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The Rules of The Game {Beau Maxwell x Dean's little sister/Beau's best friend!reader} Part 6
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Summary: Dean Di Laurentis' little sister needs a fake boyfriend. Beau Maxwell needs to stop being in love with said little sister and his best friend. Pretending should've been easy. Until fake kisses start feeling real.
Warnings: none
You avoided Beau for exactly thirty-six hours.
Not intentionally.
At least, that was what you kept telling yourself.
You had classes.
He had practice.
You had an assignment due.
He had meetings with his coaches.
You were busy.
He was busy.
There was absolutely nothing suspicious about the fact that every time his name appeared on your phone, you stared at it for a minimum of thirty seconds before deciding whether you could emotionally handle responding.
Completely normal.
BEAU: Coffee?
You'd replied seventeen minutes later.
YOU: Class.
Technically true.
Your class started in forty-five minutes.
BEAU: Lunch?
YOU: Assignment.
Also technically true.
The assignment wasn't due until next week.
BEAU: Dinner?
You stared at that one for so long that another message appeared.
BEAU: Are you avoiding me?
Your stomach dropped.
You immediately typed.
YOU: No??
You stared at the question marks.
Deleted one.
Sent it.
His reply came instantly.
BEAU: Convincing.
You frowned.
YOU: I'm busy.
BEAU: You haven't been too busy for me in three years.
Well.
Fuck him for knowing you.
YOU: Maybe I finally got a life.
BEAU: Proud of you princess.
You smiled despite yourself.
Then remembered why you were avoiding him.
The football tunnel.
His forehead kiss.
Your almost-kiss.
The phone call at one in the morning.
I've liked someone for a while.
A year?
Yeah.
Do I know her?
Very well.
That conversation had been playing on an endless loop inside your head ever since.
You knew her.
That was the problem.
You knew Beau's friends.
You knew most of the girls he spent time with.
You knew his teammates' girlfriends, his classmates, people from parties, people from Dean's circle.
Somewhere amongst all those women was apparently somebody Beau Maxwell had quietly wanted for more than a year.
And you hated her.
Which was psychotic.
You didn't even know who she was.
But you hated her.
A lot.
Because she had something you suddenly, inexplicably wanted.
His attention.
Except—
You already had his attention.
That was somehow worse.
You had so much of it that you'd never realised it could belong to someone else.
Beau was the person you called when your car made a weird noise.
The one who knew when you were lying about being okay.
The person who would leave poker night for a fucking Crunchwrap.
He answered when you called at one in the morning.
He remembered your exams.
Your food orders.
Your headaches.
Which movies you'd already seen so he wouldn't spoil them.
He automatically walked on the outside of the pavement when you were together.
And now there was some girl out there who he wanted.
What happened when he finally got her?
Did she get all those things?
Did you lose them?
The thought made your chest tighten.
You hated that too.
Your phone buzzed again.
BEAU: Seriously. You okay?
Your expression softened.
Of course he knew.
YOU: Yeah. Promise.
Three dots.
BEAU: You'd tell me if you weren't?
You hesitated.
Then:
YOU: Always.
That lie felt worse than the others.
You made it until Friday.
Then Dean ruined everything.
As older brothers tended to do.
You were stretched across Dean and Allie's couch with your laptop balanced on your stomach, supposedly working on an essay while Allie watched some reality show and Dean stood in the kitchen attempting to cook.
Attempting being the important word.
"Is something burning?"
Allie didn't even look away from the television.
"Probably."
You sniffed.
"Definitely."
Dean appeared in the doorway holding a spatula.
"Nothing is burning."
Smoke drifted behind him.
You pointed.
"The kitchen disagrees."
"It's steam."
"It's black."
"Dark steam."
Allie finally looked over.
"Dean."
"I have it under control."
A smoke alarm began shrieking.
You and Allie looked at each other.
Dean swore.
Five minutes later, the windows were open despite the freezing temperature, Dean's dinner was in the trash and Allie was ordering pizza.
You pulled Dean's blanket tighter around yourself.
"You're going to kill someone one day."
"I can cook."
"You set pasta on fire last year."
"That wasn't my fault."
"You forgot the water."
"There were mitigating circumstances."
"What circumstances could possibly mitigate forgetting water when boiling pasta?"
Dean opened his mouth.
Paused.
"Alcohol."
"That's not better."
The front door opened.
"Smells good."
Your entire body stiffened.
No.
Absolutely not.
Beau walked in carrying his football bag over one shoulder.
He kicked the door shut behind him.
"Di Laurentis, what'd you burn?"
"My dignity."
"Again?"
Beau rounded the corner.
His eyes landed on you.
He stopped.
You suddenly became incredibly interested in your laptop.
"Hey."
You looked up as casually as possible.
"Hey."
His eyes narrowed.
You knew that look.
He knew.
He knew you were being weird.
Beau dropped his bag near the door.
"What are you doing here?"
You frowned.
"My brother lives here."
"Fair."
"What are you doing here?"
"Your brother invited me."
You slowly turned toward Dean.
Dean was suddenly extremely interested in his phone.
"Dean."
"Hm?"
"You invited Beau?"
"Yeah."
"Why?"
Dean looked confused.
"For pizza?"
"We've eaten pizza together approximately eight hundred times."
"Exactly."
You stared at him.
He stared back.
Fucking traitor.
Beau sat in the armchair opposite the couch.
His eyes were still on you.
"Nice to see you too."
"I didn't say it wasn't."
"You've ignored me all week."
"I haven't ignored you."
"You declined coffee, lunch and dinner."
"I've been busy."
"You told me you were reorganising your email inbox."
Dean snorted.
You glared at Beau.
"That needed doing."
"Apparently urgently."
"It was chaos."
"You had eleven emails."
"Eleven too many."
Allie was looking between you now.
Far too interested.
Dean had the audacity to smile.
Beau leaned back.
"Fine."
"Fine."
"Glad we cleared that up."
"Me too."
Silence.
Allie slowly reached for the remote and lowered the television volume.
You looked at her.
"Don't."
"What?"
"Whatever you're doing."
"I'm watching TV."
"You just turned it down so you could hear us argue."
She smiled.
"No, I didn't."
Dean dropped onto the couch beside her.
"You absolutely did."
"You're worse."
"I know."
You closed your laptop.
"I'm going home."
"No."
All four of you went silent.
You looked at Beau.
He apparently hadn't meant for the word to come out that quickly.
His jaw shifted.
"I mean..."
He rubbed his palms against his jeans.
"It's late."
"It's nine-thirty."
"It's dark."
"I know how darkness works."
"I'll drive you."
"I walked here."
"Exactly."
Your eyebrows pulled together.
"Exactly what?"
Beau looked frustrated.
"You know what."
You did.
The guy.
The reason this entire mess had started.
"I haven't seen him since the game."
"Good."
"So I'm fine."
"I know."
"Then why—"
"Because you don't like walking alone at night anyway."
The argument died.
Because he was right.
Again.
Annoyingly.
You looked away.
"Fine."
Beau relaxed almost imperceptibly.
Dean watched the entire exchange like he was at Wimbledon.
Your head snapped toward him.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"Stop looking at us."
"I'm looking at my living room."
"Look somewhere else."
Dean turned his entire body toward Allie.
"Better?"
"You're an asshole."
"Love you too."
Pizza arrived twenty minutes later.
You ended up sitting on the floor because Dean took up half the couch and refused to move.
Beau sat beside you.
Because naturally the universe hated you.
His knee brushed yours every few minutes.
Every single time, you noticed.
You'd never noticed before.
That was the frustrating thing.
You and Beau had spent countless nights exactly like this.
Football games.
Movies.
Takeout.
Study sessions.
His leg touching yours hadn't been an event before.
Now it felt like somebody setting off a tiny electrical current beneath your skin.
You shifted.
His eyes flicked over.
You ignored him.
Two minutes later, your knees touched again.
You shifted farther away.
Beau frowned.
A few minutes passed.
Then Dean stretched his legs out, taking even more room.
You shuffled sideways.
Directly against Beau.
His shoulder pressed to yours.
You closed your eyes.
Fuck your brother.
Beau leaned closer.
"You okay?"
His voice was quiet enough that Dean and Allie couldn't hear.
"Fine."
"You keep moving away from me."
"I don't."
"Princess."
"Don't."
He went still.
Something in your voice apparently landed differently than you'd intended.
Beau moved away.
Immediately.
Not dramatically.
Just enough space between you that you were no longer touching.
Guilt punched you in the chest.
You looked over.
He was staring at the television now.
His expression blank.
"Beau."
"Hm?"
"I didn't mean—"
"It's okay."
"No."
You lowered your voice.
"I didn't mean don't touch me."
He finally looked over.
"Then what did you mean?"
You didn't know.
That was the entire problem.
You couldn't exactly say:
Please stop touching me because I've suddenly become painfully aware of every part of your body and also I'm irrationally jealous of an imaginary woman who may or may not exist in this room.
So you settled for:
"I'm tired."
Beau studied you.
You knew he didn't believe you.
But, like always, he didn't push.
"Okay."
Your chest tightened.
Without thinking, you shifted back.
Your shoulder rested against his.
Beau looked down at the contact.
Then at you.
You kept your eyes on the TV.
After several seconds, his arm stretched along the back of the couch behind you.
Not touching.
Just there.
An option.
You hated how much that tiny gesture affected you.
Eventually, you leaned back.
Into him.
Beau's arm came around your shoulders.
Slowly.
Carefully.
Like he was giving you every opportunity to change your mind.
You didn't.
By eleven, Allie was asleep against Dean.
Dean looked down at her.
His entire face softened.
It happened every time.
You'd spent years making fun of him for how embarrassingly in love with her he was.
He'd never cared.
If anything, he got worse.
Dean gently tucked a strand of hair away from Allie's face.
Beau noticed you watching.
"Cute."
You looked at him.
"Don't tell Dean I said this, but yeah."
"I heard that."
Dean didn't look away from Allie.
"Fuck."
He smiled smugly.
You rolled your eyes.
Beau laughed.
Dean carefully shifted.
"I'm taking her upstairs."
"That sounds sinister."
"She's asleep."
"Still."
Dean flipped Beau off.
Then looked at you.
"You staying?"
"No. Beau's taking me home."
Dean's gaze flicked to Beau.
For half a second, you saw the look.
The one they exchanged when they thought you weren't paying attention.
You narrowed your eyes.
"What?"
Both men answered simultaneously.
"Nothing."
Suspicious.
Very suspicious.
Dean lifted Allie carefully.
She barely stirred.
"Lock the door when you leave."
"Yes, Dad."
"Don't call me that."
Beau coughed.
You glared at him because you knew exactly what he was thinking.
Dean looked between you.
"What?"
"Nothing," you said quickly.
He frowned before carrying Allie upstairs.
The second he disappeared—
Beau started laughing.
"Don't."
"Did you tell Dean about the daddy thing?"
"No!"
"Good."
"If you ever do, I'll kill you."
"Noted."
"Beau."
He held up his hands.
"Secret's safe."
The house became quiet.
Too quiet.
The television was still playing but neither of you were watching anymore.
Beau stood.
"Ready?"
You nodded.
Then glanced outside.
Snow.
A lot of snow.
You hadn't noticed it starting.
"Shit."
Beau walked toward the window.
"It wasn't supposed to hit until tomorrow."
"You can still drive, right?"
He looked at the road.
Snow was already settling.
"Yeah."
He sounded uncertain.
That made you nervous.
Beau Maxwell was never uncertain behind a wheel.
Your phone buzzed.
Dean.
Despite being literally upstairs.
DEAN: Roads are shit. Don't drive.
You frowned.
YOU: You're upstairs.
DEAN: Windows exist.
Another message.
DEAN: Stay here. Beau can take guest room.
You showed Beau.
He stared at the screen.
Then toward the ceiling.
"Your brother has incredible timing."
"What?"
"Nothing."
You shrugged.
"I guess we're staying."
Beau looked at you.
"Guess so."
There was only one problem.
Dean had lied.
There was no guest room.
Technically, there had been a guest room.
Apparently Dean had turned it into a home gym two weeks ago.
You stood in the doorway staring at the treadmill now occupying the space where the bed used to be.
"He's fucking kidding."
Beau stood behind you.
"Could sleep on the treadmill."
"You'd roll off."
"Good core workout."
You turned.
"The couch?"
"Easy."
You frowned.
"That couch is tiny."
"I'll survive."
"Beau, you're six-three."
"Six-two."
"You tell everyone six-three."
"Football roster says six-three."
"Are you admitting the roster lies?"
"Don't spread that around."
You smiled.
Beau's expression softened when he saw it.
And suddenly you were back in the kitchen.
You're avoiding me.
Your smile faded.
"Are you mad at me?"
His eyebrows pulled together.
"What?"
"For this week."
He leaned against the doorframe.
"Do you want me to be?"
"No."
"Then no."
"You should be."
"Why?"
"Because I was weird."
"You've always been weird."
"Beau."
His smile disappeared.
"I don't know what happened."
You swallowed.
"I just..."
You looked down at your hands.
"Something feels different."
Silence.
You immediately regretted saying it.
When you looked up, Beau was completely still.
"Different how?"
Your heart started beating harder.
"I don't know."
"Okay."
"I mean, nothing actually changed."
"No."
"We're still us."
"Yeah."
"But now everyone's looking at us like we're..."
You gestured between you.
"A couple?"
"Yeah."
"Because we're pretending to be one."
"I know."
"And?"
You exhaled.
"And sometimes I forget."
The words were barely above a whisper.
Beau's eyes sharpened.
"Forget what?"
"That we're pretending."
There.
You'd said it.
Neither of you moved.
You could hear the faint hum of the treadmill.
Snow tapping against the window.
The television downstairs.
Beau's voice was quieter when he spoke.
"Is that why you've been avoiding me?"
"Maybe."
He looked away.
For some reason, that hurt.
"I can back off."
Your stomach dropped.
"What?"
"If it's getting confusing."
"No."
Again, too quick.
Beau looked back.
"I don't want you to back off."
"Then what do you want?"
You didn't have an answer.
Or maybe you did.
You just couldn't say it.
Instead, your eyes travelled over his face.
The scar near his eyebrow.
The curve of his nose.
His mouth.
You'd thought about that mouth an embarrassing amount this week.
Especially after the tunnel.
Beau noticed.
Of course he did.
His breath changed.
Your eyes met again.
"You keep doing that."
Your voice came out smaller than intended.
"Doing what?"
"Looking at my mouth."
His jaw tightened.
"You keep looking at mine."
Touché.
You swallowed.
"We almost kissed."
"Twice."
"You noticed."
His mouth twitched.
"Hard not to."
"Why didn't you?"
That erased the smile.
Beau stared at you.
"Why didn't I what?"
"Kiss me."
His expression became unreadable.
"Because you didn't ask me to."
Your heart slammed against your ribs.
"You needed permission?"
"With you?"
He gave a tiny shrug.
"Always."
That answer nearly destroyed you.
Beau Maxwell, who could be arrogant and obnoxious and stupidly confident about almost everything, had stood there twice with you practically leaning into him and hadn't moved because you hadn't explicitly told him he could.
"Rule one," he reminded quietly.
No kissing unless absolutely necessary.
Right.
The stupid rules.
You almost laughed.
Instead you asked:
"What counts as absolutely necessary?"
Beau went very still.
"Don't."
Your eyebrows knitted together.
"What?"
"Don't ask me that unless you know why you're asking."
The air shifted.
Your mouth went dry.
For the first time since this began, Beau looked genuinely unsettled.
Not nervous.
Not flustered.
Scared.
"Why?"
"Because this isn't a game for me."
You froze.
Beau closed his eyes for half a second.
Like he'd said too much.
"What does that mean?"
"Nothing."
"No."
You stepped closer.
"You can't say that and then say nothing."
He pushed away from the doorframe.
"I mean you're my friend."
"Okay."
"And this matters to me."
"The fake relationship?"
"You."
Everything inside you went quiet.
Beau stared at you.
"You matter to me."
His voice was steady now.
"If I kiss you because we're pretending, fine. I can deal with that."
You weren't entirely convinced.
"But if you ask me to kiss you because you're confused or curious or jealous or whatever this is..."
His eyes searched yours.
"...I'm not doing that."
You felt strangely exposed.
"You think I'm jealous?"
"I think you spent twenty minutes interrogating me about a girl I liked."
Your cheeks heated.
"That doesn't mean—"
"You hated Lauren."
"Lauren was annoying."
"Lauren said four sentences."
"Four annoying sentences."
Despite everything, Beau's mouth twitched.
You folded your arms.
"Fine."
"Fine?"
"Maybe I was a little jealous."
Beau stopped breathing.
There.
That felt terrifyingly honest.
You looked down.
"I didn't like her touching you."
Nothing.
"I didn't like her texting you."
Still nothing.
"And I really don't like the idea of you liking someone else."
Your throat tightened.
"I know that's unfair."
"Princess."
"No, let me finish."
Because if you stopped now, you'd never get it out.
"I know you're not actually my boyfriend."
The sentence hurt.
"I know this is fake and that when it's over you can date whoever you want."
Beau's jaw tightened.
"But every time I think about that..."
You pressed a hand against your stomach.
"I hate it."
Silence.
You finally looked up.
Beau was staring at you like you'd just changed the gravity in the room.
"Say something."
He gave a breathless laugh.
"I don't know what you want me to say."
"Anything."
"You're making this incredibly fucking difficult."
Your brows furrowed.
"Why?"
He laughed again.
No humour this time.
"Jesus Christ."
He dragged a hand through his hair.
"Because you're standing there telling me you're jealous while wearing my sweatshirt."
You looked down.
You were.
You hadn't even realised.
His Briar Football sweatshirt.
The one from the party.
You'd put it on before going to Dean's.
"Oh."
"Yeah."
"Does that bother you?"
"No."
His answer came immediately.
"That's the problem."
Another piece clicked into place.
Not enough to understand.
Enough to make your pulse race.
"Beau..."
He stepped backward.
"We should sleep."
"What?"
"You can take Dean's room."
"Dean is in Dean's room."
"Right."
He looked briefly confused.
You almost laughed.
"You're panicking."
"I'm not panicking."
"You forgot where Dean sleeps."
"I'm tired."
"That's my excuse."
"Borrowing it."
You stepped toward him.
He stepped back.
Your eyes widened.
"Are you avoiding me now?"
"Yes."
The honesty surprised you.
"Why?"
"Because I have self-control."
"What does that have to do with—"
"Everything."
Your heart pounded.
"Beau."
"Go downstairs."
"Why?"
"Because I am trying very hard to be a good person."
Your mouth almost fell open.
"Beau Maxwell."
"Princess."
"Tell me what the hell is going on."
He stared at you.
You stared back.
Something snapped.
Not dramatically.
Not loudly.
It was just there one second—
And gone the next.
Beau crossed the tiny space between you.
He stopped directly in front of you.
Not touching.
Close enough that you could feel the heat of him.
"Do you really want to know?"
You swallowed.
"Yes."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
His eyes searched yours.
One final chance.
Then he said:
"The girl."
Your brows pulled together.
"What girl?"
"The one you keep asking about."
Your heart stopped.
Beau's expression was almost pained now.
"You wanted to know who she was."
You couldn't breathe.
"Beau—"
"It's you."
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Enemy Blood {Garrett Graham x twin sister} Part 20
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Summary: Twelve years ago, Y/N Graham ran away and left her twin brother behind. Now she's back, wearing their dead mother's name on her jersey—and Garrett is about to learn that some wounds don't heal just because you stop talking about them.
Warnings: angst, twin sibling drama, hockey rivalry, family trauma, estranged siblings, garrett graham deserves a headache, reader chooses violence, eventual sibling reconciliation
The problem with distractions was that eventually they ended.
By three that afternoon, Dean had complained about losing at least seventeen times, Y/N had showered, changed, eaten half of the lunch Tucker practically forced into her hands, and the ache in her wrist had settled into something manageable.
For a while, she had still felt good.
Loose.
Tired in the way she used to feel after practice, when her body had done enough work that her brain finally shut up.
Then her phone rang.
The prosecutor's office.
And just like that, she was back in it.
Y/N sat at the kitchen table with the phone pressed to her ear while everyone else attempted very badly to pretend they weren't listening.
Garrett stood at the counter.
Dean sat opposite her with an ice pack pressed dramatically against his shoulder despite having no injury whatsoever.
Tucker was cooking.
Logan had a textbook open but hadn't turned a page in five minutes.
"Tomorrow?" Y/N repeated.
Garrett's head lifted.
She looked at him.
"Yeah. No, that's fine."
It wasn't.
"Ten works."
A pause.
"Will he be there?"
Garrett went completely still.
Y/N listened.
Her fingers tightened around the phone.
"Okay."
Another pause.
"Thank you."
She ended the call.
Nobody spoke.
Y/N put her phone face down.
Dean looked around the room.
"So are we pretending we weren't listening, or—"
"Dean," Garrett warned.
"What? I'm establishing expectations."
Y/N rubbed her forehead.
"The prosecutor wants us tomorrow."
Garrett abandoned the counter.
"Us?"
"You and me."
"What for?"
"Trial preparation."
His expression changed.
"When?"
"Ten."
"I'll drive."
Y/N looked at him.
He caught himself.
"Would you like me to drive?"
Despite everything, she smiled.
"Yes."
"Great. Progress."
She leaned back.
"They're going to walk us through the courtroom."
Garrett pulled out the chair beside her.
"Okay."
"And..."
She looked towards the window.
"Phil won't be there."
The entire room seemed to breathe again.
Dean lowered the ice pack.
"That's good."
"Yeah."
Y/N nodded.
"Good."
Garrett watched her.
She hated that he had become so good at doing that.
Reading everything she didn't say.
"What?"
"You don't sound relieved."
"I am."
"Okay."
She narrowed her eyes.
"That was very therapist of you."
"I've been learning."
"Stop."
"No."
Dean pointed between them.
"This is why I challenged her, by the way."
Garrett looked over.
"What?"
"That."
"What?"
"The staring."
"I'm not staring."
"You've been looking at her for six consecutive minutes."
Y/N nodded.
"It's unsettling."
Garrett leaned back.
"Fine."
He deliberately turned his head towards Tucker.
Tucker glanced over his shoulder.
"Don't stare at me either."
Y/N laughed.
Garrett looked at her automatically.
Dean threw the ice pack at him.
"For fuck's sake."
Detective Ellis called twenty minutes later.
That one wasn't about the trial.
Y/N almost wished it had been.
She took the call upstairs.
Not because she was hiding anything.
Because she needed five minutes without four men watching her face every time her phone vibrated.
She sat on the edge of Garrett's bed.
"Hello?"
"Y/N. It's Detective Ellis."
"Hi."
"I wanted to update you before this information comes through the prosecutor."
Y/N immediately knew she wasn't going to like whatever came next.
"What happened?"
"We've completed another search of your father's storage unit."
Y/N frowned.
"I didn't know he had one."
"Neither did we until Officer Meyers provided the location."
Of course.
Another place.
Another collection of secrets Phil Graham thought nobody would ever find.
"What was inside?"
There was a pause.
"Primarily personal belongings."
"Whose?"
"Yours."
Y/N stopped.
"What?"
"And Garrett's."
She stood without realising it.
"What do you mean?"
"School records. Clothing. Photographs. Some childhood possessions."
Y/N stared towards the bedroom door.
"Why?"
"We don't know."
"No. That doesn't make sense."
Phil threw things away.
That was what he did.
He destroyed things when they stopped serving him.
Claire's clothes.
Y/N's artwork.
Garrett's broken trophies.
Anything that represented a moment he couldn't control.
"There's something else," Ellis said.
Y/N sat back down.
"Of course there is."
"We recovered a number of letters."
Her stomach dropped.
"What letters?"
"Some appear to have been written by Garrett."
Everything inside her went silent.
"When?"
"Beginning shortly after you left."
Y/N couldn't breathe.
"Written to who?"
Ellis's voice softened.
"You."
Garrett knew something was wrong the second Y/N came downstairs.
He stood before she reached the bottom step.
"What happened?"
She didn't answer.
Her face had gone completely blank.
Not pale.
Not frightened.
Blank.
Garrett had learned that was worse.
"Y/N?"
She looked at him.
"Did you write to me?"
Garrett froze.
Everyone else disappeared from the room.
"What?"
"After I left."
His mouth went dry.
"Did you write letters?"
Y/N watched the answer arrive on his face.
"You did."
Garrett looked towards the others.
Tucker understood first.
"Come on."
He grabbed Dean by the shoulder.
"What?"
"Out."
"But—"
"Dean."
For once, Dean didn't argue.
Logan followed.
Within seconds, Garrett and Y/N were alone.
Garrett slowly sat down.
"Where did you hear about the letters?"
"Ellis."
His face changed.
"They found them?"
"At Dad's storage unit."
Garrett looked like she'd punched him.
Y/N remained near the stairs.
"How many?"
"I don't know."
"Garrett."
"I don't know."
"How many did you write?"
He rubbed both hands over his face.
"A lot."
"What does that mean?"
"I don't fucking know, Y/N. Fifty? A hundred?"
Her lips parted.
"One hundred?"
"I wrote for years."
She stared at him.
Garrett looked down.
"I stopped sending them eventually."
"Sending them?"
He looked up.
Y/N's voice cracked.
"You sent them?"
"Of course I sent them."
"Where?"
"Everywhere."
She took a step backwards.
"I didn't have an address."
"I know."
"So where did you send them?"
"Social services. The police station. The foster agency Dad said had your case. I sent some to Mom's cousin because I thought maybe you'd contacted her."
Garrett stood.
"I emailed schools. Hockey programmes. I gave letters to anyone who said they might know where you were."
Y/N shook her head.
"No."
"What?"
"I never got anything."
"I know."
"You don't know."
"Yes, I do."
His voice broke.
"Because you never answered."
She stared at him.
For twelve years, one certainty had survived everything else.
Garrett hadn't come.
He hadn't looked.
He had stayed with Phil and moved on.
It had been easier to hate him for that.
Apparently it had also been a lie.
"Why did Dad have them?"
Garrett laughed once, bitterly.
"You know why."
Y/N's stomach turned.
"He intercepted them."
"Probably."
"How?"
"I don't know."
"Meyers?"
"Maybe."
Y/N started pacing.
"He kept them."
Garrett watched her.
"He kept every fucking one."
"Maybe not every one."
"Don't."
She stopped.
"Don't make this smaller."
"I'm not."
"He knew."
Her voice rose.
"He knew you were trying to find me."
Garrett's jaw tightened.
"Yeah."
"He told me you weren't."
"I know."
"He told me you were happy."
"I wasn't."
"He said you told police I was unstable."
"I never said that."
"He said you didn't want to see me."
"I wanted you every fucking day."
Silence.
The words hung between them.
Garrett looked almost horrified that he'd said them.
Y/N's eyes burned.
She looked away.
"Fuck."
Garrett crossed the room.
He stopped before reaching her.
"What did he tell you?"
She shook her head.
"Y/N."
"No."
"Tell me."
"Why?"
"Because I need to know."
"Why?"
"So I can tell you what was true."
That stopped her.
Garrett's voice became quieter.
"Please."
Y/N folded her arms around herself.
"He said you blamed me."
Garrett's face crumpled.
"For Mom."
"No."
"I know that now."
"No."
He stepped closer.
"Even then. No."
"He said you told him you wished I'd been the one who died."
Garrett physically recoiled.
"What?"
Y/N's tears came instantly.
She hated them for it.
Hated that after all this time the words still had enough power to hurt.
"He said—"
"No."
Garrett closed the distance between them.
"I never said that."
"I know."
"I never thought that."
"I know."
"Not once."
Her face twisted.
"Garrett, I know."
He stopped.
Y/N wiped angrily beneath her eyes.
"But I was fifteen."
The anger left him.
She looked so tired.
"I was fifteen, and Mom was dead, and I was sleeping in a house with people I didn't know. And the only person who'd known me my whole life wasn't there."
Garrett's eyes filled.
"So when Dad found me that first time and told me you hated me, I believed him."
Garrett went completely still.
"What?"
Y/N realised what she'd said.
Too late.
"Found you?"
She looked away.
"Y/N."
"Don't."
"He found you?"
"It was years ago."
"After you ran?"
"Yes."
"When?"
She didn't answer.
Garrett's voice sharpened.
"When?"
"About six months later."
His face drained.
"What happened?"
"Nothing."
"Bullshit."
"He didn't hurt me."
"That's not what I asked."
Y/N closed her eyes.
Garrett forced himself to lower his voice.
"What happened?"
She sat on the bottom stair.
Garrett stayed where he was.
"He waited outside school."
"What school?"
"One of the placements."
"How did he find you?"
"I never knew."
Meyers, probably.
Or someone else.
There was always someone else.
"He was standing across the road," Y/N continued. "I thought I was imagining him."
Garrett felt sick.
"He didn't come near me until I was alone."
"Jesus Christ."
"He said he wanted to take me home."
Garrett's hands curled into fists.
"I told him no."
"What did he do?"
"He cried."
Of course he did.
"He said he was sorry. Said everything had fallen apart after Mom died."
Y/N stared at the floor.
"Then he started talking about you."
Garrett couldn't move.
"He said you were doing really well without me. Your hockey was better. Your grades were better."
Her mouth twisted.
"He said the house was peaceful."
Garrett's eyes closed.
"I was barely sleeping."
"I know that now."
"I got suspended twice."
Y/N looked up.
"What?"
"I punched a kid because he made a joke about Mom."
Garrett swallowed.
"I nearly got kicked off the team because I stopped going to practice."
Phil hadn't told her any of that.
Of course he hadn't.
"He said you didn't ask about me anymore."
"I asked every day."
Y/N covered her mouth.
Garrett's voice broke.
"Every fucking day."
He sat on the floor opposite her.
For a while, neither spoke.
Then Y/N whispered, "I wanted to call you."
"Why didn't you?"
"He gave me your number."
Garrett frowned.
"My number never changed."
"I know."
"Then why—"
"He told me you'd asked him not to give it to me."
Garrett stared.
Y/N laughed through her tears.
"He said if I called, you'd change it."
"Jesus."
"So I kept it."
"What?"
"The number."
She looked embarrassed now.
"I memorised it."
Garrett couldn't speak.
"Every time I got a new phone, I put you in my contacts."
His throat tightened painfully.
"Under what?"
Y/N gave a watery smile.
"Asshole."
Garrett laughed.
It came out broken.
"Fair."
"I never pressed call."
"I wish you had."
"I know."
He leaned his head against the stair railing.
"We were such fucking idiots."
"We were children."
The words came easily this time.
Their mother's words.
Garrett looked at her.
"Yeah."
They had been.
Not stupid.
Not cruel.
Children.
Detective Ellis arranged for them to collect the letters that evening.
Technically, they remained evidence.
The originals couldn't leave police custody.
But the investigators had scanned every page.
Two boxes waited in the interview room when Garrett and Y/N arrived.
Y/N stopped in the doorway.
Garrett nearly walked into her.
"Oh."
He stared too.
There were more than either expected.
Far more.
The detective stood beside the table.
"Some were opened."
Garrett's jaw tightened.
"By him?"
"We believe so."
"And the rest?"
"Sealed."
Y/N approached slowly.
The first letter sat inside a clear evidence sleeve.
Garrett recognised his own handwriting immediately.
Messy.
Angry.
Fifteen years old.
Across the front:
Y/N GRAHAM
Then underneath, crossed out so aggressively the paper had nearly torn:
Y/N WILKINSON
Y/N touched the plastic.
"You knew."
Garrett stood beside her.
"I heard Dad tell the police you were using Mom's name."
She looked at him.
"I thought maybe if I addressed it to Wilkinson, you'd be more likely to get it."
Y/N swallowed.
Detective Ellis quietly left the room.
The twins didn't notice.
Y/N picked up the scanned copy.
"Can I?"
Garrett's expression changed.
"You want to read it?"
"It's mine."
"Yeah."
He looked terrified.
That almost made her smile.
"What?"
"I was fifteen."
"So was I."
"I was dramatic."
"You still are."
"I probably said embarrassing shit."
"Definitely reading it now."
Garrett groaned.
Y/N unfolded the copy.
The handwriting was barely legible.
She recognised it anyway.
Garrett had always written like he was angry at the pen.
She began.
Y/N,
Dad says you don't want anyone to know where you are. I don't believe him.
Her throat tightened.
Garrett looked at the floor.
I don't know if this is going to get to you. The woman at the police station said she would try. Dad says I'm embarrassing myself and that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.
Y/N stopped.
"Garrett."
"Keep going."
She looked at him.
His jaw was clenched.
So she did.
I'm really fucking mad at you.
A tiny laugh escaped her.
Garrett rubbed his face.
"Told you."
Y/N continued.
I'm mad you left. I'm mad you didn't wake me up. I'm mad you took Mom's necklace because I wanted it too. I'm mad that I keep waking up because I think I heard you in the hallway.
Her voice cracked.
Garrett turned away.
But if you're scared to come home, don't.
Y/N stopped breathing.
The room blurred.
She blinked hard enough to clear it.
I don't think you should come back here.
Garrett stared at the wall.
I know I'm supposed to tell the police Dad doesn't hurt me because that's what he told me to say. I don't know what you told them. I don't care.
Y/N pressed her fingers against her lips.
Just tell me you're alive.
She couldn't continue.
Garrett turned.
Y/N was crying.
Not quietly.
Not politely.
The page shook between her hands.
He moved closer.
She held up one finger.
"Wait."
Garrett stopped.
She needed to finish.
You don't have to tell me where you are. I won't tell Dad. I swear.
Her knees felt weak.
She sat.
I just need to know you're okay.
Then, beneath it:
I hate you.
Crossed out.
Underneath:
I don't hate you.
Crossed out again.
Then:
I'm trying to hate you because it's easier.
Y/N laughed through a sob.
"Sounds familiar."
Garrett's eyes filled.
The final lines were shorter.
Mom would be pissed at us.
Please write back.
Gare.
Y/N lowered the letter.
For several seconds, there was nothing.
Then she looked at the date.
Four days after she ran.
Four days.
She had spent twelve years believing Garrett had chosen Phil before she'd even reached the bus station.
Four days after she disappeared, her brother had already been trying to tell her not to come back if coming back meant she wasn't safe.
Y/N placed the page carefully on the table.
"There's another."
Garrett looked at the boxes.
"There's a lot."
She picked up the next one.
Three days later.
Y/N,
Still nothing.
Another.
The police lady says they can't tell me where you are because Dad's my guardian. That doesn't make sense.
Another.
I scored twice today. You'd say the second shouldn't count because it went off someone else's skate. It counts. Don't be annoying.
Another.
Dad threw away your coat. I got it back. It's in my closet.
Y/N stopped.
She looked at him.
"The red one?"
Garrett nodded.
"You kept it?"
"For years."
"What happened to it?"
"I took it to college."
Her mouth fell open.
"It's at the hockey house."
"What?"
"In the back of my wardrobe."
"Garrett."
"I didn't know what else to do with it."
Y/N laughed softly.
Then cried harder.
They kept reading.
Not every letter.
There were too many.
But enough.
Garrett at sixteen.
Got my licence. You would've hated being in the car with me.
Garrett at seventeen.
Got into Briar.
Then:
Dad says you're probably not playing anymore. He's an idiot. I bet you're better than me now.
Y/N smiled.
"Correct."
Garrett rolled his eyes.
"Debatable."
Another.
I saw someone today who looked like you. Followed her for three blocks before I realised she was like thirty. Almost got arrested.
Y/N laughed so loudly Detective Ellis glanced through the window.
Garrett looked offended.
"It wasn't funny."
"You followed a thirty-year-old woman?"
"From behind she looked like you."
"At sixteen?"
"She had your hair."
"You're insane."
"I was desperate."
Her smile disappeared.
"So was I."
The last letter they read had been written during Garrett's freshman year at Briar.
The handwriting was neater.
Not much.
But enough to see he was older.
Y/N,
I think this is the last one.
Garrett went still.
Y/N looked at him.
"You stopped?"
"After that."
"Why?"
He didn't answer.
She read.
I don't know if any of these got to you. I don't know if you're throwing them away or if someone else is.
I hope it's the second one.
Y/N closed her eyes.
That sounds shitty because it means someone is keeping them from you, but the other option means you read them and don't want me.
Garrett sat beside her.
I don't think I can keep doing this.
Y/N's tears returned.
I'm starting college tomorrow.
Everyone keeps telling me this is where my life starts.
Feels weird starting it without you.
She covered her mouth.
Garrett looked down at his hands.
I'm going to keep the same number.
Just in case.
Y/N broke.
The letter fell into her lap.
Garrett caught her before she folded completely forward.
She grabbed the front of his shirt.
"I had it."
He held her.
"I know."
"I had your number."
"I know."
"The whole time."
"I know."
"I'm sorry."
Garrett pulled back.
"No."
"But—"
"No."
He held her face between his hands.
"You don't apologise for being scared."
She stared at him.
"You don't apologise either."
His expression broke.
Y/N leaned forward until their foreheads touched.
"We stop."
Garrett nodded.
"We stop."
No more tally.
No more deciding who had failed harder.
No more fifteen-year-old versions of themselves standing between the people they had become.
After a while, Y/N sat back.
She wiped her face.
"Can we get copies of all of them?"
Garrett looked through the glass towards Detective Ellis.
"I think so."
Y/N nodded.
"I want them."
"You sure?"
She looked at the boxes.
"No."
Then she smiled faintly.
"But they're mine."
Garrett smiled too.
"Yeah."
"They always were."
It was nearly midnight when they returned to the hockey house.
Everyone else had gone to bed.
Someone had left the hallway light on.
Y/N kicked off her shoes.
Then she noticed something.
Her key.
The silver key Tucker had given her was no longer sitting alone on her ring.
Garrett's fingers appeared beside it.
He was holding another key.
Older.
Brass.
Y/N frowned.
"What?"
"Come upstairs."
"That sounds ominous."
"It isn't."
She followed him.
Garrett opened his wardrobe.
Reached behind two jackets.
Then pulled something out.
Red.
Faded.
Small.
Y/N stopped breathing.
Her coat.
The red winter coat she'd left hanging beside the front door the night she ran.
Garrett held it awkwardly.
"I told you."
Y/N stared.
"You actually kept it."
"Yeah."
She reached out.
Her fingers touched the sleeve.
The material was worn.
One button was missing.
Her mother had sewn her initials inside the collar because Y/N kept losing things at school.
They were still there.
Y.W.
Not Graham.
Wilkinson.
Claire had always labelled her things with her own maiden name because there had been three Grahams in the house and, according to her, someone has to make life interesting.
Y/N pressed the coat against her chest.
Garrett watched.
"I found it in the trash can the morning after Dad threw it away."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
He gave her a look.
"You weren't answering my letters."
"Right."
She laughed softly.
Then her fingers found something in the pocket.
Paper.
Garrett frowned.
"I didn't put anything in there."
Y/N pulled it out.
An old photograph.
The twins at maybe ten.
Garrett missing one front tooth.
Y/N holding a hockey stick nearly as tall as she was.
Claire behind them with both arms around their shoulders.
Y/N turned it over.
Their mother's handwriting covered the back.
Only one sentence.
My favourite team. Always.
Garrett read it over her shoulder.
Neither spoke.
They didn't need to.
Y/N walked to the desk.
The trial papers were still there.
She looked at them for a moment.
Then gathered them into one pile.
Closed the folder.
And put her mother's photograph on top.
Garrett leaned against the desk.
"No more tonight?"
"No more tonight."
"Good."
She looked at him.
"Tomorrow's going to suck."
"Probably."
"I'm going to be horrible."
"Definitely."
"I might panic."
"Okay."
"I might change my mind about testifying."
"Okay."
She frowned.
"You'll really be okay with that?"
Garrett didn't hesitate.
"Yeah."
"What if you testify and I don't?"
"Then I testify and you don't."
"What if Dad thinks he won?"
"I don't give a fuck what Dad thinks anymore."
Y/N stared at him.
Garrett nodded towards the photograph.
"Mom said we don't have to save each other."
Her throat tightened.
"So tomorrow, you do whatever you need to do."
"And you?"
"Same."
She nodded.
"Okay."
Garrett started towards the door.
Y/N caught his sleeve.
"Gare."
He turned.
She looked at the old red coat.
Then at the copies of the letters they had brought home.
"I would've answered."
Garrett's face softened.
"If you'd got them?"
"Every one."
He smiled.
"Even the angry ones?"
"Especially the angry ones."
"What would you have said?"
Y/N thought about fifteen-year-old Garrett writing I hate you and crossing it out because even furious and grieving, he couldn't quite make himself lie.
Her mouth curved.
"Probably that your second goal didn't count."
Garrett stared at her.
"You bitch."
Y/N laughed.
He grabbed her around the shoulders, pulling her into his side.
She went willingly.
"I missed you," Garrett muttered.
She rested her head against him.
"I know."
He squeezed her.
Y/N smiled.
"And for the record?"
"What?"
"I was definitely better than you at seventeen."
Garrett released her immediately.
"Get out of my room."
"Our room."
He stopped.
Y/N froze too.
Then Garrett smiled.
"Yeah."
He turned off the desk lamp.
"Our room."
And for once, the words didn't scare either of them.
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Tiny Librarian {John Logan x reader} Part 54
Masterlist
Summary: You were stranded at the library in the pouring rain, the last shuttle bus had left just as you got there, you text your brother, Garrett Graham, if he could pick you up after practice. You'll never guess who he sends instead.
Warnings: none
The next day, you did go back to the library alone.
And the day after that.
By the end of the week, it had stopped feeling like something worth mentioning.
That might have been your favourite part.
There had been a time when every step you took without Logan or Garrett beside you felt like an event. A milestone everyone wanted to celebrate. You understood why. They were proud of you. You were proud of yourself too, sometimes.
But there was something exhausting about every ordinary thing becoming evidence that you were healing.
Sometimes you didn't want to be brave.
Sometimes you just wanted to be late for class because you'd slept through your alarm.
You wanted to complain because the library printer had eaten five dollars of your credit.
You wanted to forget your umbrella and get soaked on the way back to your dorm.
You wanted bad days that had absolutely nothing to do with Ryan.
And slowly, almost without you noticing, those days started appearing.
—
On Friday morning, you woke up furious.
Not scared.
Not panicked.
Furious.
Your alarm hadn't gone off.
Your phone had apparently updated overnight, which meant you woke forty-three minutes later than intended with your hair looking like you'd been electrocuted and twelve minutes until your first lecture.
"Oh, fuck."
You threw the blankets back.
Your phone showed three messages from Logan.
Logan: morning ❤️
Logan: you alive?
Then, seven minutes later:
Logan: assuming you're asleep and not murdered because I am emotionally healthy now
You stared at that one.
Despite the rush of panic about class, a laugh escaped you.
You: OVERSLEPT
His reply appeared while you were trying to put a sock on.
Logan: ah
Logan: tragedy
You: THIS ISN'T FUNNY
Logan: do you need a ride?
You stopped.
For half a second, the old thought appeared.
Yes.
Let him come.
It would be easier.
Then you looked at the time.
His practice started in twenty minutes.
You could make it yourself.
Probably.
You: no go to practice
Logan: sure?
You: YES
Logan: okay shouty
You shoved your phone into your bag, brushed your teeth while trying to find the missing sock, abandoned the sock entirely and grabbed another pair.
Seven minutes later, you were running across campus with your coat half buttoned and your bag bouncing painfully against your hip.
There was no time to check behind you.
No time to inspect parked cars.
No time to wonder if someone had been standing outside your dorm.
You were too busy trying not to fail because your professor had an attendance policy designed by Satan.
When you slid into the lecture theatre exactly thirty seconds before the door closed, you were sweaty, breathless and incredibly annoyed.
Your friend beside you stared.
"What happened to you?"
"My phone betrayed me."
She nodded sympathetically.
"Horrific."
"I nearly died."
"You look like you did."
You glared at her.
She smiled and pushed a coffee towards you.
You accepted it.
Halfway through the lecture, you realised something.
You had run across campus.
Alone.
You hadn't thought about Ryan once.
Not until that exact moment.
You stared down at your notebook.
Then smiled.
Your friend leaned closer.
"Why are you smiling?"
You immediately looked serious.
"Nothing."
"Weirdo."
You nudged her under the desk.
The professor looked over.
Both of you stared innocently forward.
And just like that, Ryan left your thoughts again.
—
Logan found out about the morning at lunch.
Not because you told him.
Because your friend apparently knew someone who knew Dean, and information moved through Briar University's social network at a speed that should've been studied by scientists.
You walked into the student union and found Logan already sitting at a table with Garrett, Tucker and Dean.
The second Logan saw you, he grinned.
"Heard you went for a run this morning."
You stopped.
"Who told you?"
Dean held up his phone.
"I have sources."
"You have no life."
"Also true."
You dropped into the empty chair beside Logan.
Garrett pushed a packet of crisps towards you.
"You eat breakfast?"
You gave him a look.
He immediately lifted both hands.
"Suggestion."
You smiled faintly.
"No."
"Then eat."
"That sounded like an order."
"Would you like to eat?"
"Better."
Garrett rolled his eyes, but there was a smile beneath it.
You opened the crisps.
Logan leaned closer.
"Did you actually run the whole way?"
"Mostly."
"You're five-two. That's like twice the steps."
You slowly turned towards him.
His grin widened.
"You've started this again."
"What?"
"The height jokes."
"I've always made height jokes."
"You stopped for months."
"Yeah."
Something about his expression changed.
Only slightly.
You noticed.
"Why?"
Logan shrugged.
"You were dealing with enough."
Your hand paused halfway into the crisp packet.
He said it casually.
Like it was obvious.
Like somewhere along the way he'd gone through his entire personality and quietly removed anything that might make your life slightly harder.
Your chest tightened.
"You didn't have to do that."
"I know."
There it was again.
That answer.
I know.
Not obligation.
Choice.
You looked at him for a moment.
Then reached into the crisp packet and threw one at his forehead.
He recoiled.
"What the fuck?"
"You're annoying."
"I just said something nice."
"You were getting smug."
"I was being emotionally vulnerable."
"You called me short thirty seconds ago."
"Both can exist."
Dean nodded gravely.
"Human beings contain multitudes."
Tucker stared at him.
"You learned that phrase last week and you've used it fourteen times."
"It's a good phrase."
Garrett reached across the table and stole one of your crisps.
You slapped his hand.
"Get your own."
"I'm your brother."
"That isn't a legal entitlement to my food."
"It should be."
The argument devolved quickly.
Within two minutes, Garrett and Logan were debating whether sibling rights extended to food theft while Dean attempted to establish a fictional legal precedent and Tucker quietly stole crisps from everyone.
You sat in the middle of them.
Laughing.
Not thinking about whether the exit was behind you.
Not checking who had entered the room.
Not wondering if someone was watching from another table.
Just laughing because Dean had declared himself an expert witness on snacks.
You realised it.
Then deliberately didn't dwell on it.
You wanted to keep laughing.
So you did.
—
That evening, Logan had a game.
You nearly didn't go.
Not because you were scared.
Because you had an assignment due Monday and you'd made approximately no progress beyond opening the document and writing the title.
Logan stared at you from your dorm-room doorway like you had personally betrayed him.
"You're not coming?"
"I have work."
"You've seen me play hockey approximately forty thousand times."
"Exactly."
He put a hand over his heart.
"You don't find it magical anymore?"
"The magic disappeared around game twelve."
"Unbelievable."
You continued typing.
Logan stayed in the doorway.
You could feel him staring.
Eventually, you looked up.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You're pouting."
"I'm processing rejection."
"You'll survive."
"I might not."
You smiled.
"Go play hockey."
He sighed dramatically.
Then walked over.
"Can I have a kiss for emotional support?"
You looked at him.
"You are the most emotionally supported man on campus."
"Still fragile."
You grabbed the front of his jacket and pulled him down.
His smile disappeared the second your lips met his.
The kiss was brief.
Soft.
When you pulled away, Logan stayed close.
"One more?"
"You'll be late."
"Worth it."
"No."
"Cruel."
You returned to your laptop.
Logan started towards the door.
Then stopped.
"Hey."
You glanced up.
"I love you."
It still did something to you every time.
Less shocking now.
No less meaningful.
You smiled.
"Love you too."
He stared.
"What?"
"You said it casually."
Your eyebrows pulled together.
"So?"
"I like it."
Your expression softened.
"Good."
Logan smiled.
Then disappeared through the door.
A second later, his head reappeared.
"Sure you don't want to come?"
"LOGAN."
"Leaving!"
You heard him laughing as he walked down the hallway.
Your dorm door closed.
You turned back to your assignment.
The room was quiet.
You were alone.
And you were fine.
—
You lasted forty minutes.
Not because you became frightened.
Because writing an essay on eighteenth-century economic policy was apparently more painful than death.
You stared at the screen.
Then at the clock.
Then back at the screen.
"Fuck this."
You saved the document.
Pulled on a Briar hoodie.
And left.
—
The second period had just started when you entered the arena.
You hadn't told anyone you were coming.
That made it more fun.
The stands were packed, but you found an empty space near Hannah and Allie.
Hannah looked up.
"I thought you weren't coming."
"I was studying."
Allie stared at you.
"And?"
"I chose happiness."
"Good girl."
You laughed and sat down.
The arena was loud.
Really loud.
A few months ago, the crowd would've been enough to make you tense.
Tonight, it was just noise.
You looked towards the ice.
It took less than a minute to find Logan.
Number Twenty Two.
Moving along the boards.
You watched him take a pass, turn and—
His eyes moved towards your section.
He almost missed the puck.
You burst out laughing.
Hannah noticed.
"Oh my God."
"What?"
"He saw you."
Logan recovered quickly enough to avoid humiliating himself completely, but his head turned again the second play moved away.
You raised one hand.
He grinned.
Even through the helmet, you could see it.
Allie leaned across Hannah.
"That boy is disgustingly in love with you."
Heat moved into your cheeks.
"He's playing hockey."
"He nearly skated into the boards."
"He did not."
As though the universe wanted to prove her point, Logan looked towards you again and collided shoulder-first with Garrett.
Garrett shoved him.
Logan shoved back.
You covered your mouth.
Hannah started laughing.
"That's your fault."
"I didn't do anything!"
"You existed."
Fair.
—
Briar won four-two.
Logan scored once.
Garrett scored twice, which unfortunately meant he would be unbearable for at least three business days.
You waited near the players' exit with Hannah and Allie while the team changed.
Garrett appeared first.
He spotted you.
"I thought you weren't coming."
"You scored twice and that's your greeting?"
He grinned.
"You saw?"
"Unfortunately."
He pulled you into a quick hug.
"Did you see the second?"
"No. I closed my eyes."
"Liar."
"Maybe."
Garrett stepped back, still smiling.
Then his expression softened.
"You came alone?"
You nodded.
He paused.
For months, that question would've been followed immediately by another.
Why?
You should've told someone.
Who walked you?
Instead, Garrett only smiled.
"Nice."
One word.
That was all.
You smiled back.
"Yeah."
Logan emerged a few minutes later, hair wet from the shower and his duffel hanging over one shoulder.
The second he saw you, he changed direction.
Completely abandoning whatever Tucker had been saying.
Tucker stopped walking.
"Cool. Great conversation."
You laughed.
Logan reached you.
"You came."
"You noticed."
"I almost died."
"So dramatic."
He dropped his bag.
Then hesitated.
There were people everywhere.
Students.
Teammates.
Garrett.
A long time ago, you had hidden this relationship.
Sneaking out of Logan's bedroom before Garrett caught you.
Texting in secret.
Pretending his hand hadn't been on your waist.
That felt like somebody else's life.
You stepped forward and wrapped your arms around his neck.
Logan's hands found your waist.
"Hi."
"Hi."
"I scored."
"I saw."
"Impressed?"
"Moderately."
He looked offended.
You smiled.
Then kissed him.
Nothing dramatic.
Just a kiss.
Right there.
In the hallway.
With half the hockey team around you.
A loud groan came from behind.
Garrett.
"Do you have to?"
You pulled away from Logan, laughing.
"Yes."
"No."
Logan kept one arm around your waist.
"Didn't you score twice? Go celebrate yourself."
"I was."
"Do it farther away."
Garrett flipped him off.
Dean appeared over his shoulder.
"Aw. Family."
"We are not family," Garrett snapped.
Dean looked at you.
"Give it six months."
Logan choked.
Your eyebrows shot up.
Garrett looked like he was about to murder someone.
Dean immediately disappeared back into the locker room.
"Good luck!" he shouted.
The corridor erupted into laughter.
You buried your face against Logan's chest.
"What did he mean by six months?"
Logan sounded suspiciously panicked.
"Nothing."
"You answered too fast."
"Dean is an idiot."
"Logan."
Garrett pointed at him.
"If you have purchased anything involving diamonds, I swear to God—"
"I haven't!"
"Why are you panicking?"
"Because you're shouting about diamonds!"
You looked between them.
Then burst out laughing.
The sound echoed along the concrete corridor.
Garrett looked offended.
Logan looked terrified.
Tucker appeared deeply entertained.
And standing there, laughing until your stomach hurt, you realised something.
You hadn't once checked the exit since arriving.
Not once.
You had walked across campus alone.
Entered a packed arena.
Sat in a crowd.
Waited in a hallway.
Nothing bad had happened.
But even that wasn't the important part.
The important part was that you hadn't spent the entire evening waiting for something bad to happen.
You had watched hockey.
Cheered for Garrett.
Made fun of Logan.
Kissed your boyfriend where anyone could see.
Lived.
That was all.
And maybe that was everything.
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Quietly Yours {Dean Di Laurentis x mute!reader} Part 21
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Summary: Everyone at Briar knows Dean Di Laurentis. Nobody knows you. Not because you aren't friendly, but because people tend to make assumptions the moment they realize you don't speak. Some think you're shy. Others think you're rude. A few even assume you're deaf. You're used to correcting people with a tired smile and a note on your phone. Dean is no different...at first. Until he realizes your silence never stopped you from laughing, teasing, arguing, or caring. He starts discovering that you've always had a voice. It just isn't spoken.
Warnings: mentions of being mute, misunderstandings
Dean did not mention the almost-confession outside your room.
Not the next morning.
Not the day after that.
Not even when Garrett accidentally gave him the perfect opportunity by asking whether Dean was “in love or just clinically insane” after he drove twenty minutes across town because you had texted that the campus shop had run out of your favourite chocolate.
Dean had thrown a cushion at him.
Then he had changed the subject.
You noticed.
Of course you noticed.
You noticed everything Dean did now.
The way he still signed good morning whenever he saw you, even though he could have simply said it.
How he had started using signs in ordinary conversation without thinking about them first.
How sometimes, across a crowded room, he would catch your eye and sign something only the two of you understood.
And you noticed that he hadn't said those words again.
Love you too.
They had been joking when they slipped out.
An accident.
You had been grateful for that at first.
There had already been enough happening. Becoming his girlfriend. Saying your first spoken word in years. Trying to work out what that word meant for the future.
You hadn't needed love on top of everything else.
Except now, four days later, you kept thinking about it.
Not because Dean had said it.
Because of the thought you had deleted from your phone days before.
It had let you tell Dean you loved—
You had known then.
You knew now.
That was the problem.
“You're doing it again.”
You looked up.
Hannah was sitting across from you in the library, staring over the top of her laptop.
You frowned.
“Staring at the same page for ten minutes.”
You looked at your textbook.
She was right.
You reached for your phone.
I'm thinking.
“That never ends well.”
You gave her a look.
Hannah grinned.
“Sorry.”
You attempted to return to reading.
She waited approximately thirty seconds.
“Is it Dean?”
Your eyes lifted slowly.
“I knew it.”
You shook your head.
“Y/N.”
You signed:
Nosy.
“I know that sign.”
You sighed.
Hannah closed her laptop.
“Is something wrong?”
You hesitated.
Then shook your head.
“Okay.”
She reopened the computer.
You stared at her.
Hannah's mouth twitched.
“What?”
You took out your phone.
That's it?
“You said nothing's wrong.”
You narrowed your eyes.
She laughed.
“Dean told me I'm supposed to believe you when you answer questions.”
You regretted teaching that man anything about healthy communication.
You typed:
He accidentally told me he loved me.
Hannah went completely still.
Then—
“Oh my God.”
You immediately pointed at her in warning.
She dropped her voice.
“Sorry.”
Her eyes were enormous.
“When?”
The night we became official.
“And you're telling me now?”
You gave her a look.
“Right. Your choice. Sorry.”
She leaned closer.
“What did you do?”
Covered his mouth.
Hannah stared.
Then started laughing.
You folded your arms.
“No, I'm sorry. I know this is serious, but that's incredible.”
You tried not to smile.
Failed.
“And then?”
He panicked.
“Dean?”
You nodded.
Hannah looked delighted by this information.
“I wish I'd seen that.”
You typed:
He hasn't said it again.
Her smile softened.
“Do you want him to?”
There it was.
The real question.
You stared at your phone.
Your thumbs moved.
I don't know.
Hannah waited.
Then you deleted it.
Typed something else.
Yes.
Her expression softened.
“Oh.”
You looked down.
“And do you love him?”
You didn't need to think.
Your hands moved before your phone did.
Yes.
Hannah's eyes dropped to them.
Her smile became almost unbearably gentle.
“You should probably tell him.”
Your stomach immediately twisted.
You shook your head.
“Why?”
You started typing.
Because I can't say it.
Hannah's brows pulled together.
Not out loud.
Her expression changed.
“Y/N.”
You continued.
What if I sign it and he thinks I'm only doing it because I can't say it?
“Why would he think that?”
You looked at her.
She understood a second later.
Because people had spent years treating signing as your second-best option.
As something you used because spoken words were unavailable.
Even now, with your voice beginning to produce tiny sounds again, there was a part of you that had absorbed that message.
Maybe I love you spoken aloud would mean more.
Maybe Dean deserved to hear it.
Maybe—
Hannah reached across the table and touched your hand.
“You know what Dean's been doing for months?”
You looked up.
“Learning how you talk.”
Your throat tightened.
“He didn't learn ASL so he could wait until you could speak.”
You stared down at your hands.
“He learned it so he could understand you now.”
A tear threatened.
You blinked it away.
Hannah squeezed your fingers.
“If you sign that you love him, he's going to hear you.”
Dean was in the locker room when you arrived at the rink.
You hadn't planned to come.
Technically.
You'd left the library after Hannah's conversation, walked back towards your residence hall, reached the intersection—
and turned towards the arena.
Your feet apparently had opinions.
The rink was almost empty.
Practice had finished twenty minutes ago. Only a few staff members moved around the stands, collecting stray bottles and checking seats.
You sat halfway up the bleachers.
Then you waited.
And reconsidered every decision that had brought you there.
You could leave.
Dean didn't know you were here.
You could text him later.
Or tomorrow.
Or in ten years.
You stood.
The locker-room door opened.
Too late.
Dean emerged carrying his equipment bag over one shoulder.
He looked towards the stands by habit.
Stopped.
Then smiled.
That stupid smile.
The one that had become yours without either of you deciding it.
He dropped his bag beside the boards.
“What are you doing here?”
You shrugged.
Dean began climbing the stairs towards you.
“No warning?”
You shook your head.
“Surprise visit?”
You nodded.
He reached your row.
“I like surprise visits.”
You immediately became aware that this had been a terrible idea.
Dean leaned down and kissed your forehead.
“Hey.”
You signed:
Hi.
He sat beside you.
His hair was still damp from his shower, and he smelled faintly of soap rather than the aggressively expensive cologne he usually wore. His cheeks were pink from the cold rink.
Dean looked towards the ice.
“You should've come five minutes earlier. Logan got hit in the ass with a puck.”
You smiled.
“Best moment of my week.”
You laughed silently.
Dean grinned.
Then his expression shifted.
“You okay?”
One question.
You appreciated that.
You nodded.
Then changed your mind.
You tilted your hand.
Kind of.
His body turned towards yours.
“What happened?”
You reached for your phone.
Stopped.
No.
Not this time.
You placed it back beside you.
Dean noticed.
Your hands felt suddenly heavy.
Ridiculous.
You signed every day.
You could have arguments at full speed. You could tease Tucker from across a room, complain about assignments and tell Dean when he was being an idiot.
This was different.
Your hands started shaking.
Dean looked down at them.
“Hey.”
You pulled them into your lap.
“Take your time.”
Your eyes burned.
Of course he'd say that.
Of course he would make this harder by being exactly the person you'd fallen in love with.
You took a breath.
Then another.
Dean waited.
You lifted your hands.
I.
Easy.
Dean watched.
Your heart hammered.
Love.
His expression changed.
You nearly stopped.
Then you pointed towards him.
You.
Dean didn't move.
The entire rink seemed to become impossibly quiet.
Your hands dropped.
He stared at you.
Panic immediately crawled through your stomach.
Maybe you'd moved too quickly.
Maybe he hadn't understood.
Maybe—
Dean's eyes filled with tears.
Your panic disappeared.
“Oh.”
His voice cracked.
Dean looked down.
Then laughed quietly at himself.
“Fuck.”
You had never seen him like this.
Speechless.
Dean Di Laurentis, who could fill any silence simply because it existed, had nothing.
You swallowed.
He looked at you again.
“You love me?”
You nodded.
Dean's face crumpled into a smile.
“Say it again.”
You froze.
His expression dropped immediately.
“No.”
Dean shook his head.
“Sorry. Fuck. That sounded—”
You caught his hand.
He stopped.
You understood what he meant.
Not sound.
Again.
You lifted your hands.
Slower this time.
I love you.
Dean's entire attention remained on your hands.
Not your mouth.
Not your throat.
Your hands.
When you finished, he raised his own.
His fingers trembled slightly.
He knew this sign.
You hadn't taught him.
He had learned it himself.
I love you.
Your breath caught.
Dean looked nervous.
“I've known that one for two weeks.”
You stared.
“Maybe three.”
Your eyebrows rose.
“Okay, definitely three.”
A tear rolled down your cheek.
Dean reached towards it, then paused.
You leaned into his touch.
His thumb wiped the tear away.
“I didn't want to say it first.”
You frowned.
“Not after the hallway thing.”
Understanding dawned.
Dean rubbed his thumb gently along your cheek.
“I realised what I said, and then you looked terrified.”
You tried to protest.
“You did.”
You reluctantly nodded.
“So I thought…”
He laughed softly.
“For probably the first time in my life, I should shut the hell up.”
You smiled.
“I wanted you to get there without feeling like you had to catch up with me.”
Your chest tightened.
You signed:
You already loved me?
Dean watched carefully.
“Yeah.”
You stared.
How long?
He grimaced.
“Do I have to answer?”
You nodded.
“That's embarrassing.”
Your smile grew.
Dean leaned back against the bleacher behind him.
“I don't know exactly.”
You gave him a look.
“I don't.”
You waited.
He thought.
“Maybe the library.”
Your eyebrows rose.
“No, not the first day.”
You nudged him.
“I'm serious.”
Dean looked out towards the empty ice.
“I think it happened so slowly I didn't notice.”
His fingers played with yours.
“Then one day I realised I knew your coffee order, your class schedule, the face you make when you're pretending not to be annoyed with me…”
You smiled.
“And I knew I wanted to learn an entire language because I hated missing things you wanted to tell me.”
Your vision blurred again.
Dean glanced at you.
“Then Sophie happened.”
Your smile faded slightly.
“And the thought of you walking away because you thought you were just another girl…”
He shook his head.
“That felt fucking awful.”
You squeezed his hand.
“I think that's when I knew.”
Your hands lifted.
Why didn't you tell me?
“Because saying it is easy for me.”
He looked at you.
“Proving it was harder.”
That landed somewhere deep.
Dean smiled faintly.
“And I figured you deserved the hard part first.”
You didn't know what to do with the amount of love that rose inside you.
So you kissed him.
Dean made a surprised noise as you grabbed the front of his jacket and pulled him towards you.
Then his hands were at your waist.
He kissed you back slowly.
Carefully.
Even now.
Even after I love you.
When you separated, he was smiling.
“My girlfriend loves me.”
You rolled your eyes.
“This is going to make me unbearable.”
You signed:
Already.
“True.”
He kissed your cheek.
Then your forehead.
Then the tip of your nose.
You shoved him away, laughing.
A faint sound slipped through.
“H—”
You froze.
Dean did too.
The sound had barely started.
A tiny scrape of voice.
But different.
Not laughter.
Not frustration.
Your mouth had been forming something.
Dean's eyes flickered towards your lips.
Then back to your eyes.
You touched your throat.
No fear came.
Only curiosity.
“What were you trying to say?”
Dean asked the question softly.
You thought back.
He had been kissing your face.
You had been laughing.
You'd shoved him.
And in your head—
hey.
You stared at him.
Dean read your expression.
“Don't force it.”
You nodded.
You breathed.
Your throat remained loose.
You looked at him.
Your lips parted.
Nothing.
That was okay.
Again—
No.
You stopped.
Dean smiled proudly.
“Good.”
You frowned.
“You stopped.”
Your expression softened.
He noticed that too.
“That's the part I'm proud of.”
You leaned into his shoulder.
Dean rested his cheek against your hair.
No chasing.
You told Garrett and the others later that evening.
About being together?
They already knew that.
About loving each other.
That part happened accidentally because Dean had apparently lost all ability to behave normally.
You were sitting at the kitchen island with Tucker while he showed you how to chop vegetables properly when Dean walked in from upstairs.
He saw you.
Smiled.
And signed:
I love you.
Just because he could.
Your face warmed.
You signed it back.
Tucker stopped chopping.
His eyes moved between you.
“Oh.”
Dean froze.
Garrett looked up from the couch.
“What?”
Tucker smiled.
“Nothing.”
Garrett immediately stood.
“What happened?”
Dean pointed at Tucker.
“Keep your mouth shut.”
Logan appeared from nowhere.
“Why?”
Hannah looked up from her textbook.
Then she saw your expression.
Her eyes widened.
“No way.”
Garrett stared at her.
“Would someone please explain?”
You covered your face.
Dean sighed.
“We said I love you.”
Silence.
Then Logan shouted.
“I KNEW IT.”
You jumped.
Dean immediately smacked the back of Logan's head.
“Volume.”
“Sorry.”
Garrett stared at Dean.
“You?”
Dean looked offended.
“Yes, me.”
“You're in love?”
“Why does everyone say it like that?”
Tucker laughed.
“Because six months ago you thought commitment meant buying the same brand of cereal twice.”
“I've grown.”
Logan pointed towards you.
“She domesticated him.”
Dean's face hardened.
“No.”
The room quieted.
Logan blinked.
Dean's arm slipped around your waist.
“She didn't change me.”
His voice wasn't angry.
Just certain.
“I changed because I wanted to be someone good enough to stay.”
Your chest tightened.
Garrett looked at him for a second.
Then nodded.
“Fair.”
You turned towards Dean.
He looked down.
“What?”
You signed:
Dramatic.
Everyone who knew the sign started laughing.
Dean groaned.
“I say something heartfelt and this is what I get.”
You smiled and leaned into his side.
Hannah caught your eye from across the kitchen.
She signed:
Happy?
You looked at Dean.
His thumb moved absentmindedly against your waist as he argued with Logan about whether being in a relationship made him boring.
Then you answered Hannah.
Very.
Later, you and Dean were alone on the couch.
Everyone else had drifted upstairs or gone home.
A movie played quietly.
Neither of you was watching it.
Your head rested against Dean's chest.
His fingers traced lazy shapes against your arm.
After a while, he signed one-handed against your shoulder.
Love you.
You smiled.
Then signed it against his chest.
Love you.
Dean kissed the top of your head.
“You know something?”
You looked up.
“I don't think I need to hear you say that out loud.”
Your chest tightened.
He looked down at your hands resting against him.
“I already heard it.”
You blinked quickly.
Dean smiled.
“If someday you want to say it…”
He shrugged.
“I'll probably cry.”
You laughed.
“But this?”
He took your hand.
“This counts.”
You stared at him.
Then leaned up and kissed him.
When you pulled back, Dean smiled.
“Completely counts.”
You touched his cheek.
Your lips parted without thought.
A tiny breath escaped.
No word.
Dean didn't react.
You smiled anyway.
Then your hands moved between you.
Clear.
Certain.
Yours.
I love you.
Dean's answer came immediately.
I love you too.
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The Rules of The Game {Beau Maxwell x Dean's little sister/Beau's best friend!reader} Part 5
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Summary: Dean Di Laurentis' little sister needs a fake boyfriend. Beau Maxwell needs to stop being in love with said little sister and his best friend. Pretending should've been easy. Until fake kisses start feeling real.
Warnings: none
The first football game after your relationship became public was on Tuesday.
You'd been to countless Briar games over the years.
Dean played hockey, but between friends, university events, and Beau being football captain, you'd somehow found yourself spending almost as much time in the football stands as you did near the rink.
You usually sat with friends.
Sometimes Dean came.
Sometimes Allie.
You always cheered for Beau.
That wasn't new.
What was new was Beau finding you before warm-ups.
You were halfway down the stadium steps when somebody grabbed your wrist.
You spun around.
"Jesus—"
"Relax."
Beau.
Already in uniform.
Pads beneath his jersey.
Black eye paint beneath his eyes.
Helmet tucked under one arm.
You stared.
Beau frowned.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You looked like you forgot something."
"My brain temporarily."
His eyebrows rose.
Shit.
"Because you scared me," you added quickly.
"Right."
His mouth curved.
"That's definitely why."
"Don't flatter yourself."
"Impossible."
You rolled your eyes.
"Shouldn't you be on the field?"
"Two minutes."
"Then why are you here?"
His gaze flicked upward.
There were people watching.
Students moving past.
Some of his teammates stretching below.
"Oh."
You understood.
Boyfriend duties.
You smiled.
"Making it convincing?"
"Exactly."
He stepped closer.
Your heartbeat increased annoyingly.
"What are you doing?"
"Thinking."
"That never ends well."
Beau ignored you.
His hand found your waist.
Easy now.
Natural.
Almost too natural.
You automatically placed your hands against his chest.
Hard plastic.
"Very romantic," you muttered. "Nothing says intimacy like shoulder pads."
He smiled.
"Want me to take them off?"
"In the middle of the stadium?"
"Didn't say where."
Your face heated.
"You're awful."
"You started it."
"I absolutely did not."
A whistle sounded below.
"Maxwell!"
Beau glanced over his shoulder.
"One minute!"
He turned back.
You smiled.
"Go."
His thumb moved once against your waist.
"Wish me luck."
"You don't need it."
Something softened in his expression.
"You always say that."
"Because it's true."
"Still."
You sighed dramatically.
"Good luck, Maxwell."
"Better."
He started to move.
Then stopped.
Looked around.
Then back at you.
"We're being watched."
You followed his gaze.
A group of students nearby were absolutely looking.
One girl had her phone out.
Great.
Fake relationship gossip had apparently become entertainment.
You looked back at Beau.
"Okay?"
He tilted his head.
You knew what he was asking.
Physical affection.
You nodded.
"Okay."
You expected the temple.
Maybe your cheek.
Instead Beau leaned forward and pressed his lips against your forehead.
Slowly.
Not rushed.
Not dramatic.
Just warm lips against your skin.
His hand tightened gently around your waist.
Your eyes closed without permission.
For one stupid moment, everything else disappeared.
Then Beau pulled away.
His face was close to yours.
Very close.
You opened your eyes.
He was looking at you.
Not smiling.
Your gaze dropped.
His mouth.
Bad idea.
Very bad idea.
Beau's breath hitched.
You looked back up.
Neither of you moved.
The rule flashed through your mind.
No kissing unless absolutely necessary.
Would this count?
People were watching.
That sounded necessary.
Didn't it?
Your fingers curled slightly against his jersey.
Beau's eyes dropped to your lips.
Your heart went wild.
Then—
"MAXWELL!"
Beau jerked backward.
You practically jumped away.
"Fuck."
He looked toward the field.
His coach was glaring.
"Coming!"
You laughed nervously.
"Go."
"Yeah."
He backed away.
Then turned.
You watched him jog toward the field.
Your fingers lifted to your forehead.
You could still feel his kiss there.
Dean dropped into the seat beside you ten minutes later.
He handed you a soda.
"Why do you look constipated?"
You glared at him.
"Lovely."
"You're welcome."
He followed your gaze.
Beau was on the field.
"Ah."
You frowned.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"Dean."
"I didn't say anything."
"Your face did."
"Apparently that runs in the family."
You looked back at the game.
Dean took a drink.
"So."
"No."
"I haven't asked anything."
"You were going to."
"Maybe."
"No."
"You almost kissed him."
Your head snapped toward him.
"How the fuck do you know that?"
Dean slowly smiled.
Oh no.
You'd just admitted it.
"Interesting."
"Shut up."
"I saw you from the concourse."
"We did not almost kiss."
"You looked like you were about four seconds away from climbing him like a tree."
Your jaw dropped.
"Dean!"
"I'm just saying."
"You're disgusting."
"I'm traumatised."
"You've slept with half the female population of this university."
"Not relevant."
"Extremely relevant."
"My sister is different."
"Why?"
"Because you're my sister."
You stared at him.
"Excellent explanation."
"Thank you."
You turned back toward the field.
Beau lined up.
The whistle blew.
You tried to focus.
Dean lasted approximately twelve seconds.
"Do you like him?"
Your stomach dropped.
"No."
The answer came too quickly.
Dean heard it too.
"Okay."
You frowned.
"I don't."
"Sure."
"Dean."
"I'm agreeing."
"No, you're doing that thing."
"What thing?"
"Being annoying."
"That's just my personality."
You sighed.
"It's fake."
"I know."
"And Beau is my friend."
"I know."
"And that's it."
Dean looked out at the field.
"Okay."
You stared at him.
"Why are you being weird?"
"I'm not."
"You know something."
His shoulders stiffened slightly.
Very slightly.
If you weren't his sister, you might have missed it.
But you were.
"What do you know?"
"Nothing."
"Dean."
"Watch the game."
You narrowed your eyes.
He refused to look at you.
Interesting.
Very interesting.
Before you could interrogate him further, the stadium erupted.
You turned.
Beau had broken through the defence.
He sprinted downfield.
Touchdown.
You jumped up with everybody else.
"YES!"
Dean laughed as you screamed.
Down on the field, Beau celebrated briefly with his teammates.
Then he looked toward the stands.
You didn't know how he found you amongst hundreds of people.
But he did.
He always did.
His eyes locked onto yours.
You grinned.
Beau pointed directly at you.
The crowd around you lost their minds.
Your mouth dropped open.
"Did he just—"
Dean groaned.
"Oh, for fuck's sake."
You laughed.
Your heart pounding.
Beau lowered his hand and jogged away.
A girl behind you squealed.
"That was so cute!"
Your face became unbearably hot.
Dean leaned toward you.
"Very fake."
You elbowed him.
Hard.
Briar won.
Of course they did.
Beau had played one of his best games of the season.
By the time you made it down near the tunnel, players were filtering out toward friends and family.
You spotted him immediately.
Helmet gone.
Hair damp.
Jersey dirty.
Smile enormous.
And before you could think about it, you ran toward him.
Beau barely had time to react.
You threw your arms around his neck.
He caught you.
Actually caught you.
One arm wrapped around your waist as your feet briefly left the ground.
You laughed.
"You were amazing!"
Beau laughed into your shoulder.
"We won."
"You were insane!"
"Yeah?"
"That touchdown!"
His grip tightened around you.
"You liked that?"
"You pointed at me!"
"Boyfriend duties."
Your laughter faltered.
Right.
Of course.
Boyfriend duties.
You pulled back slightly.
Beau's smile faded when he saw your expression.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You went weird."
"I didn't go weird."
"You definitely went weird."
You stepped back.
"You're sweaty."
"That's your complaint?"
"You're disgusting."
He grinned.
"You just launched yourself at me."
"I got carried away."
"I liked it."
Your heart skipped.
Beau's expression softened.
Then he looked past you.
"Come here."
"What?"
Before you could ask, his hand slid around your waist again.
He pulled you gently into his side.
You followed his gaze.
And saw him.
The guy.
Standing farther down the tunnel.
Your happiness vanished.
He was watching.
Again.
Beau's body went tense beside you.
"Did he come to the game?"
"I don't know."
"You didn't invite him?"
"Obviously not."
Beau's jaw flexed.
The guy started walking toward you.
Fuck.
Beau moved slightly in front of you.
You caught his jersey.
"Don't."
"I'm not doing anything."
"Beau."
"I'm standing."
"You're standing aggressively."
"That's not a thing."
"It is when you're built like a refrigerator."
That almost made him smile.
Almost.
The guy stopped several feet away.
His eyes went to Beau.
Then you.
"Can we talk?"
You felt Beau's arm tighten.
You answered before he could.
"No."
The guy sighed.
"Come on."
"I said no."
"Just for five minutes."
Beau's voice was calm.
"She said no."
The guy's eyes hardened.
"I wasn't talking to you."
Beau's expression didn't change.
"Doesn't matter."
"Beau."
You touched his arm.
He looked down.
You shook your head slightly.
Let me.
Something in him resisted.
You saw it.
Then he stepped half a pace back.
Still beside you.
Still close.
But he let you speak.
You looked at the guy.
"I've told you I'm not interested."
"I know."
"Then why are you here?"
"I wanted to explain."
"There's nothing to explain."
"You barely know me."
"I know enough."
His mouth tightened.
"So that's it?"
"Yes."
"You suddenly get a boyfriend and I'm supposed to believe—"
"Stop."
His eyebrows lifted.
You took a breath.
"My relationship has nothing to do with this."
Beau went very still beside you.
"I said no before Beau."
Your voice remained steady.
"I would still say no without Beau."
The guy stared at you.
"You don't need to like that answer."
You swallowed.
"But you need to respect it."
For several seconds, nobody moved.
Then his gaze shifted to Beau.
"Good luck."
Beau's jaw tightened.
The guy walked away.
You watched until he disappeared.
Only then did you breathe again.
Beau turned toward you.
"You okay?"
You nodded.
Then shook your head.
Then laughed shakily.
"I don't know."
"Come here."
There was no audience now.
No guy to convince.
No fake relationship requirement.
But when Beau opened his arms—
You went anyway.
You buried your face against his chest.
His arms wrapped around you immediately.
One hand moved to the back of your head.
"You're okay."
You breathed him in.
Soap.
Grass.
Sweat.
Beau.
"I hate this."
"I know."
"I hate feeling like I need someone else just so he'll listen."
Beau's hand moved slowly through your hair.
"You don't."
You pulled back enough to look at him.
"What?"
"You don't need me for your no to matter."
His eyes held yours.
"It mattered the first time."
Your throat tightened.
"And I'm happy to stand beside you every time you want me there."
His thumb brushed beneath your eye.
"But don't ever think I'm the reason he should respect you."
You didn't realise your eyes had filled until Beau wiped away the moisture.
"You are."
His voice softened.
Your chest hurt.
"You're enough."
And that—
That was the moment something shifted.
Not dramatically.
There were no fireworks.
No music.
Nobody standing around cheering.
Just Beau Maxwell standing in a football tunnel after a game, sweaty and bruised and still wearing half his uniform, looking at you like there was nowhere else he'd rather be.
And you suddenly understood the problem.
The fake relationship wasn't making Beau act differently.
That was the terrifying part.
He had always treated you this way.
You just hadn't noticed what it felt like to be loved by Beau Maxwell.
Even if he wasn't actually in love with you.
Your gaze dropped to his lips again.
Beau noticed.
His breathing changed.
Your heart pounded.
He didn't move.
Didn't assume.
Didn't close the space.
He simply waited.
Giving you the choice.
Your fingers curled into the front of his jersey.
Maybe it was adrenaline.
Maybe it was relief.
Maybe it was the way he'd just said you're enough like he wanted to make sure you'd never forget it.
Whatever it was—
You leaned forward.
Beau's eyes widened slightly.
Then—
"Maxwell!"
You jumped apart for the second time that day.
Beau closed his eyes.
"You're fucking kidding me."
Dean rounded the corner.
"There you—"
He stopped.
Looked at you.
Looked at Beau.
Looked at the considerable amount of space you'd suddenly put between yourselves.
Then slowly smiled.
You pointed at him.
"Don't."
"I haven't said anything."
"Don't."
Dean's grin widened.
Beau looked ready to murder him.
"What do you want?"
"Team's going out."
"Great."
"You're coming."
"No."
Dean looked at you.
"You coming?"
Before you could answer, Beau did.
"She's coming with me."
Silence.
You turned toward him.
Dean's eyebrows shot up.
Beau realised what he'd said.
"I mean—"
He rubbed the back of his neck.
"I'm taking her home."
Dean looked between you.
Then smiled in that infuriating way only older brothers could.
"Right."
He started walking backward.
"Boyfriend duties."
Beau flipped him off.
Dean laughed and disappeared.
You looked at Beau.
He looked at you.
Neither mentioned what had almost happened.
Again.
Beau picked up his bag.
"Ready, princess?"
Your pulse still hadn't settled.
"Yeah."
He held out his hand.
You took it.
Later that night, you lay in bed staring at the ceiling.
You couldn't sleep.
Every time you closed your eyes, you saw him.
Beau pointing at you after the touchdown.
Beau catching you when you jumped into his arms.
Beau standing beside you while you told that guy no.
Beau wiping beneath your eye.
You're enough.
Your phone sat beside your pillow.
At 1:07 a.m, you gave in.
YOU: Are you awake?
The reply came less than a minute later.
BEAU: Always for you.
Your stomach flipped.
You stared at those three words.
Then typed.
Deleted.
Typed again.
YOU: Who's the girl?
Three dots appeared.
Stopped.
Appeared again.
BEAU: What girl?
YOU: The one you've liked for a year.
Long pause.
BEAU: Why are you thinking about this at 1am?
You didn't have a good answer.
Because you didn't understand it yourself.
YOU: Curious.
His response took nearly two minutes.
BEAU: Go to sleep princess.
You frowned.
YOU: Coward.
BEAU: Menace.
YOU: Tell me.
No answer.
YOU: Beau.
Still nothing.
You were about to send another message when your phone rang.
Beau.
You answered immediately.
"Calling is cheating."
His laugh filled your ear.
"You weren't going to stop."
"Nope."
"I know."
You rolled onto your side.
"So tell me."
"No."
"Why?"
"Because you don't need to know."
"I want to know."
"Why?"
There was that question again.
You stared into the darkness.
"I don't know."
Silence.
Then Beau's voice softened.
"Are you jealous?"
"No."
He laughed.
"I'm hanging up."
"Wait!"
"You are!"
"I'm not!"
"Then why do you care?"
You opened your mouth.
Nothing came out.
Because you didn't know.
You just knew you hated imagining Beau looking at somebody else the way he'd looked at you today.
Hated imagining someone else wearing his sweatshirt.
Someone else getting his late-night calls.
Someone else getting princess.
Someone else being caught when she jumped into his arms.
The thought made your stomach twist.
"I don't know," you finally whispered.
Beau went quiet.
Not teasing anymore.
You stared at the ceiling.
"That's the problem."
"What is?"
"I don't know why I care."
Another silence.
You could hear him breathing.
Then—
"Maybe don't figure it out tonight."
Your heart squeezed.
"Why?"
"Because you're tired."
"And?"
"And tired brains are assholes."
You laughed softly.
"Profound."
"I've been told I'm very wise."
"By who?"
"Myself."
"Obviously."
He laughed.
The tension eased.
Just slightly.
"Get some sleep."
"Beau?"
"Yeah?"
You hesitated.
"Thanks for today."
His answer came immediately.
"Anytime."
"And the guy..."
"Yeah?"
"I think he finally understood."
"I hope so."
"So technically..."
You smiled faintly.
"...the fake boyfriend thing is working."
Silence.
Just long enough for your smile to fade.
"Yeah," Beau said eventually.
His voice quieter now.
"Guess it is."
You didn't know why that made you sad.
"Night, Beau."
"Night, princess."
You hung up.
Across campus, Beau lay staring at his own ceiling with his phone still pressed against his chest.
He should have been relieved.
The plan was working.
The guy was backing off.
You felt safer.
That was the whole point.
Instead, Beau couldn't stop thinking about the football tunnel.
The way you'd looked at him.
The way your fingers had tightened in his jersey.
The way you'd leaned toward him.
He'd been half a second away from breaking every rule he'd promised himself he would follow.
His phone buzzed.
Dean.
Of course.
DEAN: You nearly kissed my sister twice today.
Beau stared at it.
BEAU: Do you have surveillance cameras on us?
DEAN: Brother senses.
BEAU: Creepy.
DEAN: So?
BEAU: So what?
DEAN: Are you going to tell her?
Beau closed his eyes.
Then thought about your phone call.
Who's the girl?
I want to know.
I don't know why I care.
For the first time since this ridiculous arrangement began, something dangerous slipped past all the reasons he'd given himself not to hope.
Maybe Dean was right.
Maybe you were noticing.
Maybe this wasn't entirely one-sided anymore.
Then Beau remembered your rule.
When this is over, we go back to normal.
His fingers moved over the screen.
BEAU: No.
Dean responded immediately.
DEAN: Idiot.
Beau almost smiled.
BEAU: Probably.
He put his phone down.
But he didn't sleep.
Because somewhere across campus, the girl he'd been in love with for more than a year was lying awake wondering who had his heart.
And Beau had no idea how much longer he could keep pretending it wasn't already hers.
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Enemy Blood {Garrett Graham x twin sister} Part 19
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Summary: Twelve years ago, Y/N Graham ran away and left her twin brother behind. Now she's back, wearing their dead mother's name on her jersey—and Garrett is about to learn that some wounds don't heal just because you stop talking about them.
Warnings: angst, twin sibling drama, hockey rivalry, family trauma, estranged siblings, garrett graham deserves a headache, reader chooses violence, eventual sibling reconciliation
By ten the next morning, Y/N had already read the same paragraph of her statement fourteen times.
She knew because she had started counting.
The papers sat spread across Garrett's desk, each page covered in notes from Detective Ellis and the prosecutor's office. Dates. Names. Places. Questions they might ask when preparations for the trial properly began.
Describe the relationship between your parents.
When did you first become afraid of your father?
What did you witness on the night Claire Graham died?
Y/N stared at that one until the words stopped looking like words.
She pushed the papers away.
Then pulled them back.
She was meant to have a meeting with the prosecutor in two days. Nothing formal yet. Just preparation, apparently.
Just.
As if preparing to describe her mother's death to a room full of strangers was comparable to revising for an exam.
Her knee bounced beneath Garrett's desk.
She tried reading again.
Didn't make it through the first sentence.
A knock sounded against the open bedroom door.
Y/N didn't turn.
"If you're Garrett, go away."
"Rude."
Dean.
Arguably worse.
She continued staring at the page.
"What do you want?"
"Your dignity."
That got her attention.
She looked over her shoulder.
Dean stood in the doorway wearing full practice gear from the waist down, skates slung over one shoulder and his hockey stick balanced against the other.
Y/N frowned.
"What?"
"You challenged me."
"That was before my father got charged with murder."
"Sounds like you're making excuses."
Her eyes narrowed.
Dean's expression remained perfectly serious.
"You said I couldn't score on you."
"You can't."
"Prove it."
Y/N looked back at the papers.
"No."
Dean stepped into the room.
"Scared?"
"Of you?"
"Understandable. I'm very talented."
"You're very irritating."
"Also true."
Y/N picked up her pen.
"Go bother Garrett."
"He's downstairs."
"Great."
"He's in on it."
Her pen stopped.
Y/N slowly turned.
"What?"
Dean smiled.
And that was when she knew.
"No."
Footsteps sounded in the hallway.
Garrett appeared beside Dean carrying Y/N's hockey bag.
She stared at both of them.
"You went through my stuff."
Garrett immediately held up one hand.
"Technically Amy packed it."
Y/N blinked.
"Amy?"
"I texted her."
"You texted my teammate?"
Dean looked impressed.
"She's cute."
Y/N pointed at Garrett.
"You are not sleeping with Amy."
"Can we deal with one crisis at a time?"
"You contacted her behind my back."
"To ask whether your wrist brace and practice jersey were in your locker."
"My statement—"
"Will still be there in two hours."
Garrett nodded towards the papers.
"You've been sitting here since seven."
Y/N's jaw tightened.
"How do you know?"
"I brought you coffee at eight."
"I was working."
"You didn't drink it."
"I forgot."
"I brought breakfast at nine."
"I wasn't hungry."
"You told me to leave it outside."
"Because you were hovering."
"I was delivering toast."
"It was burned."
"That's irrelevant."
Dean leaned towards Garrett.
"It does undermine your argument slightly."
"Shut up."
Y/N looked between them.
"No."
Garrett's expression softened.
"Y/N—"
"Don't."
He stopped.
She knew exactly what he was about to do. Lower his voice. Tell her she needed a break. Look at her with that expression she had started calling his emotional face because naming it made it easier to tolerate.
"I need to prepare."
"You need to eat."
"I'll eat later."
Dean walked over to the desk and picked up one of the pages.
Y/N snatched it from him.
"Don't touch that."
He released it immediately.
"Okay."
Something in his voice changed.
No teasing.
No argument.
Just okay.
Y/N put the paper down.
Dean pulled the desk chair beside her bed and sat backwards on it, folding his arms across the backrest.
"I don't know what happened to you."
Her posture tightened.
"I know enough to know it's terrible," he continued. "And I know enough about Garrett to know he's going to spend the next however many months staring at you like you're going to disappear every time you go to the bathroom."
Behind him, Garrett frowned.
"I don't do that."
Dean glanced over his shoulder.
"You absolutely do."
Then he looked back at Y/N.
"But I also know you're driving everyone insane."
"Excuse me?"
"You've been living here for less than a week and you've cleaned the kitchen four times."
"It was dirty."
"Tucker cleans every night."
"He misses places."
From downstairs, Tucker shouted, "I HEARD THAT."
Dean didn't react.
"You reorganised the hallway shoes yesterday."
"They were everywhere."
"You alphabetised Logan's books."
Y/N paused.
Garrett stared at her.
"You did what?"
"They were bothering me."
Dean nodded.
"And now you've been reading the same page for three hours."
Y/N looked towards the documents.
"I have to know what I'm going to say."
"No," Garrett said quietly. "You have to tell the truth."
She whipped around.
"You think that's easy?"
"No."
"Because you didn't see her."
Garrett went still.
The sentence escaped before she could catch it.
She immediately wished she had.
Dean's attention dropped.
Garrett said nothing.
Y/N closed her eyes.
"Garrett..."
"It's okay."
"No, it isn't."
He shifted the hockey bag higher on his shoulder.
"I know what you meant."
"I shouldn't have said it."
"But it's true."
She looked at him.
His expression hurt more than anger would've.
"I didn't see what you saw," he said. "And when it's my turn, they're going to ask me why I stayed upstairs."
"No one thinks—"
"I do."
Y/N's mouth closed.
Garrett looked towards the papers.
"So yeah. I know why you're trying to memorise every possible question before anyone can surprise you."
He rubbed his hand against the back of his neck.
"I'm doing the same thing."
That surprised her.
"You are?"
"I've got thirty pages downstairs."
Dean nodded.
"He highlighted them."
Y/N stared at Garrett.
"You hate highlighting."
"I panicked."
"What colour?"
"Yellow."
"That's boring."
"It came with the pack."
A smile threatened.
She fought it.
Garrett noticed.
"Come to the rink."
"I can't play properly with my wrist."
"Then embarrass Dean one-handed."
Dean stood.
"Hang on."
Y/N finally smiled.
Garrett saw it and immediately pushed.
"One hour."
"No."
"Forty-five minutes."
"No."
"Thirty."
"You're negotiating with yourself."
"Twenty."
Y/N sighed.
Dean headed towards the door.
"I'll tell everyone Wilkinson forfeited."
Her head snapped up.
"Excuse me?"
"Medical withdrawal. Shame."
"Dean."
He kept walking.
"Obviously couldn't handle elite competition."
Y/N shoved back the chair.
Garrett hid his smile.
She pointed at him.
"You're both children."
"Is that a yes?"
"I'm going to destroy him."
Dean's voice floated from the hallway.
"Big words from someone who hasn't put skates on."
Y/N grabbed her hockey bag from Garrett.
Her wrist complained immediately.
Garrett reached for it.
She glared.
He withdrew his hand.
Two seconds later she shoved the bag back into his chest.
"Carry that."
His grin was unbearable.
"Of course."
Dean had somehow managed to turn a stupid challenge into an event.
Y/N should have expected it.
When she walked into Briar's rink twenty minutes later, Logan was sitting behind the glass with Hannah and Allie. Tucker had brought coffee. Several Briar players who were supposedly there for optional practice had mysteriously taken seats near the boards.
Y/N stopped in the tunnel.
"You invited spectators?"
Garrett stood beside her.
"I didn't."
"Dean."
"Definitely."
She looked across the rink.
Dean was already on the ice.
He spotted her and lifted both arms.
"WILKINSON!"
Half the arena turned.
Y/N closed her eyes.
"I am going to kill him."
Garrett smiled.
"You said that yesterday."
"I've been busy."
"Please wait until after the trial. We've got enough legal problems."
She elbowed him.
Garrett laughed.
Y/N stared at the ice.
Something uncomfortable shifted in her chest.
She hadn't skated since the game against Briar.
Not properly.
Everything that had happened since then seemed attached to that night.
Seeing Garrett.
The letters.
Phil.
Nancy.
The rink.
The recording.
The trial.
She tightened her grip around her stick.
Garrett noticed.
Of course he noticed.
"You don't have to."
She looked at him.
His tone was different now.
No challenge.
No attempt to lure her out of her head.
"If you want to go home, we'll go."
Y/N looked back towards the rink.
Dean was skating slow circles, talking loudly to Logan through the glass about his apparently flawless wrist shot.
She could leave.
Go back to Garrett's room.
Read the questions another fourteen times.
Imagine her father's lawyer pulling apart every word she said.
Her skates felt heavy in her hand.
Then Dean shouted, "I'M GIVING YOU FIVE MINUTES BEFORE I CLAIM VICTORY."
Y/N dropped onto the bench.
"Help me with my skate."
Garrett blinked.
"What?"
"My wrist hurts when I pull the lace."
He immediately crouched.
Y/N watched him tighten the laces across her left skate.
There had been a time when Garrett did this before every game because she'd never tied them tightly enough.
He still remembered exactly how she liked them.
Tight across the ankle.
Looser at the toes.
He finished the knot and looked up.
"Too tight?"
"No."
The second skate was already tied.
Y/N stood.
Garrett reached towards her instinctively, then stopped before touching.
She gave him a small nod.
His hand settled beneath her elbow while she stepped onto the rubber mat.
"Thanks."
"Anytime."
She grabbed her helmet.
"You realise I'm going to make your friend cry."
"Please do."
Dean skated towards the gate as she stepped onto the ice.
"Finally."
Y/N pushed off.
The first glide felt wrong.
Her legs knew exactly what to do, but her head hadn't caught up.
She took another stride.
Then another.
Cold air hit her face.
Blade against ice.
The familiar bite of an edge catching.
Her shoulders dropped.
There.
She hadn't realised how much she'd missed that sound.
Dean watched her circle once.
"Done warming up?"
"I've been warming up since you were still learning how to walk."
"We're the same age."
"That doesn't make my statement untrue."
Garrett climbed onto the bench.
"Rules."
Dean pointed at him.
"I don't need a referee."
"You absolutely need a referee."
Y/N stopped near the crease.
"What are the rules?"
Garrett held up a puck.
"Ten shots."
Dean scoffed.
"Too easy."
Y/N adjusted her gloves.
"For me."
"For you to lose."
Garrett continued.
"Dean shoots. Y/N defends."
Dean frowned.
"She's not a goalie."
"I know."
Y/N looked intrigued.
"Then what am I defending?"
Garrett pointed towards two cones set a few feet apart in front of the net.
"Dean gets through that lane with possession, point for him. You strip the puck or force him outside, point for you."
Y/N smiled slowly.
Now that was better.
Defence.
Her thing.
Dean realised his mistake.
"Wait."
"You challenged a defender," Garrett said.
"I thought we'd be shooting."
Y/N skated towards him.
"Scared?"
Dean narrowed his eyes.
"Oh, it's on."
From behind the glass, Allie yelled, "Kick his ass, Y/N!"
Dean looked offended.
"Betrayal!"
Allie blew him a kiss.
Y/N settled into position.
Her injured wrist hurt, but not enough to stop her.
Garrett dropped the puck.
"Ready?"
Dean lowered his stance.
Y/N smiled.
"Always."
Garrett backed away.
"Go."
Dean moved fast.
Y/N would give him that.
He accelerated towards her, puck controlled neatly on his forehand. He shifted right.
Y/N followed.
Left.
She stayed with him.
Dean tried to pull the puck through his legs.
She poked it away.
Clean.
The puck slid into the corner.
The bench erupted.
Y/N lifted both arms.
"One."
Dean stared at her.
"Lucky."
"Keep telling yourself that."
Garrett retrieved the puck.
He was grinning.
"Again."
Second attempt.
Dean got past.
Barely.
He used his shoulder to shield the puck and pushed through the cones with Y/N directly against his side.
He celebrated as though he'd won the Stanley Cup.
Y/N shoved him.
"One-one."
Dean pointed his stick towards her.
"Remember this feeling."
"What feeling?"
"Watching greatness."
Y/N looked towards Garrett.
"Has he always been like this?"
"Worse."
They continued.
Two-two.
Three-two to Y/N.
Three-three.
Four-three to Dean.
By the seventh attempt, Y/N had forgotten the papers completely.
She wasn't Claire Graham's daughter.
Wasn't a witness.
Wasn't the missing Graham twin reporters suddenly wanted to understand.
She was Y/N Wilkinson.
Number seventeen.
Eastwood defence.
And Dean Di Laurentis was really starting to piss her off.
He approached for attempt eight.
Y/N watched his hips instead of the puck.
Dean favoured his left when he got impatient.
He shifted.
She waited.
He shifted again.
There.
Y/N stepped across his path and knocked the puck cleanly away.
Dean's skates tangled with hers.
Both went down.
Y/N hit the ice first.
Dean landed beside her.
For half a second there was silence.
Garrett jumped over the boards.
"Y/N?"
She stared at the ceiling.
Dean pushed himself onto one elbow.
"Are you okay?"
Y/N started laughing.
Garrett stopped.
Dean looked at her.
Then he started laughing too.
Garrett stood over both of them.
"You two are idiots."
Y/N held up one gloved hand.
"Five-three."
Dean immediately stopped laughing.
"That doesn't count."
"I stripped the puck."
"We fell."
"After."
"You interfered."
"You skated into me."
"You moved."
"That's called defence."
Garrett reached down.
Y/N grabbed his hand, and he pulled her upright.
"You okay?"
"My wrist is fine."
"Head?"
"Helmet."
"Anything else?"
"My pride is excellent."
Dean climbed to his feet.
"Mine isn't."
"Good."
Attempt nine went to Dean.
Five-four.
Everyone crowded closer to the glass for the final round.
Dean skated slow circles near centre ice.
Y/N rested her stick against her thighs.
Garrett came closer.
"Last one."
"I can count."
"You tired?"
"No."
Lie.
He knew.
Y/N's breathing was heavier, and her wrist had started aching beneath the brace.
But it was a good kind of tired.
Physical.
Simple.
There was no courtroom hidden inside it.
No dead mother.
No father waiting to call her a liar.
Just hockey.
Garrett leaned closer.
"You can stop."
She looked at him.
"I can also win."
His smile appeared.
"That's my sister."
The words landed warmly this time.
Y/N skated back into position.
Dean approached.
"Ready to lose?"
"Dean?"
"What?"
"You talk too much."
Garrett dropped the puck.
Dean came hard down the middle.
No tricks this time.
Speed.
He was trying to overwhelm her.
Y/N backed up.
Watched his shoulders.
Waited.
Dean pushed the puck slightly ahead to accelerate past her.
Exactly what she wanted.
Y/N pivoted.
Her stick swept forward.
Puck gone.
Dean sailed through the cones alone.
The puck slid harmlessly towards Garrett's skates.
Y/N lifted her stick.
"Six-four."
The rink erupted.
Allie screamed.
Hannah applauded.
Tucker banged one hand against the glass.
Logan shook his head at Dean in theatrical disappointment.
Y/N skated backwards, grinning.
Dean stopped beside the net.
"No."
"Yes."
"Best of twenty."
"No."
"Different competition."
"You lost."
"I wasn't prepared."
"You created the challenge."
"I was misled."
"By yourself?"
"Exactly."
Y/N laughed.
She couldn't remember the last time her face had hurt from smiling.
Dean skated towards her and held out his hand.
She looked at it suspiciously.
"What?"
"Good game."
"You aren't going to pull me over?"
His expression became offended.
"I have honour."
"No, you don't."
"Some."
Y/N took his hand.
Dean immediately yanked.
She was ready.
She pulled harder.
He lost his balance and dropped onto one knee.
Y/N released him.
"Idiot."
Dean stared up at her.
Then nodded.
"Okay. I deserved that."
Garrett climbed onto the ice in trainers, immediately slipping slightly.
Y/N laughed.
"Careful, captain."
"I'm fine."
"You can't skate without skates?"
"Shut up."
He reached her.
The grin on his face was ridiculous.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You've been staring at me all day."
"You had fun."
Y/N looked towards Dean, who was now arguing with Allie through the glass about biased officiating.
Then at the scoreboard no one had bothered turning on.
Then back at Garrett.
"Yeah."
The admission came quietly.
"I did."
His smile softened.
"Good."
Y/N looked down at her stick.
"I didn't think about it."
Garrett knew exactly what she meant.
"The trial?"
She nodded.
"For nearly an hour."
That seemed impossible.
For days, the trial had been sitting somewhere behind every thought.
What she would say.
What Phil's lawyer would ask.
Whether she'd freeze when she saw him.
Whether the jury would believe her.
Whether the whole world would look at her the way the police had when she was fifteen and decide her anger made her unreliable.
For nearly an hour, none of it had existed.
Dean skated over.
His hair was damp with sweat, ego apparently recovering.
"We're doing this again."
Y/N smiled.
"You want another loss?"
"I was studying your technique."
"You were falling over."
"Research."
Garrett looked at Dean.
Something passed between them.
Y/N caught it.
Her eyes narrowed.
"You planned this."
Dean blinked.
"Planned what?"
"All of it."
"No."
"You're a terrible liar."
"I've been told I'm excellent."
Y/N turned to Garrett.
"You asked him."
Garrett rubbed the back of his neck.
"He volunteered."
"After you told him I hadn't moved from your desk all morning."
Dean pointed his stick at Garrett.
"Snitch."
Y/N stared between them.
For a second, Garrett thought she might be angry.
Then she looked down.
"You didn't have to do that."
Dean shrugged.
"I wanted revenge for the mug."
Y/N looked at him.
His expression was deliberately casual.
She understood anyway.
He had challenged her because asking are you okay? for the hundredth time wouldn't have helped.
So he'd annoyed her until she put on skates.
Some people cared quietly.
Dean Di Laurentis apparently cared like an idiot.
Y/N skated closer.
He eyed her cautiously.
"If you hug me, I will tell everyone."
"Wasn't planning to."
"Good."
She punched him lightly in the shoulder.
"Ow."
"Thank you."
Dean's face softened.
"You're welcome."
Then he ruined it.
"Still think you cheated."
Y/N shoved him.
He laughed and skated away.
Garrett stood beside her.
"You mad at me?"
"A little."
"Fair."
"But..."
He waited.
Y/N bumped her shoulder against his.
"Thanks."
Garrett nodded.
"No problem."
She looked towards the stands.
Hannah and Allie had started gathering their things. Tucker was handing Logan an empty coffee cup while Logan attempted to throw it back at him.
Ordinary.
Warm.
Safe.
Her phone sat inside her bag somewhere in the locker room.
The prosecutor could call.
A reporter could post another article.
Her father's lawyer could send another stack of questions.
For another ten minutes, they could wait.
Y/N looked at Garrett.
"Want to skate?"
He glanced down at his trainers.
"Do I look prepared?"
"Scared?"
Garrett laughed.
"You realise I taught you everything you know."
"Not everything."
"I could still beat you."
"Prove it."
His expression sharpened.
"Oh, you're on."
Dean shouted from the opposite end of the rink.
"SHE ALREADY BEAT ONE GRAHAM TODAY!"
Y/N turned.
"He's a Di Laurentis!"
Dean spread his arms.
"EMOTIONALLY, I'M PART OF THIS FAMILY NOW!"
Garrett closed his eyes.
"I hate him."
Y/N laughed.
"No, you don't."
Garrett looked at her.
She was still smiling.
"No," he admitted.
"I don't."
And for the rest of the morning, neither of them talked about the trial.
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Tiny Librarian {John Logan x reader} Part 53
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Summary: You were stranded at the library in the pouring rain, the last shuttle bus had left just as you got there, you text your brother, Garrett Graham, if he could pick you up after practice. You'll never guess who he sends instead.
Warnings: none
Two weeks after sentencing, you walked to the library alone.
Nobody knew.
That part wasn’t deliberate.
You hadn’t woken up that morning and decided you were going to prove something. There was no speech in the mirror, no carefully planned route, no text to Garrett explaining where you were going.
You simply left your dorm after class, realised you needed a book for an assignment, and started walking.
It wasn’t until you reached the path behind the student union that you noticed what you were doing.
You stopped.
Students moved around you.
A girl hurried past with headphones in, nearly spilling the coffee balanced in one hand. Two guys argued about something involving fantasy football. A cyclist rang his bell at someone blocking the path.
Normal.
Your eyes automatically travelled towards the benches.
Then the alley between two buildings.
Then the road.
Nothing.
You took another step.
Your heart beat slightly faster.
Not panic.
Awareness.
There was a difference now.
You could recognise it.
You kept walking.
No Logan beside you.
No Garrett ten feet ahead pretending he wasn't keeping an eye on everyone.
No Dean making stupid comments so you wouldn't realise he was watching the crowd.
Just you.
The first five minutes felt strange.
By the sixth, you had started thinking about your assignment instead.
By the eighth, you realised you were humming.
The discovery nearly made you stop again.
You hadn't hummed while walking alone in months.
You didn't even know what song it was.
Something Logan had played repeatedly until you threatened to throw his phone out the truck window.
You smiled.
Then kept going.
—
The library doors opened automatically.
Your stomach tightened.
That still happened.
The building carried memories your body wasn't ready to classify as finished.
Rain.
Missed shuttle.
Logan's truck.
Ryan waiting nearby months later.
The phone call.
Fear.
Your hand hovered near your bag.
You could leave.
That was the first thought.
Not you have to stay.
Not don't be weak.
You could leave.
Or you could go in.
You stood there for several seconds while students moved around you.
Then you entered.
No applause.
No dramatic shift.
The ceiling didn't open.
Nobody knew it mattered.
You walked to the second floor, found the section you needed and pulled a book from the shelf.
That was it.
You almost laughed.
After everything—
just a book.
You tucked it against your chest and headed towards the desk.
Your phone buzzed in your pocket.
Your shoulders jumped.
Smaller than before.
Still there.
You took it out.
Logan.
Logan: lunch?
You smiled.
You: library
The typing bubble appeared almost instantly.
Logan: alone?
You looked at the message.
Something uncomfortable moved through you.
Not anger exactly.
You understood why he asked.
For months, alone had meant dangerous.
Alone meant someone needed to come.
You typed:
You: yeah
Three dots.
They disappeared.
Returned.
Logan: want me to come?
You stared at the words.
There was the difference.
Not I'm coming.
Want me to.
Your chest softened.
You: no
You waited for the anxiety to appear after sending it.
The fear that he would think you didn't need him anymore.
Or worse, that he would insist.
His reply arrived.
Logan: okay ❤️
Then:
Logan: proud of you btw
Your throat tightened.
You: don't make it weird
Logan: impossible
You slipped the phone back into your pocket.
And finished checking out your book.
—
Logan was proud.
He was also losing his fucking mind.
Those two things apparently coexisted.
He stood near the rink entrance fifteen minutes later pretending to listen while Tucker explained something about the weekend's game.
He hadn't heard a word.
Tucker stopped speaking.
"You haven't blinked in thirty seconds."
Logan looked at him.
"What?"
"You aren't listening."
"I am."
"What did I say?"
Logan stared.
Tucker nodded.
"Exactly."
Dean skated past and stopped sharply enough to spray ice towards them.
"What's wrong with Romeo?"
"She went to the library alone."
Dean looked between them.
"And?"
Logan gestured vaguely.
"Alone."
Dean waited.
"Yes, John. That is generally what alone means."
Logan glared at him.
"I'm aware."
"Then what's the problem?"
"There isn't one."
Dean looked at Tucker.
Tucker looked at Dean.
Then both looked back at Logan.
"There is clearly a problem," Tucker said.
Logan pulled off one glove.
"I just..."
He stopped.
Because saying it aloud made him sound ridiculous.
Dean leaned against his stick.
"You want to go get her."
Logan sighed.
"Kind of."
"Did she ask you to?"
"No."
"Did she tell you not to?"
"She said she didn't want me to come."
Dean nodded.
"So you're staying here."
"Yes."
The word came out irritated.
Dean smiled.
"Look at you."
"Don't."
"Growing."
"I hate you."
"Developing healthy attachment patterns."
"Fuck off."
Tucker tried and failed to hide a laugh.
Logan looked towards the rink doors again.
"What if something happens?"
Dean's teasing disappeared.
"Then she knows what to do."
Logan's jaw tightened.
"I know."
"Do you?"
That irritated him because it sounded exactly like something he'd say to you.
Dean seemed delighted by the realisation.
"Oh, this is beautiful."
"Shut up."
"You've become her."
"I will hit you with this stick."
"Healthy attachment."
Logan shook his head and pulled his glove back on.
But the uncomfortable truth remained.
Somewhere along the way, checking on you had become part of how Logan regulated his own fear.
Your location made him feel safer too.
Knowing you were with Garrett.
Knowing Dean had walked you back.
Knowing you'd text when you reached your dorm.
He had told himself all of it was for you.
Most of it was.
Not all.
And if you were learning how to exist without constantly expecting Ryan to appear—
Logan had to learn it too.
—
You were sitting outside the library when practice finished.
Logan spotted you immediately.
You sat on the low brick wall near the entrance with the book open across your lap, one foot swinging slightly.
The sight of you there alone made something twist inside him.
Fear first.
Then pride.
Then something warm enough to swallow both.
You looked up as he approached.
"Hey."
Logan stopped in front of you.
"Hey."
You closed the book.
"How was practice?"
"Terrible."
"You lose?"
"It was practice."
"Then how do you lose?"
"Dean exists."
"Fair."
He looked at the library doors.
Then at you.
"You've been here this whole time?"
"About two hours."
His eyebrows lifted.
"Two?"
You narrowed your eyes.
"Don't."
"I'm not doing anything."
"Your face is."
"My face is supportive."
"Your face looks like Garrett's."
Logan recoiled.
"Take that back."
You laughed.
Then your expression softened.
"I was okay."
He shoved his hands into the pockets of his jacket.
"I know."
"You don't sound like you know."
He looked towards the pavement.
That caught your attention.
Logan almost never looked away when conversations became uncomfortable.
You waited.
Eventually, he sighed.
"I wanted to come get you."
You smiled faintly.
"I figured."
"I didn't."
"I know."
"It was awful."
A laugh escaped you.
"Logan."
"I'm serious."
He sat beside you.
"I kept thinking about all the stupid possibilities."
"Ryan's in prison."
"I know."
"Mason isn't allowed near me."
"I know."
"Campus knows."
"I know."
You looked at him.
"But?"
Logan rubbed his palms over his thighs.
"My brain hasn't figured out that this part is over yet."
The honesty hit you unexpectedly.
You'd spent so long thinking Logan was the steady one.
The safe one.
The person whose fear only existed when yours needed somewhere to land.
You hadn't thought about what months of watching you be followed had done to him.
"You get scared too."
He glanced at you.
"Obviously."
"You don't act like it."
"Because one of us needed to have functional motor skills."
You nudged him with your shoulder.
He smiled.
Then his expression grew serious again.
"I don't want to become another person who needs to know where you are so I can feel okay."
Your chest tightened.
"You're not."
"I could be."
The answer surprised you.
Logan looked down at his hands.
"I've gotten used to you texting when you get somewhere."
"You asked me to."
"Sometimes."
His jaw tightened.
"Sometimes I expected it without asking."
You thought back.
There had been days where he'd texted:
Made it?
You home?
Where are you?
At the time, those messages had made you feel protected.
Mostly.
But maybe safety needed to change shape now.
You placed your book beside you.
"What do we do?"
Logan laughed faintly.
"You're asking me?"
"You're the emotionally intelligent one."
"Finally."
"Don't ruin it."
He grinned.
Then considered the question.
"I think..."
He hesitated.
"We ask instead of expect."
You nodded slowly.
"If you need to know I'm somewhere because you're worried, you tell me."
"Okay."
"And I can say no."
His eyes met yours.
"Always."
"And if I want you to come somewhere—"
"I'm there."
"You don't get to skip practice every time."
"Negotiable."
"Logan."
"Fine."
You smiled.
Then something else occurred to you.
"And maybe sometimes I tell you where I am because I want to."
He looked at you.
"Not because I have to."
His expression softened.
"I'd like that."
You leaned against his shoulder.
For several seconds, you watched students leave the library.
Nobody watching you.
Nobody photographing.
Nobody keeping notes.
At least not anymore.
You smiled.
"I checked the window twice."
Logan tilted his head towards yours.
"At the library?"
"Yeah."
"Only twice?"
"Proud?"
"Incredibly."
You rolled your eyes.
"I had one moment where I thought someone was following me."
His body tensed.
You felt it.
"But they weren't."
Logan slowly relaxed.
"It was some guy trying to get around me because I was walking too slowly."
"You're tiny. He could've stepped over you."
You immediately sat upright.
"There she is."
"What?"
"Tiny librarian."
Logan's grin widened.
"Oh, I've missed her."
"I specifically asked you to stop calling me that."
"Approximately a lifetime ago."
"You promised."
"I've grown since then."
"Apparently not."
You shoved his shoulder.
He laughed.
The sound made you smile.
—
You walked back to the hockey house together.
Not because you were afraid.
Because you were going to the same place.
That distinction mattered too.
Halfway there, you slipped your hand into Logan's.
He looked down.
Then at you.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You made the face."
"What face?"
"The face where you're about to say something stupidly romantic."
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
You waited.
Ten seconds.
Then—
"I'm proud of you."
You groaned.
"There it is."
Logan laughed.
"I'm allowed."
"For getting a library book?"
"For going somewhere that scared you."
You looked ahead.
The sun had started lowering behind the campus buildings, throwing long shadows across the pavement.
"I didn't do it to prove anything."
"Good."
"I just needed the book."
"Even better."
You glanced at him.
"Why?"
"Because eventually that's what this stuff becomes."
"What?"
"Life."
His answer was simple.
You looked towards the path ahead.
Months ago, walking here alone had felt impossible.
Today you'd done it because you needed something for class.
Maybe that was the point.
Not constantly conquering fear.
Not turning every ordinary decision into some inspirational milestone.
Just living long enough that one day you realised you had done something without asking whether Ryan had taken it away from you.
You squeezed Logan's hand.
He squeezed back.
When you reached the hockey house, Garrett's car wasn't outside.
You checked automatically.
Then caught yourself.
Logan noticed.
"You good?"
"Yeah."
You looked at the empty driveway.
"Actually, where's Garrett?"
"Study group."
Your eyebrows shot up.
"Garrett voluntarily joined a study group?"
"Apparently failing economics scared him more than emotional vulnerability."
"Understandable."
You climbed the porch steps.
Then stopped with your hand on the door.
Logan almost walked into you.
"What?"
You looked back towards campus.
The library was no longer visible from here.
You thought about the route.
The people.
The buzzing phone.
The fear that had come and gone without consuming the rest of your day.
Then you smiled.
"I think I'm going back tomorrow."
Logan's expression softened.
"Alone?"
You considered it.
"Maybe."
He nodded.
No hesitation.
No disappointment.
"Okay."
Something about the answer still made your chest warm every time.
You opened the door.
Dean shouted something from the kitchen about someone touching his expensive shampoo.
Tucker shouted back that nobody wanted his overpriced shampoo.
You stepped inside.
Logan followed.
You set the library book down beside your bag.
A completely ordinary object from a completely ordinary afternoon.
And perhaps that was the nicest part.
Nobody needed to know what it had taken to bring it home.
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Quietly Yours {Dean Di Laurentis x mute!reader} Part 20
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Summary: Everyone at Briar knows Dean Di Laurentis. Nobody knows you. Not because you aren't friendly, but because people tend to make assumptions the moment they realize you don't speak. Some think you're shy. Others think you're rude. A few even assume you're deaf. You're used to correcting people with a tired smile and a note on your phone. Dean is no different...at first. Until he realizes your silence never stopped you from laughing, teasing, arguing, or caring. He starts discovering that you've always had a voice. It just isn't spoken.
Warnings: mentions of being mute, misunderstandings
The first person you told was Hannah.
Not about the cupboard.
Not about your father.
Dean was still the only person at Briar who knew the whole story, and for now you wanted it to stay that way.
You told her about the sound.
It happened on Monday afternoon in the library, almost three days after Dean had stolen your last fry and accidentally dragged an irritated ah out of you.
Hannah sat across from you, surrounded by enough notes to suggest she had an exam coming up and had left studying far too late. Her hair was twisted into a messy bun, pencil tucked behind one ear while she highlighted the same sentence for the third time.
You had been trying to decide whether to tell her for twenty minutes.
Eventually, Hannah noticed you staring.
She lowered the highlighter.
“What?”
You shook your head.
Her eyes narrowed.
“That wasn't nothing.”
You smiled faintly.
Hannah waited.
One thing you appreciated about her was that she had become good at that.
Waiting.
Not quite as good as Dean.
But good.
You picked up your phone.
Something happened.
Her expression changed immediately.
“Good something or bad something?”
You considered it.
I don't know.
Hannah closed her textbook.
All of her attention shifted towards you.
You typed slowly.
I made a sound.
She read it.
Her eyebrows pulled together.
Then understanding hit.
You watched her face carefully.
Shock came first.
Then excitement.
You saw her start to smile—
and stop herself.
It was so obvious you nearly laughed.
“Oh.”
You nodded.
Hannah folded her hands on top of the book.
“Okay.”
Your smile grew.
She looked suspicious.
“What?”
You typed.
Dean coached you.
Her mouth fell open.
“He did not.”
You stared.
“He might have texted me.”
Your eyebrows rose.
“Once.”
You continued staring.
“Fine. He sent a fairly aggressive paragraph.”
You immediately reached for your phone.
What did he say?
Hannah grabbed her own phone.
“I was specifically told not to show you.”
You held your hand out.
“No.”
You leaned farther across the table.
Hannah clutched the phone to her chest.
“You're scary.”
You signed:
Phone.
“Absolutely not.”
You narrowed your eyes.
She lasted perhaps five seconds.
“Fine.”
She unlocked it and slid it across the table.
Dean's message sat near the top.
Dean: Just a heads up. Something might come up with Y/N. If she tells you, please don't freak out or start asking her to do it again. Don't congratulate her unless she seems like she wants that. Don't say she's getting better. Don't say she's getting her voice back. Just follow her lead.
Then, twenty seconds later:
Dean: Also don't make it obvious I texted you because she'll kill me.
You slowly looked up.
Hannah was fighting a smile.
“He knows you.”
You reached for your own phone.
He's dead.
“He did it because he cares.”
Still dead.
“Fair.”
You reread the message.
There was something strangely emotional about seeing Dean explain your boundaries to someone else without revealing a single thing you hadn't permitted him to tell.
No details.
No story.
Just what you needed.
Hannah reached across the table.
“Do you want me to be excited?”
You looked up.
It was such a strange question.
And somehow exactly the right one.
You thought about it.
Then nodded.
A little.
Hannah's entire face lit up.
“Okay.”
Her voice remained soft.
“Then I'm a little excited.”
You smiled.
She squeezed your hand.
“Are you?”
You hesitated.
Then held your hand flat and rocked it slightly.
Hannah smiled.
“Kind of?”
You nodded.
“Kind of excited is good.”
You relaxed.
Then she added, “And Dean is definitely still dead.”
You nodded firmly.
“Thought so.”
He knew the second you walked into the hockey house.
Dean was standing in the kitchen with Garrett, pouring protein powder into a blender when you appeared in the doorway.
His smile came automatically.
“Hey.”
You didn't smile back.
Dean's hand stopped halfway towards the milk.
His eyes narrowed.
“What did I do?”
Garrett looked between the two of you.
“I'm going upstairs.”
Dean grabbed his sleeve.
“No. Don't leave me.”
Garrett pulled free.
“I value my life.”
He disappeared.
Dean turned towards you again.
You held up your phone.
On the screen was a screenshot of his message to Hannah.
Dean's face fell.
“Traitor.”
You crossed your arms.
“Before you get mad—”
You raised your eyebrows.
“More mad.”
You waited.
He set the protein powder down.
“I didn't tell her anything.”
You knew that.
That was why you weren't truly angry.
But Dean didn't need to know that yet.
“I only told her how not to make it weird.”
You signed:
Why?
He understood.
“Because you like Hannah.”
You waited.
“And I figured you might tell her eventually.”
You pointed towards yourself.
Then your head.
My choice.
Dean nodded immediately.
“Absolutely.”
You pointed towards his phone.
Then Hannah.
His expression softened.
“You think I took that choice away?”
You hesitated.
A little.
Dean stepped closer but stopped several feet away.
“I didn't mean to.”
You believed that too.
“I wasn't trying to tell her for you.”
He rubbed his palm over the back of his neck.
“I was trying to make sure if you did tell her, you didn't get that room full of people staring at you again.”
Your irritation loosened.
Dean watched your face.
“Still shouldn't have done it without asking.”
You nodded.
“Okay.”
No argument.
No explanation about how his intentions mattered more than your boundary.
Just—
“I'm sorry.”
You stared at him for another second.
Then typed:
She handled it perfectly.
Relief crossed his face.
“Yeah?”
You nodded.
His mouth twitched.
“So I'm forgiven?”
You held your hand flat and rocked it.
“Kind of forgiven?”
Another nod.
“I'll take it.”
You moved closer.
Dean smiled cautiously.
You wrapped your arms around his waist.
His arms closed around you immediately.
“Definitely forgiven?”
You shook your head against his chest.
He laughed.
“Worth a try.”
That evening, the two of you stayed at the hockey house while everyone else went out.
Dean had been invited.
Of course he had.
There was a party somewhere off campus, and Logan had spent almost fifteen minutes trying to convince him to go before finally noticing Dean wasn't even pretending to consider it.
“You used to be fun,” Logan complained from the hallway.
“I remain delightful.”
“You're spending Friday night doing homework.”
Dean pointed at you.
“She has homework.”
Logan stared.
“So you're watching her do homework?”
“Supportively.”
You looked up from the couch and signed:
Annoyingly.
Dean pointed triumphantly.
“See? She appreciates me.”
Tucker walked past carrying his jacket.
“That's not what she said.”
Dean's smile disappeared.
“Tucker.”
But Tucker was already leaving.
You laughed silently.
Dean looked at you.
“I'm going to become fluent solely so you two can't talk about me.”
You typed:
That's an excellent reason to learn a language.
“Spite is a powerful motivator.”
The front door closed behind the others.
The house became quiet.
Dean dropped onto the couch beside you.
“So.”
You looked at him.
“Actual homework?”
You nodded.
He sighed dramatically.
“Fine.”
You made it through forty minutes.
Then Dean got bored.
He tried reading over your shoulder.
You pushed his face away.
He lay upside down on the couch.
You ignored him.
He began tossing a small rubber puck towards the ceiling and catching it.
You confiscated it.
He sighed.
“This relationship is oppressive.”
Your hands stopped over your laptop.
Relationship.
Dean seemed to realise what he'd said at exactly the same time.
His head turned.
You looked at him.
There was that expression again.
The one from the kitchen weeks earlier when he'd accidentally said boyfriend-level coffee knowledge.
Except this time, neither of you laughed.
Dean sat upright.
“Okay.”
Your heart beat faster.
“I'm just going to ask.”
You waited.
He turned so he was facing you fully.
“Are we...?”
The confident Dean disappeared almost instantly.
You waited another few seconds, mostly because watching him struggle was entertaining.
He glared.
“You know what I'm asking.”
You smiled.
“No. Absolutely not. You've made me communicate properly for two months. You don't get to sit there and smile while I suffer.”
You laughed.
A tiny breathy sound slipped through.
Barely anything.
Dean's eyes flickered.
Then returned immediately to your face.
He didn't acknowledge it.
Your chest warmed.
You shut your laptop.
Dean swallowed.
“Do you want me to be your boyfriend?”
There it was.
Simple.
No games.
No assumption.
You looked at him for a long moment.
Dean became progressively less confident with every second.
“You can say no.”
You raised an eyebrow.
“Sign no. Whatever. You know what I mean.”
You smiled.
He rubbed his hands along his jeans.
“And this isn't me trying to rush the one-day-at-a-time thing.”
Your expression softened.
“I just—”
He stopped.
Then laughed at himself.
“I want to call you my girlfriend.”
Your heartbeat stumbled.
Dean looked down.
“I want people to know I'm with you.”
His eyes returned to yours.
“Not because I need to claim you or whatever creepy shit that sounded like.”
Your smile grew.
“I want...”
He thought about it.
“I want to know I'm allowed to choose you.”
Something inside your chest went painfully soft.
“And I want you to know I'm choosing you.”
You stared at him.
Dean waited.
Your hands rose.
His attention immediately shifted towards them.
You signed slowly.
Yes.
His eyes widened.
“Yeah?”
You nodded.
Then added:
Boyfriend.
Dean's mouth opened.
Then closed.
A grin slowly took over his entire face.
“I'm your boyfriend.”
You nodded.
He stood abruptly.
You looked up in alarm.
Dean walked in a small circle around the coffee table.
“Sorry.”
You started laughing.
“I just need a second.”
You covered your face.
“This is huge.”
Your shoulders shook harder.
He pointed towards you.
“Don't laugh at me.”
A tiny—
“Ha.”
Dean stopped.
You stopped.
The room went quiet.
This one was clearer.
Still breathy.
Still rough.
But undeniably there.
Your eyes widened.
Dean's did too.
He looked as though every instinct inside him wanted to react.
He controlled all of them.
Instead, he sat down again.
“Can I kiss my girlfriend?”
Your throat tightened for an entirely different reason.
You nodded.
Dean lifted his hands and signed the question too.
Can I kiss you?
You answered with both.
A nod.
And—
Yes.
He kissed you slowly.
One hand cupped your cheek while the other settled at your waist.
You felt him smiling against your mouth.
When you pulled back, he looked obnoxiously pleased.
“You're my girlfriend.”
You rolled your eyes.
“You realise I'm going to say that a lot.”
You nodded.
“Like, an unreasonable amount.”
You signed:
Dramatic.
“Your boyfriend is dramatic.”
You smiled.
There was something unexpectedly wonderful about hearing him say it.
Your boyfriend.
Dean.
Yours.
And you—
his.
It happened later without either of you expecting it.
You were in the kitchen making hot chocolate.
Dean insisted he could make it better.
You disagreed.
He attempted to take the spoon from your hand.
You moved it away.
“Give me the spoon.”
You shook your head.
“I have superior technique.”
Another shake.
“Y/N.”
You smiled.
Dean reached around you.
You twisted away, laughing.
He caught you around the waist.
You tried to wriggle free.
“Hand it over.”
You shook your head harder.
He reached for the spoon.
And without thinking—
without trying—
without waiting for it—
“No.”
The kitchen stopped.
The spoon slipped from Dean's fingers.
You froze.
Dean froze.
There was no mistaking it this time.
Not breath.
Not a half-formed sound.
A word.
Tiny.
Hoarse.
Rough from years of disuse.
But a word.
Your word.
Your hand went to your throat.
Dean's lips parted.
You stared at him.
For one terrible second, you couldn't breathe.
Then Dean moved.
Not towards you.
Back.
He took one deliberate step backwards, giving you space.
His hands lifted.
Okay?
Your eyes filled.
You didn't know.
Your heart was pounding so hard you could hear it.
You pressed your fingers against your neck.
The word seemed to linger there.
No.
Of all the things.
Your first word in years had been no.
A broken laugh rose inside you.
Nothing came out this time.
You didn't care.
Dean was watching you carefully.
You looked at him.
Then your hands moved.
I said no.
His eyes filled instantly.
He nodded.
“Yeah.”
A tear rolled down your cheek.
Dean's mouth trembled into the smallest smile.
“You did.”
You started laughing silently.
Another tear.
Then another.
Dean laughed too, though his voice cracked.
“Of course you did.”
You pointed towards him accusingly.
He raised both hands.
“I wasn't listening.”
Your smile widened.
“You had to escalate.”
You shoved his chest lightly.
Dean caught your hand but didn't pull you closer.
He waited.
You closed the distance yourself.
His arms wrapped around you.
You buried your face against him, somewhere between laughing and crying.
Dean held you so tightly you could feel the unevenness of his breathing.
He was crying.
You pulled back.
His eyes were wet.
You stared.
Dean wiped beneath one quickly.
“Nope.”
You raised an eyebrow.
“Nothing happening.”
You pointed at his face.
“Allergies.”
You looked around the kitchen.
“In November.”
You smiled.
Dean laughed shakily.
Then his expression became serious.
He cupped the side of your face.
“You said no.”
You nodded.
His thumb brushed beneath your eye.
“That's a pretty fucking good first word.”
Your face crumpled again.
Because he understood.
He understood why.
Your father had taught you that silence meant safety.
That saying the wrong thing could get you hurt.
That protest was dangerous.
And years later, the first word your body had finally allowed you to take back wasn't hello.
It wasn't Dean's name.
It wasn't something pretty.
It was a boundary.
No.
You buried your face against his chest again.
Dean kissed the top of your head.
“No chasing it,” he whispered.
You nodded.
“No trying again tonight.”
Another nod.
“No making it into something you have to repeat tomorrow.”
You held him tighter.
He rested his cheek against your hair.
“Just one word.”
You pulled back.
Dean looked at you.
You raised your hands.
My word.
His expression broke completely.
“Yeah.”
He took your hand and pressed a kiss into your palm.
“Your word.”
You didn't say anything else that night.
You didn't try.
Dean didn't ask.
You drank the hot chocolate you had nearly spilled, curled together on the couch and watched another one of his terrible movies.
Halfway through, he whispered, “Girlfriend.”
You looked over.
“What?”
You signed.
Dean grinned.
“Nothing.”
You rolled your eyes.
Five minutes later—
“Girlfriend.”
You elbowed him.
“Ow.”
You signed:
Annoying boyfriend.
He understood enough to laugh.
“Still your boyfriend.”
You nodded.
Dean's smile softened.
Still yours.
Later, when he drove you back to your residence, he walked you all the way to your door.
He didn't mention the word.
Not once.
At the doorway, he lifted his hands.
Goodnight.
You answered.
Goodnight.
Then he asked:
Can I kiss you?
You nodded.
Dean kissed you gently.
When he pulled away, your hand rested against his chest.
You looked at his face.
Your lips parted.
For half a second, you wondered if something would happen.
Nothing did.
A strange disappointment flickered.
Then you remembered.
No chasing it.
You smiled instead.
Dean smiled back.
“Goodnight, girlfriend.”
You rolled your eyes and closed the door in his face.
“Love you too,” he called through it jokingly.
You froze.
On the other side of the door, silence.
Dean seemed to realise what he'd said.
“Oh, shit.”
Your heart stopped.
“Y/N, I didn't mean—”
You opened the door.
Dean stood exactly where you'd left him, looking genuinely horrified.
“I mean, I didn't mean I don't—”
You covered his mouth with your hand.
Dean went silent.
You were smiling.
His shoulders slowly loosened.
You lowered your hand.
Neither of you addressed the words.
Not tonight.
There had already been enough firsts.
Dean bent down and kissed your forehead.
“One day at a time?”
You smiled and signed it back.
One day at a time.
He left.
You closed the door again.
Then stood with your back against it for a long time.
Your fingers touched your throat.
Your mind returned to the kitchen.
Not the sound.
The word.
No.
And for the first time, thinking about having a spoken voice didn't make you imagine everyone else waiting to hear it.
You thought about yourself.
About choice.
About deciding what you wanted to say.
And who you wanted to say it to.
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The Rules of The Game {Beau Maxwell x Dean's little sister/Beau's best friend!reader} Part 4
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Summary: Dean Di Laurentis' little sister needs a fake boyfriend. Beau Maxwell needs to stop being in love with said little sister and his best friend. Pretending should've been easy. Until fake kisses start feeling real.
Warnings: none
You woke up on Sunday morning with Beau Maxwell's sweatshirt on your bedroom floor.
That, in itself, wasn't particularly concerning.
You'd stolen enough of Beau's clothes over the years that there was probably an entire drawer missing from his wardrobe because of you. Sweatshirts were communal property as far as you were concerned, and Beau had learned a long time ago that anything he left unattended for more than five minutes became fair game.
What was concerning was that you couldn't remember putting it on.
You remembered leaving the party.
You remembered Beau driving you home because he'd barely touched alcohol all night.
You remembered complaining that you were cold somewhere between the front door and his car.
And then—
His sweatshirt.
He'd pulled it over his own head without a word and handed it to you.
You'd put it on.
He'd smiled.
And when he'd walked you upstairs, you'd hugged him goodnight.
Not your normal hug either.
You'd lingered.
You knew you had because you'd thought about it afterward.
For an embarrassing amount of time.
You groaned and buried your face in your pillow.
"This is stupid."
Your phone buzzed.
You blindly reached across the mattress.
BEAU: Alive?
You stared at the message.
Then smiled.
Of course.
YOU: Debatable.
BEAU: Headache?
YOU: Tiny one.
The typing bubble appeared.
BEAU: Water.
YOU: Yes dad.
BEAU: Don't ever call me that again.
You laughed.
YOU: Daddy?
There was a considerably longer pause this time.
Then—
BEAU: I'm blocking you.
You grinned into your pillow.
YOU: You couldn't survive without me.
BEAU: Unfortunately true.
Your smile softened.
There was that word again.
Unfortunately.
He'd said it last night too.
You love me.
Unfortunately.
You stared at the screen.
Something about the exchange suddenly felt too intimate.
Which was ridiculous.
You and Beau texted constantly.
There were entire conversations between you consisting purely of memes and insults. He was usually the first person you messaged when something funny happened, and you were pretty sure you knew more useless information about his life than anyone except Dean.
Nothing had changed.
Except everything felt different.
You dropped the phone onto your chest.
"Fake."
You said it aloud because apparently your brain needed reminders now.
"Fake boyfriend."
Your phone buzzed again.
BEAU: Lunch?
You looked at the sweatshirt on the floor.
Then the message.
Then the sweatshirt again.
Your stomach fluttered.
"Oh, fuck off."
You weren't entirely sure whether you were talking to yourself or him.
Probably both.
Lunch turned out not to mean lunch.
It meant Beau arriving outside your apartment twenty minutes later holding coffee and informing you that you were going grocery shopping with him.
"Absolutely not."
He held your coffee just out of reach.
"You need food."
"I have food."
"You sent me a picture of your refrigerator last week."
"So?"
"There was ketchup, half a lemon and a bottle of wine."
"There was cheese."
"There was one Babybel."
"Cheese."
"Get in the car."
You reached for the coffee.
He lifted it higher.
"Beau."
"Car."
"You're abusing your position."
"What position?"
"My fake boyfriend position."
His mouth twitched.
"Seems like a gross misuse of authority."
"Give me my coffee."
"Get in the car."
You narrowed your eyes.
He stared back.
You lasted six seconds.
"Fine."
"Good girl."
You froze.
Beau froze.
For one terrible, horrifying second, neither of you moved.
Then his eyebrows slowly lifted.
Your face went hot.
"Don't."
"I didn't say anything."
"Your face did."
His grin began.
You snatched the coffee from his hand.
"Don't you fucking dare."
"I'm not doing anything."
"You're smiling."
"Am I not allowed to smile?"
"Not like that."
"Like what?"
"Smug."
"Princess, I'm naturally smug."
You walked toward his car.
Behind you, Beau laughed.
And the traitorous flutter in your stomach returned.
"Why am I actually here?"
You pushed the cart while Beau inspected two packets of chicken as though his decision would somehow affect international diplomacy.
"Moral support."
"For groceries?"
"Big decisions."
"They're the same chicken."
"One's cheaper."
"By twelve cents."
"Money's money."
You stared at him.
"You're captain of the football team and your family has money."
"Doesn't mean I'm paying twelve unnecessary cents for chicken."
"You sound eighty."
"And yet you agreed to date me."
You lowered your voice.
"Fake date you."
"Still counts."
"It literally doesn't."
Beau put the cheaper chicken into the cart.
You looked inside.
Vegetables.
Rice.
Chicken.
Eggs.
Bread.
Fruit.
Food belonging to someone who had his life together.
Then you thought about your own refrigerator.
Half a lemon.
You reluctantly admitted he might have a point.
Beau grabbed another carton of eggs.
"Wait."
"What?"
"Why two?"
"One's for you."
You frowned.
"You don't have to buy me groceries."
"I'm not."
"You just said—"
"You're paying for yours."
"Oh."
He smiled.
"You think I'm made of money?"
"Your parents kind of are."
"My parents aren't buying your eggs."
"Rude."
He placed a loaf of bread in the cart.
Then another.
"For me?"
"Congratulations."
You smiled.
It shouldn't have felt nice.
It was bread.
Literal bread.
But Beau knew exactly what kind you bought.
Of course he did.
You followed him into another aisle.
"Do we look domestic?"
He glanced over.
"What?"
"Us."
You gestured between the cart and yourselves.
"Shopping together."
Beau stared at you for a moment.
Then looked ahead again.
"Terrifyingly."
You smiled.
"Good practice."
His jaw tightened almost imperceptibly.
"Right."
Practice.
You noticed the change this time.
"Hey."
"Hm?"
"Did I say something?"
"No."
"You went weird."
"I didn't go weird."
"You absolutely went weird."
Beau grabbed pasta from the shelf.
"Maybe I'm contemplating carbohydrates."
"Beau."
"I'm fine."
You studied him.
He didn't look at you.
Before you could push it, someone called his name.
"Beau?"
You both turned.
The girl approaching was beautiful.
Of course she was.
Tall.
Blonde.
Perfect makeup despite it being barely midday on a Sunday.
She wore leggings and a cropped sweatshirt, and judging by how quickly her expression lit up when she saw Beau, she knew him well.
Very well.
"Hey."
Beau smiled politely.
"Lauren."
Lauren.
You hated Lauren immediately.
Which was completely unreasonable.
She hadn't done anything.
She hadn't even looked at you yet.
"God, I haven't seen you in forever."
She touched Beau's arm.
Your eyes dropped to her hand.
Interesting.
Very interesting.
"I've been busy."
"Obviously."
Her fingers remained there.
Still on his arm.
Why was her hand still there?
She smiled up at him.
"You never called me back."
Oh.
Oh.
You looked at Beau.
Beau looked at you.
And something in his expression immediately became wary.
You raised your eyebrows.
Interesting.
His eyes narrowed.
Behave.
You smiled sweetly.
Absolutely not.
Lauren finally seemed to notice you.
"Oh. Hi."
"Hi."
Beau cleared his throat.
"Lauren, this is—"
"I know."
She smiled.
"Dean's sister."
Wonderful.
Not even your own identity.
Just Dean's sister.
You smiled back.
"That's me."
Lauren looked between you.
Then at the cart.
"Shopping together?"
"Yeah."
Beau answered.
Her gaze lingered.
Then she looked back at him.
"Anyway, you should text me sometime."
Your grip tightened slightly around the cart.
Beau scratched his jaw.
"Probably shouldn't."
Lauren blinked.
"Why?"
Beau didn't hesitate.
He stepped closer to you.
His arm slid around your waist.
"She's my girlfriend."
You already knew it was coming.
You'd literally invented this situation.
Still, hearing him say it did something ridiculous to you.
Lauren looked at you again.
This time properly.
"Oh."
You smiled.
"Hi again."
Beau coughed suspiciously beside you.
Lauren's expression tightened.
"I didn't know."
"It's pretty new," you said.
"Three months," Beau corrected.
You glanced at him.
"Right. Three months."
Lauren looked confused.
"But you were at Ryan's Halloween party."
Beau nodded.
"Yeah."
"You were alone."
"No, I wasn't."
Her eyebrows pulled together.
You could practically see her doing the maths.
Then Beau's thumb moved against your waist.
He looked at you.
"You left early because you had that exam."
Your heart stumbled.
Because you had.
You'd forgotten about that.
He hadn't.
"Right."
You smiled up at him.
"You came over afterward."
Beau stared at you.
You hadn't discussed this part.
But you saw the moment he decided to play along.
"Couldn't sleep without you."
That bastard.
Your stomach dropped straight through the floor.
Lauren looked distinctly uncomfortable now.
"Well..."
She stepped backward.
"Congratulations, I guess."
"Thanks," Beau said.
You smiled.
"Thank you."
She disappeared around the corner.
The second she was gone, Beau released you.
You turned to him.
"You couldn't sleep without me?"
He shrugged.
"Convincing."
"You're ridiculous."
"You told her I came over."
"I panicked."
"So did I."
"You didn't look panicked."
"I'm a talented performer."
You rolled your eyes and pushed the cart forward.
Beau followed.
After a few seconds—
"Why'd you hate her?"
You stopped.
Slowly turned.
"What?"
"Lauren."
"I don't hate her."
"You absolutely hated her."
"I met her for forty-five seconds."
"And hated every single one."
"I did not."
Beau's grin appeared.
You immediately disliked where this was going.
"Were you jealous?"
You laughed.
Too loudly.
"No."
"Princess."
"I wasn't jealous."
"You were strangling the shopping cart."
"I grip things aggressively."
"Apparently."
"I didn't like her attitude."
"What attitude?"
"She called me Dean's sister."
"You are Dean's sister."
"I also have a name."
"Which she knows."
"Then she could've used it."
Beau was openly smiling now.
"You're jealous."
"I am not."
"You're adorable."
Your mouth dropped open.
"I'm leaving."
"You're my ride."
"No. You're my ride."
"Exactly. You're stuck."
You turned and started walking away anyway.
Beau caught up easily.
"Come on."
"Go call Lauren."
He laughed.
There was something irritatingly delighted about it.
"Jesus Christ."
"What's funny?"
"You."
"I hate you."
"No, you don't."
"Currently reconsidering."
Beau moved in front of the cart, forcing you to stop.
"She doesn't matter."
You frowned.
"I don't care."
"I know."
"Then why are you saying that?"
"Because you're clearly bothered."
"I'm not."
His smile softened.
"Okay."
You stared at him.
That was somehow worse.
"Don't okay me."
"Okay."
"Beau."
His grin returned.
You shoved the cart directly into his hip.
"Violence isn't the answer, princess."
"It is today."
You were still thinking about Lauren an hour later.
Which was incredibly irritating.
Not because you were jealous.
You weren't.
There was nothing to be jealous about.
Beau could sleep with whoever he wanted.
Date whoever he wanted.
Kiss whoever he wanted.
You weren't actually together.
This entire thing had an expiration date.
Three months.
Well, technically slightly less than three months now.
And afterward Beau would presumably go back to doing whatever Beau did before you'd dragged him into your ridiculous scheme.
Maybe that included Lauren.
You didn't like that thought.
Which was stupid.
You shoved a carton of milk into your refrigerator harder than necessary.
"What did the milk do to you?"
You jumped.
Beau was leaning against your kitchen counter.
"You need to stop appearing silently."
"I've been standing here for five minutes."
"Why are you still here?"
He looked offended.
"I carried your groceries upstairs."
"Heroic."
"You're welcome."
He had also put half of them away because you'd become distracted trying to reorganise a cupboard.
Now you had actual food in your kitchen.
It looked unnatural.
Beau opened your freezer.
"What are you doing?"
"Checking something."
"Why?"
He stared inside.
Then looked at you.
"No ice cream."
"So?"
"You always have ice cream."
"I forgot."
He shook his head.
"Disaster."
"I'll survive."
"Debatable."
He shut the freezer.
His phone buzzed.
You didn't mean to look.
You really didn't.
The screen was just... there.
On the counter.
Face up.
LAUREN: Sorry if I made things awkward earlier. I genuinely didn't know. Let me know if things change x
Your stomach dropped.
Beau looked at the screen.
Then at you.
You immediately busied yourself with putting cereal away.
"Popular guy."
He picked up the phone.
"Apparently."
"Better keep her number."
He frowned.
"Why?"
"For when things change."
The words came out more bitterly than you intended.
Silence.
Fuck.
You kept your back to him.
"I mean..."
You shoved the cereal into the cupboard.
"When this ends."
"I know what you meant."
Something in his voice made you turn around.
Beau was watching you.
"Okay."
He unlocked his phone.
Pressed something.
Then put it back down.
"What did you do?"
"Deleted it."
Your eyebrows lifted.
"Why?"
"Don't need it."
"You might."
"No."
"You don't know that."
"I do."
You frowned.
"Why?"
Beau stared at you.
For one strange second, the room felt smaller.
His expression changed.
Not playful anymore.
Not teasing.
Just...
Serious.
"Because I'm not interested in Lauren."
"Oh."
The word came out quietly.
Beau's eyes remained on yours.
"Never really was."
"But she said you didn't call her back."
"Exactly."
Understanding dawned.
"Oh."
"Yeah."
You swallowed.
"Who are you interested in, then?"
The question escaped before you could stop it.
Beau went utterly still.
Fuck.
You wanted to grab the words out of the air and swallow them.
"I mean—"
Your face heated.
"Not that it's my business."
"No."
"It's not."
"I was just asking because—"
"You're curious."
"Exactly."
Beau took a step closer.
Your heart reacted immediately.
One violent thump.
Then another.
"Why are you curious?"
"I don't know."
"Princess."
"Don't princess me."
His mouth twitched.
"You asked."
"And now I'm unasking."
"Can't do that."
"Watch me."
You turned away.
Beau laughed quietly.
Then—
"I've liked someone for a while."
You stopped.
Your fingers tightened around the edge of the counter.
You weren't sure why hearing that made your chest feel strange.
"Oh."
"Yeah."
"Does she know?"
"No."
You turned back.
"Why not?"
"Complicated."
"Does she like you?"
His eyes locked onto yours.
"I don't know."
The way he said it made your pulse jump.
You stared at each other.
There it was again.
That strange feeling.
Like you were having two conversations simultaneously.
One spoken.
One completely silent.
You cleared your throat.
"Well..."
Your voice sounded wrong.
"You should probably tell her."
Beau gave a small smile.
"Think so?"
"Yeah."
"What if it ruins things?"
"If she cares about you, it won't."
His expression softened.
"You think?"
"Of course."
Beau looked down.
And for some reason, you suddenly wanted to know everything.
Who she was.
How long he'd liked her.
How they'd met.
Whether you'd met her.
Whether she was prettier than you.
That last thought made you want to throw yourself out the window.
You crossed your arms.
"So who is she?"
Beau laughed.
"What?"
"I'm your friend."
"Are you?"
"Excuse me?"
"You've spent half the day assaulting me with groceries."
"You deserved it."
"Debatable."
"Tell me."
"No."
"Why?"
"Because."
"That's not a reason."
"It's my reason."
You narrowed your eyes.
"Do I know her?"
Beau's smile disappeared.
"Very well."
Your stomach dropped.
You did?
Your brain immediately began rifling through every woman you both knew.
Allie?
Absolutely not.
Beau would never.
Hannah?
No.
She and Garrett were—
Obviously no.
One of your friends?
Your stomach twisted again.
"You've never told me about this."
"I know."
"We tell each other everything."
"Not everything."
Apparently not.
You weren't sure why that bothered you so much.
"How long?"
Beau sighed.
"Can we stop interrogating me?"
"No."
"Of course not."
"How long?"
He looked at you.
"A while."
"Months?"
"Yeah."
"A year?"
Silence.
Your eyes widened.
"Beau."
He looked away.
"Jesus."
You stared at him.
"You've liked someone for a year and never told me?"
"Apparently."
"Why?"
His jaw flexed.
"Because I couldn't have her."
The answer wiped every joke from your mind.
Your voice softened.
"Why not?"
Beau looked back at you.
And your breath caught.
There was something in his eyes you couldn't read.
Or maybe something you weren't ready to read.
"Timing."
"Oh."
"Yeah."
You didn't know what else to say.
Which was strange.
You could always talk to Beau.
Silence between you had never felt uncomfortable.
Now it felt loaded.
Heavy.
You looked away first.
"Well..."
You reached for another grocery bag.
"I hope it works out."
Beau's laugh was quiet.
"Me too."
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Enemy Blood {Garrett Graham x twin sister} Part 18
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Summary: Twelve years ago, Y/N Graham ran away and left her twin brother behind. Now she's back, wearing their dead mother's name on her jersey—and Garrett is about to learn that some wounds don't heal just because you stop talking about them.
Warnings: angst, twin sibling drama, hockey rivalry, family trauma, estranged siblings, garrett graham deserves a headache, reader chooses violence, eventual sibling reconciliation
A/N: I promise that the competition between Dean and Y/N is coming next chapter :) <3
Garrett woke up because he couldn't feel his hand.
At first, he assumed he'd slept on it.
Then he became aware of warmth pressed against his side, someone breathing softly against his shoulder and fingers still loosely tangled through his.
He opened his eyes.
Y/N had crossed the invisible line they'd created down the middle of the bed sometime during the night.
Not by much.
Her head rested close to his shoulder, hair spread across his pillow. One knee had apparently ventured into his territory too, and the blankets had been dragged almost entirely towards her side.
Garrett stared at the ceiling.
Some things really didn't change.
Carefully, he tried moving his hand.
Y/N immediately tightened her grip.
He stopped.
A few seconds passed.
Then, without opening her eyes, she mumbled, "Stop moving."
Garrett's mouth twitched.
"My arm is dead."
"Sounds personal."
"You've cut off the circulation."
"You'll live."
"You don't know that."
She cracked one eye open.
"You survived Dad. I think you'll survive holding my hand."
The humour disappeared before either of them could stop it.
Y/N's eyes opened properly.
Garrett looked at her.
For a second, he wondered if she'd retreat.
She didn't.
Instead she loosened her fingers slightly.
"Sorry."
"Don't be."
"For the hand."
"Oh."
Garrett flexed his fingers.
Pins and needles immediately shot through his palm.
"Actually, yeah. You should be sorry."
Y/N shoved him weakly.
"Idiot."
She rolled onto her back.
The room was pale with morning light. Neither of them had closed the curtains properly the night before, and a thin strip of sunlight cut across the floor.
Garrett checked the clock.
9:17.
He couldn't remember the last time he'd slept that late.
Probably because he couldn't remember the last time he'd actually slept.
Y/N rubbed both hands over her face.
"Did we really listen to Mom last night?"
"Yeah."
She stared upwards.
"I hoped I dreamt the tomato part."
Garrett turned towards her.
"Oh, no. That's staying forever."
"I was eight."
"You traumatised me."
"You recovered."
"I avoided tomatoes for two years."
"You still don't eat them."
"Because they're disgusting."
"Because you think they're full of bugs."
Garrett grabbed a pillow.
Y/N immediately raised both hands.
"You wouldn't."
He hit her with it.
She made an offended noise and snatched the second pillow.
"What happened to your wrist?"
"What happened to your concern?"
"Temporarily suspended."
She swung.
Garrett blocked it with his forearm.
Y/N swung again.
He grabbed the pillow.
She refused to release it.
For several seconds, they wrestled over it like children until Garrett yanked hard enough to pull her halfway across the bed.
Y/N landed against him.
Both froze.
Then she started laughing.
Garrett couldn't help it.
He did too.
It wasn't the careful laughter they'd been giving each other over the last few days. The kind that always carried the awareness of everything waiting beneath it.
This was ugly laughter.
Breathless.
Stupid.
Y/N tried to pull the pillow back.
Garrett held it out of reach.
"You cheated!"
"How?"
"You're stronger."
"Skill issue."
"I have an injured wrist!"
"Then stop starting fights."
"You started it."
"You started it in 2007."
She kicked him beneath the blankets.
Garrett laughed harder.
A knock hit the bedroom door.
Both stopped.
Dean's voice came through.
"Are you two murdering each other?"
Garrett looked at Y/N.
She covered her mouth to stop herself laughing.
"No," Garrett called.
There was a pause.
"Are you sure?"
"Go away."
"We heard crashing."
Y/N called, "He's losing a fight."
Garrett's head snapped towards her.
"You traitor."
Dean sounded delighted.
"Wilkinson, I knew I liked you."
Garrett threw the pillow at the door.
Dean laughed from the hallway.
"Breakfast in twenty! Also, Garrett, your sister snores."
Y/N's face dropped.
"I do not."
Garrett smiled slowly.
"You do."
Her eyes narrowed.
"You said that when we were kids."
"Because it was true."
"I didn't snore last night."
"You sounded like a lawnmower."
"You're lying."
"Ask Dean. Apparently he heard you through the wall."
Y/N climbed out of bed.
"I hate this house."
Garrett watched her gather clothes from her bag.
"No, you don't."
She glanced back.
He hadn't meant to say it quite so confidently.
Y/N studied him for a second.
Then looked away.
"No," she said quietly.
"I don't."
The kitchen smelled like bacon.
Y/N came downstairs wearing leggings and an Eastwood sweatshirt this time, Garrett following several minutes later because she had banned him from the bathroom until she finished getting ready.
Dean looked up from the table.
"Morning, roomies."
Garrett stopped.
"Don't."
Dean grinned.
"What? You're literally sharing a room."
"We're twins."
"I didn't say anything weird."
"You were thinking it weird."
"I'm always thinking weird."
Y/N opened the cupboard.
Garrett watched her stare inside.
"What are you looking for?"
"Mugs."
"Second shelf."
"I can see that."
"You've been staring at them for twenty seconds."
"Because I'm deciding which one belongs to Dean."
From the table, Dean became serious.
"Don't."
Y/N reached for a black mug.
Dean shot to his feet.
"Not that one."
She paused.
"This one?"
"Yes."
She took it down.
"Perfect."
"Wilkinson."
Y/N walked towards the coffee pot.
"I was told not to use Dean's mug."
"You know that's mine!"
"Do I?"
"There is literally a D on it."
She turned the mug around.
A huge white letter D covered one side.
Y/N examined it.
"Could mean dishwasher."
Logan choked on his coffee.
Garrett leaned against the counter, openly laughing.
Dean looked betrayed.
"You're encouraging her."
"I have twelve years to make up for."
"She's been here one night and you're already unbearable together."
Tucker slid a plate onto the table.
"They're twins. What did you expect?"
"Some sort of balance."
Y/N poured coffee into Dean's mug.
Dean watched in horror.
Then she handed it to him.
"I don't actually want this."
He took it suspiciously.
"Why?"
"Because Garrett told me you get weird about your mug."
Dean looked at Garrett.
Garrett suddenly found the refrigerator fascinating.
"You told her?"
"It came up."
"When?"
"House rules."
"You've betrayed me."
"You have eight other mugs."
"None of them are mine."
Y/N sat beside Logan.
"I understand completely."
Dean pointed at her.
"Thank you."
"Still funny, though."
He sat back down.
Garrett took the chair beside her.
Tucker put food in front of him before Garrett could ask.
"Eat."
"Why does everyone keep ordering me around?"
"Because otherwise you forget basic human functions," Logan said.
Y/N nodded.
"He did that as a kid too."
Garrett looked at her.
"Did what?"
"Forgot to eat."
"No, I didn't."
"You used to come home from practice, play video games for five hours and then wonder why you had a headache."
"I was twelve."
"You did it until I left."
Garrett picked up his fork.
"Fine."
Y/N looked oddly pleased.
He realised she'd remembered something ordinary again.
Not screaming.
Not locked doors.
Not their mother dying.
Him forgetting lunch.
Garrett decided he could live with being insulted if that was what came with it.
His phone buzzed on the table.
Every person in the kitchen went still.
The reaction was instant.
Garrett looked at the screen.
Coach Jensen.
Some of the tension disappeared.
He answered.
"Hey."
Y/N continued eating, but Garrett noticed how closely she listened.
"Yeah, we're both here."
A pause.
"No, I didn't forget."
Another pause.
Garrett looked across at Dean.
"What?"
Dean mouthed, Who is it?
Garrett ignored him.
"Fine. We'll be there."
He ended the call.
Y/N frowned.
"Where?"
"The rink."
Her eyes lit up.
"Dean."
Dean grinned.
"Our challenge."
"No."
Garrett pointed at both of them.
"Not your ridiculous competition. Coach wants everyone there."
Y/N's smile vanished slightly.
"Why?"
"Team meeting."
"I'm not on your team."
"He specifically said you too."
Her brows pulled together.
"Why?"
Garrett hesitated.
"Apparently the university has been contacted by the media."
The kitchen went quiet.
Y/N put her fork down.
"What media?"
"Several outlets."
"About Dad?"
"About everything."
Dean's expression sobered.
Garrett continued.
"Someone leaked that Phil was arrested at the old Briar development centre."
Logan swore quietly.
Y/N leaned back in her chair.
"Do they know about us?"
Garrett looked at her.
"Yes."
Something closed behind her eyes.
"How much?"
"I don't know."
She stood.
Garrett rose automatically.
"Y/N."
"I'm fine."
He almost said it.
You don't look fine.
He stopped himself.
She noticed.
"What?"
"Nothing."
Her gaze narrowed.
Garrett changed course.
"We'll find out before anyone says anything publicly."
"You already have a public life."
"I play college hockey."
"Exactly."
"That doesn't mean they get our family history."
"It means they're going to try."
Garrett couldn't argue with that.
Phil Graham had spent years attached to hockey. His name had appeared in sports sections long before Garrett ever put on a Briar jersey.
A former hockey star arrested after an alleged hostage situation involving his two children?
People would want the story.
Y/N walked towards the counter and poured out the rest of her untouched coffee.
Garrett watched it disappear down the sink.
"You don't have to come."
Her head turned.
"Yes, I do."
"I can find out what's happening and come back."
"No."
"Y/N—"
"This isn't just your scandal."
Garrett flinched.
She saw it.
"I didn't mean—"
"I know."
He rested his hands on the back of his chair.
"It's not a scandal."
"To them it will be."
She looked towards the window.
"They'll put his hockey photographs beside ours. They'll call Mom's death a family tragedy. They'll find out I ran away and turn it into some mysterious missing-daughter story."
Garrett's stomach twisted because she was probably right.
"They'll ask why I changed my name."
"You don't have to answer."
"They'll answer for me."
That was the problem.
People hated empty spaces.
Phil had spent years filling them with lies.
Y/N had survived by refusing to explain herself.
Now strangers might decide they deserved an explanation.
Garrett crossed the kitchen slowly.
He stopped several feet from her.
"What do you want me to do?"
She turned.
The question seemed to surprise her.
Not here's what we're doing.
Not I'll handle it.
What do you want?
Y/N thought for a moment.
"Don't speak for me."
Garrett nodded immediately.
"Okay."
"If someone asks why I'm Wilkinson, don't tell them."
"Okay."
"If reporters come near me—"
Dean interrupted.
"They won't."
Everyone looked at him.
He shrugged.
"They won't get close."
"Dean," Logan warned.
"What? I didn't say I'd commit a crime."
"Your face did."
Y/N almost smiled.
Dean leaned back.
"We can be useful without speaking for you."
Tucker nodded.
"Getting between you and cameras isn't the same as deciding what you say."
Y/N looked around the kitchen.
She seemed uncomfortable with the sudden wall of support.
Garrett recognised it.
Too much kindness had always made her suspicious.
He broke it.
"Plus Dean's head is enormous. It'll block most cameras."
Dean looked offended.
"My proportions are excellent."
Y/N laughed once.
The tension loosened.
Garrett grabbed his keys.
"We'll figure it out."
Y/N looked at him.
"Together?"
He smiled.
"Apparently that's our thing."
Coach Jensen's office wasn't built for six hockey players, one Eastwood defender and Hannah.
Hannah had already been there when they arrived, sitting in one of the chairs opposite Coach's desk. Allie stood behind her, arms folded, while several members of Briar's athletics administration crowded near the windows.
Y/N stopped in the doorway.
Garrett almost bumped into her.
She looked at Allie.
Then Hannah.
Hannah smiled.
"Hi."
Y/N gave a cautious wave.
Allie stared between Y/N and Garrett.
Garrett knew exactly what was coming.
"Oh my God."
Y/N closed her eyes.
Garrett sighed.
Allie pointed.
"You actually do have the same face."
"We don't," both twins said simultaneously.
The room went silent.
Dean burst out laughing.
Allie looked delighted.
"That was horrifying."
Y/N looked at Garrett.
"Your friends are irritating."
"They're growing on you."
"No."
Allie moved towards her.
"I'm Allie."
"Y/N."
"I know. Hannah told me about you."
Y/N's expression immediately became guarded.
Hannah stepped in.
"Only the good stuff."
"There is no good stuff."
"She told me you scared the shit out of someone who deserved it."
Allie held out her hand.
"That qualifies."
Y/N shook it.
Then Coach cleared his throat.
The room settled.
Garrett took a chair.
Y/N stood beside the wall.
He didn't tell her to sit.
A woman from the university communications office introduced herself, but Garrett barely caught the name.
His attention remained on his sister.
"We received requests for comment beginning early this morning," the woman explained. "At this stage, police have confirmed only that Phil Graham was arrested during an ongoing criminal investigation."
"What was leaked?" Garrett asked.
"The location. Your involvement. Y/N's identity."
Y/N's jaw tightened.
"What identity?"
The woman hesitated.
"That you were previously Y/N Graham."
The room became very still.
Y/N's face revealed nothing.
Garrett felt anger rise anyway.
"Previously?"
"I'm repeating the language used in the inquiries."
"She's Y/N Wilkinson."
Y/N looked at him.
Garrett stopped.
He had promised not to speak for her.
He turned slightly towards her.
"Sorry."
The communications officer noticed.
Y/N folded her arms.
"What exactly are they asking?"
The woman opened her tablet.
"Whether you are Garrett's missing twin sister. Whether you have been living under an assumed identity—"
"It's not assumed."
Y/N's voice was sharp enough to cut across the office.
"Wilkinson is my legal name."
The woman nodded.
"I understand."
"Do they?"
"Probably not yet."
Y/N looked away.
The woman continued more carefully.
"They're also asking about Claire Graham's death."
Garrett's hands tightened.
"What about it?"
"Whether police are reopening the investigation."
"They are," Y/N said.
Garrett looked at her.
She didn't seem to regret answering.
The communications officer nodded.
"That information hasn't been released publicly."
"Then don't release it."
"We won't."
"What about Dad's arrest?" Garrett asked.
"The police will handle criminal questions. The university's concern is protecting students and staff from unwanted media contact."
Dean raised his hand.
Garrett stared at him.
"This isn't class."
Dean lowered it.
"I have a question anyway."
Coach rubbed his forehead.
"What?"
"Can we physically remove reporters from campus?"
"No."
"What if they fall?"
"No."
"What if—"
"Dean."
"Fine."
Y/N covered a smile with her hand.
The communications officer looked towards Garrett.
"Because of your visibility as team captain, we expect reporters may approach you first."
Garrett nodded.
"I'll say no comment."
"That's our recommendation."
"And Y/N?"
Everyone looked at her.
She stiffened.
The woman answered carefully.
"Y/N has no obligation to speak to anyone."
"I know that."
Garrett immediately wished he'd kept quiet.
Y/N glanced at him.
He held up his hands.
She looked almost amused.
The communications officer continued.
"If you want, Eastwood's media office can issue a short statement confirming your name and asking for privacy."
"No."
The answer was immediate.
Garrett watched her.
Y/N uncrossed her arms.
"I've spent twelve years deciding who gets to know where I came from. I'm not introducing myself to strangers because someone leaked my life."
No one argued.
Coach Jensen nodded once.
"Then we say nothing."
The communications officer made a note.
Y/N's shoulders relaxed by a fraction.
A phone rang.
One of the administrators answered, listened briefly and stepped outside.
Garrett noticed Coach exchange a look with him before the door closed.
"What?" Garrett asked.
Coach sighed.
"There's already someone outside the arena."
Y/N went completely still.
"A reporter?"
"At least one."
Garrett stood.
She looked at him immediately.
"No."
He frowned.
"I didn't say anything."
"You were going to."
"I was going to ask which entrance."
"You're doing the thing."
"What thing?"
"Planning how to get me out without asking me."
Garrett stopped.
She was right.
He sat back down.
"Okay."
Y/N blinked.
"What?"
"How do you want to leave?"
The question seemed almost irritating to her.
Like she had prepared herself to fight and suddenly had nowhere to put it.
She looked towards the window.
"We use the front."
Coach frowned.
"Y/N."
"If we sneak out the back, they'll camp outside until they get a photograph."
"There's already photographs of you," Allie said.
"Not with Garrett."
Garrett understood.
That was what they wanted.
The reunion.
The missing twin.
Two Graham children back together after twelve years.
A perfect headline.
Y/N stared at him.
"If we walk out separately, they get to write whatever story they want."
Garrett waited.
She took a breath.
"So we walk out together."
Something tightened in his chest.
"You sure?"
"No."
He nodded.
"Okay."
She frowned.
"That's it?"
"You said you wanted to."
"I expected an argument."
"I’m working on myself."
Dean leaned towards Logan.
"It's creepy."
Logan nodded.
"I preferred him emotionally repressed."
Garrett flipped them both off.
Y/N smiled.
There were four reporters by the time they reached the main entrance.
Two cameras.
One photographer.
A man holding a microphone who immediately straightened when Garrett became visible through the glass.
Y/N stopped.
Garrett stopped with her.
Everyone else remained several feet behind.
The doors suddenly looked very far away.
Garrett could feel her breathing change.
Not panic.
Not yet.
Y/N's right hand curled against the sleeve of her sweatshirt.
He wanted to take it.
He didn't.
"What do you need?" he asked quietly.
She looked at him.
There was noise beyond the glass.
People calling his name already.
"Just..."
She swallowed.
"Stay beside me."
Garrett nodded.
"I can do that."
He didn't promise to protect her.
Didn't promise nothing would happen.
He simply stood where she asked him to.
Y/N pushed open the door.
Noise rushed towards them.
"Garrett!"
"Garrett, can you confirm—"
"Y/N! Y/N Wilkinson!"
Her body flinched when someone shouted her name.
Garrett remained beside her.
Not ahead.
They kept walking.
"Is it true you're Garrett Graham's missing sister?"
Y/N's pace faltered.
Garrett felt rage hit so quickly he nearly tasted it.
Missing.
Like she had been an object misplaced for twelve years.
Y/N's hand suddenly found his.
She gripped it.
Garrett looked down.
Then back ahead.
The cameras clicked faster.
"Garrett, when did you find out your sister was alive?"
Neither answered.
"Y/N, why did you change your surname?"
Her fingers tightened.
Garrett didn't speak.
He had promised.
"Did you run away because of your father?"
Y/N stopped.
Garrett felt it immediately.
He looked at her.
The reporter took a step closer.
"Y/N, police records indicate you entered foster care after disappearing from the Graham family home. Did you accuse your father of involvement in your mother's death?"
Garrett stepped forward before he could stop himself.
Y/N caught his arm.
"No."
He turned.
Her face had gone pale, but her eyes were hard.
"Don't."
The reporter tried again.
"Y/N—"
She turned towards him.
Garrett went still.
He had expected her to keep walking.
Instead, Y/N looked directly at the camera.
"My name is Y/N Wilkinson."
The cameras continued clicking.
She lifted her chin.
"I didn't disappear."
Garrett stared at her.
Y/N's hand remained wrapped around his.
"I left."
The reporter opened his mouth.
She didn't let him speak.
"And I don't owe anyone the story of what happened to me after that."
Silence spread strangely through the small crowd.
"The police are investigating my mother's death and my father's actions. Anything else belongs to me and my family."
Family.
Garrett's throat tightened.
Y/N continued.
"So if you're going to print my name, print the right one."
She turned.
"Wilkinson."
Then she walked away.
Garrett went with her.
For about three seconds, everyone was too surprised to follow.
Then questions erupted behind them.
Garrett barely heard them.
He was looking at his sister.
They reached his truck.
Y/N let go of his hand only when she needed to open the passenger door.
Garrett stopped beside her.
"That was..."
She pointed at him.
"Don't."
"I was going to say badass."
Her hand lowered.
"Oh."
"You thought I was going to get emotional."
"You've got the face."
Garrett laughed.
Y/N climbed inside.
Before he closed the door, she looked towards the reporters.
Her bravado faded slightly.
"Did I just make everything worse?"
Garrett leaned against the open door.
"Probably."
She stared at him.
"What?"
"You want me to lie?"
"No."
"It'll be everywhere by tonight."
"Great."
"But."
She waited.
Garrett looked at her.
"You said what you wanted them to know. Not what Dad wanted them to believe."
Y/N's expression softened.
Garrett tapped the edge of the door.
"I think Mom would've liked that."
Her eyes immediately filled.
She groaned.
"You've ruined it."
"What?"
"I was feeling powerful."
"You can cry powerfully."
"Shut up."
Garrett smiled and closed the door.
By four that afternoon, Y/N's statement was everywhere.
Dean discovered it first.
He walked into the living room holding his phone above his head.
"Wilkinson's trending."
Y/N looked up from where she sat beside Hannah.
"I'm what?"
"Trending."
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
Dean turned the screen towards her.
Her own face stared back.
A photograph taken outside the arena showed her holding Garrett's hand while looking directly at the reporter.
The headline beneath it read:
GARRETT GRAHAM'S MISSING TWIN BREAKS SILENCE: "I DIDN'T DISAPPEAR. I LEFT."
Y/N stared.
Then—
"I told them my name."
Dean scrolled.
"Some changed it."
"Some?"
Logan took out his own phone.
"Several outlets are using Wilkinson now."
"Several isn't all."
Garrett came in carrying two drinks.
"What happened?"
Dean held the phone towards him.
"Your sister broke the internet."
Garrett handed Y/N one of the drinks.
"Coffee."
She accepted it automatically.
"Why am I trending?"
"Because you're related to me."
She stared.
Garrett smiled.
"Joke."
"Bad one."
"I panicked."
Hannah took Dean's phone.
"Most of the comments are supportive."
Y/N looked horrified.
"Do not read comments."
"Good rule," Logan said.
"Never read comments," Garrett agreed.
Dean reached for the phone.
"I read comments."
"You're emotionally defective," Tucker said from the kitchen.
"True."
Y/N looked down at her drink.
Garrett sat beside her.
Their shoulders touched.
"You okay?"
She nodded.
Then shook her head.
Then shrugged.
"Ask me again tomorrow."
"Fair."
Hannah put Dean's phone face down.
"You don't have to be okay with people knowing."
"I know."
"It's weird when strangers talk about the worst thing that ever happened to you like it's entertainment."
Y/N looked at her.
Hannah understood better than anyone in the room.
"I hate that they know I was in foster care."
"Why?"
Y/N rubbed her thumb over the coffee lid.
"Because people hear foster kid and start deciding things."
"Like what?"
"That you're damaged. Difficult. Troubled."
Garrett frowned.
"I don't think that."
She glanced at him.
"You thought I abandoned you."
"That's different."
"Is it?"
He stopped.
Y/N sighed.
"I'm not trying to start a fight."
"No. You're right."
She looked surprised.
Garrett rested his forearms against his knees.
"I decided who you were without knowing anything that happened to you."
"And I did the same to you."
"Yeah."
A small silence.
Dean appeared ready to say something.
Logan grabbed the back of his shirt.
"No."
"I didn't even speak."
"I know you."
Dean looked offended.
Y/N smiled into her coffee.
Her phone vibrated on the table.
She glanced at it.
Then froze.
Garrett saw her expression.
"What?"
She picked up the phone.
"It's Detective Ellis."
The room quieted.
Y/N answered.
"Hello?"
Everyone watched without pretending otherwise.
Her expression changed gradually as she listened.
First confusion.
Then disbelief.
Then something Garrett couldn't identify.
"When?"
She looked towards him.
Garrett sat straighter.
"Yeah. We're together."
A pause.
"No. That's fine."
Another pause.
Y/N swallowed.
"Okay."
She ended the call.
Garrett waited approximately half a second.
"What happened?"
Y/N stared at the dark screen.
"They formally charged him."
No one spoke.
Garrett's chest tightened.
"With Mom?"
She nodded.
"Second-degree murder."
The room became completely silent.
Tucker turned off the tap in the kitchen.
Y/N looked at Garrett.
"Meyers's statement was enough to get an emergency review of the evidence. Mom's recording, Nancy's testimony, the medical records..."
She stopped.
Garrett's hand found hers.
"What else?"
Y/N looked down at their fingers.
"They found the original autopsy photographs."
Garrett frowned.
"I thought they'd already had them."
"They had copies."
Her voice shook.
"Apparently Dad knew someone at the hospital. Some of the images weren't included in the file that went to investigators."
Garrett went cold.
Of course.
Another person.
Another favour.
Another hole in the truth deliberately created because Phil Graham knew the right people.
"What did they show?"
Y/N's eyes lifted.
"Bruising around Mom's neck."
Garrett stopped breathing.
The recording.
He has held my throat until I couldn't breathe.
Y/N's hand tightened.
"And injuries to her back that weren't consistent with falling down the stairs."
Hannah covered her mouth.
Garrett looked away.
For years, he'd pictured the stairs.
His mother's body at the bottom.
His father telling him not to look.
An accident.
Then an argument.
Then a push.
Now there was something else.
Violence before the fall.
A fight Claire knew she might not survive.
Garrett felt himself disappearing into it.
Then Y/N squeezed his hand.
Once.
He looked at her.
Two fingers rose beneath her eye.
Their signal.
Watch me.
Garrett breathed.
She was here.
He was here.
The room returned.
"There's more," Y/N whispered.
Garrett didn't know if he could take more.
He nodded anyway.
"Ellis said Dad entered a plea."
Dean frowned.
"Already?"
"There was an emergency arraignment at the hospital."
Garrett knew before she said it.
Phil would never admit what he had done.
"Not guilty."
Y/N nodded.
Something almost like laughter escaped Garrett.
Of course.
Of fucking course.
Their mother's voice was on tape.
Nancy had witnessed years of abuse.
Meyers claimed Phil admitted pushing Claire.
Their father had kidnapped people, stalked his children and nearly blown up a house.
And he was still insisting none of it belonged to him.
Y/N watched Garrett carefully.
"What?"
He shook his head.
"Nothing."
"You're angry."
"Yeah."
"Me too."
The honesty helped.
More than pretending.
Garrett looked at her.
"What happens now?"
"Trial."
The word settled heavily.
Y/N's expression changed as she said it.
Garrett understood why.
A trial meant testimony.
Questions.
Lawyers turning memories inside out.
Their mother's death becoming photographs on screens.
Y/N's childhood becoming evidence.
His too.
"You don't have to testify," Garrett said.
Her eyes flashed.
He caught himself.
"Sorry. Wrong wording."
She waited.
Garrett tried again.
"What do you want to do?"
Y/N stared at him for a long time.
Then she looked towards the television, where her photograph remained frozen beneath the news headline Dean had muted.
I DIDN'T DISAPPEAR. I LEFT.
Her jaw tightened.
"He spent twelve years telling people what happened."
Garrett listened.
"He told police Mom fell. He told social services you chose him. He told you I didn't want you. He told me you hated me."
Her eyes returned to Garrett's.
"I think I'm done letting him be the only one who talks."
Garrett's throat tightened.
"You want to testify."
"I'm terrified to testify."
"That's not the same thing."
"No."
Y/N inhaled slowly.
"But yeah."
She nodded.
"I do."
Garrett looked down at their joined hands.
"Then so do I."
Y/N immediately frowned.
"Don't do it because I'm doing it."
"I'm not."
"Garrett."
"I've got my own things to say."
She studied him.
He didn't look away.
Eventually she nodded.
"Okay."
No dramatic promise.
No declaration that they were going to destroy Phil together.
Just okay.
Garrett preferred it that way.
Y/N leaned back against the sofa.
Her shoulder found his.
Across from them, Dean quietly took his phone and closed every article he had opened.
Logan turned off the television.
Tucker returned to the kitchen and started cooking without asking anyone whether they were hungry.
Hannah stayed.
Nobody tried to make the moment bigger than it already was.
Garrett sat beside his twin sister while evening settled outside the hockey house.
Tomorrow there would be reporters.
Lawyers.
Statements.
More pieces of their childhood dragged into the light.
But tonight, Y/N's key was hanging beside the front door with everyone else's.
Her Eastwood bag was upstairs in Garrett's room.
Their mother's recording was safe inside the metal box.
And when Garrett glanced towards Y/N, she was already looking at him.
Neither needed the signal this time.
They were watching each other anyway.
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Tiny Librarian {John Logan x reader} Part 52
Masterlist
Summary: You were stranded at the library in the pouring rain, the last shuttle bus had left just as you got there, you text your brother, Garrett Graham, if he could pick you up after practice. You'll never guess who he sends instead.
Warnings: none
Sentencing was three weeks later.
Three weeks was both nothing and an eternity.
Long enough for the first rush of relief after the verdict to settle into something quieter. Long enough for you to return to lectures, spend one entire afternoon in the library without checking the entrance every five minutes, and sleep in your dorm twice without calling Logan until you fell asleep.
Not every night was good.
Some were awful.
You woke from nightmares with your heart racing and your sheets twisted around your legs. Unknown numbers still made your stomach drop, even though most of them turned out to be spam calls or someone asking whether you'd been involved in an accident that definitely never happened.
Once, you saw someone wearing a jacket similar to Ryan's across campus and ended up hiding in the bathroom for twenty minutes before you could convince your hands to stop shaking.
Progress hadn't been a straight line.
You were starting to understand that it probably never would be.
But there had been good things too.
Really good things.
Logan had started saying I love you at the most inconvenient times possible, apparently determined to make up for the months he'd spent keeping it to himself.
When you stole his toast.
"I love you."
When you complained about him leaving wet towels on the floor.
"Still love you."
When you told him his favourite shirt looked stupid.
"That's actually hurtful, but unfortunately, I remain in love with you."
Garrett hated every second of it.
Which obviously encouraged Logan.
There had been hockey games.
Coffee runs.
A movie night where Dean cried during a film and then spent forty minutes insisting there had been something in his eye.
Normal things.
Your life was beginning to contain normal things again.
Then sentencing arrived.
—
You woke before Logan that morning.
His arm was wrapped loosely around your waist, his face buried halfway into the pillow beside you.
For a few minutes, you stayed still.
Not because you were afraid to move.
Because you liked him like this.
Quiet.
Messy.
Completely lacking the confidence he carried around during the day.
His hair stuck up at the back.
There was a pillow crease across his cheek.
His mouth was slightly open.
You smiled.
Then remembered what day it was.
The smile faded.
You hadn't decided whether you were going.
Everyone knew that.
The prosecutor had told you that you didn't need to attend. Your victim impact statement had already been submitted. The judge had read it. You could remain at the hockey house and have someone call afterwards.
Nobody had pressured you.
Garrett had asked once.
Logan hadn't asked at all.
Which was probably why the question had been following you around for the last three days.
Did you want to be there?
Not should.
Want.
You stared at Logan's sleeping face.
"Are you awake?"
"No."
You almost laughed.
"You answered."
"Sleep talking."
"Convenient."
His eyes remained closed.
"What time is it?"
"Six thirty."
One eye opened.
"That's offensive."
You rolled onto your back.
Logan's arm loosened around you.
For a minute, neither of you spoke.
Then he opened both eyes.
"Today's the day."
You nodded.
"Yeah."
His expression stayed neutral.
Waiting.
You looked towards the ceiling.
"I think I want to go."
Logan didn't react immediately.
Not with concern.
Not with relief.
He simply asked, "Okay. Why?"
You turned your head towards him.
"You're checking."
"Checking what?"
"Whether I'm doing it because I actually want to or because I think I have to."
His mouth twitched.
"I'm getting predictable."
"Annoyingly."
"So?"
You looked back at the ceiling.
"I want to hear it."
"The sentence?"
"Yeah."
You swallowed.
"I spent so long not knowing where he was. Then the trial was all this uncertainty about whether anyone would believe me."
Your fingers moved over the blanket.
"I don't want someone calling me afterwards and giving me a number."
Logan stayed silent.
"I want to hear the judge say it."
His expression softened.
"Then we go."
Simple.
No argument.
No warning that it might be difficult.
You already knew that.
"Will you come?"
Logan stared at you.
You immediately realised how stupid the question was.
"Don't."
"What?"
"You look offended."
"I am offended."
You laughed quietly.
"I had to ask."
"You absolutely did not."
"Choice, Logan."
He narrowed his eyes.
"Don't use my own emotional growth against me."
You smiled.
"Are you coming?"
He moved closer and pressed a kiss against your forehead.
"Obviously."
—
Garrett was already dressed when you came downstairs.
Of course he was.
He stood in the kitchen wearing a dark suit, aggressively buttering toast as though the bread had personally wronged him.
He looked up when you entered.
His eyes moved over your clothes.
Black dress.
Tights.
Long coat folded over your arm.
His hand stopped.
"You're coming."
Not a question.
You nodded.
"Yeah."
Garrett immediately put down the knife.
"You sure?"
Logan walked into the kitchen behind you.
You glanced at him.
He held up both hands.
"I didn't tell him to ask."
Garrett frowned.
"Ask what?"
"Nothing."
You turned back to your brother.
"I'm sure enough."
Garrett considered that answer.
Then nodded.
"Okay."
You blinked.
"That was easy."
"Therapy."
Your eyebrows lifted.
Garrett looked irritated.
"Don't make it weird."
"You started therapy?"
Dean appeared from the living room wearing a suit and carrying two ties.
"He did."
Garrett pointed at him.
"I will kill you."
Dean ignored him and looked at you.
"Blue or grey?"
"For what?"
"My tie."
You stared.
"This is what we're focusing on?"
"I need something to focus on."
Fair.
You pointed to the grey one.
Dean nodded.
"I knew you had taste."
Tucker appeared behind him carrying a travel mug.
"Everyone eat."
Garrett sighed.
"Tucker."
"No."
He pointed towards all of you.
"You are not going to sit in court for hours on coffee and spite."
Dean looked towards Garrett.
"He's mostly spite."
"Still needs carbohydrates."
The bickering continued around you.
Three weeks ago, the sound might have overwhelmed you.
Today, it helped.
It reminded you there would be a kitchen afterwards.
Toast.
Arguments.
Someone stealing Logan's coffee.
No matter what happened in court, this still existed.
—
The courthouse hadn't changed.
You had.
Not entirely.
Your heart still began beating harder when Logan parked across the road.
Your palms became damp.
The entrance still seemed too large.
But this time, when you looked at the steps, you didn't see the day you testified.
You saw yourself leaving them afterwards.
Still standing.
You got out of the truck before Logan could ask if you needed another minute.
Garrett joined you on the pavement.
Dean and Tucker approached from the other car.
Nobody formed a protective circle.
Nobody needed to.
Logan walked beside you.
Garrett walked beside Dean.
Tucker complained about parking.
You climbed the steps yourself.
—
You saw Ryan when they brought him into court.
There were two officers with him.
Your stomach dropped anyway.
Your body didn't care that he couldn't reach you.
It recognised him.
Your fingers tightened around the edge of the bench.
Logan sat on your right.
Garrett on your left.
Neither touched you.
You breathed.
Ryan looked different.
Not dramatically.
He hadn't transformed into the monster everyone might expect someone convicted of stalking and harassment to look like.
He was still just Ryan.
That was important somehow.
He had always looked ordinary.
That had been part of the problem.
He looked towards the gallery.
Your chest tightened.
His eyes found you.
For a second, everything inside you wanted to shrink.
Then you felt Garrett shift beside you.
Not moving closer.
Just breathing.
Logan's knee rested near yours.
You looked back at Ryan.
Not defiantly.
Not to prove anything.
You simply looked.
His expression changed first.
Something small.
Annoyance, perhaps.
Or surprise.
You didn't know.
You didn't need to.
You turned away when you wanted to.
That mattered more.
—
The prosecutor spoke about aggravating factors.
The duration.
The planning.
The use of technology.
The involvement of Mason.
The deliberate attempts to circumvent warnings and restrictions.
The impact on you.
You hated that part.
Hearing your own life described in legal language.
Sleep disturbance.
Hypervigilance.
Changes to routine.
Difficulty attending university.
Emotional distress.
Each phrase was technically correct.
None came close.
Then Ryan's barrister spoke.
He mentioned his age.
His lack of previous convictions.
His education.
His family support.
His prospects.
His remorse.
You stiffened at that word.
Remorse.
Logan noticed.
His hand rested palm-up on the bench between you.
You looked at it.
Then placed yours inside.
Ryan's barrister continued.
He said Ryan understood the seriousness of what had occurred.
You wanted to laugh.
Or scream.
You couldn't decide.
Then the judge looked towards Ryan.
"Do you wish to address the court before sentence?"
Your stomach dropped.
Ryan stood.
For one second, you considered leaving.
Then he started speaking.
"I want to apologise."
Your body went completely still.
Ryan looked towards the judge.
Not you.
"I understand that my actions caused distress."
Garrett shifted beside you.
You felt the anger rolling off him.
"I didn't intend for things to go as far as they did."
Your jaw clenched.
There it was.
Not:
I shouldn't have done it.
It went too far.
As though stalking had somehow happened around him instead of because of him.
Ryan continued.
"I was concerned about someone I had cared about for a long time, and I made decisions that I now understand were inappropriate."
Inappropriate.
Two hundred photographs.
Spyware.
Burner phones.
Mason outside your dorm.
Inappropriate.
Your breathing sharpened.
Logan's thumb moved across your hand.
Once.
You didn't look at him.
Ryan finally turned towards the gallery.
Towards you.
"I hope eventually she understands that I never wanted to hurt her."
Something inside you went very still.
Not afraid.
Not angry.
Clear.
For years, that sentence would've worked.
I never wanted to hurt you.
You would've taken the intention he claimed and used it to erase the outcome.
You would've told yourself that someone who didn't mean to hurt you deserved another chance.
Another explanation.
Another apology.
Now you knew better.
Ryan's intentions belonged to him.
What he had done belonged to reality.
The judge looked at him.
"Sit down."
Ryan did.
You breathed again.
—
The judge took several minutes before speaking.
You barely understood the first part.
Legal references.
Charges.
Sentencing guidelines.
Then his voice became clearer.
"The defendant has repeatedly sought to characterise his behaviour as concern."
Your grip tightened around Logan's hand.
"The jury rejected that characterisation, and so do I."
Garrett stopped breathing beside you.
The judge continued.
"This was not an isolated lapse in judgment. It was a sustained campaign involving surveillance, technological intrusion, third-party assistance and deliberate circumvention of attempts by the victim to end contact."
Victim.
You still didn't like the word.
Today, you let it exist.
"The fact that physical violence did not occur does not diminish the seriousness of conduct designed to make another person feel watched, unsafe and unable to live freely."
Your eyes filled.
Logan's fingers closed more tightly around yours.
"The defendant knew his presence and the presence of those acting on his behalf caused fear. He exploited that knowledge."
You thought of the trial.
Ryan finally admitting he knew Mason frightened you.
One truth that had cracked everything else open.
Then the judge addressed him directly.
"You were told no in multiple forms. The relationship ended. Contact was refused. Your number was blocked. Police and university authorities intervened."
The courtroom was silent.
"At each stage, rather than respecting that boundary, you sought another route around it."
Your throat tightened.
A new number.
A new person.
A new excuse.
Every no treated like a puzzle Ryan was entitled to solve.
The judge looked down briefly.
Then delivered the sentence.
You heard the number.
You understood it.
But for several seconds, your mind couldn't hold it.
A custodial sentence.
Years.
Not weeks.
Not months.
Years.
Followed by a restraining order with no expiry date unless varied by the court.
No direct contact.
No indirect contact.
No approaching your home, university or workplace.
Your hand flew to your mouth.
Garrett made a sound beside you.
Logan's grip tightened.
You stared straight ahead.
Years.
Ryan turned towards his barrister.
His face had changed.
For the first time you could remember, he looked genuinely shocked.
Not angry yet.
Shocked.
As though consequences were something that happened to other people.
You didn't feel happy.
That surprised you.
You felt...
heavy.
Ryan had hurt you.
He had frightened you.
He had broken laws.
And now years of his life had been decided in a matter of minutes.
You didn't feel sorry for him.
But you didn't celebrate either.
You just sat there and let reality settle.
The officers approached him.
Ryan turned towards the gallery.
Your heart kicked once.
His eyes found yours.
This time, you didn't look away.
You didn't smile.
Didn't glare.
Didn't give him forgiveness.
Didn't give him hatred.
Nothing.
He was escorted through the door.
And then he was gone.
—
You made it outside before the emotion arrived.
Not a panic attack.
Something stranger.
You stood on the courthouse steps while everyone around you talked.
Dean said something.
Tucker answered.
Garrett was speaking to the prosecutor.
You couldn't hear any of it properly.
Logan stopped beside you.
"You okay?"
You stared across the street.
Cars passed.
People walked by.
Someone pushed a pram along the pavement.
"I don't know."
He nodded.
"You want to leave?"
"Not yet."
So he stayed.
You shoved your hands into your coat pockets.
"The restraining order doesn't end."
"No."
"Unless a judge changes it."
"Yeah."
"He can't contact me."
"No."
"Even after prison."
"No."
Your throat tightened.
"I never have to talk to him again."
The sentence came out so quietly that Logan almost didn't hear it.
His expression softened.
"No."
A tear slipped down your cheek.
Then another.
"I never have to explain myself to him again."
"No."
"I never have to convince him I'm serious."
Logan shook his head.
"No."
You looked at him.
"I can just be done."
There it was.
The thing the verdict hadn't given you.
The thing even knowing Ryan was remanded hadn't quite provided.
Done.
Not healed.
Not untouched.
Not magically free from every consequence.
But the relationship itself?
The argument Ryan had refused to let end?
Finished.
You laughed suddenly.
Logan blinked.
"What?"
"I broke up with him two years ago."
A laugh caught in your throat alongside the tears.
"And he finally has to accept it."
Logan's mouth twitched.
"Bit slow on the uptake."
You laughed harder.
It was inappropriate.
Probably.
You didn't care.
Garrett looked over from several feet away.
The concern on his face turned to confusion.
"What are you laughing at?"
You wiped your cheeks.
"Nothing."
Logan grinned.
"She's mocking a convicted criminal."
Garrett considered that.
"Good."
Dean approached carrying the bag Tucker had apparently brought because Tucker was incapable of attending any major life event without supplying food.
"Celebratory muffin?"
You looked at him.
"Is that a thing?"
"It is now."
Tucker appeared behind him.
"Those aren't celebratory."
Dean frowned.
"What are they?"
"They're just muffins."
"Everything needs branding."
You looked between them.
Then at Garrett.
Then Logan.
The courthouse stood behind you.
A building you had once been terrified to enter.
You had testified there.
Cried there.
Been questioned there.
Been believed there.
Now Ryan had been sentenced there.
You took the muffin from Dean.
"Can we go home?"
Garrett smiled.
"Yeah."
—
That night, the hockey house was full.
Hannah and Allie came over.
Nobody called it a celebration.
There was no champagne.
No toast to Ryan going to prison.
Tucker cooked too much food.
Dean put music on.
Garrett argued with Hannah about something completely meaningless.
Logan kept stealing pieces of food from your plate until you stabbed his hand with your fork.
It wasn't celebrating what happened to Ryan.
It was acknowledging that the waiting was over.
You sat on the living-room floor later with your back against the sofa and Logan beside you.
Garrett was losing badly at a video game against Allie.
Dean had fallen asleep in an armchair.
Tucker was cleaning the kitchen despite everyone telling him to stop.
You looked around.
Then your eyes settled on the window.
Dark outside.
Your stomach didn't drop.
You noticed that.
You didn't get up to close the curtains.
Didn't check the driveway.
Didn't wonder whether someone was standing across the street.
You simply looked.
Logan followed your gaze.
"You okay?"
You nodded slowly.
"Yeah."
He studied your face.
"Actually?"
You smiled.
"Actually."
His shoulder pressed against yours.
After a moment, you rested your head against it.
"I don't know what happens now."
Logan tilted his head against yours.
"Tomorrow?"
"Everything."
"Hm."
He thought about it.
"We could start small."
"How small?"
"Breakfast."
You smiled.
"Then?"
"Class."
"Then?"
"I've got practice."
"So romantic."
"You can admire me from the stands."
"I've seen you play. I'm good."
Logan gasped.
"You take that back."
You laughed quietly.
The future stretched ahead.
For once, it didn't contain a courtroom date.
A police interview.
A report.
A warning.
A trial.
There would still be appointments.
Therapy.
The fallout of everything that had happened.
But tomorrow was mostly just Tuesday.
You hadn't realised how badly you wanted a Tuesday.
Logan reached for your hand.
You intertwined your fingers with his.
"Breakfast sounds good."
He kissed your temple.
"Breakfast it is."
And for once, the next chapter of your life didn't begin with Ryan.
It began with plans for tomorrow.
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Quietly Yours {Dean Di Laurentis x mute!reader} Part 19
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Summary: Everyone at Briar knows Dean Di Laurentis. Nobody knows you. Not because you aren't friendly, but because people tend to make assumptions the moment they realize you don't speak. Some think you're shy. Others think you're rude. A few even assume you're deaf. You're used to correcting people with a tired smile and a note on your phone. Dean is no different...at first. Until he realizes your silence never stopped you from laughing, teasing, arguing, or caring. He starts discovering that you've always had a voice. It just isn't spoken.
Warnings: mentions of being mute, misunderstandings
Dean didn't mention it the next morning.
That was the first thing you noticed.
You had barely slept.
Every time you started drifting off, your mind dragged you back to the hockey house.
That tiny sound.
Then the car.
The vibration against your throat when Dean kissed you.
It replayed over and over until you weren't even sure you remembered it correctly anymore. Maybe it had been nothing. A breath. A cough. Some random involuntary noise your brain had decided meant more because you desperately wanted it to.
By six in the morning, you'd stopped trying to sleep.
By seven, you were sitting cross-legged on your bed with a cup of instant coffee cooling between your hands, staring at Dean's contact on your phone.
You wanted to text him.
You didn't know what to say.
Did it actually happen?
You had already asked him that.
Do you think it'll happen again?
He couldn't possibly know.
Are you disappointed that I can't do more?
That one frightened you enough that you locked your phone.
You knew what Dean would say.
You trusted what he would say.
Old fears didn't care much about logic.
Your phone buzzed twenty minutes later.
You grabbed it too quickly.
Dean: Important question.
You stared at the screen.
A second message appeared.
Dean: Pancakes or waffles?
You blinked.
That was it.
No how's your throat?
No did you try again?
No mention of last night at all.
Something inside your chest loosened.
You: Waffles.
Dean: Correct.
You: Why ask if there's a correct answer?
Dean: Character assessment.
You smiled despite yourself.
You: And if I said pancakes?
Three dots.
Dean: I would have respected your wrong opinion because I'm mature now.
You laughed silently.
Then stopped.
Your fingers touched your throat.
Nothing.
The disappointment came automatically.
Sharp and embarrassing.
You hated it.
Dean had specifically told you not to chase the sound, and somehow you'd started measuring every laugh against it anyway.
Your phone vibrated again.
Dean: Breakfast in 20?
You looked at the time.
You: You have practice.
Dean: Had practice.
You frowned.
You: It's 7:24.
Dean: Congratulations on knowing numbers.
Your eyes narrowed.
You: Dean.
Dean: Early skate. Already done.
Dean: Waffles?
You smiled.
You: Waffles.**
He was waiting outside twenty minutes later.
Of course he was.
Dean leaned against his car holding two takeaway cups and wearing grey sweatpants, a Briar hockey jacket and the kind of exhausted expression that suggested his early practice had been considerably less enjoyable than he was pretending.
When you stepped outside, he smiled.
Not carefully.
Not like he was checking whether you were all right.
Just smiled.
"Morning."
You signed it back.
Dean lifted one coffee.
"Caramel."
Then the other.
"Mine. Touch it and we're fighting."
You took yours.
He held the passenger door open.
You stopped beside him.
Dean noticed immediately.
"What?"
You studied his face.
There was nothing there.
No expectation.
No question he was carefully avoiding.
You reached for your phone.
You're really not going to say anything?
His smile faded slightly.
He didn't pretend not to understand.
"About last night?"
You nodded.
Dean pushed the car door mostly closed and leaned back against it.
"I didn't think you wanted me to."
You stared down at the screen.
I don't know what I want.
"Okay."
You looked up.
That was becoming one of Dean's greatest talents.
He could say okay without making it sound dismissive.
It simply meant he had heard you.
You typed again.
I can't stop thinking about it.
Dean nodded.
"That makes sense."
Do you keep thinking about it?
He hesitated.
"Yeah."
Your stomach tightened.
Dean saw it.
"Not like that."
You waited.
"I keep thinking about how scared you looked after."
His hands slipped into his jacket pockets.
"And how quickly everyone stared."
Your gaze dropped.
"I hated that part."
He paused.
"The sound itself?"
You looked at him again.
Dean smiled softly.
"Yeah. I thought it was beautiful."
Your throat tightened.
"But I liked your laugh before it made sound too."
You swallowed.
Dean continued before you could respond.
"I'm not sitting around waiting for the next one."
You held his gaze.
"And I'm definitely not keeping score."
Your lips twitched.
He pointed towards your face.
"Good. Almost a smile."
You shook your head.
"Come on."
He opened the car door again.
"We have waffles to argue about."
Breakfast was surprisingly normal.
Dean stole strawberries from your plate.
You slapped his hand away.
He claimed communal breakfast laws made everything on the table shared property.
You informed him communal breakfast laws didn't exist.
He tried to convince you Garrett had written them.
You threatened to text Garrett.
Dean immediately confessed.
By the time you left, you had almost gone twenty minutes without thinking about your voice.
Almost.
Then a waitress dropped a tray.
The crash ripped through the restaurant.
Your entire body locked.
Dean's eyes snapped towards you.
For a fraction of a second, you saw the old instinct surface.
You okay?
Want to leave?
Do you need me?
His mouth opened.
Then closed.
He waited.
You breathed.
The restaurant stayed exactly where it was.
No cupboard.
No footsteps outside a locked door.
Just broken glasses and a horrified waitress apologising to her manager.
You looked at Dean.
He was still waiting.
You nodded.
The words existed only in your mind.
Your hands gave him the answer instead.
Okay.
Dean nodded once.
Then reached across the table and stole another strawberry.
You stared at him.
"What?"
You hit his hand.
He grinned.
And the moment passed.
The problem came later.
You were alone.
Dean had class.
Hannah was studying with Garrett.
Your roommate was gone for the afternoon.
The room was quiet.
Too quiet.
You sat at your desk pretending to work on an essay while your gaze kept drifting towards the mirror above your dresser.
Eventually, you gave up.
You closed the laptop.
Your reflection stared back.
Nothing looked different.
You touched your throat.
No chasing it.
Dean's voice echoed in your memory.
You knew he was right.
You also knew nobody was there to stop you.
Your lips parted.
You tried to laugh.
Nothing.
Again.
A breath escaped.
No vibration.
Again.
You closed your eyes and pictured Dean's ridiculous face the night before.
Nothing.
Frustration crept higher.
You tried humming.
Your throat tightened immediately.
You swallowed.
Again.
A tiny rush of air escaped.
Not sound.
Again.
Your hand curled around the edge of the desk.
You remembered being twelve.
A speech therapist sitting across from you.
"Just try."
Your mother's hopeful face.
"One little sound."
The therapist smiling too brightly.
"Anything is good."
Your throat locked.
You opened your eyes.
The room suddenly felt smaller.
You tried again anyway.
Nothing.
Your chest tightened.
Again.
Nothing.
Again—
Pain scraped through your throat.
You stopped.
Except your body didn't.
Your breathing became shallow.
You stood too quickly, knocking the chair backwards.
The crash made you jump.
Your hands started shaking.
Stupid.
Stupid.
You knew better.
You grabbed your phone.
Dean's name was at the top of your messages.
For a moment, you couldn't make yourself type.
Because telling him meant admitting you'd done exactly what he'd warned you not to do.
Another shallow breath.
You typed.
You: Can you come?
The answer appeared before you could put your phone down.
Dean: Yes.
No questions.
Just yes.
He found you sitting on the floor between your bed and the wall.
You hadn't deliberately chosen the spot.
You had simply needed somewhere enclosed.
Then you'd realised what you'd done.
Small space.
Wall against your back.
Door visible.
Some frightened part of your mind still knew how to build safety out of corners.
Dean entered quietly.
He took one look at you and stopped.
"Can I come closer?"
You nodded.
He crossed the room and sat on the floor several feet away.
Not touching.
Not crowding.
He looked at the fallen chair.
Then at you.
His gaze moved to your throat.
Understanding came slowly.
"You tried."
Shame washed over you.
You looked down.
Dean exhaled.
Not angry.
You weren't sure why you'd expected him to be.
"I told you not to chase it."
You nodded miserably.
He rubbed a hand over his face.
"That sounded like I was telling you off."
You glanced at him.
"I'm not."
You reached for your phone.
I couldn't help it.
"I know."
I wanted to know if I could do it again.
"I know."
And I couldn't.
Dean's expression softened.
He moved a little closer.
"Is that why you're upset?"
You stared at the screen.
Then typed:
I don't know.
The words came faster after that.
Last night it happened twice.
What if that was it?
What if I imagined how close I was?
What if I never do it again?
Dean read every message as it appeared.
Then:
What if I do?
His brows pulled together.
You looked at him.
That was the part you hadn't been able to say until now.
You typed carefully.
What happens if I start talking?
Dean stayed quiet.
Everyone will expect it all the time.
Your eyes burned.
What if I can talk with you but not in class?
Another message.
What if I can make noises but never words?
Another.
What if my voice sounds horrible?
Dean's lips parted.
You didn't stop.
What if people stop learning ASL because they think I don't need it anymore?
That one hurt the most.
Your hands had become yours.
They weren't a substitute.
They weren't training wheels until your "real" voice returned.
ASL had given you friendships.
Independence.
Control.
It had let you say no when spoken words wouldn't come.
It had let you tell Dean you loved—
Your fingers stopped.
You stared at the unfinished thought.
Not yet.
You deleted it before typing anything else.
Dean shifted closer.
"Can I hold your hand?"
You nodded.
He reached between you.
You grabbed on harder than you intended.
Dean didn't react.
"Nothing has to change."
Your eyes lifted.
"If you make another sound, nothing changes."
His thumb moved across your knuckles.
"If you say a word someday, nothing changes."
You shook your head.
Dean squeezed your hand.
"I don't mean your life wouldn't change."
He thought for a moment.
"I mean us."
You went still.
"I'm not going to suddenly stop signing because you manage to say my name once."
Your breath caught at the example.
Dean's eyes softened.
"I'm learning ASL because I want to be able to talk to you in the language you use."
He gestured towards your hands.
"This doesn't stop being your voice just because another one might come back."
Tears blurred your vision.
"And if you never speak?"
He shrugged.
"Then I'll keep signing."
A tear slipped free.
"If you speak sometimes?"
Another shrug.
"I'll keep signing."
He smiled faintly.
"If you suddenly start talking nonstop and become more annoying than me?"
You gave him an offended look.
"There she is."
You pushed his shoulder weakly.
Dean smiled.
"I'll still keep signing."
You wiped your cheek.
Why?
He read the screen.
Then lifted one hand.
His signs were slower when he wanted to make sure he got them right.
Because this is you.
Your face crumpled.
Dean opened his arms.
This time you didn't wait for him to ask.
You crawled into them.
He pulled you close, resting his chin against your hair.
For a while, you simply breathed.
No exercises.
No attempts.
Just breath.
Later, you were sitting against the side of your bed with Dean beside you.
Your shoulder rested against his.
He had put your chair upright again.
Your throat still ached slightly.
Dean handed you your water.
"Drink."
You gave him a look.
"Please."
You took it.
"Thank you."
You drank slowly.
Dean stared at the wall opposite you.
"Can I ask you something weird?"
You nodded.
"Do you want to talk again?"
You froze.
Dean immediately continued.
"Not whether you think you can."
He looked at you.
"Do you actually want to?"
You had never separated those two questions.
For years, adults had treated speaking as the obvious goal.
Of course you wanted to.
Why wouldn't you?
Speech was normal.
Speech meant recovery.
Speech meant success.
But did you want it?
You stared down at your hands.
Eventually you signed:
Sometimes.
Dean nodded.
You continued.
Not always.
"Okay."
You reached for your phone to explain more clearly.
Sometimes I miss it.
I miss singing.
I miss remembering what it felt like to talk without thinking about it.
Dean read quietly.
But I don't want to lose this.
You lifted your hands.
His gaze followed them.
"You won't."
You shook your head.
You can't promise that.
"No."
He thought for a second.
"But I can promise I won't be the person who takes it away."
Your eyes met.
Dean signed:
Your choice.
You nodded.
Exactly.
Your choice.
Something you hadn't been given enough of as a child.
The two of you sat quietly for another few minutes.
Then Dean's stomach growled.
Loudly.
You looked towards him.
He stared straight ahead.
You raised an eyebrow.
"Didn't happen."
You smiled.
His stomach growled again.
Dean looked down.
"Traitor."
A laugh hit you before you could stop it.
Your shoulders shook.
Dean smiled.
Then—
A tiny sound.
Soft.
Breathy.
Not quite the same as before.
Something between an exhale and a laugh.
Dean's eyes flickered.
He caught himself immediately.
He looked back towards the wall.
"My stomach is hilarious."
You stared at him.
He kept a perfectly straight face.
Another laugh escaped you.
Silent.
No second sound.
It didn't matter.
This time, your first reaction wasn't fear.
It wasn't even excitement.
It was amusement.
You reached over and poked his side.
Dean looked at you.
"Was that because I'm starving?"
You nodded.
"Heartless."
You smiled.
Then touched your throat.
Dean saw.
He waited.
You signed:
It happened.
His smile was gentle.
Yes.
You stared at your hands.
Then signed:
Okay.
Dean nodded.
"Okay."
Nothing more.
You leaned against him again.
That evening, Dean ordered food to your room.
You ate sitting on the floor because neither of you bothered moving.
He made you promise not to try forcing another sound for the rest of the night.
You made him promise to stop stealing your fries.
Both of you broke your promises within twenty minutes.
His theft was intentional.
Your sound wasn't.
Dean stole the last fry from the carton.
Your mouth fell open.
He shoved the entire thing into his mouth before you could take it back.
You stared at him.
Dean chewed quickly.
"Mmm."
Your eyes narrowed.
"Delicious."
You hit his arm.
He laughed.
You tried to grab the empty carton.
He held it above his head.
A frustrated noise caught unexpectedly in your throat.
"Ah—"
Both of you froze.
It was clearer this time.
Not a word.
But undeniably voiced.
Your hand flew to your throat.
Dean slowly lowered the carton.
You looked at him.
His eyes were wide.
You waited for your chest to tighten.
It didn't.
Dean swallowed.
Then, very carefully, signed:
Okay?
You considered it.
Surprise.
Fear.
Something close to happiness.
You nodded.
Then held your hand flat and tilted it.
Kind of.
Dean smiled.
"Kind of okay."
You nodded.
His eyes were suspiciously bright.
He looked down at the carton.
Then back at you.
"I think you were about to tell me off."
Your mouth twitched.
"I knew your first words would be about me."
You shoved him.
Dean laughed.
"Okay, okay."
He set the carton aside.
Then he turned towards you fully.
No reaching.
No expectation.
Just Dean.
You lifted your hands.
Can I kiss you?
His smile softened.
He signed back.
Always.
You narrowed your eyes and corrected him immediately.
Dean sighed.
"That wasn't the right answer?"
You shook your head.
He frowned.
"What should I say?"
You signed:
Yes.
Understanding crossed his face.
"Right."
He tried again.
Yes.
You smiled.
Then leaned in and kissed him.
Dean's hand settled against your cheek.
No sound came.
Neither of you cared.
When you pulled away, he brushed his nose gently against yours.
"Hey."
You lifted an eyebrow.
"If one day you decide you want to try talking..."
You waited.
"I'll be there."
Your chest tightened.
"And if you decide you never want to try again..."
His thumb moved softly across your cheek.
"I'll be there for that too."
You closed your eyes.
Dean kissed your forehead.
Then he lifted his hands where you could see them.
One day at a time.
You smiled.
And answered the way you always had.
With your voice.
One day at a time.
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The Rules of The Game {Beau Maxwell x Dean's little sister/Beau's best friend!reader} Part 3
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Summary: Dean Di Laurentis' little sister needs a fake boyfriend. Beau Maxwell needs to stop being in love with said little sister and his best friend. Pretending should've been easy. Until fake kisses start feeling real.
Warnings: none
By eight-thirty the following evening, you had changed your outfit six times.
Not because you cared what Beau thought.
Obviously.
That would be ridiculous.
Beau had seen you in significantly worse conditions than this. He'd seen you sick, hungover, crying over an exam you were convinced you'd failed and once, memorably, wearing Dean's old sweatpants with a hole directly across the ass because nobody had bothered to tell you about it until you'd walked around the hockey house for three hours.
You didn't care what Beau thought.
You just wanted to look convincing.
There was a difference.
A very important difference.
Which was exactly what you told yourself as you stood in front of your mirror wearing jeans and a black top you'd already discarded twenty minutes ago.
Your phone buzzed from the bed.
BEAU: I'm outside.
You frowned.
YOU: Why?
Three dots appeared.
BEAU: That's usually where people wait when they're picking someone up.
YOU: You're picking me up?
BEAU: Yes.
YOU: Party is literally a fifteen minute walk away.
BEAU: And?
You smiled despite yourself.
YOU: I can walk.
His response was immediate.
BEAU: Princess.
Your stomach did that annoying little flip again.
You hated that nickname.
You absolutely hated it.
Hated how good it made you feel.
YOU: Don't start.
BEAU: Get your ass downstairs.
YOU: Charming boyfriend.
BEAU: Your charming boyfriend is double parked.
You grabbed your coat.
Beau was leaning against his car when you stepped outside.
And for one humiliating second, you forgot how walking worked.
It wasn't like you'd never seen him dressed for a party before.
You'd known Beau for years.
You knew what he looked like outside of his football uniform.
You'd seen him in suits. Jeans. Sweatpants. Swim shorts.
Shirtless, unfortunately.
Multiple times.
Dean had a pool.
It was unavoidable.
Tonight shouldn't have been different.
Except tonight he wasn't just Beau.
Tonight he was your boyfriend.
Fake boyfriend.
Your brain really needed to start remembering that second word.
His dark jacket was open over a plain black shirt, and his hair was slightly messy like he'd run his hand through it on the drive over.
He looked up from his phone.
His eyes found you.
And stopped.
You slowed.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You're staring."
"I'm allowed."
You raised an eyebrow.
"Why?"
His mouth curved.
"Boyfriend."
Oh.
Right.
Beau pushed away from the car and opened the passenger door.
You stared at him.
"What are you doing?"
"Opening your door."
"You've never opened my door before."
"Never been your boyfriend before."
"Fake boyfriend."
"Details."
You narrowed your eyes as you climbed inside.
Beau shut the door behind you.
And you watched through the windshield as he walked around the front of the car.
This was going to be a long night.
"You realise you're taking this way too seriously."
Beau glanced at you.
"I'm committed to the role."
"You picked me up."
"Boyfriends do that."
"You opened my door."
"Boyfriends do that too."
"You texted me earlier asking if I'd eaten."
"That's not a boyfriend thing."
"What is it?"
"A you-forget-to-eat-when-you're-getting-ready thing."
You turned your head.
Beau kept his eyes on the road.
"You remembered that?"
"Of course."
The answer came so easily that you didn't know what to do with it.
So you looked out the window.
Beau had always been like that.
You supposed you'd just never really thought about it before.
He remembered things.
Tiny things.
Your coffee order.
Which side of the couch you preferred.
That you hated tomatoes but liked ketchup.
That you got headaches if you didn't eat enough.
He knew you always got cold during football games, so he'd started bringing an extra sweatshirt without ever mentioning it.
He knew you hated walking alone at night.
He knew exactly when to make you laugh and exactly when not to.
Those things had always just been...
Beau.
Except now you were pretending to date him.
And suddenly you were noticing them.
That was dangerous.
"So," he said, breaking the silence. "Have you told anyone yet?"
"No."
"Nobody?"
"Dean."
"He doesn't count, apparently."
"He doesn't."
"Poor guy."
"He'll survive."
"And we're sticking with three months?"
You groaned.
"Can you stop bringing that up?"
"I'm trying to establish our lore."
"Our lore?"
"Every relationship has lore."
"You mocked me for having rules yesterday."
"Rules are stupid. Lore is essential."
You laughed.
"Fine. What do you need to know?"
"When did we get together?"
"Three months ago."
"Where?"
You thought about it.
"The diner?"
"Too predictable."
"You love that diner."
"Exactly. Everyone knows we go there."
"So?"
"So we need something people won't question."
You turned toward him.
"Why are you frighteningly good at this?"
"I've watched movies."
"Apparently."
He thought for a moment.
"After the Eastwood game."
Your eyebrows lifted.
"The one in October?"
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"We all went out afterward. You were there. We disappeared for like forty minutes because you made me drive you across town for donuts."
"I didn't make you."
"You threatened to lick my windshield if I didn't."
"Effective negotiation."
"Psychotic behaviour."
"But believable."
"Exactly."
You smiled.
"So we kissed after the Eastwood game."
"Apparently."
"Who kissed who?"
Beau glanced at you.
"You kissed me."
"Why me?"
"Because I've got game."
You snorted.
"Try again."
"Because you've been desperately in love with me for years."
"Keep dreaming, Maxwell."
His smile remained.
But something changed behind it.
So quickly you almost missed it.
"Okay," you said. "You kissed me."
"Why?"
"Because you've been desperately in love with me for years."
Beau nearly missed the turn.
You burst out laughing.
"Jesus Christ!"
"Shut up."
"You actually swerved!"
"There was something in the road."
"There was nothing in the road!"
"Squirrel."
"It's December!"
"Squirrels still exist in December!"
You laughed harder.
Beau shook his head.
"You're annoying."
"You love me."
The words slipped out naturally.
Because you'd said them a thousand times before.
You love me.
Usually after stealing his fries.
Or making him drive somewhere.
Or convincing him to watch some terrible movie.
It had never meant anything.
But this time Beau went strangely quiet.
Only for a second.
Then he glanced over.
"Unfortunately."
You smiled.
Neither of you spoke about the way his voice had softened.
The party was already packed by the time you arrived.
Music rattled the windows from half a block away, and there were people scattered across the lawn despite the freezing temperature.
Beau parked.
You reached for the door.
"Wait."
You looked over.
"What?"
He unbuckled his seatbelt.
"We need to figure something out."
"What's that?"
"How we're doing this."
You frowned.
"Doing what?"
"This."
He gestured between you.
"The boyfriend thing."
"We discussed it yesterday."
"No. We discussed rules."
"And lore."
"Very important lore."
You smiled.
Beau didn't.
His expression had become more serious.
"If I touch you tonight and you don't like it, tell me."
Your smile faded.
"Beau—"
"I'm serious."
"I know."
"I mean it. Hand, waist, whatever. If you're uncomfortable, say something."
Warmth spread through your chest.
You swallowed.
"Okay."
"And if he's here—"
You knew exactly who he meant.
"—you stay with me."
"I'm not helpless."
"I know you're not."
There wasn't even a second of hesitation.
"I know."
Something about the certainty in his voice made your shoulders relax.
"This isn't about you not being able to handle yourself."
"Then what's it about?"
"You asked me to help."
His eyes held yours.
"So let me help."
For a moment, you couldn't think of anything to say.
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Okay."
Beau nodded.
Then his mouth curved.
"Now we can go."
You opened your door.
He cleared his throat.
You looked back.
"What?"
He stared pointedly at you.
Then at his own door.
"No."
"Yes."
"You are not walking around the car to open my door."
"I absolutely am."
"Beau—"
"Boyfriend duties."
You groaned and closed the door again.
He grinned.
Asshole.
Dean spotted you almost immediately.
More accurately, Dean spotted Beau's hand.
Because the second you stepped through the front door, Beau placed it against the small of your back.
It wasn't dramatic.
Barely even noticeable.
Just warm fingers resting lightly against you as he guided you through the crowd.
But Dean noticed.
Of course he did.
He was standing beside Allie with a beer in his hand.
His eyes dropped.
Hand.
Your face.
Beau.
Hand again.
Then he looked directly at Beau.
Beau smiled.
Dean lifted his middle finger.
"Your brother seems supportive," Beau murmured.
You bit back a laugh.
"Very."
Allie noticed you next.
"There you are!"
She hurried toward you and wrapped you in a hug.
"Where have you been? Dean said you were coming ages—"
She stopped.
Her gaze dropped.
Beau's hand was still on your back.
Then she looked between you.
You watched the confusion form.
Then shock.
Then absolute delight.
"Oh my God."
Shit.
"Allie—"
"Oh my GOD."
Several people turned.
Dean closed his eyes.
"Here we fucking go."
Allie grabbed your arm.
"Are you two—"
You glanced at Beau.
This was it.
The first actual test.
His eyes met yours.
And somehow that tiny look calmed you.
You smiled.
"Yeah."
Allie's mouth dropped open.
"Since when?"
"October."
Dean choked on his beer.
You glared at him.
Allie didn't notice.
"October?!"
Beau slid his arm around your waist.
Your entire body became painfully aware of it.
"Apparently we're terrible at telling people," he said.
Allie stared at him.
Then you.
Then Dean.
"Did you know?"
Dean wiped his mouth.
"Unfortunately."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
Dean looked personally offended.
"Why am I getting yelled at?"
"Because you knew!"
"It wasn't my relationship to announce!"
Beau coughed into his fist.
You knew he was hiding a laugh.
Allie looked back at you.
"You've been dating for three months?"
"Yep."
"And you didn't tell me?"
"We wanted to keep it to ourselves for a while."
That sounded believable.
At least you hoped it did.
Allie's expression softened.
"That's actually kind of cute."
Beau's thumb moved against your waist.
One slow sweep.
Probably absentminded.
Your breath caught anyway.
"Yeah," he said.
His eyes lowered to you.
"It is."
Something about the way he looked at you made your stomach tighten.
That wasn't part of the plan.
You looked away first.
It got easier after that.
Scarily easy.
By ten, half the party knew.
By ten-thirty, you'd been interrogated about how it happened at least seven times.
Luckily, the story you and Beau invented in the car held up.
Eastwood game.
Donut run.
Beau kissed you.
You kept it quiet.
Simple.
Believable.
Mostly because nobody seemed particularly surprised.
That was the weird part.
"Honestly?" one of Beau's teammates said after finding out. "Makes sense."
You frowned.
"What does?"
"You two."
Beau handed you the drink he'd just made.
"What about us?"
The guy shrugged.
"Always figured something was going on."
Beau went still beside you.
You laughed.
"Why?"
"Dude."
He looked at Beau.
"You follow her around like a Labrador."
Beau looked offended.
"I do not."
"You absolutely do."
"I have dignity."
"Last month she texted you because she wanted Taco Bell and you left poker night."
You turned slowly.
"You told me you were already leaving."
Beau stared at his teammate.
The guy grinned.
"Whoops."
You looked back at Beau.
"You left poker night?"
"You wanted a Crunchwrap."
"You were winning!"
"Allegedly."
"You had almost two hundred dollars on the table."
Beau took a sip of his beer.
"Crunchwrap."
You stared at him.
He shrugged.
"You sounded hungry."
And there it was again.
That strange warmth.
That tiny tug somewhere behind your ribs.
You covered it with an eye roll.
"You're an idiot."
"Your idiot."
You froze.
Beau froze.
His teammate made a disgusted sound.
"Okay. I'm leaving before this gets worse."
He disappeared.
You looked at Beau.
"Your idiot?"
"I panicked."
You smiled.
"That was terrible."
"You're enjoying this."
"A little."
"Menace."
He bumped his shoulder against yours.
And you found yourself leaning into him instead of moving away.
You didn't see him until nearly eleven.
You were standing in the kitchen talking to Allie when your whole body went rigid.
It happened before you consciously registered why.
Your shoulders tightened.
Your fingers curled around your cup.
Your stomach dropped.
Allie was halfway through a story when she noticed you'd stopped listening.
"You okay?"
You didn't answer.
Because he was across the room.
Watching you.
The same guy.
He wasn't approaching.
Not yet.
Just staring.
Then his eyes shifted.
Straight to Beau.
Beau was standing with Dean on the other side of the kitchen.
He must have noticed something in your face because he stopped talking.
His gaze followed yours.
And changed.
You'd known Beau a long time.
You'd seen him angry.
On the football field, mostly.
Beau played angry.
Hard tackles. Shouted arguments. That wild competitive streak that made him terrifying when someone got under his skin.
This was different.
This was quiet.
His jaw tightened.
His expression emptied.
Then he looked back at you.
Not the guy.
You.
He didn't storm across the room.
Didn't start a fight.
Didn't make a scene.
He just came to you.
Straight through the crowd.
"Hey."
His voice was soft.
You looked up.
"Hi."
"You good?"
You nodded.
He looked at you for another second.
You knew he didn't believe you.
But he didn't call you on it.
Instead, he held out his hand.
"Come here."
You didn't hesitate.
Your fingers slipped into his.
Beau pulled you gently toward him until you were tucked against his side.
His arm settled around your waist.
Not possessive.
Not restrictive.
Just there.
Warm.
Steady.
Safe.
"Is that him?" he murmured.
You nodded.
Beau's thumb moved against your hip.
"Okay."
That was all.
Okay.
No threats.
No macho bullshit.
No storming over there.
Just okay.
Your body slowly began to relax.
The guy was still watching.
You could feel it.
Beau must have noticed too.
Because a moment later, his head lowered.
His lips brushed your temple.
It was barely a kiss.
Soft.
Brief.
Probably the most innocent thing he'd ever done.
Your heart nearly stopped.
Beau pulled back slightly.
His eyes searched your face.
"Okay?"
You swallowed.
"Yeah."
"Too much?"
"No."
His hand remained on your waist.
"You sure?"
"Beau."
"Yeah?"
"Stop asking."
Something flickered in his eyes.
Amusement.
Relief.
Maybe something else.
"Yes, ma'am."
You rolled your eyes.
But you moved closer.
Only slightly.
Enough that your shoulder rested against his chest.
Beau's arm tightened around you.
Across the room, the guy finally looked away.
You exhaled.
"It worked."
Beau looked down at you.
"What?"
"He looked away."
"Good."
You smiled.
"You're very convincing."
His expression changed.
Only for a second.
"You have no idea."
Before you could ask what that meant, Dean appeared.
He handed Beau a beer.
Then looked at you.
Then Beau's arm.
Then you again.
"You good?"
You nodded.
"Yeah."
Dean's eyes travelled across the room.
He spotted the guy almost immediately.
His face hardened.
"That's him?"
Your stomach dropped.
"Dean—"
"That's the guy?"
Beau stepped between you and the conversation before Dean could move.
"Don't."
Dean stared at him.
"Don't what?"
"Do exactly what you're thinking."
"I'm not thinking anything."
"You're thinking about punching him."
"I'm thinking about talking to him."
"With your fist?"
"Maybe my fist has something to say."
"Dean."
Your voice stopped him.
His eyes moved to you.
"Please."
Dean's expression softened immediately.
"He's leaving you alone?"
"For now."
"And if he doesn't?"
Beau answered before you could.
"We'll deal with it."
Dean looked at him.
Something passed between them.
Then Dean nodded.
"Fine."
He pointed at Beau.
"But I'm holding you personally responsible."
"For what?"
"My blood pressure."
"Seems unfair."
"Life's unfair."
Dean walked away.
You looked up at Beau.
"You realise he's never going to leave us alone now."
"Us?"
You realised what you'd said.
You cleared your throat.
"The fake relationship."
"Right."
Beau smiled.
"Us."
Sometime after midnight, you ended up on the couch.
You weren't entirely sure how.
One minute you'd been standing beside Beau.
The next you'd complained that your feet hurt.
And now you were sitting tucked into the corner of the couch with Beau beside you.
Very close beside you.
His arm stretched across the back.
Your thigh pressed against his.
There were plenty of people around.
Which meant...
Convincing.
Right.
You leaned against him.
Beau went completely still.
You looked up.
"You're doing the thing."
"What thing?"
"Being weird about touching me."
"I'm not."
"You've stopped breathing."
"I breathe quietly."
You smiled.
"Cuddling practice."
His eyes narrowed.
"You're enjoying torturing me."
"What?"
"Nothing."
He shifted.
Then his arm came down from the back of the couch and settled around your shoulders.
You tucked yourself against his side.
And—
Oh.
This was nice.
Way too nice.
Beau was warm.
Solid.
Comfortable.
You could hear his heartbeat beneath your ear.
His fingers rested against your upper arm, occasionally moving in slow circles.
Neither of you spoke for a while.
The party continued around you.
People shouting.
Music playing.
Someone laughing obnoxiously from the kitchen.
But somehow it all faded.
You looked down at Beau's hand.
"Can I ask you something?"
"Always."
"Why did you agree?"
His fingers stopped.
"To what?"
"This."
You gestured vaguely between you.
"Fake dating."
"You asked."
"That's not an answer."
"Sure it is."
"You could've said no."
Beau was quiet.
You lifted your head.
He was looking down at you.
"I'd never say no if you genuinely needed me."
The answer hit harder than it should have.
"Never?"
"Within reason."
You smiled faintly.
"So murder's off the table?"
"Depends who."
You laughed.
"I'm serious."
"So am I."
"Beau."
His smile softened.
"You trust me."
It wasn't a question.
You nodded.
"More than almost anyone."
Something moved across his face.
"So that's why."
"What?"
"You trusted me enough to ask."
His fingers resumed their slow movement against your arm.
"I'm not going to make you regret that."
Your chest tightened.
You looked away.
Because suddenly maintaining eye contact felt impossible.
"You know," you murmured, "you're setting unrealistic expectations."
"For fake boyfriends?"
"For real ones."
Beau went completely still.
You laughed softly.
"I'm serious. Picking me up, opening doors, remembering whether I've eaten..."
You looked up at him.
"...some poor guy's going to have a lot to live up to after this."
For half a second, something painful crossed Beau's face.
Then it was gone.
He smiled.
"Good."
"Good?"
"Means you won't settle for an asshole."
You studied him.
There were moments with Beau where it felt like there was an entire conversation happening underneath the one you were actually having.
You'd never noticed it before.
Or maybe you had.
Maybe you'd just never allowed yourself to look closely enough.
Someone shouted Beau's name from across the room.
He looked over.
One of his teammates waved him toward a beer pong table.
Beau shook his head.
"I'm good."
"You can go."
"Nah."
"You love beer pong."
"I've got something better."
Your heart stumbled.
He looked down at you.
Then smiled.
"Cuddling practice."
You slapped his chest.
"Asshole."
He laughed.
And without thinking, you settled against him again.
Dean found Beau in the kitchen twenty minutes later.
Alone.
You'd gone upstairs with Allie to help find a charger.
Beau was pouring himself water when Dean appeared beside him.
"You look miserable."
Beau didn't look over.
"Fuck off."
Dean smiled.
"How's fake dating?"
"Fantastic."
"Really?"
"No."
"What's wrong?"
Beau drank half the glass in one go.
"Your sister spent forty minutes curled up against me."
Dean's face twisted.
"Okay, maybe I don't want to hear this."
"She played with my fingers."
"Definitely don't want to hear this."
"Then she told me I'm going to make some future guy work harder because I'm such a good fake boyfriend."
Dean winced.
"Ouch."
"Yeah."
"That's rough."
"Thank you."
Dean clapped him on the shoulder.
"You want me to tell you something that'll make it worse?"
"No."
"She's noticing."
Beau finally looked at him.
"What?"
Dean shrugged.
"She's noticing you."
"She's always noticed me."
"No."
Dean shook his head.
"Different."
Beau's heart betrayed him with one hard beat.
"Don't."
"I'm serious."
"Don't give me hope."
The words came out quieter than Beau intended.
Dean's amusement disappeared.
For a moment, he wasn't the irritating older brother enjoying Beau's suffering.
He was his friend.
"Okay."
Beau looked down at his glass.
"She thinks I'm pretending."
"I know."
"And I need her to keep thinking that."
"Why?"
"Because she needs me right now."
His eyes flicked toward the stairs.
"If I tell her how I feel, then suddenly this becomes about me. She'll start questioning every time I touch her, every nice thing I do, whether I'm expecting something."
Dean was quiet.
"And I'm not."
Beau swallowed.
"She asked me because she trusts me."
He rubbed a hand over the back of his neck.
"I'd rather spend three months pretending to be her boyfriend and have her feel safe than tell her the truth and make her wonder if she can trust me anymore."
Dean stared at him.
"You're really fucking in love with her."
Beau gave a humourless laugh.
"Yeah."
Neither noticed you at the top of the stairs.
You hadn't heard everything.
Just the end.
She asked me because she trusts me.
I'd rather spend three months pretending to be her boyfriend and have her feel safe...
You stepped backward before either of them could see you.
Your heart was beating strangely.
Not because you thought Beau meant anything more by it.
You didn't.
This was Beau.
Your friend.
Your fake boyfriend.
But as you stood there in the hallway, staring down at your hands, you realised something that unsettled you more than it should have.
You hadn't thought about the guy bothering you for almost two hours.
You hadn't spent the party checking every doorway.
Hadn't watched the crowd.
Hadn't wondered whether someone was following you when you went upstairs.
Because Beau had been beside you.
And when he'd left the couch, you'd immediately noticed his absence.
That wasn't part of the plan.
You looked down the stairs.
Beau was laughing quietly at something Dean had said.
His head tipped back slightly.
His smile easy.
Familiar.
You'd known that smile for years.
So why did it suddenly feel different?
"Hey."
Allie appeared behind you holding your charger.
"You okay?"
You tore your eyes away from Beau.
"Yeah."
She followed your gaze.
Straight to him.
Then looked back at you.
A slow smile spread across her face.
You immediately pointed at her.
"Don't."
"I didn't say anything."
"Your face did."
She handed you the charger.
"All I'm saying is..."
"Allie."
"...you two make sense."
Your stomach flipped.
"It's complicated."
"Usually is."
She walked past you.
You stayed there another second.
Then Beau looked up.
Like he'd somehow felt you watching.
His eyes found yours instantly.
And smiled.
That stupid, soft smile he seemed to reserve for you.
He held out his hand.
"Ready, princess?"
Your eyes dropped to it.
Yesterday, taking Beau's hand had been a performance.
A way out.
A lie you needed someone else to believe.
Tonight...
You weren't sure who you were trying to convince anymore.
You walked down the stairs.
And put your hand in his anyway.
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Enemy Blood {Garrett Graham x twin sister} Part 17
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Summary: Twelve years ago, Y/N Graham ran away and left her twin brother behind. Now she's back, wearing their dead mother's name on her jersey—and Garrett is about to learn that some wounds don't heal just because you stop talking about them.
Warnings: angst, twin sibling drama, hockey rivalry, family trauma, estranged siblings, garrett graham deserves a headache, reader chooses violence, eventual sibling reconciliation
By the time Garrett and Y/N made it back to the hockey house, it was dark.
Neither of them had spoken much on the drive.
Not because the trip to Eastwood had gone badly.
If anything, that was the problem.
It had gone too well.
Garrett had met Amy. Seen Y/N’s trophy cabinet. Learned about the community programme where Coach had found her. Heard, in scattered pieces, what those first years after she ran had actually looked like.
Seven placements.
Borrowed hockey equipment.
Sleeping in bedrooms that never quite became hers.
And somehow, somewhere in the middle of all that, Y/N had still talked about him.
My brother taught me.
Garrett had been replaying that sentence for most of the drive home.
Y/N had apparently been thinking too.
She stared through the passenger window, knees drawn slightly towards her chest, one hand buried inside the sleeve of Garrett’s hoodie.
His hoodie.
She was still wearing it.
He hadn't mentioned that once.
He deserved some kind of award.
When they pulled onto the street, Y/N straightened.
The police car was still parked opposite the house.
The sight of it made her shoulders tense.
Garrett noticed.
“Officer changes at ten.”
“I wasn’t asking.”
“I know.”
She glanced at him.
“Then why did you tell me?”
“Thought you might want to know.”
A beat passed.
“Okay.”
Garrett parked.
Neither moved immediately.
Through the living room window, they could see Dean standing on the sofa with his arms stretched above his head.
Y/N frowned.
“What is he doing?”
Garrett stared.
“I don’t know.”
Logan appeared and yanked Dean backwards by the waistband of his sweatpants.
Dean disappeared from view.
Garrett nodded.
“Probably something stupid.”
The front door opened before they reached it.
Tucker stood there.
“Please tell me you've eaten.”
Y/N stopped on the porch.
“We had coffee.”
“That wasn't the question.”
Garrett held up a takeaway bag.
“Sandwiches.”
Tucker inspected it.
“From where?”
Garrett told him.
Tucker's expression suggested he'd confessed to a crime.
“That place is terrible.”
“It was fine.”
“You have no standards.”
Y/N stepped past him.
“He burns toast.”
“Exactly.”
Garrett followed her inside.
“I thought you were on my side now.”
“I've never said that.”
“You said welcome to the family.”
“To Dean.”
From the sofa, Dean lifted his head.
“I’m her favourite.”
“You've known her two days,” Garrett said.
“And I've made a lasting impression.”
“So does food poisoning.”
Dean pressed a hand to his chest.
“You wound me.”
Y/N kicked off her shoes.
The movement was so casual that Garrett almost missed the significance of it.
Yesterday, she had stood inside the front door like someone waiting to be asked to leave.
Tonight, she took off her shoes.
Placed them beside his.
Then walked towards the kitchen without asking where anything was.
Small things.
Garrett was learning to pay attention to small things.
Dinner was leftovers because Tucker refused to let them eat the sandwiches.
Dean complained that leftovers didn't count as cooking.
Tucker threatened to stop feeding him.
Dean immediately withdrew his criticism.
Hannah had come back with Logan and sat beside Y/N at the table.
That was new too.
They weren't exactly comfortable with each other yet, but something had shifted at Eastwood.
Hannah asked about Amy.
Y/N groaned.
Garrett became interested.
“You know Amy?”
“Met her once,” Hannah said.
“She likes me.”
Y/N nearly choked on her drink.
“She followed you on Instagram.”
“Exactly.”
“That means nothing.”
Dean looked between them.
“Who’s Amy?”
“No one,” Y/N said.
“My future wife,” Garrett said at the same time.
Y/N kicked him beneath the table.
Hard.
“Jesus.”
Hannah laughed.
Dean’s eyes widened.
“Oh, this is excellent.”
“It isn’t,” Y/N warned.
“Your twin sister is cockblocking you?”
“Apparently.”
“I'm protecting my teammate.”
Garrett rubbed his shin.
“From what?”
“You.”
Dean nodded thoughtfully.
“Fair.”
“You're meant to support me.”
“I've heard stories.”
Y/N pointed her fork at Garrett.
“See?”
Garrett looked at Tucker.
“Help.”
Tucker kept eating.
“You’re on your own.”
The conversation dissolved into overlapping arguments.
For ten minutes, nothing was wrong.
No one mentioned Phil.
No one mentioned Claire.
Nobody asked Y/N about foster care or Garrett about the scars he still hadn’t explained.
They argued about hockey instead.
Eastwood’s defence.
Briar’s power play.
Dean made the mistake of saying Eastwood’s women would struggle against Briar's men.
Y/N stared at him across the table.
Garrett whispered, “Oh, no.”
“What?” Dean asked.
“You shouldn’t have said that.”
Y/N put down her fork.
“You think you could score on me?”
Dean grinned.
“I know I could.”
Y/N laughed.
Garrett knew that laugh.
It had preceded several childhood injuries.
“Tomorrow,” she said.
Dean leaned forward.
“Tomorrow what?”
“Rink.”
Garrett looked between them.
“No.”
Both turned towards him.
“Why not?” Y/N asked.
“Your wrist.”
“It’s taped.”
“Your doctor said rest.”
“My doctor also said movement within comfort.”
“You were listening?”
“Unlike you.”
Dean pointed towards Y/N.
“I like her.”
“Of course you do. She encourages your worst instincts.”
Y/N picked up her fork again.
“Tomorrow. Ten.”
Dean held out his hand across the table.
“Deal.”
She shook it.
Garrett looked at Hannah.
“Can you talk sense into either of them?”
“No. I want to watch.”
Garrett dropped his head into his hands.
Y/N nudged his knee.
“You'll survive.”
“That's what worries me.”
He lifted his head.
She was smiling.
Garrett smiled back.
Neither noticed Logan looking between them until he quietly said, “You two are weirdly adorable.”
Y/N’s smile vanished.
Garrett threw a napkin at him.
The house began settling around eleven.
Hannah left after making Y/N promise to text her.
Dean disappeared upstairs announcing that he needed beauty sleep before humiliating Eastwood tomorrow.
Logan followed after reminding him that Dean did not actually have ice time booked.
Apparently Dean considered that a minor logistical issue.
Tucker switched off the downstairs lights one by one.
Y/N remained at the kitchen table.
Garrett knew why.
The metal box sat upstairs.
Their mother’s voice was inside it.
Neither had mentioned it all evening.
Garrett rinsed the last mug and left it beside the sink.
“You tired?”
Y/N looked towards the hallway.
“No.”
“Me neither.”
A lie.
They were both exhausted.
But exhaustion and sleep had stopped being the same thing days ago.
Garrett dried his hands.
“You want to watch something?”
“Like what?”
“I don’t know. Movie.”
“You’ll talk through it.”
“I don't.”
“You used to.”
“I was twelve.”
“You asked questions about films you'd already seen.”
“I wanted your opinion.”
“You asked me who the killer was ten minutes into Scream.”
“You'd seen it.”
“So had you.”
Garrett smiled.
“We could watch hockey.”
“I've seen enough hockey today.”
He pulled out the chair opposite her.
“We don't have to go upstairs.”
Y/N's eyes flickered towards him.
There it was.
The real conversation.
“I know.”
Garrett sat.
For a minute, they listened to the refrigerator hum.
Y/N turned her phone over and over between her palms.
Then she asked, “Do you remember her voice?”
Garrett’s chest tightened.
“Yeah.”
“Clearly?”
He considered lying.
“No.”
Y/N nodded.
“Me neither.”
It was one of the things neither had admitted yet.
Faces survived through photographs.
Handwriting survived in old birthday cards.
But voices faded.
Slowly enough that you didn't notice at first.
One day Garrett had tried to remember exactly how his mother said his name when she was irritated with him.
He couldn't.
He remembered the feeling of it.
Not the sound.
“I remember her laugh,” Y/N said.
“I remember parts of it.”
“She snorted.”
Garrett smiled.
“When she laughed really hard.”
“She hated when we pointed it out.”
“So obviously we always pointed it out.”
Y/N’s mouth curved.
“She used to chase us.”
“You hid behind me.”
“You were bigger.”
“You shoved me towards her.”
“Again. Bigger.”
“She used to sing in the car.”
“Badly.”
“Really badly.”
Garrett stared at the tabletop.
“What if I don't recognise her?”
The question had been sitting inside him since Detective Ellis handed over the recording.
Y/N stopped moving the phone.
“You will.”
“What if I don't?”
“I'll tell you it's her.”
Garrett looked up.
“And if you don't?”
She swallowed.
“You tell me.”
There it was.
The agreement.
Garrett stood.
Y/N didn't.
Not immediately.
He waited beside the table.
After several seconds, she pushed her chair back.
“Okay.”
Just that.
Okay.
They went upstairs.
Garrett's bedroom felt smaller with both of them inside it.
Y/N sat cross-legged near the headboard while Garrett took the metal box from the desk.
Neither had changed for bed.
Neither seemed prepared to admit that this might take a while.
Garrett placed the box between them.
Y/N opened it.
The evidence envelope lay on top of all the pieces he'd kept.
Her fingers stopped on it.
“We don't have to.”
“You've said that already.”
“I can say it again.”
“That's annoying.”
“I’m good at that.”
Y/N looked at him.
“Are you scared?”
Garrett could have made a joke.
He didn't.
“Yeah.”
“Me too.”
He nodded.
She removed the envelope.
Inside was a small flash drive Detective Ellis had provided with the digitised recording.
Garrett had borrowed Tucker’s laptop because his own didn't have the right port.
He opened it.
One audio file.
No title.
Just a timestamp created by the forensic lab.
Garrett stared at it.
Y/N pulled the sleeves of his hoodie over her hands.
“You do it.”
“Why me?”
“You're older.”
“By four minutes.”
“Exactly.”
“That's not enough to establish authority.”
“It was when you wanted the front seat.”
“I was taller.”
“You weren't.”
“I was slightly taller.”
“You had bigger hair.”
Garrett laughed once.
The sound faded quickly.
His hand settled over the trackpad.
Y/N moved closer.
Not touching yet.
Almost.
“Ready?”
“No.”
“Same.”
Neither moved.
Garrett took a breath.
Then clicked.
Static filled the speakers.
Not much.
The soft mechanical hiss of an old cassette tape.
Something bumped near the microphone.
Fabric rustled.
Then—
“Oh, for goodness' sake.”
Y/N inhaled sharply.
Garrett froze.
Their mother.
Older than Garrett remembered.
Younger than he had become.
Claire Graham sighed through the speakers.
“Right. I think it's recording now.”
Y/N grabbed Garrett's hand.
Hard.
He barely felt it.
He was staring at a laptop screen as though somehow, if he looked closely enough, he would see her.
Claire laughed quietly.
The laugh turned into the smallest snort.
Y/N broke.
A sob escaped her before she could stop it.
Garrett closed his eyes.
He remembered.
God.
He remembered.
“That’s her,” Y/N whispered.
Garrett nodded.
“Yeah.”
Claire continued.
“I've never been very good with technology, so if this is just twenty minutes of me talking to myself and none of it records, Nancy has permission to laugh at me.”
Garrett laughed and cried at the same time.
Y/N covered her mouth.
For twelve years their mother had existed in tragedy.
Hospital.
Funeral.
Gravestone.
Now she was complaining about a tape recorder.
Alive in the way memories hadn't managed.
There was another rustle.
Then Claire’s voice became quieter.
“Garrett. Y/N.”
Both twins went completely still.
“If you're listening to this, then I need you to know something before anything else.”
A pause.
“I love you.”
Y/N folded forward.
Garrett tightened his hand around hers.
“I love you so much that sometimes it frightens me. I look at the two of you and wonder how I ever made anything that wonderful.”
Garrett stared at the floor.
Claire laughed softly.
“You're both probably rolling your eyes.”
Y/N made a broken sound beside him.
“I am,” she whispered.
Garrett's throat burned.
The tape continued.
“Garrett, you pretend affection embarrasses you, but you're the boy who still crawls into my bed when you've had a nightmare and tells me you're only checking if I'm awake.”
Garrett covered his face with his free hand.
Y/N looked at him.
He couldn't look back.
“And Y/N, you are going to argue that you don't need anyone until you're ninety years old, but I know you. You leave your bedroom door open when you're frightened because you want Garrett to hear you without having to ask.”
Y/N's grip became painful.
Garrett lowered his hand.
She was crying openly now.
Not wiping the tears away.
Not hiding.
He moved closer.
Their shoulders pressed together.
Claire took a shaky breath on the recording.
“I'm sorry.”
The warmth in her voice changed.
“I need you both to understand that I'm sorry.”
Y/N whispered, “Mom.”
“I should have taken you away sooner.”
Garrett’s jaw clenched.
“I kept believing your father when he said things would change. Then I kept believing myself when I said I could manage it. I thought being careful would keep you safe.”
A pause.
“It didn't.”
Garrett heard a sound beneath her words.
Traffic outside.
A clock.
Their old kitchen clock.
He suddenly knew exactly where she'd recorded it.
The dining room.
Late at night.
Probably while he and Y/N were asleep upstairs.
Claire continued.
“I know you hear things.”
Garrett stared at nothing.
“I know you know more than I pretend you do. I've seen you watching doors. I've seen Garrett stand between Y/N and his father. I've seen Y/N lie about broken things because she thinks if Phil believes she did it, he won't punish Garrett.”
Y/N turned to him.
Garrett stared back.
“You did that?”
She looked confused.
“Did what?”
“The lamp.”
Her face changed.
He remembered.
Their father's signed hockey photograph had fallen from the mantel when Garrett threw a ball inside.
Y/N had stepped forward before Phil could ask.
I did it.
Garrett had spent twelve years thinking she was covering for him once.
Apparently it had happened more than once.
“I thought you knew.”
“No.”
“Well.”
She wiped beneath her nose.
“You were stupid.”
Garrett laughed wetly.
“Good to know grief hasn't made you nicer.”
Claire's voice returned.
“You protect each other because I haven't protected you enough.”
The humour disappeared.
“That is my failure. Not yours.”
Y/N pressed her forehead against Garrett's shoulder.
He lifted their joined hands and rested them against his chest.
“You're children,” Claire said. “You shouldn't know how to listen to footsteps to decide what kind of mood your father is in. You shouldn't know which floorboards make noise. You shouldn't have signals for when you need help.”
Two fingers beneath the eye.
Watch me.
Garrett looked at Y/N.
She had remembered it when Mrs. Bennett disappeared.
Their mother had given them a language for surviving their father.
She should never have needed to.
“I've spoken to Nancy,” Claire continued. “There is somewhere we can go.”
Garrett's breath caught.
“I have some money. Not enough, but enough to start. I'm going to speak to the police again tomorrow.”
Y/N lifted her head.
Tomorrow.
The day Claire died.
Garrett knew it too.
His stomach turned.
Claire's breathing became uneven.
“I've written down everything I can remember. The times I've been to hospital. The photographs. The names of people I've told. Nancy has copies.”
Y/N whispered, “The box.”
Garrett nodded.
“If something happens before we leave—”
Claire stopped.
There was silence on the tape for several seconds.
When she spoke again, her voice was smaller.
“If something happens to me, Phil will tell you it was my fault.”
Neither twin moved.
“He'll tell you I made him angry. He'll say I was unstable. He might tell you I hurt myself, or that I fell, or that I was drinking.”
Y/N's breathing broke.
Garrett wrapped one arm around her.
“He'll make it sound reasonable because that's what he's good at.”
Claire inhaled shakily.
“Do not believe him.”
Y/N buried her face against Garrett's chest.
Garrett felt tears reach his jaw.
“I don't care what anyone else says. I don't care if they believe him because he's charming or because people know his name. I don't care if he cries.”
Her voice strengthened.
“If I die in that house, your father killed me.”
Garrett stopped breathing.
No hesitation.
No uncertainty.
A woman who knew exactly what might happen.
The recording kept running.
Y/N's entire body shook against him.
Garrett held her tighter.
“He has pushed me down before,” Claire said. “He has held my throat until I couldn't breathe. He has threatened to kill me if I take you away.”
Garrett closed his eyes.
“I didn't know,” he whispered.
Y/N heard.
Her hand tightened in his shirt.
“I know.”
Claire sniffed on the tape.
Then she seemed to collect herself.
“But I don't want this recording to only be about him.”
Garrett opened his eyes.
“He has taken enough from us.”
A long breath.
“So I'm going to tell you things I want you to remember instead.”
Y/N sat up slightly.
Claire's voice softened.
“Garrett, you hate tomatoes. You've told everyone you stopped eating them because they're disgusting, but actually it's because Y/N once told you tomato seeds were insect eggs and you believed her for nearly two years.”
Y/N's mouth fell open.
Garrett turned towards her.
“You bitch.”
A laugh burst through her tears.
“I forgot about that.”
“I didn't!”
“You ate ketchup.”
“Because ketchup doesn't have seeds.”
“You were twelve!”
“You're evil.”
Their mother's laughter followed theirs through the speakers.
Claire had known.
Of course she'd known.
“Y/N, you still sleep with that horrible stuffed rabbit you insist you don't own.”
Y/N's face dropped.
Garrett laughed.
“Buttons?”
“Shut up.”
“You still had Buttons?”
“I was fifteen!”
“You told me you threw him away when we were ten.”
“I lied.”
Garrett laughed harder.
For one strange, aching minute, their grief contained joy.
Claire told stories.
Garrett at five insisting he was going to marry the lunch lady because she gave him extra pudding.
Y/N at six cutting her own hair and blaming the dog.
The twins getting banned from a neighbour's garden because they built a hockey goal against their greenhouse.
Christmas mornings.
School plays.
The treehouse that collapsed.
Their first time on skates.
Claire remembered everything.
And she told them.
As if she'd known their memories might become poisoned by everything that came afterwards.
As if she'd wanted to leave them pieces untouched by Phil.
The recording ran for twenty-six minutes.
Near the end, Claire became quiet again.
“I don't know what happens next.”
Garrett's smile faded.
“But I know the two of you.”
Y/N curled against his side.
“You will fight.”
They both laughed weakly.
“You will blame each other for things neither of you caused. Garrett will get angry because anger is easier for him than being frightened.”
Y/N looked at him.
Garrett pointed at the laptop.
“Rude.”
Claire continued.
“And Y/N will run when she thinks staying might hurt someone she loves.”
Garrett stopped joking.
Y/N went still.
“Neither of those things makes you bad.”
Silence.
“They make you scared.”
Garrett felt his sister's fingers find his again.
Claire's next words came slowly.
“So when that happens, I want you to remember something.”
The tape hissed.
“You were born holding onto each other.”
Y/N frowned.
Garrett did too.
“I've never told you this because your father thought it sounded ridiculous, but when you were born, Garrett came first.”
Garrett looked smug through the tears.
“Four minutes,” he murmured.
Y/N elbowed him.
“Shut up.”
“And when they placed him beside me, he screamed.”
Garrett's smile disappeared.
“Then Y/N was born, and when the nurse placed you together, Garrett grabbed her hand.”
Y/N's eyes filled again.
“He wouldn't let go.”
Garrett looked down at their fingers.
Claire laughed softly.
“The nurse tried to move you apart, and you both screamed until she put you back together.”
Y/N's lips trembled.
“Dramatic from birth,” Garrett whispered.
“Clearly your fault.”
Claire continued.
“I suppose you've always known something the rest of us didn't.”
Garrett leaned his forehead against his sister's.
“When everything becomes too loud, find each other.”
Y/N closed her eyes.
“You don't have to fix everything.”
A tear slid down Garrett's cheek.
“You don't have to save each other.”
Y/N squeezed his hand.
“Just don't let anyone convince you that you are alone.”
There was movement on the recording.
The chair scraping back.
Then Claire returned for one final thing.
“And if you do end up listening to this when you're older...”
Her voice broke.
“I hope you became people you like.”
Y/N started crying harder.
Garrett pulled her fully against him.
“I hope hockey stayed fun.”
A watery laugh escaped him.
“I hope Garrett finally learned to cook something other than toast.”
Y/N laughed into his shirt.
“She knew.”
“Everyone apparently knew.”
“And Y/N, please stop cutting your own fringe. It never goes well.”
“I was thirteen!”
Garrett laughed helplessly.
“You did it three times.”
“You encouraged me.”
“I wanted to see what happened.”
Claire laughed with them, twelve years away.
Then she went quiet.
“I hope you know how much your mother loved you.”
The twins stopped moving.
“Not because of anything you achieved.”
Garrett stared at the laptop.
“Not because you were good at hockey or got good grades or behaved.”
Phil had always loved achievements.
Goals.
Trophies.
Obedience.
Claire's voice trembled.
“I loved you because you were mine.”
Y/N's face crumpled.
“And if I'm not there to tell you anymore, tell each other.”
Garrett shut his eyes.
“I love you, Garrett.”
His breath caught.
“I love you, Y/N.”
Y/N made a broken sound.
“And I am so sorry.”
There was a click.
Static.
Then nothing.
The track ended.
Neither twin moved.
The laptop screen went dark after a few minutes.
Garrett didn't notice.
Y/N remained against him, one hand twisted in the front of his shirt.
He held the back of her head.
Neither knew how long they stayed like that.
Eventually, Y/N whispered, “I forgot the tomato thing.”
Garrett laughed weakly.
“I didn't.”
“You absolutely did.”
“I remembered the important part.”
“You thought they were insect eggs.”
“For two years because you kept reinforcing the lie.”
“I was committed.”
“You were a psychopath.”
She laughed.
Then cried again.
Garrett rested his cheek against her hair.
“She knew.”
Y/N nodded against him.
“She knew what he was going to say.”
“And she told us first.”
“I wish we'd heard it.”
“When?”
“Then.”
Garrett thought about fifteen-year-old him sitting in his bedroom after Y/N disappeared, listening to his father explain that Claire had been unstable and Y/N had inherited the same selfishness.
What would have happened if he'd found the tape?
Would he have run too?
Would he have known Y/N hadn't abandoned him?
Would twelve years have disappeared?
“We didn't,” he said.
Y/N pulled back enough to look at him.
He wiped beneath her eye with his thumb before thinking about it.
She let him.
“That sucks,” he continued.
“Very eloquent.”
“I'm grieving.”
“You can still use proper vocabulary.”
“Fuck off.”
Her mouth twitched.
Garrett looked towards the box.
“Mom was right about something.”
“Only something?”
He ignored that.
“She said we'd blame each other.”
Y/N looked down.
“We did.”
“Yeah.”
“And ourselves.”
“Yeah.”
Y/N took a shaky breath.
“I don't want to do that anymore.”
Garrett stared at her.
She didn't qualify it.
Didn't make it into a joke.
He nodded.
“Me neither.”
“I might still get angry.”
“You definitely will.”
“So will you.”
“Probably.”
“We'll say horrible things sometimes.”
Garrett considered it.
“Can we try not to?”
“I said sometimes.”
“Fair.”
She looked at their joined hands.
“But I don't want to spend another twelve years trying to decide whose fault it was.”
Garrett swallowed.
“It was his.”
Y/N nodded.
The answer was simple.
Maybe it had always been.
Their father had hurt Claire.
Their father had lied to social services.
Their father had told Garrett that Y/N didn't want him.
Their father had told Y/N that Garrett chose to stay.
The children had survived those lies in whatever ways they could.
That was all.
Y/N wiped her face.
“You should probably keep seeing your therapist.”
Garrett laughed.
“You listened to Mom telling us she loved us and somehow turned it into homework?”
“She said you use anger because you're scared.”
“I'm aware.”
“You should work on that.”
“You run away.”
“I came back.”
The words silenced him.
Y/N seemed surprised by them too.
Garrett looked at her.
“Yeah.”
A smile appeared slowly.
“You did.”
Y/N looked towards the bedroom door.
“I should probably text Coach.”
“Tell him you're okay.”
“I am.”
Garrett's chest tightened.
He knew she meant more than physically.
Not fixed.
Not healed.
Okay.
For tonight.
She picked up her phone.
Garrett closed the laptop and returned the flash drive to its envelope.
When Y/N finished texting, she stood.
“I'm changing.”
“I'll go downstairs.”
She frowned.
“You're sleeping here.”
“I know. I meant while you change.”
“Oh.”
Garrett stood.
Y/N reached the door before stopping.
“Gare?”
He froze.
Not Garrett.
Gare.
She hadn't called him that since they were fifteen.
He turned.
Y/N looked embarrassed about it already.
“What?”
She pulled at the sleeves of his hoodie.
“Mom said we should tell each other.”
Garrett's throat tightened.
He knew what she meant.
He also knew how difficult the words were going to be after everything between them.
So he didn't make her go first.
“I love you.”
Y/N's eyes immediately filled again.
“Asshole.”
He laughed.
“You're meant to say it back.”
“I know.”
She wiped beneath her eye, annoyed with herself.
Then she crossed the space between them and wrapped both arms around him.
Garrett held her without hesitation.
“I love you too,” she whispered.
He closed his eyes.
Four words.
Twelve years late.
Still true.
Y/N squeezed him once before pulling away.
“You tell Dean about this and I will deny everything.”
“Obviously.”
“And the tomato thing dies with us.”
Garrett grinned.
“No chance.”
“Garrett.”
“I've got twelve years of embarrassing sister stories to catch up on.”
“I will leave.”
His smile disappeared immediately.
Y/N stared at him.
Then groaned.
“Bad joke.”
“Very.”
“Sorry.”
Garrett recovered.
Mostly.
“Work in progress.”
She opened the bedroom door.
Before leaving, she looked back.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
Garrett believed her.
Not because doors were locked.
Not because police sat outside.
Not because she needed somewhere to stay.
Because she had said it.
And for the first time in twelve years, neither of them had their father's voice in the room telling them otherwise.
Later, when the lights were off and they lay on opposite sides of Garrett's bed, Y/N reached across the space between them.
Garrett felt her fingers searching against the mattress.
He didn't say anything.
He simply reached back.
Their hands met somewhere in the middle.
Just like their mother had said.
And neither let go.
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Tiny Librarian {John Logan x reader} Part 51
Masterlist
Summary: You were stranded at the library in the pouring rain, the last shuttle bus had left just as you got there, you text your brother, Garrett Graham, if he could pick you up after practice. You'll never guess who he sends instead.
Warnings: none
Your hand wouldn’t work.
Logan looked at you.
“I can answer.”
You shook your head.
You picked up the phone.
Pressed the button.
Held it to your ear.
No speaker.
Not yet.
Garrett was breathing on the other end.
You heard people moving behind him.
A door.
Someone speaking somewhere farther away.
“Garrett?”
His breath broke.
Your stomach dropped.
Then your brother spoke.
“Guilty.”
Everything stopped.
Your mouth opened.
No sound came out.
Garrett was crying now.
You could hear it.
“Y/N.”
You stared straight ahead.
The television audience applauded again.
“Guilty on the stalking charge.”
Your hand started shaking.
Logan saw your face.
His entire body went still.
Garrett continued.
“And the unauthorised access.”
A sob broke somewhere inside your chest.
“And harassment.”
You covered your mouth.
Logan moved closer.
Not touching yet.
Waiting.
Garrett’s voice cracked completely.
“They believed you.”
That was what broke you.
Not guilty.
Not the charges.
Not Ryan.
They believed you.
A sound escaped you that was somewhere between a sob and a gasp.
Logan’s arms opened.
You fell into them.
The phone stayed pressed between your ear and his chest.
Garrett was still crying.
So were you.
Logan held you so tightly you could feel his heart pounding against your cheek.
“They believed me.”
“I know.”
You weren’t sure whether you were speaking to Logan or Garrett.
Maybe both.
“I told the truth.”
Garrett answered through the phone.
“Yeah.”
You closed your eyes.
“All that time.”
Your voice broke.
“All that fucking time he made me think I was crazy.”
Logan’s hand cradled the back of your head.
Garrett’s voice came quietly through the phone.
“You weren’t.”
The tears came harder.
Not happy tears.
Not entirely.
Grief.
Relief.
Anger.
Years of being told your reality couldn’t be trusted finally colliding with twelve strangers saying that it could.
Logan pressed his lips against your hair.
You clung to him.
“What did Ryan do?” you whispered.
Garrett was quiet.
“Nothing.”
Your chest tightened.
“He just sat there.”
Of course.
Calm.
Always calm.
Then Garrett added, “Until they took him down.”
“What?”
“Judge remanded him until sentencing.”
You stopped breathing for a second.
“He’s not leaving?”
“No.”
Garrett’s voice shook with relief.
“He’s not walking out today.”
The sentence settled deeper than everything else.
You looked towards the windows.
Towards the front door.
For months, every sound outside had carried the possibility of him.
Every unknown car.
Every footstep.
Every vibration of your phone.
Tonight, Ryan wasn’t somewhere out there.
Waiting.
Watching.
He was in custody.
Your body didn’t understand yet.
It would take time.
But for the first time, the danger had a door between you.
One you hadn’t needed to lock yourself.
“When are you coming home?”
“Now.”
“Okay.”
Garrett hesitated.
Then said, “I love you.”
Your eyes closed.
“I love you too.”
You ended the call.
The phone slipped from your hand onto the sofa.
For several seconds, you stayed pressed against Logan.
Neither of you spoke.
Then you pulled back.
His eyes were wet.
“You’re crying.”
“No, I’m not.”
“You absolutely are.”
“Something in my eye.”
“Both of them?”
“Very aggressive dust.”
A laugh burst out of you.
It collided with another sob.
Logan smiled through tears of his own.
“They believed you.”
You nodded.
The words still didn’t feel real.
“They believed me.”
“Yeah.”
You stared at him.
He had been there through nearly every part.
The first fear.
The phone calls.
The photographs.
The nights you couldn’t sleep.
The court.
The moments you believed Ryan more than yourself.
Logan had never once demanded that you believe him instead.
He had simply stayed until you were able to believe yourself.
Your hand moved to his face.
His smile faded.
Something shifted between you.
Quieter than everything else.
More frightening in an entirely different way.
That almost-word from the morning returned.
Love—
Logan looked at you like he remembered it too.
“I almost said something earlier.”
Your heart started beating faster.
“I know.”
He laughed nervously.
“Of course you noticed.”
“You stopped halfway through a word.”
“Maybe it was lunch.”
You stared at him.
“‘Lunch you’?”
“I panicked.”
Despite everything, you smiled.
Logan’s thumb brushed across your wrist.
His expression became serious.
“I don’t want today to be about me.”
“It isn’t.”
“And you don’t have to say anything back.”
Your breath caught.
“Logan.”
“I just…”
He looked down briefly.
John Logan.
Confident, irritating, flirtatious Logan.
Nervous.
Actually nervous.
When he looked back at you, there was no joke left.
“I love you.”
Three words.
Simple.
Quiet.
No grand speech.
And somehow they felt bigger than the verdict.
Your eyes filled all over again.
Logan immediately panicked.
“You absolutely don’t have to—”
“I love you too.”
He stopped.
Completely.
“You do?”
A laugh broke through your tears.
“Don’t make me repeat it.”
“Oh, you’re repeating it.”
“Logan.”
“I’ve waited months.”
“You nearly said it this morning.”
“I’ve emotionally waited months.”
You laughed.
Really laughed.
Logan’s face broke into a smile so wide it almost looked painful.
Then his expression softened.
Logan kissed you gently.
Not desperately.
Not like the first night at the party.
There was no rush.
No secrecy.
No fear of Garrett opening the door.
Just Logan’s hand against your cheek and your fingers curling into his shirt while everything that had happened seemed, for one moment, to move farther away.
When you separated, his forehead rested against yours.
“You know Garrett’s going to hate that our first ‘I love you’ happened while he was gone.”
You smiled.
“He’ll survive.”
“He might not.”
“He survived you dating his sister.”
“Barely.”
The front door opened downstairs.
Garrett’s voice carried through the house.
“Y/N?”
You pulled away from Logan.
Then stopped.
For the first time, you didn’t feel embarrassed to have been caught close to him.
You didn't move away.
“I’m here!”
Footsteps came quickly towards the living room.
Garrett appeared first.
Dean and Tucker behind him.
Garrett looked at your face.
Then Logan’s.
Then the suspiciously small distance between the two of you.
His eyes narrowed.
“No.”
You started laughing.
Garrett pointed at Logan.
“Whatever just happened, undo it.”
“You can’t undo feelings, Graham.”
“I can undo your face.”
Dean groaned.
“Can we have five minutes before the threats start?”
Tucker held up the paper bag from the courthouse café.
“I brought cake.”
You stared at them.
Your brother.
Your friends.
Logan beside you.
The ridiculous hockey house that had somehow become home.
Then something settled over you.
You had expected the verdict to feel like an ending.
It didn’t.
Ryan would still need to be sentenced.
Mason still had consequences to face.
You still had therapy.
Nightmares.
Bad days.
There would probably be mornings where your phone vibrating made your stomach drop.
A guilty verdict didn’t erase what happened.
But maybe endings weren’t supposed to erase anything.
Maybe they simply created room for what came after.
Garrett crossed the room and held out his hand.
You took it.
He pulled you to your feet and immediately wrapped you in a hug.
Dean joined without being invited.
Then Tucker.
Logan got dragged in last because apparently boundaries had temporarily ceased to exist.
You laughed against somebody’s shoulder.
“Guys, I can’t breathe.”
“Family moment,” Dean announced.
“You’re crushing me.”
“Worth it.”
Garrett’s voice came from somewhere near your ear.
“You’re okay?”
You thought about it.
Really thought.
Then you answered differently than you usually did.
“Not completely.”
Garrett’s arms loosened slightly.
You smiled.
“But I think I will be.”
Nobody told you that you definitely would.
Nobody promised everything would be easy now.
They just held you for another second.
And for once, uncertainty didn’t feel frightening.
Because whatever came next...
Ryan wasn’t choosing it.
You were.
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The first thing you noticed the next morning was the silence.
Not the absence of noise. The hockey house was never actually silent.
Somewhere downstairs, a cupboard slammed. Pipes groaned inside the wall. Someone—probably Garrett—walked down the hallway with all the subtlety of an elephant in hockey skates.
But inside your head?
Quiet.
You lay on your side beneath Logan’s blankets, staring towards the curtains.
For months, waking up had come with an automatic inventory.
Where’s my phone?
Is the door locked?
Did anything happen overnight?
Is there someone outside?
Did Ryan contact me?
Every morning, fear arrived before you were properly conscious.
Sometimes you woke already reaching for your phone.
Other times, you would lie completely still and listen for sounds outside the room, trying to convince yourself that footsteps in the hallway belonged to someone you knew.
This morning, your eyes opened—
and nothing happened.
You waited for it.
The knot in your stomach.
The quickened heartbeat.
The horrible impulse to check the window.
It didn’t come.
Not immediately, anyway.
Then the memory of yesterday returned.
Guilty.
The jury had found him guilty.
Ryan had been taken into custody.
He wasn’t walking around campus.
He wasn’t sitting in a car somewhere outside.
He wasn’t waiting at the library.
He wasn’t outside your dorm.
You knew where he was.
For the first time in months, you knew where he was.
And it wasn’t anywhere near you.
You stared at the ceiling.
Something wet slid towards your hairline.
You frowned.
Then realised you were crying.
“Seriously?”
Your own whispered voice sounded ridiculous in the quiet room.
You wiped the tear away.
Another immediately followed.
You laughed softly.
Apparently this was happening.
Beside you, Logan stirred.
His hand moved across the mattress in that half-asleep way he had developed since you started staying over more often, searching automatically until his fingertips found your waist.
He exhaled.
Then went still.
A second later, his eyes opened.
“You’re crying.”
His voice was rough with sleep.
You wiped your face quickly.
“No.”
Logan blinked at you.
“You have tears on your face.”
“Could be anything.”
“Like?”
You considered it.
“Allergies.”
“In November?”
“Seasonal.”
“To what?”
“You.”
He stared at you for a second.
“Cruel.”
A tiny laugh escaped you.
Then another tear fell.
Logan’s teasing disappeared.
He rolled onto his side, but he didn’t immediately reach for your face.
“Bad crying?”
You thought about it.
“I don’t know.”
“Okay.”
You looked towards the curtains again.
“He can’t come here.”
Logan was silent.
“Not today,” you whispered.
Your throat tightened.
“He can’t just decide to drive over.”
“No.”
“He can’t wait outside.”
“No.”
“He can’t follow me to class.”
“No.”
Your voice cracked.
“He can’t find some stupid excuse for accidentally being wherever I am.”
Logan’s eyes softened.
“No.”
The crying got worse.
You covered your face with both hands, embarrassed even though there was nobody in the room except him.
“I should be happy.”
“You can be happy and still cry.”
“I feel stupid.”
“You also feel everything before breakfast.”
You lowered your hands enough to glare at him.
He smiled faintly.
“Just an observation.”
You turned onto your back.
Logan stayed beside you.
“I thought I’d feel different.”
“After the verdict?”
“Yeah.”
You stared upward.
“I thought I’d wake up and feel…”
You searched for the word.
“Free.”
Logan considered that.
“Do you?”
You hesitated.
“A little.”
That surprised you.
You swallowed.
“Is that horrible?”
“Why would it be horrible?”
“Because he hasn’t been sentenced yet. And there’s appeals and Mason and all the other stuff.”
“None of that means you can’t feel relieved.”
You looked towards him.
“What if I get used to feeling safe and then something changes?”
There it was.
The real fear.
Safety was temporary.
Everything good was temporary.
You knew how quickly it could be taken away.
Logan reached towards you slowly.
You moved into his hand before he needed to ask.
His palm settled against your cheek.
“Then we deal with what changes when it changes.”
“I hate that answer.”
“I know.”
“I want you to say nothing will change.”
“I could.”
His thumb moved gently beneath your eye.
“But you’d know I was lying.”
You sighed.
“Unfortunately.”
“I’m painfully honest.”
“You once told Dean the scratch on his car came from a shopping cart.”
“It basically did.”
“You were driving the shopping cart.”
“That detail wasn’t relevant.”
You laughed.
It came out through the last of your tears.
Logan smiled.
“There.”
“What?”
“Nothing.”
He looked at you for another second before his smile softened.
You remembered yesterday.
His face.
The tears in his eyes.
The nervous way he’d looked down before finally saying it.
I love you.
Your stomach fluttered.
Different nerves.
Better ones.
Logan seemed to realise what you were thinking at exactly the same time.
His ears went slightly pink.
You stared at him.
“Oh my God.”
“What?”
“You’re embarrassed.”
“I am not.”
“You are.”
“I said something very emotionally mature yesterday.”
“You panicked halfway through saying it on the phone.”
“I recovered.”
“You tried to claim you were saying ‘lunch.’”
“It was a strong recovery.”
You smiled.
“Lunch you too, Logan.”
He groaned and buried his face in the pillow.
You laughed properly.
“I'm never letting that go.”
“I take it back.”
Your laughter stopped.
Logan lifted his head.
Your eyes narrowed.
“You what?”
His mouth twitched.
“The lunch part.”
“Good recovery.”
“I thought so.”
You rolled your eyes.
Then his expression became quieter.
“I don’t take the other part back.”
Your heart thudded.
You stared at him.
“I meant it.”
“I know.”
“You don’t have to say it every time I do.”
“I know.”
“And you never have to—”
“Logan.”
He stopped.
You smiled.
“I love you.”
For some reason, saying it this morning felt different.
Yesterday had been overwhelming.
A verdict.
Tears.
Relief.
Months of emotions breaking open at once.
Today there was no courtroom.
No phone call.
No dramatic moment.
Just messy hair and morning breath and Logan lying beside you with a crease from the pillow across his cheek.
And somehow—
this version meant more.
His smile appeared slowly.
“Again.”
“No.”
“Come on.”
“I said it.”
“I was distracted.”
“You were staring directly at me.”
“Emotionally distracted.”
You shoved his shoulder.
He caught your wrist gently and tugged you closer.
You went willingly.
Your forehead rested against his chest.
Logan’s arm wrapped around you.
“I love you too,” he murmured against your hair.
You smiled into his T-shirt.
“I heard you that time.”
“Good.”
—
Downstairs, Garrett was making pancakes.
Or attempting to.
You stopped in the kitchen doorway beside Logan.
There was flour on the counter.
Eggshell on the floor.
Smoke rising faintly from a pan.
Dean stood several feet away with his arms crossed, looking personally offended.
Tucker had his head in his hands.
“What happened?”
Four heads turned towards you.
Garrett immediately pointed the spatula at Tucker.
“He interfered.”
Tucker lifted his head.
“You put pancake batter in a dry pan on maximum heat.”
“That's how cooking works.”
“No,” Tucker said slowly. “It genuinely is not.”
Dean noticed you properly.
His eyes narrowed.
Then moved towards Logan.
Then back to you.
A slow smile appeared.
You immediately knew.
“Don't.”
Dean’s grin widened.
“I haven't said anything.”
“You're about to.”
Garrett looked suspicious.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
Dean nodded.
“Nothing at all.”
Garrett stared between you and Logan.
You could practically see his older-brother instincts beginning to activate.
“What happened?”
“Breakfast happened,” you said quickly.
“No. Something else happened.”
Logan shoved his hands into the pockets of his sweatpants.
“Nothing happened.”
Garrett pointed the spatula at him.
“You look smug.”
“I always look like this.”
“Exactly.”
Tucker’s eyes moved between the two of you.
Then understanding appeared on his face.
“Oh.”
You closed your eyes.
Garrett turned towards him.
“Oh what?”
Tucker immediately looked down at the pan.
“Pancakes.”
Dean bit down on his bottom lip.
Hard.
Garrett looked at you.
Then Logan.
Then you again.
“You told her.”
Logan froze.
Your eyes widened.
Dean made a sound somewhere between a laugh and a cough.
Garrett dropped the spatula onto the counter.
“I knew it.”
“Knew what?” you asked, far too innocently.
Garrett looked offended.
“You think I didn't hear him yesterday?”
Logan rubbed a hand over his face.
“Jesus Christ.”
“You nearly said it on speaker.”
“I forgot you were there.”
“You forgot her brother was on the phone?”
“There was a trial happening, Graham. My attention was divided.”
Garrett stared at you.
“You said it back?”
You folded your arms.
“This is none of your business.”
His mouth dropped open.
“Oh my God. You did.”
Dean finally lost the battle and burst out laughing.
Garrett turned towards Logan.
“No.”
Logan frowned.
“No what?”
“No love.”
You started laughing.
“You can't ban love.”
“I absolutely can.”
“You're insane.”
“My sister was supposed to have casual feelings.”
Logan looked at him.
“She launched herself at me after four days apart.”
Garrett pointed aggressively.
“I'd forgotten about that.”
“How?”
“I buried the memory.”
You moved towards the counter and grabbed a pancake from the plate.
Garrett slapped your hand away.
“Those aren't done.”
You stared at the blackened edges.
“Are you sure?”
Tucker quietly slid a different plate towards you.
“These are mine.”
“Thank you.”
“You're welcome.”
Behind you, Garrett was still staring at Logan.
“You love my sister.”
Logan’s expression changed.
The humour faded slightly.
“Yeah.”
The room became quieter.
Garrett obviously hadn't expected the answer to be that straightforward.
He looked at Logan for several seconds.
Then at you.
Something softened.
Not enough to stop him being Garrett.
Never that much.
But enough.
“Okay.”
You blinked.
“Okay?”
Garrett picked up the spatula.
“Yeah.”
Logan looked equally suspicious.
“That's it?”
“No.”
There it was.
Garrett pointed at him again.
“If you break her heart, I break—”
“Every bone in my body,” Logan finished. “We've covered this.”
Garrett nodded.
“Good.”
Dean leaned towards you.
“Beautiful family moment.”
You shoved a piece of pancake into his mouth.
—
Breakfast lasted nearly an hour.
Mostly because Tucker confiscated the frying pan and started over.
You sat between Logan and Garrett at the kitchen island while Dean told a story you had already heard twice and somehow still made entertaining.
At some point, you realised nobody was talking about the trial.
Nobody was talking about Ryan.
No updates.
No evidence.
No lawyers.
You looked towards the window.
Morning sunlight spilled across the garden.
Your eyes automatically checked the street beyond the fence.
Nothing unusual.
A woman walking a dog.
A delivery van.
Someone cycling past.
Your body tensed.
Then relaxed.
You didn't get up to check.
You didn't ask Logan whether he recognised the car.
You just turned back around.
Logan was stealing food from your plate.
You slapped his hand.
“Get your own.”
“You're not eating that.”
“I was.”
“For ten minutes?”
“I was pacing myself.”
He stole it anyway.
You stared at him.
“Thief.”
“You love me.”
Heat rushed into your face.
Dean’s head snapped towards you.
“Oh, we're saying it casually now?”
Garrett groaned.
“This is going to be unbearable.”
You looked at Logan.
He grinned around the stolen piece of pancake.
Something warm settled into your chest.
Not the dramatic rush from yesterday.
Something steadier.
Maybe this was what freedom actually looked like.
Not waking up fearless.
Not forgetting what happened.
Not suddenly becoming the person you had been before Ryan.
Maybe freedom was waking up and having other things matter more.
Burnt pancakes.
Dean being annoying.
Garrett threatening Logan over breakfast.
Tucker complaining about the state of his kitchen.
Being told I love you without wondering what you owed in return.
Your phone buzzed on the counter.
Your body reacted.
A small jump.
A tight breath.
Everyone noticed.
Nobody reached for it.
Logan didn't ask if you wanted him to check.
Garrett didn't stand.
Dean didn't stop talking.
You looked at the screen yourself.
A message from Hannah.
Hannah: How are you this morning? ❤️
You stared at it.
Then typed.
You: weirdly okay
You hesitated.
Then added:
You: actually... I think I'm good
You sent it.
Put your phone face down.
And returned to breakfast.
Logan's knee bumped yours beneath the counter.
You looked at him.
He smiled.
“You good?”
For once, the answer arrived without needing to be examined first.
“Yeah.”
You smiled back.
“I am.”
And this time, when you said it—
you weren't trying to convince anyone.
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