Girl with a Broken Smile

Pictures. Words I'm unable to say. Sadgirl. Random thoughts inside my head.

[dlembayung]

I wish you will find your happiness.

But now, I just want to cursed you for hurting me.

[dlembayung]

I wish you will find your happiness.

But now, I just want to cursed you for hurting me.

[dlembayung]

Moving on. And then moving backwards.

Relapse.

Few times a day.

No wonder I'm so exhausted.

[dlembayung]

One day, you'll regret losing me.

One day, you'll regret leaving me.

One day, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

One day..

[dlembayung]

Once upon a time..

[dlembayung]

Stop blaming The Moon and The Planets. You're just depressed because of the brokenhearted situation...

[dlembayung]

When I'm getting busy, I can forget you. Even for a while. Therefore, I kept buseing myself. Just to make you out of my mind.

[dlembayung]

I know the ending, Baby.

Even before you say anything..

[dlembayung]

Waiting is tiring. Manage ekspekstasi sih sudah, di level terendah. Memang masih ada, bukan tidak ada sama sekali, namanya manusia..

Ternyata masih kecewa juga.

Nyerah aja boleh?..

[dlembayung]

Aku melepaskan kemelekatanku padamu. Lagi. Dan lagi. Apabila sampai saatnya tiba nanti, aku benar-benar dapat merelakanmu seutuhnya.

[dlembayung]

Happy Birthday Umi Setyaningsih !!

Time freeze at your 38th, when it was 2016, 10 years ago. Today should be your 48th, if you're still alive. I wish your next life will be full of wealth, abudance, and happiness. You'll be free from the worldly burden.

LOVE YOU!!

11 Januari 1978 - 4 Maret 2016

*This should be posted yesterday, 11 Januari 2026.

So I hope all your karma debts is paid and you can go home.

[dlembayung]

I thought in this snake year, I only shed bad energies and bad habits. Not necessarily shedding my tears, because of you.

[dlembayung]

Hey, it's year 2026 and I'm still alive.

Today is January 4th, 2026. Just woke up from my slumbering. I slept from December 31st, 2025 and I was like zombieing for the past few days. Not checking my phone much, not interacting much. What I did basically: sleep, eat, playing games, dracin, sleep. Repeat.

Oh, I never thought I will visit this page again. Maybe after this, I can visit my other page and writing something longer than this. Gonna double post this article into my Tumblr and Blogspot.

I missed writing my feeling and my thought down into something that I can read it again somewhere in the future. Learning how to write things coherently (?), since a lot of words are disappeared from my brain. Really, it feels sucks. The words just on the tip of the tongue but i can make it out.

Well, let's start it slowly. Shall we?

[dlembayung]

I'm tired. I made other people as priority, while they never made me one. Never mind making me a priority, not even bother to remembered me.

So.. See what can you learn from here, yeah? Start making youself your own priority. Nobody else can do that but you..

[dlembayung]

What am I doing here again at Tumblr, no less?

Yeah, what else? Of course I'm broken hearted..

[dlembayung]

When I said, "Gak mood"..

What actually happened is: too much things happened at a short time and I'm overwhelmed. I am tired and dissapointed. I cannot regulate my own emotion. I'm having a meltdown. And I don't want to face anything or anyone at the moment.

Call me anything, call me tantrums or call me names. I couldn't care less..

[thecalminside]

Anything you avoid in life will come back, over and over again, until you’re willing to face it—to look deeply into its true nature.

-Adyashanti