In My Other World

All photographs by  Ekaterina Ksendzova (Dieversa) © Experimental, dreamy & hazy - shoegazy photography https://www.flickr.com/photos/dieversa/ https://www.instagram.com/_dieversa/ https://www.facebook.com/Dieversa

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"You see a sign It comes to you And whatever you say It was in his eyes

A raging fire That says "see me" That says "I need To feel the love""

♪: The House of Love - Feel

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"… You have to fly around the world all day To keep the sun upon your face I'd like to come and comfort you But I'd be blinded by the blue …" ♪: Lush - I Have the Moon

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"A flower falls from heaven Through a doorway to this world Into a world of sorrows Comes a face so pale Our lady of the wild flowers Stretches out her hands Our lady of the wild flowers Mend this broken land Our lady of the wild flowers Her tears fall from the sky Out lady of the wild flowers A love that will never die"

♪: Sol Invictus - Our Lady Of The Wild Flowers

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"It's better to burn out than to fade away."

♪:  Neil Young

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"Silence may be as variously shaded as speech." Edith Wharton

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“In what language does rain fall over tormented cities?” Pablo Neruda

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Heavenward

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“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” Plato

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Faded memories of a vanishing city.

A city that opened its arms to everyone. A city that knew how to surprise and delight. Consolation, tranquillity, vitality, a kaleidoscope of senses, warmth – a blend of feelings, emotions and the breathtaking salty sea air. It was only recently, and yet so long ago.

It's now a city where your love for long walks comes at the price of removing glass shards from your soles and getting asthma attacks from the constant fires. A city with downcast eyes – shattered windows, ruined balconies. A city covered by scars from constant russian attacks. 

A city burying its inhabitants, covering them with a quilt knitted from broken bulfdngs, tears, bricks, pain and dust.

Odesa, Ukraine 2026

[dieversa]

“When you're in the muck you can only see muck. If you somehow manage to float above it, you still see the muck but you see it from a different perspective. And you see other things too. That's the consolation of philosophy.” David Cronenberg

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4 years in hell, 12 years in limbo

Ukraine

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“I suppose I have found it easier to identify with the characters who verge upon hysteria, who were frightened of life, who were desperate to reach out to another person. But these seemingly fragile people are the strong people really.” ― Tennessee Williams

[dieversa]

"Here we go They're back again Look alive, warn your friends We are warm And we are safe Enjoy it while you can Before things change..."

♪: The Organ - Brother

Several days without electricity, running water, or heating. Minus 10 outside, plus 10 inside.

Massive drone strikes and destruction in my neighbourhood, freezing rain, sunless days, and the acrid smell of smoke from burned buildings. Ice mixed with shards of glass on the streets. January 2026 in Odesa will be remembered for a long time.

Several days without electricity, running water, or heating. -10°C outside, +10°C inside.

Massive drone strikes and destruction in my neighbourhood, freezing rain, sunless days, and the acrid smell of smoke from burned buildings. Ice mixed with glass on the ground. January 2026 in Odesa will be remembered for a long time.

One cannot get used to war.

[dieversa]

Soft You can feel Pale You will see Sad No one feels Taciturn Between breaths

10/01/2026

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A photo from a past life. 2005. Back then, we weren't expecting threats from the sky and were able to enjoy fireworks.

Memories are fading, as if it never happened, but mind tries to bring out the bright bits.

Happy New Year and Merry Christmas from Odesa, Ukraine, under the daily air bomb attacks.

Fire walk with me.

[dieversa]

"… And we always have to go, I realize We always have to say goodbye Always have to go back to real lives But real lives are the reason why We want to live another life We want to feel another time Another time Another time …"

"Out of This World" by the Cure R.I.P. Perry Bamonte 🖤