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・゜✭・unkind medical prodigy.

ada mesmer rp / ask blog | text & doodles | askbox open!

indie rp blog for ada mesmer, emotional deduction, written by nat. no rules other than no nsfw!

[ it’s been a long time since i’ve done a tumblr rp blog so bear with me! just a silly little blog where ada hangs out with the other survs in the manor because i think that’s fun. open to all ints!  ]

[doctor-mesmer]

// this blog may have died but i will raise it from the ashes just to say that i'd like to walk around in your mind by vashti bunyan is the adamil song

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begonia <33

// begonia - how cautious is your muse? are they prone to noticing red flags, or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone?

ada has a serious issue with paranoia. its not clear where it comes from, but it's not something she can easily introspect on and unravel herself. she is constantly worried that the people around her pose a threat to her and emil's safety--but really, mostly emil's. she's very protective and borderline possessive of him, to a point where it can easily be dangerously unhealthy if she doesn't watch herself.

in her eyes, everybody has the potential to threaten her, and threaten emil. she doesn't easily trust anyone, and tends to keep a sizeable distance between her and other people, always scrutinizing everybody she meets and constantly on the look-out for the slightest indication of ill intentions.

she is especially cautious of emil's friends ... though, she finds that he's pretty good at fending for himself. in the manor, she was very, very hesitant to let him near other people: it was nothing like their home, where she had goaded him out of his shell and told him he should talk to those around him and make a couple of friends. these people were all here for their own gain, for themselves, for something they wanted: who's to say what they would do to get it?

(it would be worthy to note that he was the same way. he would grab her hand and tug her to him protectively whenever somebody walked past that he found particularly distasteful. he would stand behind her and grip the back of her shirt while whispering his distrust.)

however, as days turned to weeks, and weeks turned to months, her caution unraveled. emil had begun to make friends after having a little time to adjust, and she had grown to at least hesitantly trust them with emil's wellbeing. of course, it doesn't stop her from worrying that someone will take him away from her, but every time she stops to take in the devotion and adoration with which he looks at her, the way he meets her eyes in a match and runs to meet her, she realizes she has very little to worry about after all.

[promptfairy]

❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

headcanon prompts with questions based on plants   &   what they represent in flower language .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,    or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ?  

acanthus :   is your muse deceptive ,   or willing to lie or deceive to achieve certain means ?   why or why not ?   

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ?   how do they express that pride ?   

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ?  where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?  

bachelor’s button :   does your muse actively seek romantic companionship ,   or cherish the liberties of being single ? 

basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

bay tree :   does your muse seek glory   &   accolades ,   or do they favour a simpler ,   more personal life ?  

begonia :   how cautious is your muse ?   are they prone to noticing red flags ,   or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ?   why or why not ?  

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?   

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ?  

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

daisy :   did your muse ever feel as though their innocence had been lost ?   what moment in their life could be described as the end of their innocence ?  

edelweiss :   what was the bravest moment in your muse’s life ?  are they known to be courageous from then on ?  

fern :   does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces ,   or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control ?  

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

goldenrod :   does your muse believe in luck or fortune ?  why or why not ?   where do they believe these things come from ?  

heliotrope :   does your muse believe in soulmates ?

hibiscus :   how does your muse view the gentler ,   daintier things in life ?   as things worth preserving   &   caring for ,   or things only bound to wither   &   disappear ?  

holly :   how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition ?  are they aware of it ?   do they ever fear that it is only paranoia ?  

hollyhock :   how strong is your muse’s sense of ambition ?  what’s something they strive for in life ?  

hyacinth :   is your muse athletic ?   does it come naturally to them ,   or have they had to work for their physique and/or skill ?  

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?  

ivy :   what are your muse’s views on marriage ?   do they believe it is something strictly for love ,   or an institution rooted in business   &   social benefits ?   do they desire or have they desired to be married ?

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

lilac :   what was your muse’s childhood like ?   how has their upbringing affected them as they’ve aged ? 

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?  

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ?  

magnolia :   describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

marigold :   is your muse prone to jealousy ?  how might they handle envious feelings ?  

mint :   does your muse view themself as virtuous   &   moral ?  what do these words mean to them ?

nasturtium :   describe your muse’s relationship with their birthplace ,   or homeland .  

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

pansy :   does your muse often reflect on their own actions ?   do they ever think a lot about the past ,   and what they could have done differently ?

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

rhododendron :   is your muse receptive to warnings   &   advice given by others ?

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

salvia :   is your muse possessive over people or things that matter a lot to them ?  how do they express that possessiveness ,   or lack thereof ? 

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

sunflower :   what brings your muse the most joy in life ?  

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

[doctor-mesmer]

Ada, how d'ya get your hair so fluffy? It's gorgeous.

[from @idv-ask-aquariumworker]

◇─ "Oh, my hair? I hardly do anything. It's just very, very curly, and very long. Frankly, it's quite a pain most of the time."

Now onto thinking about her hair, she grabs a curly strand and pulls it out, the coils stretching into a straight line.

"Thank you, though. I appreciate it."

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(Hello yes same Anon as before- 😭) (Love what you wrote for her, oh my gosh... Love your Ada so much. ♥️) (anyway this is *purely* self-indulgent but if it interests *you* at all, how do you imagine Ada and Emil’s wedding might have gone? Who proposed? How soon post-asylum? Small church with just them, or a venue with a friend or two? 💍)

// oh i love indulgence. anon you fuel me

the "proposal" was initially something very unspoken. a rule never quite said. emil knew how he felt about ada: he knew he wanted to be by her side, he knew he liked the way her hand felt when it covered his own, he knew he liked the smell of her hair and the softness of her face and the way she talked to him as if he were something precious, something worthy, something desired. he knew she was familiar, as if they had met before, even if he couldn't touch the memory. he knew that the way he felt warm when she was around, the way he felt safe when she touched him and stroked his hair, the way she saw him-not as an experiment, as an enigma, as a threat, but a man in need of care-and he knew it must be love, whatever that meant.

as for ada, she did love emil, and she knew that she loved him. there was no room for doubt. it was a desperate, hollow yearning, a need to be close to someone she could never have. it consumed her and rattled her to her very bones, like a chill. when they were together, she would yearn to make contact, to hold his hand, to pull him close and hug him tightly as she would when he was falling apart, and yet she locked up her feelings and maintained as much as a professional distance as she could make herself. she was helping, and it was nothing more, to an outside viewer, but she ached. for the first time in her entire life, she felt understood, and known, and as if somebody truly wanted to be around her not for what she could do, but on the virtue of her self, her being.

emil fashioned two rings out of a wire he broke off from his mattress in the asylum, and gave it to her in what would have been their final session together. she had asked him with guarded, hesitant gentleness if he knew what the exchanging of rings meant, and he didn't have an answer for her--for he did know, for certain things stayed with him, but he couldn't pull the words out of his chest.

her training contract was on it's way out, and she knew that if she left him here, she would never be able to look back. who knows what would happen to him? what they would do to him? how much more would he have to suffer at the hands of unknowing doctors? she had learned, and learned, and learned, but they had never changed. thus, she took him away, with her somewhere else.

now on the road, they were fugitives, wanted escapees. ada abandoned her entire life, her entire career, and would never look back. the discussion of what their relationship was, what they wanted to be to each other, came long after they had left their asylum: they drove, stopped, drove, stopped, for nearly a month before it was brought up. they had enjoyed a casual closeness. they had shared a space to sleep, they had held each other, she took his hand to calm him when he was aching. eventually, she asked him what he wanted, what the rings meant to him. he was rather plain with it. he wanted to be with her, always at her side, devoted to her, whatever that meant. they were in love with each other, unquestionably, and thus it was settled.

their wedding was rather small. it had to wait until they had settled into their new home in their paradise, and when it did, they had a small ceremony in the woods behind their house. some friends from town came to watch, and of course the local pastor: but ada's dress was a simple plain white, and emil found he really hated suits, so he settled for a nice button-down instead. it wasn't a grand ordeal, but it meant everything to them, and ada carries a photo of them with their bouquet outside their house tucked away in her suitcases, always with her--together endlessly, wherever they may go.

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(Don’t know if this is quite what you meant, Mun, but all your thoughts/ideas/interpretations on how Ada shows affection to different people (a friend vs family or even both of those vs Emil) n o w. 👀v👀??

tws for physical & emotional abuse

// affection, for the most part, is a difficult thing for ada. she's a very guarded person by nature. she doesn't like to feel exposed and vulnerable, she doesn't like for other people to know about her innermost troubles, and she especially doesn't like to be pitied. control is a very important thing to her after having been deprived of it for most her entire life, and part of that control is emotional mindfulness and choosing exactly what parts of herself are exposed to others.

she's a very introverted and solitary person. before ever meeting emil, she had a deeply unhealthy tendency to self-isolate outside of her profession and studies. her coworkers were never her friends. most of them were men, most of whom looked down on her, and outside of her studies, she never had any real social life.

her family was seldom affectionate. ada's mother died giving birth to her, and she was her father's only child. he raised her into a very one-track minded and focused academic. she was the only person he had to shoulder his weighty scientific legacy, and he treated her as such, piling on a mountain of expectation and rarely giving her praise for anything other than her successes in her field. even when she began to flourish, he berated her for choosing such a "sensitive" course of study. as she aged, she began to resent her father, to loathe his methodology, and to criticize him and argue to his face, which usually resulted in physical repercussion: she's been slapped more times than she can count. her rejection from her peers and her lack of interest in external society caused her, as she grew older, to become deeply reclusive and averse to socializing.

however, in the wake of it all, ada does have some friends she is faithful enough to rely on. helena is the closest person to her platonically. she expresses her affection for her in acts of service: she helps her navigate her surroundings, offers to cook for her and include her in the meals she makes for herself and emil, and gives her ideas for her novels. she often simply likes to enjoy helena's company. she encourages her to talk about her interests, and then she sits and listens, having little to contribute but being more than happy to absorb the information. she views helena as a very bright young woman with immense potential, and she's happy that someone as compassionate and kind as her is willing to be a friend.

with emil, ada is much more vulnerable than she is with anyone. such a deep understanding can never be matched by any other connection, and ada has never felt more seen than she does with emil, never felt more regarded, and never felt more loved. for him, she shows her love in acts of service, lifts him up with words of affirmation, and leans into physical touch. she cooks for him, takes care of him when he's unwell (she brings him medicine and drinks, she lays his head in her lap to stroke his hair, she ensures he knows she's with him for whatever he needs), comforts him as much as she can when he expresses how much he suffers. she loves to hold his hand, to link arms with him, and to hold him in her arms after a long day, settled in for the night. ada taught him how to read and write, and bought him a journal so that he would be able to express his thoughts and practice his penmanship and spelling. she uses her professional knowledge to help him find coping techniques that work for him.

and, above all? she shows her affection for him in her willingness to give up her life. she threw away her career, her potential, her entire life's work to take him away and make him happy, keep him safe and ensure he could heal. to her, emil is worth more than the world itself, and she shows her love for him in every way she can every day she breathes.

[doctor-mesmer]

//looking for more ooc oriented asks about how i portray ada :)) would LOVE to dump about my crazy lady please and thank you!!

[doctor-mesmer]

ms ada i am in love w u

◇─ "You're very sweet. While I don't share the sentiment, I will take it as a compliment. Thank you."

[doctor-mesmer]

//hey guyssss BERY sorry about being so late with these two asks!! ive been super exhausted lately so i havent had the energy to do anything here :( ill get back on it today <3 more asks are welcome!!

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🥄, maybe...? 👀

🥄 Would you consider yourself a big spoon or a little spoon?

◇─ "Well, it rather depends. Big spoon is my usual. I prefer to feel as though I'm keeping someone safe, rather than being kept safe myself. Certain aspects of taking care of someone else please me, and make me feel satisfied to know that I'm holding someone in my arms so that they may feel content and cared for.

However, there are times when Emil initiates and prefers to hold me, instead. He says it's 'helping me feel safe, too', no matter how many times I tell him I really don't need him to do that. I would be...lying, if I said it wasn't nice to be held sometimes as well.

I find either enjoyable and comfortable. Either way, I am satisfied and kept warm, so I don't complain."

[doctor-mesmer]

🍍

🍍 Tell us a funny pick-up line!

◇─ "I have no idea why you would come to me for amusing pick-up lines, but I suppose I can try. Keyword: try."

◇─ "He didn't get it."

[doctor-mesmer]

cinnamon stick

Cinnamon Stick - Do you like spicy food? Why or why not?

◇─ "Not particularly. I struggle to eat anything that offends my senses. For example, I hate cooked fruit and cooked vegetables. Spicy things happen to also be up there in the list of things that overwhelm me and cause discomfort.

Though...I've found I rather like spicy chocolate, for some reason."

[doctor-mesmer]

//as much as i value them and i take their story so seriously sometimes i like to think that the reason ada actually broke emil out of the asylum is because they were going to give him malaria

[musepromptsuwu]

Food Emoji Themed

(Basically all the emojis in the food tab except for alcohol ones bc yeehaw)

Be honest :)

🍇 What are you allergic to?

🍈 What’s your least favorite memory?

🍉 Do you stress eat often?

🍊 What’s your least favorite fruit?

🍋 Have you ever been asked for nudes?

🍌 Do you ever just wanna serve some sharpened toenails in your nut banana cake to your worst enemy? (This was submitted by my dear best friend :) thank you best friend)

🍍Tell us a punny pick up line!

🍎 Have you ever had an apple thrown at you?

🍏 Who’s the first person who comes to your mind at the word “Amazing”?

🍐 who would make a great pair? (Couple wise)(get it? Pear sounds like pair? Im hilarious.)

🍑 Who makes you the most uncomfortable?

🍒 Rate a person out of 10 based on looks, personality, and overall score (asker needs to send a name).

🍓 Do you know if anyone likes you? How do you feel about that?

🍅 Have you ever been banned from a store?

🥝 When was the last time you cried? Why?

🥑 What’s your favorite type of music?

🍆 What’s your least favorite color?

🥔 Favorite style of potato? (Fries, tattertots, hashbrows, mashed, scalloped, baked, etc.)

🥕 How good is your vision?

🌽 Would you consider yourself corny?

🌶 Who’s the hottest person you know?

🥒 Do you play minecraft?

🍄 Least favorite vegetable?

🥜 Who is completely nuts in your opinion?

🌰 Coke or Pepsi?

🍞 Books or Movies?

🥐 Have you ever had a crush knowing it wouldn’t work out?

🥖 Favorite kind of bread?

🥞 Do you eat breakfast often?

🧀 Who’s the cheesiest person you know?

🍖 What’s your dream pet?

🍗 Do you eat meat?

🥓 (asker gives a dare)

🍔 Favorite fast food place?

🍟 Do you have a diet? What’s it like?

🍕 Pizza Hut or Dominos or Little Caesars?

🌭 Favorite style of food? (chinese, italian, etc.)

🌮 Taco bout someone! Good things or bad things! Mention their name too uwu

🌯 Do you like to be wrapped up in blankets or do you prefer to sprawl out?

🥙 Least favorite style of food? (Chinese, italian, etc.)

🥚 How do you like your eggs cooked (if you eat eggs)?

🍳 Do you fry in the sun easy? (Get sunburnt)

🥘 Describe someone in 3 words or less (asker can choose name)

🍲 Favorite type of noodles?

🥗 Least favorite type of salad?

🍿 Have you ever smuggled snacks into a movie theater?

🍱 Have you ever cooked for someone else?

🍘 Do you prefer sweet or savory things?

🍙 Have you ever pretended to like someone’s cooking when you actually thought it was awful?

🍚 What was the best dish someone has made you? Who made it?

🍛 Do you like spicy foods?

🍜 Slap someone.

🍝 What’s something you’re tired of?

🍠 Have you ever prank called someone?

🍢 Have you ever been prank called?

🍣 What’s your favorite game genre?

🍤 Do you like seafood?

🍥 What’s something you hate?

🍡 Favorite animal?

🍦 What’s your favorite icecream flavor?

🍧 Who’s your favorite person?

🍨 Do you want a hug?

🍩 Do you like to laze around or be active?

🍪 Favorite type of cookie?

🎂 Do you like celebrating your birthday?

🍰 What’s your favorite kind of cake?

🍫 Dark, Milk, Semisweet, or white chocolate?

🍬 Wed, Bed, Behead (asker sends 3 names).

🍭 Favorite candy?

🍮 Least favorite desert?

🍯 Ya like jazz?

🍼 Have you ever bottlefed a baby(other animals included w/ humans)?

🥛 What % of milk do you like?

☕ Do you like coffee? Tell us how you like it.

🍵 Spill some tea. Figuratively and/or literally.

🍽 Are you hungry right now?

🍴How are you doing?

🥄 Would you consider yourself a big spoon or a little spoon?

🔪 Have you ever cut yourself accidentally? (Like when you’re washing dishes and drop a knife or smthng? It’s not fun fjdjsne)

🏺 If you had a child what would you name them? (Pick at least 2)

🥥 What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

🥦 Favorite veggie?

🥨 Favorite snack?

🥩 How do you like your steak cooked(if you eat steak)?

🥪 What’s your ideal sandwich?

🥣 What’s your favorite cereal?

🥫 What’s your favorite soup?

🥟 Do you ever doodle on your own skin?

🥠 What was the strangest fortune cookie you’ve gotten?

🥡 Do you get takeout often?

🥧 Favorite type of pie?

🥤 Favorite drink?

🥢 Can you use chopsticks?

[ask-the-traditionaldancer-idv-d]

wanted to try this!

[doctor-mesmer]

Balsam and Cedar!! (Love this blog already Mun! Best of luck to you. ⭐️)

Basalm and Cedar - Is there something you do or once did that you never would have considered in the past?

◇─ "Well, god, there's a great many things. Probably more than I would be able to name here. I've changed a lot from who I used to be after leaving my field, which I think is mostly for the better. Living in and out of offices and shutting myself off from the world in pursuit of science was, unsurprisingly, a terrible way to be.

It stands out to me that I swore I would never marry. I was absolutely uninterested in romance, with men or otherwise. I was content to be alone, or I told myself I was. In reality, I was content with ignoring how lonely I had actually become, and how distant I was from everyone around me. I had no friends, I lived in the shadows of the men I worked under and even the ones I worked with. I was alone, and I had nobody to understand me.

Reconnecting with Emil after all those years apart changed my life entirely. He shaped me into a different person and helped me understand the value of connecting with another. He understood me, and I understood him, a connection that was a first for both of us. I knew that he would not be safe there, and I realized that my career was hardly as valuable to me as his happiness. Now, I've become something of a housewife. I cook and clean and sew and garden. It's good to see him be able to heal. I love him more than anything."

[doctor-mesmer]

Spiced Pumpkin?

Spiced Pumpkin - Describe your best friend/rival.

◇─ "I definitely would not say I have a rival, not in the sense that this question implies. I consider Emil to be my best everything, but I assume he doesn't count.

...I suppose I ended up bonding the most with Ms. Adams- er, Helena. She's a very sweet girl with a lot of admirable ambition and potential, and I was taken aback by her earnest compassion. She was in the first game I ever participated in. She took over a cipher so I would be able to go and aid Emil, and I can never thank her enough, for I have no way of knowing the state he'd be in if I was not able to provide support. She was probably one of the only genuinely trustworthy people I have met. I enjoyed reading her work when she offered it to me. Emil is quite close with her, too, even if he took far longer to warm up than I did.

She is not the only one, though. I also became quite fond of Aesop. His profession is interesting and his ethics are...questionable, at best, but I find it difficult to fault him for it. He is polite, and although I don't think he's very empathetic, he's very nice and readily willing to help others. His intentions are good, whatever they are, that much I am sure of. Neither of us are very interested in speaking to other people, so our conversations are understandingly brief, yet fulfilling. He is quite good to Emil, too, which I am thankful for.

...We have settled in well, is what I suppose I should say. I'm grateful to those who have been kindest to us."