The Mind of Dr. Time

They call me doc time. i am the minister of war and music for the Hatchet Se7ens.

[doctor-time]

Just the same shit, always, the same shit.

Inanaes aeternum

[doctor-time]

So many eyes with so many feelings behind them, but there are only two I want to impress. Expectations, wants, and self inflated wisdoms that are trying to be made my responsibilities when I just want to be left to pursue my own desires despite how it'll effect all the eyes and their feelings. I don't want to cause them pain, but why should I forgo my own attempts at finding some innocent joy just because it'll make them sad?

[doctor-time]

I fucking miss you so bad, I really hope you're doing ok and feeling well.

I try so hard to distract myself and keep pushing forward, but the moment I'm alone with my thoughts, you're all I can think about.

[doctor-time]

Id be willing to work with you if youd just talk to me about it

[doctor-time]

Man, there's really only one person that I actually want and enjoy talking to/ being around, everyone else is a struggle

[docs-tunes]

I haven't been doing well for a while but I was kinda hitting a stride. I'm facing the weirdest fucking motivational loss/surge now. I know if I dont succeed then I cant make things better, but i also dont feel like i can make things better so why bother? I know it's just me wanting to give up and run like I always have, but I don't want to do that anymore, I want to be better and do better. I want to provide stability where there isn't any elsewhere

[doctor-time]

Posted on the wong blog

[slaying-strong]

If you’re reading this, this is a gentle reminder that you are enough – as is, right now. 

[doctor-time]

Man I fucking wish

[doctor-time]

Im descending again, I just want things to be good with us again. I just want us to feel love again

[doctor-time]

I knew you were going to cancel, I knew you wouldn't just be ok with me going there. The real question is why is it this time? Make plans with someone you'd rather see again?

[doctor-time]

I don't think we've ever gone this long without seeing each other, I stil have no desire to see anyone else or spend time with anyone else. I miss you and think about you every day, you're still the main driving force behind me and still motivate me to keep moving forward. I just long to look at your radiant face and hear your beautiful voice again, my heart feels heavy and my soul cold from being separated from your warmth for so long. I want to make you laugh again, I want to make you smile and giggle at the silly things I say, I want to be there for you.

[doctor-time]

Im starting to regress again and im not sure why

[doctor-time]

This might be it for me man, dont even warrant any kind of explanation or acknowledgement, just ignored and ghosted. I got so excited at the prospect of having khoshekh come stay with me too, the brightest fucking moment I've had since camping.

[doctor-time]

Im in a lot of pain and I just wish you were here so I could fall asleep to your warmth and scent.

[doctor-time]

I was doing great, staying positive, then I had that dream now I'm back here again and afraid of the pain you can cause

[sandmandaddy69]

joyce lee

[doctor-time]

Her

[doctor-time]

All thoughts lead back to you

[doctor-time]

I've come to realize im afraid. I know that soon you'll be far away and I won't be able to see you x not much longer after that I'll be even further away. I guess I'm just afraid of losing what little time is left, I want you to have good memories of me and think well of me.