the future that i scooped out was dirty

THE TRULY SCARY THING ABOUT UNDISCOVERED LIES IS THAT THEY HAVE A GREATER CAPACITY TO DIMINISH US THAN EXPOSED ONES. THEY ERODE OUR STRENGTH, OUR SELF-ESTEEM, OUR VERY FOUNDATION.

[haiyse]

► "Let's start with introductions. I'm Kano."

[bertholdts]

[dissimulative]

Happy Birthday, you precious loser (╯3╰) 5.10

Kano Shuuya, episode 5 [Mekakucity Actors]

[bertholdts]

K A N O ✦ S H U U Y A

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夜咄ディセイブ By もたきち

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※Permission to reprint was granted by the original artist.

[dissimulative]

— ♔cookie clash.

[nightsveiled]

     Today, the downtown area of Benu is frankly disgusting.

     Roberto grimaces as he passes yet another couple smooching on a sidewalk. Sure, there’s some sort of bug going around the town, and maybe it is affecting how everyone feels, but he’d thought they would at least have the common decency to go somewhere private before deciding to stick their tongues down each other’s throats. Even in Castle Ratselhaft, which had been full to bursting with both married and unmarried couples, people had had the good manners to go and be ridiculously romantic somewhere where he hadn’t been able to see them.

     An exasperated sigh escapes his mouth when he turns a corner and almost runs straight into another couple. Not for the first time, he thanks his lucky stars that his outfit leaves very little skin exposed; he’d hate to be bitten and become like these poor saps.

     However, even if he isn’t like them, he still has to deal with them, and that’s almost as painful.

     Fed up with having to watch these pathetic, hopelessly sappy people, he ducks into the nearest building in hopes of escaping the romance that’s settled over the town like a thick fog. To his surprise, he’s greeted not with the sight of another couple testing the limits of the human body’s capability to hold its breath; instead, he sees an assortment of cookies, steaming slightly and sending up a delicious, sugary scent.

     Intending to buy himself a cookie to distract himself from the romantic hell outdoors, he’s fishing for his wallet when he hears a familiar voice making an offer.

     ”… You again?” A pause. Free cookies are free cookies, even if this kid has gotten him into more trouble than he can measure. “I guess I can help you out, then.”

[dissimulative]

The obvious chagrin was not a determent as nothing could be with the mindset the prevaricator currently had. Negativity had simply ceased to exist, the air of unequivocal bliss permeating from him something that all seemed to emit in his eyes. This truly was immensely different from the usual persona he never failed to use, the upbeat disposition genuine as a mask was not needed in order to keep the appearance of one unbothered by the world at large. It seemed as though the influence of the bite was not all bad as it'd allowed for Kano to at long last reveal himself, though in retrospect these emotions were still not true.

Regardless of the actual ingenuity, the acceptance of helping would've been received with high spirits either way, even more so due to how it came from one of the very people the delectable treats had been meant for. While the surprise would be all but ruined, having the man decorate his own cookies to his liking would most assuredly bring about even better enjoyment in the end.

With that in mind, the teenager quickly ushered the man over rather than shoo him off elsewhere, beaming brightly all the while. "C'mon, c'mon! Let's not waste time, Roberto-kun. There's only so many cookies we can finish, right?" Not exactly concerned about whether or not all the aforementioned treats were finished, fingers grasped at an icing tube, a hand holding a heart shaped cookie in place to ensue it would not move about. Expecting the warrior to do as he without needing to be outright instructed did vibrant pink icing begin to border the edges of the baked good as the blond set to it.

[dissimulative]

"You're not a monster."

The same pang of remorse intensified twofold, not permitted the chance to wane by even the most minuscule amount. To be told something so blatantly untrue by the young Medusa was not nearly as paralyzing as it was from one that held a significantly greater place within the shambles of his life, and he was even more undeserving to be graced by those words from her. It was due to how the brother that the leader had come to know and love was nothing more than fabrications upon fabrications, the desperation that comprised his true self bleeding into the mask but never quite able to reach the surface.

Even now would that lost soul persist with not being found, the intricate layering of the mask strengthening to resemble stoned walls, unpenetrable, any gaps that’d been present filled in as to deny so much as a glimpse of what lay behind. It was noticeable by how his smile sweetened in an almost unnatural way compared to the usual ruse, the strained effort needed to assemble it remaining unseen as the change in perception dutifully did as it was intended for. That was not all that was hidden, the narrowed hues devoid of any evident traces of life blanketed from view, what would’ve been telltale traces of how this corrupted lifestyle truly affected him completely obscured.

As it was to be expected, none of this was knowledge the girl was privy to and, so long as he could help it, it never would be. No matter how much she unknowingly wounded him, no matter how much turmoil he suffered, no matter how much he gravely needed help from someone, anyone, not a single plead for aid would leave those permanently upturned lips.

After all …

“Knowing these things has always been your specialty, Kido.”

Once you began lying it was impossible to stop, not even if you wanted to.

[dissimulative]

"You’re not a monster!"

The proclamation came with absolute surety, irresponsibly tumbling out from the the girl’s mouth without any thought as to the affect it could have. It caused his form to stiffen, those words ones that he’d always fruitlessly wished to be told despite how such an obvious lie wouldn’t bring any peace of mind. That was proven to be true as nothing beneficial was gained by being blessed by that unthinkable statement, the bottomless pit of self-hatred that coursed through his being in the same manner as the loathsome serpent that’d led the once impressionable youth down this path of deceit not diminishing in the least bit. It only brought emptiness, contempt, and loneliness.

The unending anguish dealt with daily would find itself newly accompanied by what could be labeled as guilt, the knowledge that he’d blinded the gullible child to such an extent that a delusion of good dwelling within his tainted heart had come about solidifying the depth of his cruelty. While Mary was supposedly a monster, it was he that truly embodied the careless, heartless nature, the ruthless indifference and the malicious intent to cause harm, the traits that that made those creatures the subject of fear and hatred.

He was the Beast and she was Beauty, kind and fair and oh so deserving of love.

Smile not quite as bright as ordinarily, it would do well enough to prevent any suspicions about this sort of mindset from forming. “First the card and now this? If I’m not careful, Mary-chan’s going to find out all my secrets. Spare me, Miss P.I. Without those I’ll no longer be mys~terious.” Holding up his hands as if attempting to jokingly shoo away the unwanted prodding, the seriousness of this matter was carefully smoothed over with airy complaints as if this was like any other day.

[hikineetism]

“Geh—”

“That’s not proof at all!! I was only saying ignoring me was stupid—! Who cares if I contacted you, I could be without you if I wanted to!”

[dissimulative]

"If that's the truth then why are you still here? Shouldn't you be trying to prove me wrong by leaving? Maybe it's just too hard for you to willingly walk away from a friend. Don't worry, I'm sure you can do it if you really try."

[hikineetism]

“Desperate? What gave you that idea? I would be perfectly fine if you stayed away longer than you did. Besides, since when are you considerate?”

[dissimulative]

"What's this? I do believe it's proof that it was you who couldn't stay away. You don't go out of your way to try to contact someone you want to be free of. That's just common sense."

[hikineetism]

dissimulative started following you

“You’re back, huh? Took you a while to give up.”

[dissimulative]

"I really didn't have a choice, did I? If I had continued to ignore you then you would've only become even more pathetically desperate than you already are, right?"

[dissimulative]

"You don’t need to lie because the truth is your heart shines brightly!"

The clearly homemade card was undeniably thoughtful, the length of time spent crafting it meaningless in the face of the warmhearted depth of the purpose behind it. Scrawled encouragingly was a message of assurance, words that denied the need for dishonesty as it was apparently believed that a heart as pure as that of the Medusa's was owned. Something like that had never belonged to him, as covered in the deplorable filth of deception as he was.

But .. no matter how wrong the belief was, it was the reality the girl lived in.

"If it's the truth that Mary wants, then it's the truth that she'll get."

That in itself was yet another fallacy as the lies would continue as they always had, though now they would be made to seem that much more truthful. It was for the sake of the Medusa's delicate heart for if the monster hidden behind the mask was made known, her well of hope would surely be sapped dry.

[dissimulative]

Already having bestowed generous amounts of attention upon numerous others, but a single individual of importance still needed to be properly shown his appreciation. It was one of the only remaining constants in his life, one of the few people who had yet to leave despite how doing so was by far too logical. There was no one more deserving of being fawned over or repeatedly called adorable than the leader of the group begun through the combined effort of their family.

How to properly dote on the girl took no thought at all, it was just that obvious. It wasn't something he did all that often on account of honestly believing himself to be nothing short of contaminated filth, but on an occasion like this a little less restraint was of no consequence.

For that did arms wrap about the form of the unsuspecting woman from behind, chin settling to rest upon the juncture of the neck and shoulder while drawing her near. Grinning boyishly, no explanation was given as holding to the other was all that mattered at the moment. Should there be repercussions for the sudden bout of affection Kano would gladly accept them, but for now he contentedly remained embracing the sister that meant so much to him.

[dissimulative]

— ♔cookie clash.

By casting the illusion of a green-clad individual over his own visage had obtaining access to the kitchens of a particular bakery been far too effortless, gaining free reign of the back acquired just as easily by simply volunteering to cover the shift of the sole worker within the store. Any obstructions had been removed promptly in order for the blond to begin experimenting with a recipe of his own design without any real delay, the intended goal being to create festive treats that were an absolute must due to the amicable nature he presently had.

Despite any misconceptions about a lack of efficiency when it came to homely things of this sort, the tantalizing aroma of freshly baked sugar cookies proved to be almost as alluring as any Kido had made. It was the result of a job well done, the finished product laid out across a table positioned just left of the establishment's entrance way and fashioned into a multitude of shapes. Decorating them in a way that complimented the spirit of the approaching Valentine's Day was all that remained, but the amount that needed to be tended to was rather daunting as he'd went all out.

It truly was a stroke of luck when a would-be customer chose then to enter.

Disguise long since having been discarded, a clearly delighted smile graced the male's lips. "Welcome ~ ! You came just in time, you're exactly what I needed!" A hand roved over the spread upon the table in order to direct the newcomer's attention to it. "See them all? It'd be a real doosey to finish them myself. Think you could help a guy out? We can snack on them together when we're all done. ~"

[hikkirabu]

i cant believe kagepro has winter

[dissimulative]

A flurry of emotions caused a fluttering heartbeat to accelerate in anticipation. This was to be a monumental day as the endlessly denied emotions felt for the elder sister so harshly cut out of his life were to be thoughtlessly revealed at long last. Such a careless act would allow those blissful days of the past to return, for the relationship they'd once so happily maintained to be reestablished without any further disputes nor festering wounds to continually prevent it.

The snow made for this to be a beautifully scenic affair, a shockingly scarlet colored scarf trailing behind the blond as he lightly ran through the thin layer of frost towards where the desired female was stationed. Cheeks were flushed, visible puffs of air escaping, an arm lifting high above his head so that a hand could wave to and fro in an attempt to be noticed. A jubilant call of, "Onee-chan!" announced the approach, the smile dancing upon lips bright, impossibly so.

When nearly there did the pace slow as he made to shout once again .. 

Only for the heel of a boot to place itself upon a much too slippery section of the pavement, sending the blond into an undignified heap upon the frozen terrain. At the very least, the embarrassing fall had placed him before the very girl he'd been so adamant of drawing the attention of.

[dissimulative]

The unknown euphoria akin to that experienced by one put under by Nitrous Oxide had fabricated a need to shower certain individuals with believably well deserved affection. The very thought of doing so had brought visible giddiness, the incredibly noticeable hop in his step surely something to be questioned should Shintaro had remained unaffected. As it was, the other male was just as under the influence, prone to returning embarrassing proclamations such as the one that left Kano's lips without hesitation.

"Shintaro, I love you --

-- r smile."

Appearing to be on the verge of hysterics due to the misleading confession, lips trembled from the laughter threatening to escape unchecked. Not so quiet sniggering was still capable of being heard, sure to increase in volume should the flattering sentence be taken in all seriousness for if Shintaro offered one of his usual pathetic excuses for a smile Kano would outright lose it.

[sheepcoated]

She had easily fallen asleep that night snuggled up in the arms of her froggy friend, which wouldn’t last that way for the whole time considering how much the child rolled around in her sleep. Luckily, for the kidnapper, the young child wasn’t trapped underneath the older mans arm nor around him for the time being, having rolled near the edge while the other slept more towards the wall. Most nights were full of moving around to wake up in different positions. This night was a bit different from most nights.

As she drifted in and out of consciousness the gentle swaying motion of being carried around brought instant peace to the sleepy child. This was a feeling she was used to and an action she enjoyed greatly only this time was different from most. The spiky hair that brushed her face and even the weaker grip he held on her was different from the man who often carried her.

Opening her eyes with a few tired blinks she found her capturer staring at her from over his shoulder.

"Kano…?" She said with a yawn. Why was it him that was carrying her? The young girl took a small look around and realized it was only the two of them which was a rare situation. Had the others went on a meeting and left her home and her friend was bringing her there now? No, looking up at the how the sun was still in the mountains and with the quietness around them it must be early morning. She gave the other a curious look. "Where are we going?"

[dissimulative]

Consciousness weighed down heavily by the drowsiness that always accompanied awakening from slumber, what it was that being on his back meant completely flew over the girl's head. She treated it as if any ordinary occurrence, as if being escorted in such a manner by someone other than Seto wasn't the least bit odd. It was gratifying, the telling show of faith placed in him gladdening in a way, though it was terribly confusing how someone like him could be trusted at all.

"We're in the great outdoors! The great beyond, if you will!" A grand show of their location was made with a presenting sweep of his hand across the widespread wildlife of the area, a bright expression lighting features. "Mary-chan always locks herself away in a stuffy room with fake flowers when she could be out here seeing all the beautiful real ones. I just couldn't take it anymore! I've been dying to show you them since we got here." 

There was no better way to cheer oneself up than by making another happy. In the case of the Medusa accomplishing that was not  particularly difficult, but it was more rewarding than one might imagine.