i’m sitting in my car eating a vegan buffalo chicken salad wrap, about to take a hot girl walk around my favorite neighborhood, and just needed somewhere to talk about how grateful i am that i moved from florida to north carolina. i really really love it here. i don’t know if it’s where i’m going to settle down and plant roots forever but i feel in my heart and soul that i was supposed to make this journey here and this is where i’m meant to be for now.
sometimes i’d find myself thinking about how maybe life is boring here. i’m not going out drinking, i’m not having casual sex or dating, i spend all my time at work or with my roommates or working on my wellness. but then i realized i’m not bored.. not in the slightest. i am at PEACE. i am moving slowly and living simply more than i ever have.
back in florida i was caught up in so many toxic cycles and relationships with people, and with myself. i fell so quickly into bad habits. i was constantly feeling depressed in an environment that had me trapped and unmotivated. every where i went i saw and was reminded of people that had traumatized me. i even found myself seeking those people and situations out because i was addicted to that hurt. i’m still unlearning these unhealthy behaviors, and i know moving to a new state doesn’t solve your problems, but god damn did it give me the new perspective that i needed to really start moving on and growing up.
the people here in north carolina are so kind. there’s no hurt or fear and i can smile at strangers so much more easily. my job and the friends i’ve made here are so uplifting and remind me of my importance and my worth every day. i feel like the time i spend here is the time i’ll really start to heal.
i love hiking, and how green and blooming it is, i love the city and the mountains, i love my tiny home with my cats and my best friends. i love that here i can finally put myself first. i love that here i am so much more hopeful. florida will always have a peace of my heart and i visit often but wow wow wow the world is so much bigger and brighter and there is so much more for me to see
