Had an interview the other day for residency training, and again, this question I've been repeatedly asked before surfaced from the panel.
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What if you found love and you've made to choose?
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"I intend to focus on my career at the moment. I've given up quite a few relationships just to reach where I am now. I am not to forsake those sacrifices. If she ask me to choose, I know she's not the one."
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I know, It reeks with selfishness. I'm not someone who is easily derailed by irrational thoughts and emotions. I'm cold and calculating without intentions of losing. That's why I am not actively searching because I know, I'll always choose to be selfish, I'll always choose me.
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Maybe, It could happen sooner or later. The possibilities are endless. Not that I don't want a relationship, that's the ultimate goal, to build my own family. But as I've said, If she ask me to choose, she's not the one.
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Maybe I'll find her along the journey. After all, 5 years is a long time to be lurking around as a bachelor. But for now, let me build myself. Patch the parts I'm still missing. After all, I intend to be whole before I love again.
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P.S. True love isn't always romantic. But damn, I'm a hopeless romantic to begin with.