i can feel my lungs burning and feet wobbling as the adrenaline start to wear off. i canât remember what happened but i am running. I am running for as far as I can to escape the place called home. Iâm pushing a little bit more just so I wonât collapse and fall on the side of the road. Just run a little bit more. A little bit farther. Just, run.
Here comes another turn, away from the scenery I have gotten used to. I am worn out. I am wasted. I am faded. Just like that, I have reached the end of my journey with no destination, no companion, nothing. The only baggage I have is myself and the years worth of anguish and despair overflowing from inside of me. Here, I have decided to stop.
On the count of three I opened my eyes, momentarily blinded by the light. During the three longest seconds of my life, I had nothing to lose and so, I started to look. Not simply âlookâ but look as in dive deeply into the world outside the colored lenses people have come to like.
I now learned why those ugly glasses are loved. No one likes this dull, empty, lonely reality I finally saw.
Time started catching up as if it is riding the fastest train to the present. Time that was lost for all these years comes rushing faster than light. I can feel it toppling my soul and leaving me behind. Leaving me alone.
I gasped for air once more saving my lungs from the suffocation. I tried to compensate my dry throat by swallowing the small amount of saliva my body made for me. I fell to my knees steadying my body as the gravity start to feel stronger pulling me closer to the ground. Heat finally left my body and out in the open. I want to believe that it is only the heat i have let go of. Along with the sweat dripping through my face and drenching my clothes. I want to believe the fluid coming from my eyes is also sweat.
The summer air blows cooler than it seems against my hot skin taking with it everything flowing out of me. I slumped down the grass wishing the earth would swallow me and bring me to another world. I wish it would take me back and claim me as its own.
I suddenly envied those abandoned mansions near the train station where the ivies and the wild has claimed for themselves. Watching as the nature protects them even if they are left behind by everyone and everything. Peace has found those who have not hurried. Peace dwelled on those who have not envied.
I have finally calmed down and melt into the ground. For a few minutes I want to be an abandoned abode treasuring the soft caress of the green around me and the blue above. For a few minutes I have found peace. Peace finds rest on those who have accepted. Thus, those who have accepted finally found rest.
I closed my eyes and laid as still as I can. Let this be the resting place of the me I pretended to be. Let this be the graveyard of the melancholy and desolation I have become. I have finally reached my destination and here I am the powerful, I am the strongest. Then, I fell asleep with the epitaph I have engraved on my mind, âHere lies the peace I have restlessly chased after.â
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