'Monsters are real and they are human

---------------------------- --------------------------- -------------------------- Dimitri Carter. Age: 38 Job: Detective for the Tree Hill Police Department. (Currently in suspension.) Working for Tree Hill General as a phlebotomist/ nurse's assistant. Born in :Rock Hill, South Carolina. Current Location: Tree Hill.

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Sandra Dee is Blonde. Khaleesi Lee is Brunette.

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“What I meant was…us girls are waiting outside for support. Granny Kat needs me there too. And I want to be there in honor of my mom and that is for me. Don’t you want me to get some sort of closure?” She hoped he could understand that. Hopefully he wasn’t out of touch with his humanity and could see why she’d want to be there. “My husbands gonna be there with me if that makes it any better?” Tossing O’neil into almost any equation could always help persuade her Gampah. “No need to hold me down that’s what O'Neil’s for.” She giggles. “I think it could help my trauma.” She really believed it. “Why would you shave it? you know it just hair and I can dye it right back at any time right?” She hoped he was kidding. 

“Yeah cause you two are so close.” He knew his was lying. “I don’t want ou there period tell ya what if you promise me you won’t go I will take you to the salon the day of the show and you can get your hair done and then when it’s over I’m buying box dye and we’re coming home and dyeing brown again and you can live with your generic box brown hair instead of the chestnut golden brown locks I gifted you genetically how’s that sound? Speaking of trauma I hope you care about mine it’s taking a lot from me to make this deal.” Why did she do this? “Stop using me to make you and your “husbands” love life more interesting.”

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Sandra Dee is Blonde. Khaleesi Lee is Brunette.

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“But you still think I’m beautiful?” She smiled cause she knew she was cute. Khaleesi watched as he was cleaning up after her but never really put together exactly what he was doing she just knew he always looked busy to her.  “Speaking of Grandpa’s… Grandad Damon’s bye-bye buzz is happening.” Khaleesi felt she should be there because her mother couldn’t. “Chandler and Roblyn are going… So am I.” She said in a stating tone not an asking one. “Thank you!” She was glad he liked her idea.

I never thought any of the Reid’s were ugly honey that was what started the problem. Of course i think you’re beautiful.” He rolled his eyes at her question. “Oh are they now? No. I’ll be talking to Thaddeus about that cause Roblyn’s already predisposed to being a sadist she’s not watching that.” He grabbed his phone out and text while talking to Khaleesi. “And what makes you want to be there for that? To induce more trauma? No you’re not I’ll hold you down and sit on you still the times over and trust me there’s not rewind on that one. But please don’t make me hold you down just say you won’t go. By the way don’t say it like that in front of your grandmother alright. It’s a sad day she’s losing her husband for good.” He laughed at her. “If a drop of bleach touches that head I’m shaving it you’re gonna wish I was kidding.”

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Sandra Dee is Blonde. Khaleesi Lee is Brunette.

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Khaleessi loved praise especially from grandpa. “YeAH!” She said like Neal. “But Grandpa!” She whined. “Tell me more?” Her young eyes twinkled for more family tree tea. “You know I love you the mostest.” She’d never hate her Gampah.  “How about I wear a wig? I’ll get you used to the idea before the switch.”  

“Khaleesi no sweetie you get upset every time I tell you about how your Reidy looks trigger Gampa’s PTSD.” He sighed cleaning up the things she’d just sat around from coming through the door. “The mostest of what your grandpa’s” He laughed. “Don’t make me laugh.” Since the other one was a serial Kiki ma ma.  “Yes! Sweetie great idea! Wear a wig and then at the night of the show just wear that wig! Oh my god you’ve done it you’ve figured it out my genius girl.” He kissed the side of her head.

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Sandra Dee is Blonde. Khaleesi Lee is Brunette.

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“Grandpa…” She sits on his lap. “My favorite Grandpa.” She wraps her arms around his neck. “Me love you!” She smiles. “I’m going to bleach my hair blonde, ok? I got the role of Sandy!”  she knew he’d be proud.

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Grandpa Smiled “Oh congratulations audience!” He. Inflated their ego. “ Oh no you’re not, baby love.” He inserted his trauma into the convo like always. “ If you do you hate you me you’ll be my walking nightmare you know I hate to get into this it’s weird I don’t like telling you these things don’t make me tell you more.”

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Concerts

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241370 Hurricane

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241438 Lowlands

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241411 Lollapalooza

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241392 Omerea london

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241383 Rock Werchter

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241369 isle of wight

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241367 Southside

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241379 Trnsmt

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241234 BBC The Biggest weekend

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241089 Weenie roast Kroq

https://vk.com/video/@jamesbay?section=uploaded&z=video-77267488_456243078%2Fclub77267488%2Fpl_-77267488_-1 Shakespear globe

https://vk.com/video-77267488_456241288  Live at SWR3 Casino-Session

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REVELATIONS // 300 + EVERMORE (1/2)

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It's All Just A Blur Again

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“Should I be worried?” Rebekkah stepped close to do the grandma whisper. “Here. Don’t make me regret this.” She gave Dimitri the papers giving custody of all the boys back to Dimitri and Bekka. “Don’t fuck up this time because there will not be anymore second chances.” She said but her aim in tone was at her daughter Bekka. But it was going to hurt her to give the boys up since she had spent everyday with them she developed attachment.

Crap! Bekka thought to herself. She hadn’t exactly told Dimitri about how she lost custody of the boys. Bekka hoped Dimitri would just go along with it and that he wouldn’t make a stink and prove to Rebekka they weren’t communicating as much as they should have been this last bit, while she watched the boys. “Capeesh!” She replied swiftly hoping to put an end to this conversation now. “Hey! there's my tyger man!” She picked Ty up. “Woah, he’s heavy!” She kissed her baby. Thadd ran over to Bekka and stood by her side and she picked him up. “Oh wow! Look, Dim both of them. No hands!” She laughed the boys were hanging onto their mother.

The audacity. Dimitri thought of Rebekkah. “Of course not.” He assured her and was taken by surprise to find out Bekka lost the boys but poker faced it to not give Rebekkah Reason. He forced a smile. “We appreciate it. The boy’s couldn’t ask for a better Grandmother.” He looked at Bekka and shook his head half embarrassed she done that infront of her mother. “Thanks again they’ll visit all the time and facetime you know the drill enjoy you time.” He turned to Bekka and gave her wtf Bekka eyes because she didn’t tell him enough but he had no room to talk. “Lets get kiddos!” They loaded the boy’s into the suv which was quite the tiring task moving all the carseats from Rebekkahs car to thiers then getting the boys to calm down and sit still while they were all getting buckled in. “Lucy you have splaining to do.” He sighed at Bekka because she lost custody. “But it can wait. I’m not in the mood.” He shut the door to the vehicle. “What now?”

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“I’m A Little Too Late, You’re A Little Too Gone.”

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Bekka wasn’t the happiest to be back in Virginia.

In a way Bekka treated the situation like he was a veteran with ptsd. (Only speaking of the trauma if he brought it up.) She didn’t know how else to comprehended the ridiculous shit he told her and to think that there was anything more was just too overwhelming to process. Sometimes baby steps are best. It was foreign to be someone else’s support system. Often just reaching out her oddly cold hand for him to take a hold or a piece of twizzler it was complicated. Bekka felt helpless most days but was forcing herself to make things easier even though they were mute at times.

Bekka halted all her research on the missing prostitutes’ case to work on what was most important in front of her now. It was awkward sometimes and she wasn’t the type to believe in energies until she experienced it like this. Was this what healing concealed wounds felt like or were they still bleeding? regardless she wanted to be with him.

“Do you think there’s so many versions of us because the universe wont stop until it gets us right?” Her eyes drifted over at him as the lay in bed and she decided to break the silence and think out loud. Her fingers twists his longer chestnut locks.

It was almost fictional. Bekka, like Dimitri had been so many different versions of themselves. Bekka wasn’t the same girl he met in the fire lane. Not the same girl that lost her dad. Not the same woman that became a mother to his children. Not the same lover that let a single rose wilt in her work locker. And not the same sober human she claimed to be on the 4th of July a few years ago. Different now but still suffering the consequences of her past self’s fuck ups. But still knowing there would be more mistakes made as long as she was growing and taking steps forwards and hopefully not backwards like she had done in the past.

Dimitri looked at her with his eyes having a slight gloss as she really had grasped his attention the way nothing had grasped it in the months he’d been home. and he paused taking it in feeling it affect him deeper by the passing second.  “That is the most profoundly beautiful, romantic, wise thing I’ve ever heard in my life. and I think you’re exactly right.” He said looked at her for a moment. “You make me fall in love with you all over again every time.” He said almost confused because he didn’t believe it himself that this feeling to be recreated over and over again by the same person in a different way from the first. He put his hands on her face. “The best is yet to come.” He said because he himself had been scared that the best of his life was behind him including their love because of the things that had transpired during it making him fear it was too damaged only for her words to spit on it and scrub away at the damage revealing it to only be rust. He let the words linger for only a moment then pulled her in and kissed her. “It’s a privilege to know every version of you I've got to know this far and its gonna be privilege to wake up and get to know every single you I wake up to in the future.” He smiled small with sad eyes. “If only you’ll tolerate me to.” He said and smiled a honest smile that wasn’t for the first time in a while wasn’t forced.

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“I’m A Little Too Late, You’re A Little Too Gone.”

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“I’m A Little Too Late, You’re A Little Too Gone.”

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Bekka nods seeing him look at Atti. “Yes, yes our baby boy.” Bekka’s breath hitches into a trembling vocal sigh escaped her lips and her tears fell and she broke down at the sound of his voice being the other half of their lyrics. “I can’t-I can’t help but feel this is a dream. That I’m going to wake up in a sweat screaming like I always do…” She gulps. As a shirtless man hovered in the doorway behind her she looked over and up at Elliot. “Is this real life?” Was daddy really home for reals? She thought to herself cause this was giving her anxiety.

Dimitri’s amount of overwhelm was unprocessed by even him. Dimitri wasn’t asked to hold atticus but even still he refused (not like they’d let a supposed dead and deranged looking man hold a 1 year old.) “I wanna tell you I will but I need time to tell myself first.” He said in a dull emotionally absent tone.” Elliot looked at Bekka unsure what was going on and if the police needed to be called. Ultimately Bekka came back to Virginia with Dimitri them leaving the boys with rebekkah for the time being. It was hard and some days Dimitri didn’t say anything At all but she did somehow manage to try to make up happy again and let there still be a them much to his surprise. He still felt unable to tell her much of anything other than it wasn’t his fault and to please believe him. He told her as much as it was Jane and she had killed tate as a cover up and that they were living in a house in the middle of nowhere handcuffed to the nearest bed or chair and that he tried to leave a lot of times but had no such luck yet he didn’t go into the nitty gritty details of these attempts like the sliced achellies tendon from the rigged gas petal or the whole chainsaw fiasco and the falling off the top of the house or even the buried alive and jane dying thing cause of his father. but rather that he escaped when she was taking him back to the carter home to kill him.nor did he mention anything of the cult or his daughter Lilith with Jane. He didn’t want to hide things but hadn’t figured the best way to get her to understand the magnitude of the situation and he didn’t want Gordonto investigate him cause knowing bekka she’d want justice but dimitri had already handled that himself oh and he didn’t tell her that he was married and widowed by now from Jane.

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"Really? you will!" She was shook he was going to go now. "Awesome!" she says casually not wanting to make it a big deal.

Bekka giggles, "Yah, baby candy! Hey Ma," Bekka shouted to her own mother. "Get Ty some candy! My boy is hungry." She smiled at Ty. "Mama loves you all times four!" She blew kisses and waves towards the screen.

Thadd stood up. "Ty! no! No push me!!!" He pointed his tiny finger at him.

"Oh wow, he's bossy! Huh?" She asked Dim.

"Daddd, let me get..." You see Thadd walk away into the background he was wearing slippers and it was odd for Bekka to see him act like such a little...man..? A few moments later Thadd brought Gadget and and Rebekkah brought Atticus over.

"Awe, there's my Gidgit!" Bekka laughs.

"Not Gidgit, mother." Thadd said, he rolled his eyes annoyed and overwhelmed.

"Oh well excuse me!" She smiled seeing little Atti. "I miss you all!" She missed holding them and they were really growing up super fast and Bekka wondered if she was missing too much but didn't want that to be true because it triggered her. Why was it that Rebekkah was now there for her children but not her own when Bekka was growing up.

"Ma, I'm pregnant..." Bekka said for kicks.

"Shut the hell up!" Her mother replied. Rebekkah had already prevented who knows how many other pregnancies when she forced her daughter on birth control after she overdosed and decided to chase her pills with vodka. Needless to say Rebekkah was still very upset with her daughter.

"Have we decided how things are going forwards?" Rebekkah asked Her daughter and Dimitri.

"Meh.." Bekka replied and looked clueless at Dimitri.

Carl walked in. "Are you guys coming back to get your sex? it everywhere!"

Dimitri rolled his eyes at Bekka. she was so clueless. “So bossy how dare he defend himself.” He said sarcastically.

“Hey gadgy! There’s daddy’s boy’s. You’re doing good thadd I’m proud of you bud.” Dimitri could see the role Thaddeus had sadly had to fall into and fill for not just his brothers but for his parents. Dimitri wished he could fix this for his son but knew all too well that wasn’t a possibility right now and that it was already ingrained in thad to think this way.

“Oh yeah we drew up the adoption papers yesterday did you not get the fax Rebekah we figured you wanted first dibs.” Dimitri joked.

“Hey Carl. yeah.” He sighed. “We’re coming ya know what we’re coming today we’ll see you all soon now ya hear okay bye bye we’ll be there in a few boy’s!” Dimitri cut the video chat off and sighed. “Lets go get our fucking kids.” He jumped up. “Thanks for all she’s done but i’m not letting her hold this over our heads ready or not here we come. Or you can stay here? No you can’t thats to many kids you have to come.” Dimitri booked a flight on his phone and they made it to the airport and into boston.

Dimitri knocked on the door thad running to open it. “Hey buddy!” He tussled thier sons hair. “You okay with this?” He asked their grandmother. “That’s a courteous question cause they’re coming home regardless.” He picked up Gadget.

‘Yo ma!” Ty came running to his mom.

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“You still didn’t acknowledge what I just said. So, how bout after my A.A meeting we go see MJ and you can get back into therapy...I’ll come with you.” She nods, “Eh, yeah we haven’t exactly been the best.” She agreed they were shit.

Bekka held her phone displaying both of them. Ty and Thadd answered with Rebekkah watching them in the background.

“Hi boyz! hi! Waz you guys waiting to hear from us?” She laughs/smiles wide at them. “Oh man! They really do look like you.”  she said looking at Dim in the view of her phone.

“Daaad-dad!” Thadd grabbed the phone to himself away from Ty. “Watch! watch!” He said and jumped around like a wild kiddo that had been watching far too many hours of the Rush Hour films.

Bekka laughed out loud, “Not to bad. Maybe you could be a spy one day.” She said and finished her snickers. “Mama hears you Tyger.” She seen him shove Thadd. “Wow, he’s strong. He’s gotta be gettin that milk in and isn’t 2% he’s strong like mom.” She said trying to lighten Dims mood a little cause she didn’t want him to be a dick to the boys.

"Yeah sure. I have to go get evaluated just to get reinstated anyway." Dimitri didn't know if he still wanted to be a detective or not but he really wasn't sure what else he would do or if three months really wasn't a long enough time to wait to come back after a year of being gone.

"Hey Buddy." He said and watched Thadd jump around. "Yeah wear yourself out it'll be easier for your grandma that way." Dimitri seen Ty shove thadd and dim sighed knowing they kids needed to be with him as soon as possible because Ty needed to be taught daily how to recognize pain from others and dangerous things that could hurt him. tho others could teach they would never comprehend how serious it was and just how clear and consistent they needed to be about it. "Hey Ty don't. You don't hit you don't shove you use your words." Ty got up in the camera and said hey Ma candy!?! like he seen hers and thought please could he get candy too.

"Where's gadgey, Thadd? is he okay?" Dimitri still hadn't gotten to be with atti and understandably didn't say much about that out of guilt and how strange it was to have a 1 year old with bekka that he barely knew.

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“Where is the line drawn between the past and the present cause right now I’m pretty confused.” She said and rolled out of bed and began putting on her clothes for the day. “I need you to want it too.” She said frustrated. “I’m going to recommend you listen to Chief, so you can come back to the force and do what you do best.” She she pulled a snickers bar from her nightstand and started eating it for breakfast. “You want to facetime the boys?” she said grabbing her phone to call them and her mother. “Man, this snickers is bussin’“ she nods.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean? You think i'm living in the past? You don't think I'm trying? Well excuse my "Triggered" Ass but I can't pretend that all the crap we've gone through the last year and a half didn't happen i'm not that good an actor." He looked at her like wtf. "I'm not doing the fucking therapist Bekka I'm not doing the stupid rehab bull it's stupid" The hell was bussin? "Whatever" he got up. "We're shit parents."

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It’s All Just  A Blur Again

The last three months had been a blur, Bekka rolled over to face Dimitri in bed. His eyes were already open it appeared he hadn’t been sleeping yet again and was a bit startling to see someone staring into the abyss of their reality it was beginning to mimic a barrel of a gun.

When could things resume she thought to herself. Her own mind trying to forget the trauma to protect her. “When can it be the way it was?” Like before, before he vanished or ‘died’. Rebekkah had been continuously looking after the boys including the youngest Atti, so they could work on what was left of each other.

 “I’m so tired, Dim.” He wasn’t the same man she once knew, but they both had changed over this course of time in their lives. 

It was a similar situation of getting to know someone new again. Bekka was giving her best efforts to be patient but finding it difficult as she was somewhat of an impatient being and like always, her tolerance cut even shorter with Dimitri for whatever reason. 

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Dimitri breathed out lowly with a sigh. " "Was" is a past tense word for a reason. it's how things were not how they are or how they ever will be again. " Long story short never. " Oh yeah? I dont know what that's like." He sat on the edge of the bed. "What do you want me to do about it?

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“I’m A Little Too Late, You’re A Little Too Gone.”

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Bekka nods seeing him look at Atti. “Yes, yes our baby boy.” Bekka’s breath hitches into a trembling vocal sigh escaped her lips and her tears fell and she broke down at the sound of his voice being the other half of their lyrics. “I can’t-I can’t help but feel this is a dream. That I’m going to wake up in a sweat screaming like I always do…” She gulps. As a shirtless man hovered in the doorway behind her she looked over and up at Elliot. “Is this real life?” Was daddy really home for reals? She thought to herself cause this was giving her anxiety.

Elliot looked hard at Dimitri and noticed him from pictures and the uncanny resemblance to Thaddeus. He then seen the look on Bekka’s face and felt the need to over compensate to be happy and make Bekka also see this as a happy moment because he could she her conflict. “It is this time.” Elliot had no idea what as going on where Dead Dimitri had been and if this was a thing to be happy sad mad or scared about.

The look on Dimitri’s face was that of a wayward Lion returning home to find his throne had been over thrown without battle. but he dismissed it for the bigger picture for the time being because he had yet to evaluate where he and Bekka stood but from what it looked like it wasn’t the homecoming he’s wished for but more of the one he expected and even more than that dreaded. “Where the fuck are my boy’s?” He pushed past Bekka. “Thaddeus! Gadget! Ty! Daddy’s home!” He almost frantically in desperation almost if to just see if they were still alive like no one but he could sustain their life because of his  Called his children. He looked at Elliot. “Don’t leave on my account Fabio.”