Dog Moms, Inc.

Yo this is my personal blog/online diary. I love dogs.

[thanx4nothin]

[dogmominc]

Nothing worked out like it was supposed to kissing you was so nice but I'm not even sure that i want something to happen in the future with you because you really just fucked that all up. You had to be messy about it and I had to like you more than you liked me and it just had to go badly didn't it? I guess in a way it's good because I would just spend the next several months getting my hopes up and then being disappointed when i got back. At least this way I know what I'm in for. Maybe things will change in the future, but for now I have to brush it off and move on because I cant keep getting invested in people who don't care about me.

[dogmominc]

I fall asleep thinking about laughing with you, holding your hand, lying naked in bed with you, watching movies, playing guitar, and it's all so dumb but i kinda think it would be nice to do it with you and i hope that in a month or so when you're ready, you think it would be nice to do that stuff with me too

[dogmominc]

It was a really shitty thing you did. I know I wasn't always the best or most reliable friend, but I would have done anything for you. I wanted to come on that trip with you but I didnt want to pass up my only vacation opportunity. Then my grandma died and I had no choice. You wouldn't let me say goodbye because you wanted to be alone and any other time i would have honored that no problem, but I couldnt come the next day because hanging out with you conflicted with my grandma's funeral. Im not saying I was perfect, but I guess the thing that hurts the most is that you never made an effort again. You never apologized, never checked on me, never checked on iz, never even reached out. Did you think i was being immature? I dont know but i miss you.

[dogmominc]

I know i'm needy but please just communicate. It feels like I put everything into this friendship and I only get 50% back. You only talk to me consistently when you need me, then you forget about me. You get annoyed when I text you to remind you we were having a conversation and act like I'm not being the most supportive friend I can be and I don't know how to exactly articulate what I'm feeling without you making it about you. If I tell you I'm not feeling satisfied by our friendship then you'll launch into this whole thing about how you're sick and I know!!! But i dont expect you to be your old self. I know you can't be. I just need you to also asses your actions and how they affect me. If you can't text, tell me. If you aren't going to be able to facetime, instead of telling me you will and then never doing it, just tell me you can't! I understand you're sad and busy i just need you to talk to me. Ask me how i'm doing. Respond to my texts. Just give an ounce of effort.

[dogmominc]

Grievances

Please get help. You say you don't need a therapist, you need your friends. You have your friends. I can't be your 24/7 emotional support system. I know you're having a really bad time of it right now but in all of that you're forgetting that i need at least part-time emotional support too and it's HARD but i can't bring it up without seeming like im making your problems about me. Im happy you have a boyfriend and you're happy with him. I don't want to know every time he texts you because it reminds me that I've never met anyone who feels that way about me. I need you to get help because it's hard on me too. Because it's hard knowing that you need help and you won't get any. Knowing you blame me for some of the things you're going through. Knowing that you resent me for trying to bring up how i'm feeling about our friendship. Knowing that when i was in a bad place you got fed up and told me to get over it. Knowing i can't let go of that because i never told you how much it hurt me. Knowing that it's not sustainable for me to keep score like this but not knowing how to let go. Maybe if i get help you will too. Maybe i'll let go. Maybe things will get better again.

[dogmominc]

May 27, 2015

Last night i made out with the guy and we made out like a lot in the back of my car in the mountains and it was foggy and beautiful and he touched my boobs and and he has awesome arms and i’m so happy

[dogmominc]

Ok i unloaded and i feel better but not good and i just keep thinking about how i'll never be able to end my own life now that i've see the aftermath and i've seen how it affects people. And that scares me and makes me mad and sad and I'm still terrified that my best friend is going to die and i don't know how to express that without alienating her because i need her and i don't want her to hate me

[dogmominc]

This is a cry for help!!! I need someone!! My heart is eating me from the inside out!! My best friend is self medicating and being increasingly more reckless!!! I'm terrified that she's going to die!!! If she did I would probably stop functioning!!! I can't tell anyone about my problems bc she is who i talk to and i don't wanna be a burden!!!

[dogmominc]

4/25/15

When i focus it’s fine when i don’t focus it’s like the world is happening around me blazed last night not gonna smoke for a few days  I also feel very motivated

Food:

french toast sticks and tater tots

[dogmominc]

I’m going to start doing eating/emotion journals

I’ve been feeling very disconnected and weird lately and i am worried abt me so

Day 1 (4/24/15)

Sad for no reason, but like almost numb So tired Feel weird like I’m watching myself in a movie nothing feels real when I look around I don’t process my surroundings last night i felt so good euphoric and that was after i drank a little but before i smoked uneasy FOOD 6 mini pancakes 1 chocolate chip clif bar pad thai carrot cake

(Yesterday I had a chocolate fudge brownie clif bar, a caprese panini, yogurt parfait, mangoes and sticky rice, pad thai)

[supremelaxbro-deactivated202109]

not to offend anyone here but, im beautiful and anyone would be lucky to have me

[dogmominc]

This is honestly the worst thing that has ever happened she was just a baby she was a freshman she didn't even know all the good things life had to offer her

[dogmominc]

One of my best friends' little sister just killed herself and i'm so. I can't properly form thoughts i'm so sad and i don't know what to do

[unofficial-cactus]

English has alternating stress patterns that indicate whether related words are nouns (first syllable stressed) or verbs (second syllable stressed):

Noun: récord Verb: recórd

(x)

[unofficial-cactus]

My fucking god!! This is why English does the thing!!!!

[ground-dove]

contract

contract

FINALLY IT MAKES SENSE

[unofficial-cactus]

it’s the most subtle difference but it’s beautiful.

[michonnes-deactivated20161007]

[lavendercrystalfissures]

I’m pretty sure this is the lady that played yzma in the emporers new groove

[selfia]

Motherfuckers, educate yourselves when it comes to Eartha Kitt.

Eartha Kitt is Catwoman. She is Freya. She’s Shaleem-La-Lume, Cinderella’s Fairy Godmother, Angel, and Helen of Troy.

She was a civil rights activist, a peace activist, an LGTBQ activist (considering it a civil right), did benefit concerts and fundraisers for HIV AIDS orgs, she testified on behalf of “Rebels with a Cause” to set up their youth clean up group, she made Lady Bird Johnson cry when commenting on the Vietnam War while she was IN THE WHITE HOUSE FOR A GODDAMNED LUNCH. The CIA called her a nymphomaniac for it.

AND HAVE YOU HEARD HER SING? Cheesus, she’s got a star of Hollywood blvd for a reason. 

We all may know her best as evil Yzma but she was a heaven sent kind of lady.

[theartofangirling]

uptown funk is one of those songs that you hear for the first time and you’re like nice but then before you know it you’re screaming it in your car and dancing to it in the shower and incorporating its lyrics into your day to day conversations. don’t believe me? just watch.