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You have to first focus on yourself.

Take care of your self.

Your coming!!

Yesterday was my birthday. I had the best day ever. Not only did i turn 43 but i got the best news ever. You are coming down to live with me on the 3rd. The best news i have got in forever!! I don't know what to do with myself. You picked me! You want me! Your coming here to be with me! I have never been choosen. I feel like the queen of the world. Nothing could kill this buzz. Twin flame soulmates finally together. It is amazing for me. I just don't know what to do with myself. I won first place!! My love is running to me! A dream come true. My king is going to give me my crown. He wants me and that is even more remarkable. I can't wait to hold him in my arms for the rest of my life. He will be mine and I will be his. Together we can make it. There are no words to discribe how excited and releaved i am. The man of my dreams. The best. Number 1 man and he is coming to me. What am i going to do with myself. My life is coming together oh so quickly i am going to blink and i am going to miss something.

Dick size

Ok here we go- small dicks are made for skinny chics. Big dicks are for big wamen. Unless your gay, than is a free-for-all. See small dicks can't get passed the fat of a big girl to reach the vagina. There is your lesson men. Take ur small dick to a skinny chic. Don't make the fat chic laugh at you.

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You message

You messaged the other day. I really don't know what to think of it. You want me up there. You say you will move down here. I know both things will happen just yet. I love you. I don't want to hurt you. I want you more than life itself, but i don't think it is our time to be together just yet. We both have kids we can't leave yet. Our time will come. I have faith. I could just leave but i will miss my son. I don't want him to find my mother dead alone. What would he do? Where will he turn? He will have no body and i can not have that. I can't be so far away from my support system. Where would i turn if you have troubles. Where could i stand if anything came up. I would be there alone to maybe fight a fight that is not mine to fight. I like being alone, but not that alone. Time has passed and i never knew if you actually cared or loved me. Maybe i might be a passing fancy. I would than again be alone if you didn't want me. All i want is reasurence that you want me and need me and love me and only me. You passed me over before for her. I don't want to be picked last. I deserve to be picked first. I am a woman with fears. And your doing nothing to show me there is nothing to be afraid of. This is a big step for me. To move far off and raise your children. I remember our actual first meeting. It was love at first sight. You weren't even aware of her. We could have made a family together. It wasn't meant to be at that time. The 2nd meeting was love at first sight i knew it was you. You chose her over me. You see where i am afraid. Where i question you? I don't know why you want me. I am afraid, will you help me?

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Dreams

I woke up screaming your name lastnight. I miss you. Even sending you those memes that i read and make me think of you. Wearing all purple today. It only makes me fill closer to you. Knowning you don't care. I cry most of my days which is making it hard to unpack to have a yard sale. I got to get rid of it all except clothes. I got to move. And it is hard. I hear your voice in my head like it was yesterday. All i have a memeries and pictures. I hate life without you.

I see you

I see you everywhere. A few weeks back i seen you driving a semi truck. I seen you crossing 19. I seen you ridding a bike. I see you in 2 commercials on tv. All this couldn't be your in michigan and i am in Florida. I can't get you out of my mind. You will always be in my heart. That is where you are locked up. But you like to go through my mind and make me smile. Every tall white guy reminds me of you. An how much i love you an how much love i have for you. We are special together. I want to be special again. If my son didn't need me, i would be there with you. My son comes first. I sacrificed my love for you cause of him. He will love me till the day i die. Someday i hope someday to have you in my life specail again for a pure love. Our love you only come across once in a life time but we have known eachother since we were 6 years old. My heart is yours always has been always will be. My need for you grows more everyday. I hope that we will meet again, i believe it is in the stars. Our fate is locked. I will live to see you. My heart waits for you. I can't wait to see you again. I will dream of it. I see you every where. Yet you are nowhere to be found. I miss you, Daniel. You own my heart and soul. You always have. You promised my brother a long time ago in the 90's that you would help save me if needed. Someday i know you will save me again an make me whole and make me shine. Until than your soulmate loves you, To the moon and infinity. Love always, Dizziesoul

17 years with him. I know the abuse. If you care save someone in Michigan. He is bi sexual. So save both sexes.

Interesting week so far

Well so far it is wednesday and i actually went to a friends house sunday an visted for 3 hours. Tuesday while on facebook i read on my soulmates page a guy accused him of having 3 girl friends that didn't bother me at all. And that he sucked another mans dick. That mortified me. He told me he was a straight man only liked pussy. Interesting.. Gets better the guy i was with 17 years found himself a rich man to pay all his bill and is in a relationship with him. It is only wednesday and i found out i am a fat fag hag. I thought that i was making strides but i guess not as good. I was trying to fix myself my head rather after that narcissistic ass. Also no drugs for the children i don't have even stopped swearring. Buried my head in study for my religion to help with my soulmate conection. I am truly happy for them both. As i see it i am unable to respect a man for sucking dick. I respect gay men. Just not closeted gay men who use women to pay their bills and to make light of a relationship that her heart is fully into just to find out they want a man. I can compete with a woman because i am beautiful. I can't compete with a guy i am not willing to give up my ass hole. My pussy is tight enough. So my outlook on my life is shitty right now. To know that i am worthless fat p.o.s. only good to pay bills. It makes me utterlly useless. A pass around lifeless bag of nothing good for nothing waste of flesh. What am i good for when nothing good comes out of my life. I don't want to live a life like this but i think working on myself is going to come to a complete halt i am not worth it anyways. My soulmate also half ass blocked me on facebook i have been begging him for a full block because i knew i was nothing to him. I wish he would fully block me so i can get him out of my system. He doesn't care for me anyways. I am the epitome of a useless worthless woman with nothing to do. I do have my good points but i am not worth the time to invest in me to find that out. All i can say is i am glad i am not sucking dick or fucking anyone so i am a good girl i don't want to spread the saddness. I do wish i had someone to say i love you to me an actually mean it. That is a lot to ask for. But i guess that is alot to ask for but if i was skinnier it wouldn't. My sister is fatter than me and gets a lot of guys. Maybe it is just me a complete loser a waste of time. Is there any REAL good men out there that are not desperit to get laid. I am not desperate I'm willing to wait for a good man one that is not a closet bisexual or wants to be with another man should be with a woman that wholeheartedly cares for man and that's what I'm supposed to do for her man as long as he is a real man a real man.

When everything trimbles for him

It has been 10 months or more since you have read a word but your heart still craves, ur body acts out of whake, ur mind is topie turive, ur soul screams his name every hour all for him. THE ONE that makes everything normal everything is in order all for him THE ONE. Life is not worth living unless you have your other half. Both of you are scared. You don't want to be hurt not again. To me love trumps all. It is the air that i breath. Yet i will never have him again. He will not return. My love is lost gone never to be heard from again. I whale out his name in agony. I did this to myself. I was scared his exwife would come back. I would not survive her coming. He loves her still there is no room for me in his heart if her name is even said. Even though he said she was gone the fear of her coming back. Scared me. I am not skinny enough to be better than her. His love for her is strong. I don't know what he seen in me? That doesn't matter anymore. He hasn't talk to me since i was scared of her. He never made me sure. He even picked her over me. He never told me much about him. But i know alot about her and her mother. Too much. I didn't want to know of them i craved his exhale. He didn't need me. He didn't want me. He probably didn't love me either. Since all he did was lie to me and steal from me. I still love him.

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