[disappearingconcept]

Joined Tumblr first time in a long while and I already feel like running away. It's complicated: at the same time I need somewhere to express myself but I have spent such a long time away from socials.

I have gotten so attached to the feeling of an escape always being around the corner. It has led me to a path of just kind of avoiding everything for the fear of belonging somewhere for too long or too much. I hate it but at the same time it feels so good. I have had some anxious tendencies. They have become much more manageable while I have been gone from most apps. I still think it has also done some harm. The fear of doing anything because it might make me feel or make me stay and get attached is not something I wanted. Time will tell if I disappear from here just as quickly as I appeared.

[whyenn-reader]

how many times can a man complain about his mental state worsening before he gets told to shut the fuck up, asking for a friend

[becherdireinen]

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

AUGUST IS GOING TO BE A GOOD MONTH.

[disappearingconcept]

You hear that one song from years ago and have no idea how you should exist now

[longseasons]

when your coffee tastes good today and you start thinking god has forgiven you

[werenotreallystrangers]

what you’re seeing is filtered through emotion rather than objective reality

[wetheurban]

And somehow, we’re already moving into August.

This is your reminder that you deserve more than just surviving your life. Stop waiting for permission to experience joy. Choose yourself, over and over again.

[werenotreallystrangers]

you can survive being fully known

[velvetyveil666]

Being stuck in nostalgia is killing me

[peacozy]

[mydarkawaits]

If I write, I go sane. If I don't, I go insane.

[disappearingconcept]

I might be the most ungrateful person in this world if you ask me, but at the same time the thought of every good thing I have getting taken away scares me so much that I get stuck in my own loops for ages trying to prove I appreciate them more than one would think and show my gratitude

[disappearingconcept]

Numbers are scary. Both because I can't count properly and because they keep telling me they are telling me something

[banhmigoddess]

My one boring tip to anyone in their 20s is to resist the temptation to rot in your room every time you get a free moment. Dismiss any neuroses you have about going outside and "being perceived". Be a dictator about it, plan your hangouts like they are binding commitments. No excuses! Go to the bar with your friends. Be kinda hungover at work. Socializing is like exercise; even if you don't feel like you want to, you should still do it because it's good for you.

[disappearingconcept]

Your harmless little rituals will consume your life and stop being harmless before you even notice, speaking from the experience of trying to get out of negotiating every single thought and action with myself and feeling ridiculous because I Can't do it

[disappearingconcept]

I actually look back on all I kind of left behind with so much love and longing today. I wish everyone is doing good and I wish I some day have the courage to reach out again

[disappearingconcept]

If there is anyone from the life I used to live before I lost my mind and you recognise me, I promise you I still love you and I'm so sorry for the disappearance