Dinky

[i-wrotethisforme]

“Your relationship with yourself is the only one worth going out of your way to preserve. Because sometimes people tell you they’ll always be there for you and a week later they’re telling you to have a nice life. Then you’ll feel stupid about the time you put their feelings above your own when they don’t care about hurting you at all. Someone who actually cares about your happiness will understand if you tell them you have to make a choice for yourself for once. We all need time to think every once in a while. We all feel like we’re having mid life crises in our mid twenties. We all sometimes wish we had a pause button on our lives, or a time machine, or a crystal ball. It’s these times when you need the people you care about to be behind you, not a roadblock in front of you, preventing you from going forward. It’s hard to explain to someone that you love them just as much as ever but you need them to play a different part in your life now. And it’s okay for that person to not understand or to get mad or hurt but it’s not okay for them to try to stop you or sabotage you or try to hurt you back. And it’s definitely not okay for them to guilt you or insult you or tell you you’re wrecking your life because what gives them the authority to know that? Remember that even if other people don’t understand or misinterpret your decisions, they are your decisions. And as long as they’re not illegal or dangerous, those other people don’t get to say whether or not they’re right or wrong. The only person whose opinion should matter is yourself. Make yourself proud. Learn, grow, meet new people, excel at your job, and never turn down an opportunity because someone else tells you to. Nothing is the end of the world because even if everyone leaves, you’ll still have yourself. And you’ll still have endless opportunities to start over and be whoever you want to be, even if you have no idea who that is yet.”

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[bandaidsfortheheart]

“I don’t want this. The way I think of you is too familiar to me. The kind of longing that leads to painful things. I could try to tell myself it will be different this time. But when the last one left I was less than I thought I would ever be. So I think I need to leave. Because if I don’t, I may never find myself again.”

— V.P.

[dinky30]

Will falling for someone always be as scary as this?

[dinky30]

A Thought

How can I feel bad for liking someone who kinda likes me but finding out someone else, who is probably so much better than me and amazing, wanted him and he didn’t want that person back. I know I’m not in the middle of anything but it still feels kinda bad!?

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[dinky30]

Women-This is about love

Here’s something we need to realize. I was a woman who never gave in to the bullshit men used to pursue women or sway them. Then I fell in love. It washed away all I knew and ever thought I believed. I found myself not being able to trust this man I supposedly loved. I found myself being judgemental of his behaviour while also feeling that in the whole world right now I was suppose to love him instead.

When I thought of falling in love one day I never thought I would be Insecure or Jealous or even needy. But I found myself feeling all of these things. I shared my insecurities with him. He claimed to throw them away and love me.

Next what comes in is, i believe him, I trust and I love him.

But did we talk about what he did in order to make sure that my insecurities did actually get thrown away? Nothing.

Then Time becomes an issue in two months of us knowing and loving each other.

Now you see when you love someone it’s not about who has time but about who makes time. These are the days you show your love to someone.

What I realised next was I told him I missed him multiple times, he never said it back.

You see men claim to love you, all of you. They make you fall in love, they even play games of both kinds flirting as well as loving. Now I believe he loves me. I do. But it is indeed in the words of Ms. Rupi Kaur, “What do I care if you love me or miss me or need me when you aren’t doing anything about it”

The problem is I do care.

Loving someone who loved the wrong person and thus does not really know how to be loved or what love can be is difficult, even more so when you’ve never been in love yourself

What we fail to do in love among all other things like setting boundaries is realizing that love has to be looked at realistically as well.

A man who cares and loves will make it clear to you, show you and YOU WILL KNOW.

Otherwise he’s probably just not that into you

This rule applied to dating and flirting but I think it applies to love as well.

So all you women wondering whether he loves you, stop. Take a step back, you shouldn’t be wondering in the first place. You deserve better. Wait for it to find you. And then if he too makes you feel like you don’t know, you haven’t found better, you’ve just found someone who’s different at being better than the previous one. You still deserve better.

Or better yet you deserve to love yourself better.

[dinky30]

Women-This is about love

Here’s something we need to realize. I was a woman who never gave in to the bullshit men used to pursue women or sway them. Then I fell in love. It washed away all I knew and ever thought I believed. I found myself not being able to trust this man I supposedly loved. I found myself being judgemental of his behaviour while also feeling that in the whole world right now I was suppose to love him instead.

When I thought of falling in love one day I never thought I would be Insecure or Jealous or even needy. But I found myself feeling all of these things. I shared my insecurities with him. He claimed to throw them away and love me.

Next what comes in is, i believe him, I trust and I love him.

But did we talk about what he did in order to make sure that my insecurities did actually get thrown away? Nothing.

Then Time becomes an issue in two months of us knowing and loving each other.

Now you see when you love someone it’s not about who has time but about who makes time. These are the days you show your love to someone.

What I realised next was I told him I missed him multiple times, he never said it back.

You see men claim to love you, all of you. They make you fall in love, they even play games of both kinds flirting as well as loving. Now I believe he loves me. I do. But it is indeed in the words of Ms. Rupi Kaur, “What do I care if you love me or miss me or need me when you aren’t doing anything about it”

The problem is I do care.

Loving someone who loved the wrong person and thus does not really know how to be loved or what love can be is difficult, even more so when you’ve never been in love yourself

What we fail to do in love among all other things like setting boundaries is realizing that love has to be looked at realistically as well.

A man who cares and loves will make it clear to you, show you and YOU WILL KNOW.

Otherwise he’s probably just not that into you

This rule applied to dating and flirting but I think it applies to love as well.

So all you women wondering whether he loves you, stop. Take a step back, you shouldn’t be wondering in the first place. You deserve better. Wait for it to find you. And then if he too makes you feel like you don’t know, you haven’t found better, you’ve just found someone who’s different at being better than the previous one. You still deserve better.

Or better yet you deserve to love yourself better.

[dinky30]

What is this?

What is Love? Is it love when you love someone so much that you push your fears away and stop being realistically judgemental? I mean isn’t it necessary to judge someone to a certain extent to protect your heart?

Is it love that you’re so much in love with a person who’s never been loved in the right way? Is it love when your heart doesn’t think about protecting itself anymore and just wants to love this person so intensely that how they look at love and their definition of it changes?

How sad it must be to have loved someone toxic in the past and have lost their ego and sense of respect over a blinded type of love?

Whereas My fears and my feelings cannot be discarded because I’ve overthought too soon! We’re allowed to feel what we feel and breaking down your walls is seemingly tougher

All I know is I’m incapable of hurting a person I love in any way possible

Someone once said take your time and if loves you he’ll wait for you to get there.

What if I wait too long?

What if I got selfish and I said I wanted it all, the fantasy, the love story, the relationship tag, all of it!

In a world of full of temporary love how selfish is it to ask for something meaningful?

[dinky30]

What is this?

What is Love? Is it love when you love someone so much that you push your fears away and stop being realistically judgemental? I mean isn’t it necessary to judge someone to a certain extent to protect your heart?

Is it love that you’re so much in love with a person who’s never been loved in the right way? Is it love when your heart doesn’t think about protecting itself anymore and just wants to love this person so intensely that how they look at love and their definition of it changes?

How sad it must be to have loved someone toxic in the past and have lost their ego and sense of respect over a blinded type of love?

Whereas My fears and my feelings cannot be discarded because I’ve overthought too soon! We’re allowed to feel what we feel and breaking down your walls is seemingly tougher

All I know is I’m incapable of hurting a person I love in any way possible

Someone once said take your time and if loves you he’ll wait for you to get there.

What if I wait too long?

What if I got selfish and I said I wanted it all, the fantasy, the love story, the relationship tag, all of it!

In a world of full of temporary love how selfish is it to ask for something meaningful?

[dinky30]

So now let’s talk about what happens once you believe you’re in love. All the claims don’t work, this is the first time you’re in love and you do deserve it all. But you’re also skeptical. Why wouldn’t you be. Does that person realize how all your life you’ve made yourself believe you hate Love? Do they know how much you’ve been in hurt without ever being in love or anything more? So you’ve been hurt before. Now Do you make the other person give you what you deserve? You can try to demand it but that never works does it now? Shouldn’t the person you love already know and give you all that you deserve?

Next comes the insecurity. What if they find someone they like more than you. Better yet what if they’ve already loved someone with the love you deserve and can longer promise the same to you. Well what if I said I want this love to be different than anything you’ve had before. But what if they’ve loved so intensely in the past that their heartbreak becomes a cause of your own. Is it right to say I hate her for taking away the one thing I want? What if their toxic relationship was because their love was that great? How do you then not think that this calming love that you have could never be enough?

What if I said I judged his past to see that he stayed in a toxic relationship that long because he got something out of it that I could never give.

You see this hopeless romantic heart has asked for something his heart has never known. He’s not used to a love like this

You see I already know the lengths of this love, I already know how greatly in love I feel?

But what about him? Does he know I’m different and that I’m not afraid of knowing what I deserve?

I love I want I know but I do not need.

My love doesn’t come in parts or barriers.

[dinky30]

To Men

Listen up, you men!

Let’s talk about me. I don’t like showing off my skin so much, doesn’t mean that I’m inflexible or mulish. I have been overweight, skinny and curvy and it doesn’t give you a right to talk about it, be disrespectful or laugh at my double chin. When I create wings with my eyeliner, it is because i feel empowered. If you’re scared of something that coloured water could do I’m not sure you should be around this much power. I love my curly hair and their messiness won’t be changed because you think a certain kind of hair is hotter. My nails are pretty the way they are. You change me, you lose me.

I’m old school but also contemporary. I am many things.

Now I’m sure the women you’re used to being around are very girly, talk about their makeup and bras and boyfriends. That’s not me.

These sisters of mine are brave and courageous and much prettier than they’re told and made to believe. They deserve men who treat them like goddesses.

Just because the flowers that grow within me are different than theirs doesn’t devalue or make my flowers extinct.

Women are fierce, there isn’t a standard as to how they are or should be.

She can love you but doing this will rip you apart.

Tip: If you love the ways she’s different, be observant and love her more. Don’t ever tell her you love her because she’s different because one are you disrespecting her sisters and two do you want to love her in a normal way?

Don’t tell her she’d look pretty with straight her. Just Tell her she looks beautiful. All the time. Because if we’re honest, she really does.

And if we’re being honest, you should constantly make her feel wanted, cause the asshole little boy deep inside you knows you don’t deserve her and a girl like her deserves it all.

[dinky30]

To Men

Listen up, you men!

Let’s talk about me. I don’t like showing off my skin so much, doesn’t mean that I’m inflexible or mulish. I have been overweight, skinny and curvy and it doesn’t give you a right to talk about it, be disrespectful or laugh at my double chin. When I create wings with my eyeliner, it is because i feel empowered. If you’re scared of something that coloured water could do I’m not sure you should be around this much power. I love my curly hair and their messiness won’t be changed because you think a certain kind of hair is hotter. My nails are pretty the way they are. You change me, you lose me.

I’m old school but also contemporary. I am many things.

Now I’m sure the women you’re used to being around are very girly, talk about their makeup and bras and boyfriends. That’s not me.

These sisters of mine are brave and courageous and much prettier than they’re told and made to believe. They deserve men who treat them like goddesses.

Just because the flowers that grow within me are different than theirs doesn’t devalue or make my flowers extinct.

Women are fierce, there isn’t a standard as to how they are or should be.

She can love you but doing this will rip you apart.

Tip: If you love the ways she’s different, be observant and love her more. Don’t ever tell her you love her because she’s different because one are you disrespecting her sisters and two do you want to love her in a normal way?

Don’t tell her she’d look pretty with straight her. Just Tell her she looks beautiful. All the time. Because if we’re honest, she really does.

And if we’re being honest, you should constantly make her feel wanted, cause the asshole little boy deep inside you knows you don’t deserve her and a girl like her deserves it all.

[dinky30]

So now let’s talk about what happens once you believe you’re in love. All the claims don’t work, this is the first time you’re in love and you do deserve it all. But you’re also skeptical. Why wouldn’t you be. Does that person realize how all your life you’ve made yourself believe you hate Love? Do they know how much you’ve been in hurt without ever being in love or anything more? So you’ve been hurt before. Now Do you make the other person give you what you deserve? You can try to demand it but that never works does it now? Shouldn’t the person you love already know and give you all that you deserve?

Next comes the insecurity. What if they find someone they like more than you. Better yet what if they’ve already loved someone with the love you deserve and can longer promise the same to you. Well what if I said I want this love to be different than anything you’ve had before. But what if they’ve loved so intensely in the past that their heartbreak becomes a cause of your own. Is it right to say I hate her for taking away the one thing I want? What if their toxic relationship was because their love was that great? How do you then not think that this calming love that you have could never be enough?

What if I said I judged his past to see that he stayed in a toxic relationship that long because he got something out of it that I could never give.

You see this hopeless romantic heart has asked for something his heart has never known. He’s not used to a love like this

You see I already know the lengths of this love, I already know how greatly in love I feel?

But what about him? Does he know I’m different and that I’m not afraid of knowing what I deserve?

I love I want I know but I do not need.

My love doesn’t come in parts or barriers.

[dinky30]

Love?

So the question is, what is Love? What is Love if you’ve never been in love? For now let’s just talk about love between people! How do you know that it’s love or meant to turn into love? What if subconsciously you’ve loved the wrong person and secretly hoped that if it wouldn’t have been toxic you’ll could’ve been great?! And what is Love if you’ve found someone great but their actions about their intensity towards you is based on something outwardly and impermanent? What if the right people love you for a reason? What can you do but not hurt? How can you them convince yourself that you still deserve better? How do you make someone choose you constantly? And We know you shouldn’t have to! So where do I positon myself? Should I be the hidden hopeless romantic I’ve always been or should I believe what I’ve always made myself believe, that love is indeed bullshit!

When Everyone around me seems to be getting in and out of it so very frequently and easily calling it “Love” making it hard for me to believe that it is.

I think my fault with this failure of being in Love is one the wrong people and two thinking that I could fall in it so very quickly! Now does time really play a big role in the picture? They say great love is chaos but it’s supposed to be calming and peaceful. Isn’t that confusing?

And What if the one person that flirts with you, is the most amount of connection you’ve had with someone, turns out to be unsure, flaky and indecisive.

Because if there’s one thing I’ve learned is that you deserve to be chosen. Later or sooner, they need to choose you!

Now how do you decide to throw something potentially real away for flags like these?

Lastly, what are these what if’s? If not a big question mark on love itself!

[dinky30]

#whatislove

[dinky30]

Love?

So the question is, what is Love? What is Love if you’ve never been in love? For now let’s just talk about love between people! How do you know that it’s love or meant to turn into love? What if subconsciously you’ve loved the wrong person and secretly hoped that if it wouldn’t have been toxic you’ll could’ve been great?! And what is Love if you’ve found someone great but their actions about their intensity towards you is based on something outwardly and impermanent? What if the right people love you for a reason? What can you do but not hurt? How can you them convince yourself that you still deserve better? How do you make someone choose you constantly? And We know you shouldn’t have to! So where do I positon myself? Should I be the hidden hopeless romantic I’ve always been or should I believe what I’ve always made myself believe, that love is indeed bullshit!

When Everyone around me seems to be getting in and out of it so very frequently and easily calling it “Love” making it hard for me to believe that it is.

I think my fault with this failure of being in Love is one the wrong people and two thinking that I could fall in it so very quickly! Now does time really play a big role in the picture? They say great love is chaos but it’s supposed to be calming and peaceful. Isn’t that confusing?

And What if the one person that flirts with you, is the most amount of connection you’ve had with someone, turns out to be unsure, flaky and indecisive.

Because if there’s one thing I’ve learned is that you deserve to be chosen. Later or sooner, they need to choose you!

Now how do you decide to throw something potentially real away for flags like these?

Lastly, what are these what if’s? If not a big question mark on love itself!

[catarinehancock]

“1. it’s not always loud. it’s not always obvious. the poison doesn’t always hit you like a gunshot. sometimes, it seeps in quietly, slowly. sometimes, you don’t even know it was ever there until months after. 2. love is not draining. love is not tiring. this is not how it is supposed to be. 3. apologies are like band-aids, when what you really need is stitches– they don’t actually fix anything long-term. soon enough, you’ll be bleeding again, but they will never give you what you really need. 4. this is not your fault. you did not turn them into this. this is how they are, how they’ve always been. you can’t blame yourself. 5. there will be less good days than bad days but the good days will be so amazing that it will feel like everything is better than it actually is. your mind is playing tricks on itself and your heart is trying to convince itself that it made the right choice. 6. they do not love you. they can not love you. this is not love. 7. you’re not wrong for wanting to run, so do it. 8. you will let them come back again and again before you realize that they only change long enough for you to let them in one more time. 9. it’s okay to be selfish and leave. there is never any crime in putting yourself first. when they tell you otherwise, don’t believe them. don’t let them tear you down. they want to knock you off your feet so that they can keep you on the ground. 10. after, you will look back on this regretting all the chances given, all the time wasted. you will think about what you know now, and what you would do differently if given the chance. part of you will say that you would never have even given them the time of day, but another part of you, the larger one, will say that even after everything, you wouldn’t have changed a thing. and that’s the part that is right.”

— 10 facts about toxic relationships (what i wish i’d known) -c.h. // instagram: @evanescent.love (via @poeticaffinity)

[thoughts-into-ink]

I want to be more than a reflection on the faces of a few people who looked at me and saw something worth remembering. I want to make the ground shake and the mountains bleed and the clouds rain fire down on everything. I want to lift the sky into the heavens above the earth and be remembered as the one who brought humanity to the stars. I want to be permanent, a constellation, a planet, anything that would last until the sun explodes, anything that would be more than I am.

Journal Entry; 18 Jan 2018 (via thoughts-into-ink)

#BeingMe

[aseaofquotes]

Alain De Botton, On Love