes I love dogs
when are you off? we can get dinner for you while i eat you for supper.
im off in the next hour or so. You dont need to buy my dinner. Im never hungry after work anyways!
oh babes i'll make u hungry after. i'll cook you something good. something a hottie like you deserves. that is if you don't get full on my kisses beforehand
oh wow. im looking very forward to this.
i can hit him with a horse tranquilizer if you want.
if that dork won't leave you alone, i'll make sure he's out for at least 3 days to give you some peace.
and also, if you're into women, i'll help you make him jealous. 😈
@sanctuary-terri
I meannnnnnnnn 👀
i'll pick you up tonight if you want with a tranq dart for him and a strap for us if ur into it
btw do you like dogs?
what time we talking?? and yes I love dogs
when are you off? we can get dinner for you while i eat you for supper.
im off in the next hour or so. You dont need to buy my dinner. Im never hungry after work anyways!
oh so now you're the one cheating on him, huh? i mean, get your revenge if you want it girl.
not taking him back so..
i can hit him with a horse tranquilizer if you want.
if that dork won't leave you alone, i'll make sure he's out for at least 3 days to give you some peace.
and also, if you're into women, i'll help you make him jealous. 😈
@sanctuary-terri
I meannnnnnnnn 👀
i'll pick you up tonight if you want with a tranq dart for him and a strap for us if ur into it
btw do you like dogs?
what time we talking?? and yes I love dogs
MY OTP NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
no.
i can hit him with a horse tranquilizer if you want.
if that dork won't leave you alone, i'll make sure he's out for at least 3 days to give you some peace.
and also, if you're into women, i'll help you make him jealous. 😈
@sanctuary-terri
I meannnnnnnnn 👀
what does one do when their son WONT get off the game...???
Stupid Mistakes
@milo-medicine
It was the middle of Maragaret's shifts. She was stationed at one of the desks finishing up some charting she was definitely way behind on, just before one of the nurses told her a patient was looking for her, and specifically her.
"Uh yeah, i'll be right there." She told the nurse as she went about her business probably going to attend to another patient. Maragaret finished up her charting for her last patient as she grabbed the binder the nurse left on the desk for her.
Standing up and making her way to west 14. Opening the door and there was Milo. The same Milo who had tried to sleep with her the nights before while stupidly drunk. The same Milo who she confided in to tell him about her eating problems. The same Milo who compared it to his drinking problems.
He was here, clearly unwell due to the look of him. And was asking for her specifically.
fuck shit life really hated Maragaret didn't it?
Milo was ashamed he was doing this. So ashamed. But he needed to know.
"do you..." he paused.
His voice hurt so so bad. He had sobbed his lungs out the moment he woke up. The past 72 hours coming back to him in one big rush. His emotions overwhelming him to the point where he thought he was going to black out again.
"do you still want me back?" he asked her, not even daring to look at the woman in front of him.
"I did so so many wrong things. I tried to fuck you while I was wasted. I cheated on you. I tried to off myself and didn't even give you a proper goodbye. I broke your trust. Every ounce of it I might have had. I take it nobody even told you I was here?" he said quietly.
His head hurt. His ribs hurt. His voice hurt. His arm hurt. His burns hurt.
He had tried to decline pain medicine. Every fibre of his being knew he deserved this pain. Max had overridden him. Made sure he was dosed up enough to still be conscious but not in the excruciating suffering he deserved.
He had caused so many people so much pain. He at least deserved to feel at least a fraction of the hurt he had caused everyone.
"I'm so sorry." he said quietly, his voice raspy and weak, "Can you ever forgive me? You don't have to take me back. God knows I don't deserve it. I just can't stand to have you mad at me."
He didn't deserve her forgiveness. He had dragged her into his web of sickness and he didn't deserve to even have her hear him to say sorry.
"I know- I know I can never make it better... and I don't deserve your forgiveness, but please. I can't sleep like this."
So, Mara stood there and listened trying to keep a calm expression wondering on if she should take him back or leave him entirely, and to be honest?
She really didn't know. But what she did know was that she hated the way he sounded right now. Sad, and weary. She never wanted him to be that way, ever.
"Milo Im not mad at you." she spoke out stopping him mid sentence. "What you did.. was so fucking stupid and for some reason Im not mad actually Im worried." She spat out as fast as she could, anything to mask the wavering emotions in her voice.
"I can forgive you. But im gonna need time, and space and there's one thing I do know despite all this I still want you. Only you." she spoke rolling her eyes in annoyance as her voice cracked slightly.
She walked closer to the side of the hospital bed, reaching for Milo's hand. "I just want you to be okay, I want us to be okay." She said softly. Her other hand coming up to push his curls back, in a caressing manner. It was a habit of hers. "Moving forward if something's wrong I need you to talk to me. Please?"
Somehow, Milo felt even sicker. how in the hell could she even think she could forgive him. calling them "us."
"i want only you."
fuck.
"mara-" he mumbled. "i'm so sorry."
guilt ate him alive. how could he break it to her. that there was someone else. not different, just.. someone else too.
"i can't even begin to explain myself. but if you'll stay... i can try."
She waited for his answer, reaction
She could tell something was off, something was very wrong.
"I know.. You said it already.." she chuckled, she tried to be at ease but she couldn't help but feel, awkward. detached even. She knew why, she just really hated the reason why.
"Okay.." she nodded. stuffing how she felt down, before she spoke up again. "I feel like you're hiding something Milo."
Milo looked down at his hand, fiddling with a loose thread on the bedsheets. "can.. can you sit?" he asked, shifting his legs to make room on the bed. he needed her close. the chair beside him felt too confrontational.
the bed dipped, her familiar weight putting him at least a little at ease. if he wasn't trapped under blankets he would have put his legs on her. something. anything. he ached to touch her, to hold her, to cry into her shoulders and tell her how damn sorry he was. how sick he felt that he hadn't told her earlier. how he didn't trust himself enough to just ask. to get yelled at and called disgusting and get it over with.
He was so bad at this. he wished he could have just tamped his needs down and went along with everything. it would have all been so much easier. he should have broken quietly instead of... all of this.
but, he let the sickness build. the guilt in his body ate him alive. he had to get it out now, or risk her never understanding.
"do you.." he trailed off, "do you know what being poly is?"
Mara nodded, sitting herself down on the side of the bed, arms folded across her scrubs as she looked towards him.
Looking closely at his expression, and the way his eyes were filled with nothing but guilt. She hated it. and she hated that she so very much hated it.
She just wanted this to have never happened, for him to have never cheated. For him to just talk to her instead of all the stupid things he did.
"Im 24, Milo. Im not stupid," she spoke, "obviously I know what that is."
Milo was taken aback, he wasn't prepared for the hostility, but he knew he deserved it.
"sorry, it's just a lot of people i talk to don't know what it is. it's not exactly the norm, ya know?" he offered her.
"i should have told you that i was. i should have asked before i stupidly assumed that it would have been okay. it doesn't even matter that i was high. cheating is never okay and i know that. fuck, i knew that and i still did it i'm so sorry." he rambled.
"if it makes any difference, i was safe. i know i'm clean, i made sure he was. we were safe about it. we were protected and..." milo trailed off, "i know there's no excuse that can make this better." he muttered.
"it wasn't anything about you if that makes it somehow any better. you're still literally the woman of my dreams i just.."
"i know nothing i can say will make this better."
the guilt ate him alive, he was feeling sicker by the second. maragaret was so gentle with him, how could he have done this. and worse yet, she was still being so gentle. everyone was being so gentle. why wasn't she mad. why wasn't she yelling at him? slapping him across the face like he deserved.
"please.." he begged, eyes welling up with tears at her unreadable expression, "yell at me, hit me, punch me, cry, scream. just do something. please!!!"
"Not surprised." she spoke, cold and distant now. moving past the notion that he was hurt and more on the notion that he cheated.
She sat there for a couple minutes listening to his multiple apologies and pleads of forgiveness. She wanted to feel something, she truly had been through this exact situation, so many fucking times.
"Look, I would've been fine with you being polyamorous, if you had told me. But you didn't. So that changes things." she spoke, letting him speak some more.
"Im not gonna hit you, or scream or yell at you." She said calmly and quietly. "I have work." she spoke standing up making her way to the room door. "All you had to do was TELL me." she added before she left.
"Maragaret wait!" he exclaimed, sitting up way too quick and trying to reach out for her, arm tugging on his IVs. "Maragaret come back!"
But, she still walked away. And he was left all alone.
He had to do something. He couldn't just let her walk away. Walk out of his life. He had to fix this. He had to do something. He didn't care how badly he didn't deserve it, he had to.
He scrambled up, unhooking anything he could, and pulling up the medical tape that kept him connected to his heart monitor. He knew he was going to be in deep shit the second the alarm sounded. He didn't care. He had to fix this.
He got out of his bed as quickly as he could, medicine still in him making him wobbly.
"Maragaret wait-" he called again, grabbing his rolling IV stand with all the strength he had in his one non-broken arm, and getting up as best he could.
He dashed along the floor, grippy socks squeaking as he went as fast as his legs could carry him. It was a pathetic rushed hobble, frantically trying to catch up to the girl who was about to slip away into the elevators and probably leave forever.
He watched her, helplessly inching along, calling for Maragaret as best he could as he scrambled to catch up to her before the elevator doors closed.
He could hear the nurses calling for him to stop, to stand down, get back to his bed before he hurt himself more. But that didn't matter. Nothing mattered. Because nothing could ever hurt as bad as losing Maragaret.
He managed to slip into the elevator right as the doors closed, pressing the "emergency stop" between floors right before his knees could give out in front of her.
He gripped his IV pole helplessly, trying to pull himself back up to face her.
"i couldn't-" he panted, "i couldn't let you leave- not like this."
Mara could hear him following behind her to the best of his abilities.
She could feel him, but she kept walking. She didn't stop, making her way down the hall, walking as fast as she could.
The sound of his voice speaking apologetic 'waits' and yells of her name to slow down.
She almost did, but then the reminder of how he slept with another man came to mind. So she kept walking making her way all the way to the elevator, pressing the floor she was headed to as suddenly, Milo was on his knees in-front of her, his IV pole with him.
"dont act like a fool. Get up, and go back to your room, Milo." she spoke coldly. "I'll page your nurse to come get you." she added practically pushing him out of the elevator as she pressed her floor level.
"Maragaret!" he insisted, digging his bare heels in and holding the grab bar like a lifeline. he pulled himself back in and slammed the "close doors" before using himself as a barrier to the button panel. using all the strength in him to keep himself upright.
"what-" he asked, trying to look her in the eyes, "what can i do to make it up to you. anything. i was trying to come up with something but nothing seemed good enough for you. for what i did."
"please Maragaret." he begged her, "anything at all. if you want me to bring you back the biggest gold nugget from my family's claim and make it into a promise ring i will. i will swim the depths of the ocean to find the finest pearl for you. anything."
she still wouldn't look at him.
"i will eat you out in a broom closet right fucking now if that's what it takes. i will shout my mistake and how fucking wrong it was to the entire ED if you need. i will let you watch someone's grandma hit me in the balls with her cane. anything." he was desperate at this point.
he took his casted arm and grabbed her hand, cold fingers grasping her warm ones.
"please. i need you like i need air. i wasn't intending to breathe again after i fucked him. but since i'm still here i need my oxygen back. i need you."
She scoffed as she turned around to the sight of him, once again begging like he had no sense. And to be honest, she loved it. So she let him plead and beg and whine as much as she wanted.
"Eat me out in a broom closet? Seriously Milo, you couldn't come up with a better place." she scolded as she crossed her arms, rolling her eyes.
"I mean it would be satisfying to watch you get your balls hit." she considered for a good minute.
She watched as he took her hand with his casted one, now it was a little less funny.
"Milo." she spoke the tone she always used when she wanted to persuade him. "Go. back. to. bed."
"the broom closet locks, i don't want you getting in trouble with Gloria," he shrugged. "but if you want i will pull a Chappell Roan knee deep in your passenger seat but that also means you need to smuggle a man on a psych hold out of this hospital without us both getting fired. broom closet was my best idea on short notice since the elevators here have cameras."
"i will literally let someone curb stomp my penis if it means i will get to hold you again." he said as genuinely as he could. "i love you, and i will literally do whatever you want. anything. just say the word. for once in my life there are no self-deprecating jokes here. i ran out of my hospital room and have probably caused at least 12 nurses a heart attack and have just ran past many people with my crack out for you. i am down if you choose humiliation as my punishment. i don't care."
"i promise with all my heart and all my soul and everything i have that i will tell you everything now. like i should have since day one." he whispered to her.
"now please, say something before i get tazed and dragged by my ear back to my room."
She looked at him like he was INSANE. "You're not eating me out Milo! gosh." she rubbed her hand down her face in exhaustion.
And then came him apologizing again and again. but no matter how many he said it, she just couldn't believe him. She wanted to, she did but she couldn't. Max had told her all about the stupid shit he did. She wish he had listened.
But she didn't, now she was stuck here with a man who cheated on her begging on his knees after getting admitted to the hospital from an attempt. Who ever's writing her life story she really someone would take away the pen from them.
"If you loved me you could've told me. Told me that you wanna be open.." she mumbled. "we could've avoided this. I could have avoided what I feel right now!" she spoke her voice rising the emotions due to the situation actually hitting her.
"Im taking you back to your room. And then im gonna go to my next patient, and hopefully you'll leave me alone." she grumbled out, eyes glossy.
"i didn't think i was going to live long enough for it to hurt you. i didn't even think you still cared about me when i did it. i wanted you to hate me so you wouldn't mourn me. so you'd know i deserved it when they told you how they found me. so you'd spend the money i'd left to you without a second thought. so that you could take Erin to Disney or pay your medical school fees." he explained, every last ditch attempt leaving him alarmingly desperate.
"just please. whatever i can do to fix this. but i won't go back to my room until i know i can do something. anything, to make this better. even if it means i run out and buy you a diamond ring i will." Milo begged.
"i can't promise i'll never have feelings for anyone else, but i can promise i will treat you like my one and only. for real this time." he said, voice suddenly much calmer and sincere than his previous nervous rampage.
"i thought i was just a piece of shit for having eyes for others. that's half the reason all this shit happened. i wanted to make sure i couldn't hurt you anymore. which only could make me more of a piece of shit." he held her hand tighter as he could feel his legs start to give out from holding him.
"I won't leave you alone until i can make this better. and then i'm never leaving you. i promise."
"So instead of I dont know breaking up with me you cheated." she spoke coldly. obviously done with him. "no, dont bring my son into this!" she countered. Once again she stood there listening and she spoke on and on about home much he knew what he did was stupid. Every-time he did she just wanted to get away from him.
"No. I dont need that, I dont need you to beg and plead. I want you to leave me alone. I want you focus on yourself and get better because the least you need right now is a relationship." She said feeling him grip her hand tighter.
"You can make this better by going back to your room and getting the help you need." she spoke softly, looking down at him with pity and a mix of anger. "I have to get to work."
Stupid Mistakes
@milo-medicine
It was the middle of Maragaret's shifts. She was stationed at one of the desks finishing up some charting she was definitely way behind on, just before one of the nurses told her a patient was looking for her, and specifically her.
"Uh yeah, i'll be right there." She told the nurse as she went about her business probably going to attend to another patient. Maragaret finished up her charting for her last patient as she grabbed the binder the nurse left on the desk for her.
Standing up and making her way to west 14. Opening the door and there was Milo. The same Milo who had tried to sleep with her the nights before while stupidly drunk. The same Milo who she confided in to tell him about her eating problems. The same Milo who compared it to his drinking problems.
He was here, clearly unwell due to the look of him. And was asking for her specifically.
fuck shit life really hated Maragaret didn't it?
Milo was ashamed he was doing this. So ashamed. But he needed to know.
"do you..." he paused.
His voice hurt so so bad. He had sobbed his lungs out the moment he woke up. The past 72 hours coming back to him in one big rush. His emotions overwhelming him to the point where he thought he was going to black out again.
"do you still want me back?" he asked her, not even daring to look at the woman in front of him.
"I did so so many wrong things. I tried to fuck you while I was wasted. I cheated on you. I tried to off myself and didn't even give you a proper goodbye. I broke your trust. Every ounce of it I might have had. I take it nobody even told you I was here?" he said quietly.
His head hurt. His ribs hurt. His voice hurt. His arm hurt. His burns hurt.
He had tried to decline pain medicine. Every fibre of his being knew he deserved this pain. Max had overridden him. Made sure he was dosed up enough to still be conscious but not in the excruciating suffering he deserved.
He had caused so many people so much pain. He at least deserved to feel at least a fraction of the hurt he had caused everyone.
"I'm so sorry." he said quietly, his voice raspy and weak, "Can you ever forgive me? You don't have to take me back. God knows I don't deserve it. I just can't stand to have you mad at me."
He didn't deserve her forgiveness. He had dragged her into his web of sickness and he didn't deserve to even have her hear him to say sorry.
"I know- I know I can never make it better... and I don't deserve your forgiveness, but please. I can't sleep like this."
So, Mara stood there and listened trying to keep a calm expression wondering on if she should take him back or leave him entirely, and to be honest?
She really didn't know. But what she did know was that she hated the way he sounded right now. Sad, and weary. She never wanted him to be that way, ever.
"Milo Im not mad at you." she spoke out stopping him mid sentence. "What you did.. was so fucking stupid and for some reason Im not mad actually Im worried." She spat out as fast as she could, anything to mask the wavering emotions in her voice.
"I can forgive you. But im gonna need time, and space and there's one thing I do know despite all this I still want you. Only you." she spoke rolling her eyes in annoyance as her voice cracked slightly.
She walked closer to the side of the hospital bed, reaching for Milo's hand. "I just want you to be okay, I want us to be okay." She said softly. Her other hand coming up to push his curls back, in a caressing manner. It was a habit of hers. "Moving forward if something's wrong I need you to talk to me. Please?"
Somehow, Milo felt even sicker. how in the hell could she even think she could forgive him. calling them "us."
"i want only you."
fuck.
"mara-" he mumbled. "i'm so sorry."
guilt ate him alive. how could he break it to her. that there was someone else. not different, just.. someone else too.
"i can't even begin to explain myself. but if you'll stay... i can try."
She waited for his answer, reaction
She could tell something was off, something was very wrong.
"I know.. You said it already.." she chuckled, she tried to be at ease but she couldn't help but feel, awkward. detached even. She knew why, she just really hated the reason why.
"Okay.." she nodded. stuffing how she felt down, before she spoke up again. "I feel like you're hiding something Milo."
Milo looked down at his hand, fiddling with a loose thread on the bedsheets. "can.. can you sit?" he asked, shifting his legs to make room on the bed. he needed her close. the chair beside him felt too confrontational.
the bed dipped, her familiar weight putting him at least a little at ease. if he wasn't trapped under blankets he would have put his legs on her. something. anything. he ached to touch her, to hold her, to cry into her shoulders and tell her how damn sorry he was. how sick he felt that he hadn't told her earlier. how he didn't trust himself enough to just ask. to get yelled at and called disgusting and get it over with.
He was so bad at this. he wished he could have just tamped his needs down and went along with everything. it would have all been so much easier. he should have broken quietly instead of... all of this.
but, he let the sickness build. the guilt in his body ate him alive. he had to get it out now, or risk her never understanding.
"do you.." he trailed off, "do you know what being poly is?"
Mara nodded, sitting herself down on the side of the bed, arms folded across her scrubs as she looked towards him.
Looking closely at his expression, and the way his eyes were filled with nothing but guilt. She hated it. and she hated that she so very much hated it.
She just wanted this to have never happened, for him to have never cheated. For him to just talk to her instead of all the stupid things he did.
"Im 24, Milo. Im not stupid," she spoke, "obviously I know what that is."
Milo was taken aback, he wasn't prepared for the hostility, but he knew he deserved it.
"sorry, it's just a lot of people i talk to don't know what it is. it's not exactly the norm, ya know?" he offered her.
"i should have told you that i was. i should have asked before i stupidly assumed that it would have been okay. it doesn't even matter that i was high. cheating is never okay and i know that. fuck, i knew that and i still did it i'm so sorry." he rambled.
"if it makes any difference, i was safe. i know i'm clean, i made sure he was. we were safe about it. we were protected and..." milo trailed off, "i know there's no excuse that can make this better." he muttered.
"it wasn't anything about you if that makes it somehow any better. you're still literally the woman of my dreams i just.."
"i know nothing i can say will make this better."
the guilt ate him alive, he was feeling sicker by the second. maragaret was so gentle with him, how could he have done this. and worse yet, she was still being so gentle. everyone was being so gentle. why wasn't she mad. why wasn't she yelling at him? slapping him across the face like he deserved.
"please.." he begged, eyes welling up with tears at her unreadable expression, "yell at me, hit me, punch me, cry, scream. just do something. please!!!"
"Not surprised." she spoke, cold and distant now. moving past the notion that he was hurt and more on the notion that he cheated.
She sat there for a couple minutes listening to his multiple apologies and pleads of forgiveness. She wanted to feel something, she truly had been through this exact situation, so many fucking times.
"Look, I would've been fine with you being polyamorous, if you had told me. But you didn't. So that changes things." she spoke, letting him speak some more.
"Im not gonna hit you, or scream or yell at you." She said calmly and quietly. "I have work." she spoke standing up making her way to the room door. "All you had to do was TELL me." she added before she left.
"Maragaret wait!" he exclaimed, sitting up way too quick and trying to reach out for her, arm tugging on his IVs. "Maragaret come back!"
But, she still walked away. And he was left all alone.
He had to do something. He couldn't just let her walk away. Walk out of his life. He had to fix this. He had to do something. He didn't care how badly he didn't deserve it, he had to.
He scrambled up, unhooking anything he could, and pulling up the medical tape that kept him connected to his heart monitor. He knew he was going to be in deep shit the second the alarm sounded. He didn't care. He had to fix this.
He got out of his bed as quickly as he could, medicine still in him making him wobbly.
"Maragaret wait-" he called again, grabbing his rolling IV stand with all the strength he had in his one non-broken arm, and getting up as best he could.
He dashed along the floor, grippy socks squeaking as he went as fast as his legs could carry him. It was a pathetic rushed hobble, frantically trying to catch up to the girl who was about to slip away into the elevators and probably leave forever.
He watched her, helplessly inching along, calling for Maragaret as best he could as he scrambled to catch up to her before the elevator doors closed.
He could hear the nurses calling for him to stop, to stand down, get back to his bed before he hurt himself more. But that didn't matter. Nothing mattered. Because nothing could ever hurt as bad as losing Maragaret.
He managed to slip into the elevator right as the doors closed, pressing the "emergency stop" between floors right before his knees could give out in front of her.
He gripped his IV pole helplessly, trying to pull himself back up to face her.
"i couldn't-" he panted, "i couldn't let you leave- not like this."
Mara could hear him following behind her to the best of his abilities.
She could feel him, but she kept walking. She didn't stop, making her way down the hall, walking as fast as she could.
The sound of his voice speaking apologetic 'waits' and yells of her name to slow down.
She almost did, but then the reminder of how he slept with another man came to mind. So she kept walking making her way all the way to the elevator, pressing the floor she was headed to as suddenly, Milo was on his knees in-front of her, his IV pole with him.
"dont act like a fool. Get up, and go back to your room, Milo." she spoke coldly. "I'll page your nurse to come get you." she added practically pushing him out of the elevator as she pressed her floor level.
"Maragaret!" he insisted, digging his bare heels in and holding the grab bar like a lifeline. he pulled himself back in and slammed the "close doors" before using himself as a barrier to the button panel. using all the strength in him to keep himself upright.
"what-" he asked, trying to look her in the eyes, "what can i do to make it up to you. anything. i was trying to come up with something but nothing seemed good enough for you. for what i did."
"please Maragaret." he begged her, "anything at all. if you want me to bring you back the biggest gold nugget from my family's claim and make it into a promise ring i will. i will swim the depths of the ocean to find the finest pearl for you. anything."
she still wouldn't look at him.
"i will eat you out in a broom closet right fucking now if that's what it takes. i will shout my mistake and how fucking wrong it was to the entire ED if you need. i will let you watch someone's grandma hit me in the balls with her cane. anything." he was desperate at this point.
he took his casted arm and grabbed her hand, cold fingers grasping her warm ones.
"please. i need you like i need air. i wasn't intending to breathe again after i fucked him. but since i'm still here i need my oxygen back. i need you."
She scoffed as she turned around to the sight of him, once again begging like he had no sense. And to be honest, she loved it. So she let him plead and beg and whine as much as she wanted.
"Eat me out in a broom closet? Seriously Milo, you couldn't come up with a better place." she scolded as she crossed her arms, rolling her eyes.
"I mean it would be satisfying to watch you get your balls hit." she considered for a good minute.
She watched as he took her hand with his casted one, now it was a little less funny.
"Milo." she spoke the tone she always used when she wanted to persuade him. "Go. back. to. bed."
"the broom closet locks, i don't want you getting in trouble with Gloria," he shrugged. "but if you want i will pull a Chappell Roan knee deep in your passenger seat but that also means you need to smuggle a man on a psych hold out of this hospital without us both getting fired. broom closet was my best idea on short notice since the elevators here have cameras."
"i will literally let someone curb stomp my penis if it means i will get to hold you again." he said as genuinely as he could. "i love you, and i will literally do whatever you want. anything. just say the word. for once in my life there are no self-deprecating jokes here. i ran out of my hospital room and have probably caused at least 12 nurses a heart attack and have just ran past many people with my crack out for you. i am down if you choose humiliation as my punishment. i don't care."
"i promise with all my heart and all my soul and everything i have that i will tell you everything now. like i should have since day one." he whispered to her.
"now please, say something before i get tazed and dragged by my ear back to my room."
She looked at him like he was INSANE. "You're not eating me out Milo! gosh." she rubbed her hand down her face in exhaustion.
And then came him apologizing again and again. but no matter how many he said it, she just couldn't believe him. She wanted to, she did but she couldn't. Max had told her all about the stupid shit he did. She wish he had listened.
But she didn't, now she was stuck here with a man who cheated on her begging on his knees after getting admitted to the hospital from an attempt. Who ever's writing her life story she really someone would take away the pen from them.
"If you loved me you could've told me. Told me that you wanna be open.." she mumbled. "we could've avoided this. I could have avoided what I feel right now!" she spoke her voice rising the emotions due to the situation actually hitting her.
"Im taking you back to your room. And then im gonna go to my next patient, and hopefully you'll leave me alone." she grumbled out, eyes glossy.
erin's been playing fortnite for the past TWO HOURS. he will NOT be quiet. actually help me.