Holy shit
I’m never leaking my power out like that again. I apologize to anyone that felt as if I judged them or were hating/bitter towards them. I have not been myself in months, as a matter of fact fuggin years, and talking to myself and those that truly fuggin care about my mental health(meaning willing to be there as I grow into myself) has been really reaching into me and forcing me to shed and reveal new thicker skin than before. I have goals. Dreams. Ambition. Dedication. And loyalty to myself always. What I was lacking was my motivation. Didn’t know what to live for but everyday with prayer I feel closer and closer to my purpose.. I’m starting to see the bigger picture for what it really is instead of focusing on the small details. Though I’m not done, the path to righteousness will be a path of sacrifice. Needing. Not wanting. Selfless rather than selfish. Wise yet foolish. I still hold onto the child in me because she was oh so lonely. So fuggin lonely. Feeling like a burden and constantly running away. But I’m not scared anymore. There isn’t fuckin an ounce of fear in my heart. I’m not afraid to lose things or ppl ok with losing me. I’m guarded. Protected if you will. My light stays shinning through my darkness and that is how I understand that I’m not lost but enjoying my journey. I do not compare myself ever to others... nope. What is meant for me, is for me. What isn’t, is surely forced to walk the plank out of my life. It’s not that I was holding onto people, I just didn’t want to give up on them when the rest of their world did. I’m a healer. Once you taste my energy you will always want more. Learning to ground myself was one of the best tools I learned at my school for MT. I feel it. I feel like I’m about to be propelled into life with a refurbished shot and I no longer plan on being so hard on myself. It’s ok to ask for help because no, I’m not alone.
