invictus

Forever wills evil, forever works good

[bitchthefuck1]

"Because I'm really fucking good" you literally helped accidentally kill the guy you were supposed to protect less than 48 hours ago

[lorespill]

I needed to post this. Appreciate the side profiles yall.

[its-funnytwittertweets]

[gheycowboyespressokell]

I absolutely love the difference in the way that Jackson Lamb and River Cartwright go about being spies.

Lamb takes in a piece of information, forms a hypothesis, then pretends he doesn’t know or understand that information in order to learn more from people refuting him. He uses his position as a chronically dislikable prick to pull information out of people who don’t want to deal with him, or want to put him in his place. He’s careful, so much smarter than he looks, and he only approaches a solution once he has all the pieces comfortably under control.

River hears one piece of entirely unverified information and sprints face-first into some drywall to try and save the day.

[maryoliveoil]

I love this show.

[etherealbabycloud]

oh to straddle alexander skarsgård at the park ~

[redlipstickresurrected]

Luis Xertu (Mexican, b. 1985, Mexico City, Mexico, based Rotterdam, Netherlands) - Two Men on a Branch, 2024, Paintings: Plants, Acrylics on Canvas

[lizzygrantisaliveandbreathing]

vintage summer heels by sororitè vintage

[pappshot]

[etherealbabycloud]

oh to straddle alexander skarsgård at the park ~

[dirtydelirium]

Love letter to my husband

I never really told you why I wanted our son to be named Jeffrey, so here it goes.

When covid lockdown was first started, i was very unsettled, unhappy. I could not really figure out why but maybe it could be particularly due to me being a pure extrovert, ‘peacock’ personality type person whom suddenly had to go through the first lockdown all alone. Even after a while, i still feel so very restless. I think about all the external factors but I was doing fine in everything else, family, jobs etc but soon figured out that having a peace of mind is a blessing, with God’s will. 

So in that year i actively prayed for peace of mind. I did not ask for anything else, just peace of mind. I prayed for that every night during Ramadhan. 

And then i no longer felt so restless. I became more settled. I no longer had this constant thoughts about stabbing the veins in my wrist using pen (I thought it’ll be the only thing what would stop all of those anxiety). 

I could not really attribute it to anything specific. Like i said, all those external factors remains constant. However, I somehow also find peace in looking at your face. We still could not see each other due to lockdown but I was more peaceful than i’ve ever been. And when i finally get to see you, happier than i’ve ever been.

My prayer eversince that is for God to make me a better person, so i can be your wife. I found myself a person with so many flaws and you’re just there being perfect for me. I wouldnt want to be with you if i wasnt good enough for you, cause you only deserve the best. But God is all so powerful, he would make me better so I can finally be with you. I really wanted that. 

And I am so blessed right now that I have to have you as a loving husband, and father to our soon to be born son. His name will Jeffrey which means divinely peaceful. Its the first most important thing in the world. I hope he will be the peace of us. 

[dirtydelirium]

Rant Oct22

I find it hard to balance between actually being nice vs being flirtatious. My whole entire life i acknowledge that i’ve been using my sexuality and pretty privilege, and some part of it contributes to where i am right now. it was nothing malicious but i always have this urge to be likeable. pretty stupid to think about.  

Now that i’m married, some of my husband’s friends will reach out to me for some innocent reasons like returning / borrowing my husband’s samping, golf clubs etc (husband overseas for extended period) and i’ll be like strictly professional about it no casual chit chat but husband was like ‘u could had been a little bit nicer/friendlier’. 

Dude, i could. 

[dirtydelirium]

Generational Endgame Bill

I started as social smoker to accompany my ex and bought my first own pack of cig when i was an intern. I became regular smoker (some days, heavy) before quitting cold turkey 2 years ago. Whenever i faced mild inconveniences, smoking always been my unhealthy escapism.

Now, whenever I’m stressing about anything, i tremble and get easily agitated, thinking about how only ciggies can make everything ok. Sometimes involuntarily i’ll hold 2 fingers up and pretend im taking a huge drag. It feels mildly miserable but it really dont have to be like this. If i had known this before, i’ll never start smoking.

But i was young so i succumbed to social pressure, and I also regret too, that i ever introduced my friends to smoking.

[dirtydelirium]

baru baca article pesara kerajaan lost RM4.3mil to love scam. what i learned is that the pursuit of love is equally as vital as the pursuit for money. you can spend whole life pursuing money but might inevitably lost it for the pursuit of love later in life. the women transferred money 143 times. if thats not love i dont know what is. but all at the wrong person. So i guess its fine wasting some years and effort in our youth to find love. the older we get, the harder it is to find someone who would love you as genuinely, as beauty fades. people who found someone who love them back are the luckiest person in the world, which i stand guided, better than any amount of money in the world. 

[dirtydelirium]

loneliness

i dont know how or why, but being in relationship accentuates more loneliness for me. i guess its that feeling knowing you should and can only rely on just that one person to be your confidant. I guess that what makes the prospect of getting married really scary. 

I always been monogamous either way, but at least when i was single i dont have the feeling of being stuck and scared. most importantly, i feel lonely while in relationship. its that lonely feeling knowing that not one person in the whole world would get you, and the prospect of ever finding one is just really gone forever.

i’ve been in perfect relationship. one that speaks my language, i dont have to utter a single word when being around him, he knows. however, realistically speaking, knowing how you are does not equates to knowing what you actually feel inside. its only fair cause he got his own demons to deal with. hence, why, even after finding your soulmate, you’ll only ever gonna get lonelier. 

“when you’re free, you are also lonely”, but i have some level of ted lasso’s innocent optimism that i can always feel happier than this. theres avalanche in my chest, its painful, but no one gets it. no one ever will. 

[ocelott]

Agathe Singer

[roseydoux]

Léa Seydoux in Grand Central (2013) dir. by Rebecca Zlotowski