I'm fine with my spite

Dr. Stella Maria Beckett I only like my dogs, beer, and my patients. Don't bother trying to get to know me, you won't.

[docbeckett]

doc and the ceo; texts

Lexa: god that sounds like a nightmare

Lexa: don't they have on-call rooms or are you done with your shift so you're not dying of exhaustion?

Beck: i'm still on-call for a few hours. We have rooms but my brain has apparently decided it hated me

[docbeckett]

doc and the ceo; texts

Beck: help I'm so tired that the pink elephants scene from dumbo is actually starting to seem realistic

Beck: I'm ready to start hearing colors

[dailypaddys]

[chaandajaan-moved]

But the thing I will never admit to anyone who's met me is how desperately I want to be loved, I don't think I could say it. How I want someone to hold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me, and want me, I want to be wanted and I don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted.

[rbhvleo]

it eats me alive.

[meyhew]

do u take constructive criticism

i only take cash or credit 

[docbeckett]

verityodeliasinclair​:

@santamonicarp-starters​

Verity was sketching some new looks for inspiration in her note book while sipping off her smoothie, kind of lost in her own thoughts as she had recently gotten back to LA and was still trying to settle back in. The studio has asked her to come up with some looks for a Halloween episode they would be filming and with her SFX makeup course that she had been taking, she had been asked to help out. She lifted her eyes from the paper for a second only to lock them onto a random person, “Excuse me, can I ask you a question?” She said, “I know it’s like.. March, but what is the scariest things you associate with Halloween?” 

Beck wasn’t exactly the type of person to participate in conversations with random strangers, but she did happen to love Halloween. Enough so that, for once, she’d entertain the stranger. “I - hm.” She pursed her lips, considering the question for a long moment and humming under her breath. “It’s not necessarily Halloween, but the urban legend that scares me the most is Slenderman. It just -” She paused, shuddering. “It’s so fucking freaky.” Beck laughed, scrunching her nose for a moment before taking a sip of her own smoothie. “Oh, I’ve got it! Scarecrows. Scarecrows are fucking terrifying.” She snickered, sitting back before raising a brow. “Why?”

[docbeckett]

emilialuciasantos​:

“Oh, uh, no… It’s Emilia,” she answered softly. Less than one minute into the interaction, Emilia concluded that Dr. Beckett was, in fact, always angry. When she asked how Emilia was, with a different incorrect name, she sighed, running her hands through her hair. She started to wonder whether it was on purpose. She wasn’t going to ask though, out of fear of completely ruining an already rocky work relationship. “I’m fine, thank you. Came out with a few friends.” She looked over at her classmates, who were staring at the two in a mixture of wonder and terror. 

Normally, Beck didn’t really care enough about anybody to even notice if she’d hurt their feelings. But - the way the excitement just left the girl’s voice was enough to cause a twinge of guilt in Beck and it was enough to cause her to tip her head and actually get a good look at the girl. A nursing student, she was pretty sure. Between those big doe eyes and the lips threatening a pout, Emilia hardly looked much older some of her patients. Beck sighed, shoulders sinking as she gave in a little to that maternal side she so often buried before grabbing her new glass. “Emilia, right. Pretty name.” She offered a weak smile, licking over her lips for a moment before taking a sip and watching the girl. “Well - be careful. If I catch any of you not taking a taxi, I’ll have your ass next shift. Understood?” Beck narrowed her eyes, raising a brow for a moment before letting the smile break the tension in her face. “I’m - look, I’m sorry if I was an asshole. It was kind of a tough shift.”

[docbeckett]

sighiemilialuciasantos​:

After a long week, Emilia and her friends from school decided to go out for drinks. After finishing her second drink of the night, she spotted a familiar face sitting a few seats away from her– Dr. Stella Beckett. Emilia was intimidated by most of the doctors she had interacted with at the hospital, but especially Dr. Beckett. However, in her tipsy state, she felt bold, so she went over to the older woman and took a seat next to her. “Hi, Dr. Beckett! How are you doing?” she asked, hoping that maybe she would be friendlier outside of work hours. 

@docbeckett​

It had been a long day at work, even more so than usual, and nothing sounded better after a 28-hour shift than a nice stiff drink or six. Beck inhaled a sharp breath, rolling her neck as she willed her muscles to relax where they held tense and rigid in her back and shoulders. Beck pushed a hand back through her hair, leaning her forehead on her fist after as she brought her glass to her lips with the other. She was a few sips into her third when she heard the familiar, too peppy voice, sighing heavily. “Emily, right?” Beck arched a brow, sparing a fleeting glance at the younger girl before looking straight ahead at the bottles behind the bar again. “Oh, I’m perfect, celebrating life - obviously.” Her voice practically dripped with sarcasm, tipping her head back to gulp down the rest of her drink before sliding the glass toward the bartender as a signal for a refill. “How are you, Emma?”

[witchinghour]

Big Little Lies (2017) dir. Jean-Marc Vallée

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[legohotel]

one of my favorite things about human physiology is the way our eyes change when we look at someone we love. our pupils dilate automatically like they do when it’s dark outside and they’re trying to let more light in. except now it’s the light of your favorite person. the edges of our eyes soften a little and they sometimes even get watery which we also can’t control. tears of joy. we tend to raise our eyebrows as if we’re trying to make our eyes bigger. trying to get a better vision and seeing all the details. we tend to blink less than usual just to make the moment last a bit longer. even if it’s just a second. or when you smile at someone with your entire face involved and your eyes just crinkle and create a sparkle in them. and it all happens so effortlessly and universally.