Captured Moments

"Tap on my window, knock on my door"

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What's with this heavy heart? It has been ages since I last felt like this...

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Duty

Need to convince myself that I'm no less a mother if I don't bf as long as others do. Need to tell myself that I can show love and care in other aspects. This means don't rely too much on the helper. Try to do things on my own. Don't stress myself over the type of blood. If you're in doubt, don't fast. Repay later. Don't worry. Just go with the flow. Worrying leads to stress that results in unhappiness. I want to enjoy my motherhood as much as I can. It is okay, Nina. You will be a great mum. Inshallah.

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The help

Mother's instinct is strong with this one. Can't seem to let baby go that easily as compared to when others are holding onto her. I guess she's still considered as a stranger? Or is it I have no confidence in her because of her lack of experience? Perhaps I could've requested for one who already has the experience in this field so I don't have to worry and train? After all what I need is immediate help. I didn't realise until now that I don't have time and the energy to teach and supervise while having the baby constantly wanting to be fed. How to teach with a crying baby? And when she's not crying, she's asleep and I need to sleep too. Especially right now. Have not been getting more than 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep for the past 2 nights. Which probably explains my crankiness and forgetfulness. A lot of mental waste in this brain. And I'm hungry. Help. (I'm not fit to be a boss)

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The after pregnancy glow

Dishevelled hair Bulging flabby tummy Sore feet Pimply face Dark circles Eye bags Stretch marks Backache Unkempt appearance With a crying baby who needs feeding every hour cradled in her aching arm.

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Assalamualaikum Sayang. Attempting to document our daily interactions with our precious hehehe. Alhamdulillah for this lil munchkin.

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Nina, pls know your limits and don't go overboard. You're not as agile and energetic as you used to. It's okay to not complete all the tasks within a day. You have to not be selfish and think of the baby. It's okay to let go and say no sometimes.

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It has been exactly a year since I put on the hijab. Alhamdulillah 😊 My mini anniversary to celebrate.. hehehe Of course there are a lot more for me to improve on but one step at a time.. Insya Allah

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Best moments in life lately;

Waking up next to you and looking at how peaceful you look when you're asleep Morning commute to work with you Waiting eagerly for you to come home Being my imam Looking at me lovingly while I gagged/vomit (haha) Laughing at me while I burp non stop because couldn't control my urge to eat ice cream at night and then regretting it later Stroking my head Hugs Kisses on the forehead Grabbing my hands just to hold them And when I can just whine when my back hurts, my head hurts, or having gassy stomach and you'll be there just trying to make everything feel better for me. Everyday I thank Allah for all these simple pleasures in life. I'm in a happy place despite the occasional pain. Alhamdulillah.

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Still not used to it. I miss something.. Idk what it is

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People will plant doubts in your head. But be strong. Have faith. And everything will go smoothly. Insya Allah

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Missing the husband lately.... sleep, wake up, go work, dinner, sleep, wake up and the cycle continues. Weekend come quick!

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Thank you Allah. I'm married for slightly more than 2 weeks now and I'm loving this feeling of bliss and peace. Excited to embark on this new chapter with the love of my life 😙 Bismillah.

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This month, the aunty in red pulled hard at my heart strings. The feeling sucks.

And I'm itching everywhere.

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1am thoughts

It's 1am now and i couldn't sleep even though I'm dead beat. Mind's very agitated/ busy/ thinking about the wedding. I'm worried that the decor wouldn't meet my expectations. I'm worried about the bridesmaids dress. I'm worried about the tiny tiny things like my hand bouquet, the pre wedding photos to transfer to the wooden blocks, the itinerary, the number of tables, the projector, the layout of the red carpet, where to walk in, trying to please everyone. Ape niiii.. as the day draws closer I realised that I'm starting to nit pick on these little things. Maybe because I wanna make it look presentable. Maybe because I want ppl to see that it's nice. This is bad. Pls keep the bridezilla chained. Better yet, make it disappear. I can only imagine how it'll be like the night before. Wonder if I can even get a proper shut eye. Sahur is in 3.5 hours time. Ahmergawwwddd

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For quite a long time I felt something was amiss. Alhamdulillah my heart is at peace now. I'm in love with where I am today and very excited for the future. I don't have to struggle with who I am supposed to be like how I used to. Do everything with lillahi ta'aala and you'll find it (the peace within). Ramadhan is here. Let's start everything with a clean slate. Salam Ramadhan. Maaf zahir dan batin.

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Your beautiful soul makes me sleepy. You put my heart at ease.

Your secrets are safe here (via thelovewhisperer)

Ah no wonder you're always sleepy whenever I'm around. Because I have a beautiful soul. Awww

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