big fat heart

free-writer,typical lady,ambitious

[dodododoodle]

I am addicted to emotional pain

[dodododoodle]

Deep in my heart I feel like his ex is better than me not just better but a lot better religiously. I have no intention to anticipate a fight to begin with but,

I asked ‘have you ever missed your ex’, he answered ‘Yes before you came’

I ask if his ex is pretty, he answered ‘Yes she is pretty, but you are prettier’

What makes me prettier ?

‘You, your face, your look, everything’

That’s it ?

What makes me better than her then ?

‘Your look, you’re smart, pretty and all’

That’s it ?

‘Yes everything’

I have heard that numerous times. What exactly is better about me ? Genuinely.

‘I have answered your questions la. ‘

Then he continued ‘She is my past, and I don’t want to talk about her ever again. Let by be bygones ‘

‘Eh dah la malasla’ *straight away leaving the phone and sleep

If i am better why is it so hard for you to answer ? Why are you so defensive ? Why you choose to ignore me at the end ? Why ? Why is it so hard for you to justify that ? When i can easily explain and justify good things about you why can’t you ? Because deep down you know that she’s a lot better don’t you ? Your silence works for you but not me. I want to talk more but you choose to sleep on it, if you truly no longer have feelings whatsoever then why ? Why are you reacting this way ?

Yea I am the problem, I am problematic, I am insecure I overthink a lot. I am the problem. I need to fix me, he deserves someone better

[dodododoodle]

It’s too painful, the pain you put me through.

It might feels like you’re walking on eggshells when you are with me because a simple mistake can break me.

As much as you wish to make things better, know that I am traumatised by it and currently put so much work to heal from the pain you put me through.

I love you so deeply that the pain already kill a few parts of me

[dodododoodle]

everyone needs to feel happy and be grateful for the bare minimum you did ? Fuck you

[iglovequotes]

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[thelovejournals]

They may not have loved you, but they did change you. They taught you. They grew you.

Bianca Sparacino (via wordsnquotes)

[dodododoodle]

I cried because of you. Little did I know it was not a sign of true love but stupidity.

(via dodododoodle)

[quotemadness]

I like seeing people when they can’t see me.

Dodie Smith (via quotemadness)

[dodododoodle]

People can judge all they want but still, they know nothing about truth

[iglovequotes]

http://iglovequotes.net/

[dodododoodle]

My heart broke twice for the same person

[dodododoodle]

you should always remember that he has somebody else. And this is the best decision

[dodododoodle]

it is for the best

[dodododoodle]

thank you for giving me the chance, the best experience to learn from

[dodododoodle]

For the very first time, I found a reason to be myself.

[dodododoodle]

That long dream, truly gives me courage, but obviously it is not real

[dodododoodle]

But, I am the happiest when I am with you.