Lost in a sea of despair

“A man devoid of hope and conscious of being so has ceased to belong to the future. And so I wait for some sign to be shown a reason of why my fate has yet to be made. My patience wears thin as the days go on As I slowly lose faith in myself and begin to fade." [ A rp blog for Mastermind and Despair!Makoto though can also play normal Makoto! Originally was inhopedespair please read rules and about. Verses WIP ] >

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outofhope;

    Holy snap this blog if OOOLLLDDD!!! Haha! Man, maybe I should restart him up again Makoto is fun both normal and Despair boy. Would need to make new tags and everything.

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OutofDespair; 

     After so many years I am on Makoto again. Maybe I’ll also bring back my Izuru!Hajime.

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hsperoexdespero:

“T-That’s good. I’m glad I finally found some that won’t isolate me.” Although the words were lightly spoken with a smile on his face, they did hold a dark past, one that was filled with self-created lies and terrible attitudes that drove everyone away… but, it was just the past, after all.

“Ah, that sounds pretty wonderful~ If only they hadn’t connected all the pieces, it might’ve gone that way for me as well… But, I almost prefer it this way. This way, I can still kill them, even if it’s with my own hands instead of a spectacular execution. If they’d been left in the school, I feel like there’d be something missing for me… B-But that’s just me. I probably feel different because of our different motives, but whatever. I’m happy that everything went your way.” He grinned, though he didn’t comment on being executed–since dying was one of his greatest fears.

“A-Ah, sorry, sorry! I should’ve said it better.” He sheepishly laughed. “What I meant was, what are your motives for everyone outside Hope’s Peak? Who do you target? Or do you just aim to spread despair to everyone?”

     “ We aren’t carbon copies of each other so bound to have different reasons for what we do. Also isn’t there a kind of thrill in killing them more personally if given the chance? Sure a spectacular execution is a lot more fun to see but beggers can’t be choosers.” He mused, not seeming to mind that the other made no comment on being executed. He has long since stopped fearing death after many close brushes with it. 

     When the other clarified what exactly he meant by handling the outside the young male paused. Crossing his arms as he went into thought about his motice and targets.

     “My motive...? Wow I haven’t thought about that in forever since I had that break-” He stopped himself a bit, just for a second before continuing. 

     “Well anyway, I aim to spread despair indiscriminately. However I do leave and advise others in the group to leave certain area’s alone... In a sense create safe havens, to seed hope in the most hopeless places. Maybe I’m hoping they’ll get off their lazy asses and do something.” He mused, “If they don’t they get a visit from monokuma bots. Cause obviously if nothing changing or helping it means they want despair...”

     It was like an odd form of natural selection where he orchestrates people’s safety and demise.

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He was a bit surprised at the laugh, but he did appreciate the lighter mood that had occurred because of it, and he smiled a bit more easily. “S-Sorry, I just get a bit on edge more easily since the school years. It’s a bit of a bad habit, really.” He straightened up a bit more.

“Ohh, really? Ha, I wish I could do that, but the ones that survived for me chose to go outside, since they solved everything in the final trial. To be honest, I struck a deal with them–if they won, they’d escape, but if I won, they’d just stay. I envy you, really, but at least most of them are dead, and I’m hunting down the rest.” He shrugged it off, discussing it as casually as the weather.

He laughed at the last comment, relaxing a bit more. “I suppose. Hey, how do you handle the outside world, by the way?”

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     “Well you’re among friends here.” He piped, glad that he was able to get the other to lighten up. His charisma to make people happy and comfortable was still there. Though he couldn’t help but wondering about the others school life but even he could tell that’s a danger zone topic.

     “Well my survivors were not only heart broken that I screwed them over even kyoko was horrified. I dunno I think they just kind of gave up but I certainly don’t mind. It like having five living trophies.” Though seeing the hate in a certain detectives eyes and rebellious intent was amusing also. “Oh and that I would be executed cause you know it’s end game. Why not take a gamble... Not that I wanted to die but the despair on their face gave me the confidence to do so.”

     When mentioned on how he handled the outside world, the young male crossed his arms. As if a bit confused at the question, “Handle? Be a bit more specific like handle what? The people? The public? The Authority?”

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66 More Naegi Icons

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It is confirmed that I may have an addiction when it comes to making icons. Oh well. I was meant to make more Hinata/Izuru icons but…Naegi happened instead. Maybe next time.

Please Like/Reblog as it encourages me to see if I can lose my sanity when making icons.

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111 Naegi Icons

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Over a hundred? A new record. 

Since it’s more than I usually do, I decided to put it in Dropbox to make things easier for me and the user that would like use them. 

If using them, please like/reblog I may do some more in the future if I want to lose my sanity again.

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outoftherapy; Hey followers I was wondering if you guys could do me a favor and help out. Just like and reblog this post if you are willing to RP with a Ultimate Therapist Chiaki. Liking and reblogging this would help out a lot!

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Thread Tracker

Going to bed now so just made me a list of rp’s I’m doing, who owes me and doesn’t. Sleep tight! = u=/

Starters I owe:

unlikexxgroup

shinzoukou

 codingdespair 

Starters Created:

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indignxum [ X ]

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Replies done:

mystxryious [ X ]

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HC: Songs of Despair

     Before falling into despair, Makoto was actually getting lessons from Sayaka on singing. Because of their past relationship the young girl offered these lessons to help him find a talent. Knowing how much it genuinely bothered him that there was nothing special about him. He enjoyed these lessons and while embarrassing cherished them as it made them closer.

     Which is why the betrayal and death of Sayaka Maizono in the school of mutual killing hits him hard. As he had thought that she would never backstab anyone especially him. He cried a lot that night and the last remains of his hope had died with her. Realizing how fragile humans were and how they always care first about their own self interest.

     Yet despite convincing himself this much, he still can’t stop singing. Many of the other despairs can even comment on how sometimes when he thinks no one is looking he’ll sing. The songs were almost never happy and always seemed pained, sad or stressed. Saying how he can’t remember how to sing happy music and doesn’t want to anymore anyway. Becoming emotional while singing which is why he hates singing around people and tends to shy away from opportunities that present itself.

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LATE BLOG ANNOUNCEMENT

((Hello! I have decided to make this blog, which features genderbent Sonia and Chiaki, because I just love the idea. That being said, would you please do me a favour and reblog this post and follow me if you are interested? It would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much!))

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Words and Smiles

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     It was still hard for him to comprehend that he was accepted into a school for elite’s. There wasn’t anything that he could think of that was special or exciting about him. Yet the fact he was lucky enough to enter this school had felt like a dream which was taking some adjusting too. Heck he still didn’t know his whole class as he kept getting nerves whenever he tried.

     Today though, he had a plan and he was determined to put it into action regardless of how he felt. Just talk to them one on one, no fear.

     “Alright, just talk to them and smile. That’s easy enough.” He muttered, looking around at his class mates. They were at lunch so most of his going to their friends or cliques. Part of him thought about talking to Maizono or maybe the more approachable people. Though the moment he saw them getting into their little gossip club he thought against it.

    However a certain dark haired caught her eye, noting how she didn’t congregate with the many other students. Regaining his thoughts he remembered her as the soldier with a great battle record. Seeming to be talking to the Fashionista, actually he recalls hearing that they were siblings. Of course it seemed the blond was busy and left leaving the dark haired girl alone. Well it was good a time as any.

    Taking his lunch box, he takes a breath and walks over to the quiet soldier. Coughing just a bit to catch her attention as he makes a motion next to her.

     “Hello, um... Is this seat taken?” A part of him chided on such a stupid question but he smiled. “Ah- I mean I should probably introduce myself I guess, my name’s Makoto Naegi. We’re classmates.”

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“the lower i get

                                       the higher i’ll climb”

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Starter Call

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Well taking starter request again and trying to keep track of threads I’ve done and started as well as who I owe starters too. If you would like a starter just like this post and I’ll get to it a soon as possible.

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