[disenchantedkitten]

hope kit

I know alvhol is a depressant yet I still drink when im stressed and sad. I want so many things but have achieved nothing. breathing is hard the more i do it.  I wanna die. I barely desrver to be alive and to exist. i gueesss ill just paint and read and stfu til it becomes too much and i finally do it. <3

[tyjrose]

Kink: Being called baby

[disenchantedkitten]

I always feel so shitty when I realize I was the only one who was so in love in a previous relationship.. so much that they don’t even count it as a relationship or see me as an ex. but me at 23 still mourns the love I felt and experienced so long ago. Why do I not receive the love i pour out.. why am i always hoping to feel the unconditional, intoxicating, immersive, and caring kind of love and receive the bare minimum and non existence.. 

I want someone to love me the way I loved you.

[disenchantedkitten]

I am a head start teacher assistant now. The version of myself who started this blog would feel sad that I’m not in school for fine art. They’d be upset to find out I had a kid at 20. They would be sad to hear I don’t really talk to the love of their life anymore and that we still, as adults, have never tried to meet irl. They’d be upset to hear about my mom and the world that broken around her. They would be so sad if they found out I settled into domestic life so early. Younger me would feel uninspired and embarrassed to know this is who we became. This is where our choices led us. I never get to fully grieve the life that I expected to live at the age I am now. There is never time to feel sad about my mistakes. I still struggle with depression and anxiety. but yeah.  

[mysimpsonsblogisgreaterthanyours]

[disenchantedkitten]

All of it was real to me. child or not. I have always loved deeply. 

[wayneradiotv]

how to wash a kitten without making it to scared

[animatedtext]

requested by astralaluminum

[timbllr]

[disenchantedkitten]

Bathroom Floor

I don’t know how I always end up here at low points in my life. Why not just lay on the bed? Why hide?

I don’t know why I’m in my relationship if it feels like I’m alone.

No one is here.

No one will ever be here.

Not on the floor.

[crushedcoffeeberries]

[disenchantedkitten]

[disenchantedkitten]

feeling this down while being a mother and head of the household is so different and bad. im so stressed and so unhappy.. it’s separate from how much I like my kid. my anxiety has been getting bad and my mood keeps swinging from super fucking happy to wanting to cut. everything is overwhelming most days.

[duaddityofman]

[funnytwittertweets]

[disenchantedkitten]

I’m tired

[minuty]

How much I missed, simply because I was afraid of missing it.

(via minuty)