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!howdy! questions and comments can be sent via ask, I'll choose whether to post an ask publicly or not unless you specify when you send it. /tagged/mine has all my posts exclusively, /tagged/tags is a list of all my tag groups on this blog, and /tagged/ask has all the asks ive answered. Check out the tagged/faq before sending anything please~ i go by scary-chan on here so please refer to me as that :-)

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my blog is up at donthugmeimscary (dot) newtumbl (dot) com

I’m reposting all my stuff and adding more! the site is still quite new so the blog is not as organized as it is here, but they have been developing it quite rapidly over the months so for now I hope you can be patient with the simple layout~

[donthugmeimscary]

I’m gonna reblog this a couple times here and there just so as many people as possible don’t miss it. Sorry if it gets annoying :^(

[donthugmeimscary]

my blog is up at donthugmeimscary (dot) newtumbl (dot) com

I’m reposting all my stuff and adding more! the site is still quite new so the blog is not as organized as it is here, but they have been developing it quite rapidly over the months so for now I hope you can be patient with the simple layout~

[donthugmeimscary]

I’m gonna reblog this a couple times here and there just so as many people as possible don’t miss it. Sorry if it gets annoying :^(

[donthugmeimscary]

my blog is up at donthugmeimscary (dot) newtumbl (dot) com

I’m reposting all my stuff and adding more! the site is still quite new so the blog is not as organized as it is here, but they have been developing it quite rapidly over the months so for now I hope you can be patient with the simple layout~

[donthugmeimscary]

hello? can anybody hear me?

I’m not sure if this blog is still viewable? I wanted to apologize, after the tumblr ban I tried to move onto wordpress but it just wouldnt work. I’ve been looking for months, trying to get an alternative. Last night I came across newTumbl. I think I’m going to be using that for the time being (link: donthugmeimscary. newtumbl. com (no spaces). I just spent 3 hours going through this whole blog and saving stuff that was my original posts/questions and stuff.

The last few months have been hard. Every time I’ve seen that people have been trying to reach out to me, or view the wordpress domain, it truly saddened me. I miss this community and this blog and everyone else’s. Looking back now, it hurts even more to see the kind messages and fun convos I received so often. There’s just been no other alternative website that fits properly so I’d get discouraged easily because of the sadness I feel around all of this, and then overwhelmed cuz it felt hopeless, so I’d give up for a while each time I tried.

The blog on newtumbl will have mostly my own posts for now (there’s nothing posted at the moment cuz it’s 6am and I havent slept haha), but I’ll be making new content for sure. It’ll be a lot of text and drawings for now i think but i may reblog more when i see exactly how the site works. They are still developing so it doesn’t have all the same features as tumblr right now, but they are trying very hard to catch up quickly it seems, and i applaud there effort.

I hope this works, I hope some of you see this and are interested in connecting with me on there now. Either way, I cherish this blog and the memories I have fondly and think of you often. Sending my love, from now and for always ~scary-chan

[donthugmeimscary]

my new url will be donthugmeimscary.wordpress.com!

I am just importing now so it isn’t ready yet but it should be in the next while! I may eventually move off of wordpress to a porn-centered specific site later but for now that is where I will be!

[donthugmeimscary]

Rest in peace

I 100% screwed up the dates and thought I had one more day. That was Irresponsible of me and I’m sorry guys. I have downloaded my blog so I will search for a site to host right now. I will post from a safe account under the tag #donthugmeimscary when I know where you can find me next. I am NOT gone for good!

But here on tumblr, big RIP

[donthugmeimscary]

i have backed up my blog! I want to upload it before the 17th so I can tell everyone where im headed! which are the sites that people are most inclined to follow? i want to make this blog as convenient to access as i can so should i put it up on another general blogging site or a site specifically for nsfw content? if you feel inclined to offer suggestions of where it seems most of the nsfw community is heading that would be wonderful! i will do some snooping as well

[donthugmeimscary]

Tumblr’s new policy: This blog will be deleted

Hey guys, it looks like this blog is going to be deleted on the 17th thanks to tumblr’s new policy. I really don’t want to lose what’s been built here as I’ve really felt a connection with this community over the past 3 years. If anyone knows any leads on a site that could host me, or if there’s a way to transfer this blog to another hosting site or an archive of some kind, please send info my way. I’m turning on chat because I really need help going in the right direction now that this community will be gone and we don’t have a lot of time.

If there’s no way that I can find of transferring this blog, if this really is the end, I want you all to know just how much of an impact you have made on me these last years. I started this blog as a place to post the things I liked, because I felt very isolated, like no other blogs had exactly what I wanted. Part of my development over this time period, including out in the real world, was realizing that I am not alone at all, and this community and my followers have been part of that realization and growth for me. Knowing that so many people have been interested in the things I’m interested in, got off to the same stuff that got me off, got off to ME in some cases haha, and/or just really understood where I was coming from when I’d answer questions or write posts about myself and sexuality, has meant the world to me. I am a different person because of you, a better person, and this blog has been there for me when I’ve needed it most. I hope coming on here has been good for most of you. I hope it has helped here and there or even just offered a simple release. Thank you for sticking through this with me. In the next few days I may post some links to my other accounts, just in case I can’t figure out what to do with this blog in time. For now, chats are open, if you know anything that might help sort through this pickle, or you just wanted to drop a line, I’m not sure if I can respond to everything but please know I am here and I am listening. All my love, from now and for always, ~scary-chan

[donthugmeimscary]

in response to the question of fantasizing! I can't fantasize abt real celebrities or people I know bc, they're real people and I need their consent to engage in that sort of thing even if only in my head. This generally leaves me with characters either from media or that I create. I can fantasize abt someone I am in a relationship with if I know what sort of things they like. The consent thing is strange given the content of the fantasy but, well, human brain is not a logical one.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for this response!! I have a lot of rules when it comes to who I can and can’t fantasize about and a lot of it comes down to feeling like it’s non-consenting even though it’s a fantasy and I know it’s not real. I wasn’t sure if anyone else thought that way but this response was the VERY FIRST ONE I got and I really appreciate it. My jaw dropped when I read this message cuz I was just so surprised at how much I totally get what you’re saying. I really mean it, thank you for putting in the time to tell me about yourself!

[donthugmeimscary]

im trying to understand how humans fantasize so i’d really like opinions

do people often fantasize about made up people? or actors or characters? do you fantasize about your friends or people you wouldn’t want to actually fuck in real life? do you fantasize about your exes, or people you know who are in relationships? who do you fantasize about most often? when you’re in a relationship do you usually fantasize about that person or is it a mix? why and why would you not fantasize about someone? when you fantasize about someone you know, how do you come up with how you want them to act? i would appreciate responses as i would like to know how other people think about this stuff. I feel very detached in my understanding and it is truly hard for me to feel connected to others when i do not know how they think about these things

[donthugmeimscary]

Made these undies out of duct tape! Next time I need to apply it looser cuz when I finally took them off they had been pushing on me for so long I was too turned on 😥

[donthugmeimscary]

(⊙﹏⊙//)

[donthugmeimscary]

masturbation story

omg I completely forgot to tell yall this but it’s a friggin RIOT. So I don’t usually touch myself when I masturbate, I normally just mentally get myself to the point of cumming and it’s great. But last week I was insanely horny and decided to do some actual physical involvement with myself. Unfortunately, I wasn’t prepared and my fingernails were long af, so that wasn’t gonna work. I don’t own any sex toys but I was out here DESPERATE. I grabbed one of my deodorant sticks, which is cylindrical and has a rounded top (it’s basically the shape of a dildo if it was short and completely straight.) and I went to TOWN. It hurt a bit, but in that good stretchy way, not in a ‘whoops something’s wrong way’, just cuz I’m not used to stuff bigger than two fingers. It did it’s job though, I had a great time, and all was well. The next morning as I was getting ready to go to work, I had completely forgotten about the night before and picked up my deodorant to use for its actual intended purpose this time. When I was using it before it was in the dark so when I was done I just tossed it on my bed without inspecting it much. Now, as I was about to use it in broad daylight, I noticed something around the ring of the cap. The cap’s probably like two inches and connects to the body of the deodorant in a super smooth way, it’s all the same thickness. But, there still is a slight ridge of the cap itself and the body, and... There was dried blood. All. The way. Around. The rim. I was laughing so hard cuz like, bitch was so horny I had ignored the scraping of my insides to the point of actual blood. Not like, an insane amount, but it was definitely running the whole rim. Super wild. I should probably buy a dildo soon. -love, scary-chan

[donthugmeimscary]

Aside from the cnc what would your biggest fantasy be ? Also since you lost your v in a tent in the woods would you want to be tied and used in the woods or was that just a convenience factor?

That’s legit so hard to answer, i think about cnc so much haha and a lot of my other fantasies just come along with it (gore, incest, gang bangs, bdsm, etc, are always coupled with the cnc aspect)if it’s not cnc it’s at least just like… so much teasing. the comedian jake hurwitz from jake and amir has this genre he loves that kinda doesn’t have a name but he calls it ‘fucking finally’ and it’s like when two people have just been in this sexual tension for so long and then they finally get to fuck… i like the idea of that sooo much!! it’s a good fantasy scenario for two friends, i guess that’s why i often write stories and draw pictures with sexual scenarios in the context of friendships.

it’s hard to think of fantasies that dont involve cnc, but i like the idea of getting really drunk with someone and having sloppy sex. or, getting so high off of some kind of edible or potion (sometimes magic is fun ( ˘ ³˘)♥) with someone else and it makes us monstrously horny and completely out of it to the point that we’re not really sure if we’re controlling our bodies or not. That almost gets to cnc though, haha, i just can’t escape!

Cousin sex! Really like Cousin fucking fantasies! 

Uhhh, I can’t think of anymore rn. sorry I don’t got much! It’s just that when cnc isn’t involved my fantasies get pretty boring and vanilla to talk about I guess. i spent most of my sexual-fantasizing life only thinking about cnc. it was only… literally this year that i had 100% very clearly consensual fantasies, or fantasies that involved me having a good time in any way. For me, it’s all so new and exciting, but for everyone else it’s same old same old! (ᕑᗢूᓫ∗)ʱªʱªʱªFor your second question, I DO have fantasies about being raped in the woods yaya!! But this was just a coincidence I ended up doing it there, no planning involved! (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡~love, scary-chan

[creaming-bunny-boy]

ANOTHER wanted mood: being in a crowded club and none of my friends notice you pulled me away and cornered me telling me your intentions as you just grip and grope. before I can think i realize your sneaky hands added something to my drink and it all clicked but I can’t comprehend a damn thing

all i remember is the way you gripped my jaw, just all low tones. “you’re such an angel, I want to see what those soft lips do, both sets.” and all i can do is nod, my eyes unfocused and dazed and I don’t seem to care

all i feel is hands and heat in a back hall with shitty lighting but soon im just being used and referred to as a tainted angel but I couldn’t care less while im used for what feels good. im property and used to any discretion

[weaponsandsextoys]

She was the kind of girl who was what you would call “book smart,” but not very bright otherwise. When we were assigned to be partners on a project, I knew it would be easy to take advantage of her.

While we were alone in the library late one day, I knew I had my chance. While she was looking for a book we needed, I pulled her skirt up and got a glimpse of her pretty ass. She tried pulling her skirt back down. I pushed her to the floor and pulled her panties aside. She tried to cry and yell, but was muffled through my hand over her mouth. I pulled her panties aside and shoved my cock in her. Like I thought, she was a virgin. Her pussy was so fucking tight, I didn’t last long.

After I dumped my cum in her, I told her to get up and get the books we needed. I told her if she told anyone, it would fuck up the project and she didn’t want to get a zero, did she?

I did it to her a few times over the course of working on our project. By the time, we turned it in, I had the dumb slut convinced she loved it. Not only did I get an A on that project, I had a new little fucktoy to use.

[donthugmeimscary]

as odd as it is I’m a csa survivor with some mental illnesses and seeing someone like myself run a blog with the stuff I’m into on it makes me feel a lot less dirty about it. So thank you! I logically know how common it is for survivors to get a noncon kink but it’s like all I ever see is purely hate filled and doesn’t have a soul but you do. You’re someone I can relate to and cheer for! It makes me happy to read your blog, not only from a kink way but from a me way!

hey, wow, I’m really not sure what to say! Like, conveying how important a message like this is to me feels overwhelming. i dont think there’s anything i want to do more in this world than make people feel less alone, and i never would have thought my blog would be that beneficial to anyone.. everything you’re saying i really felt at some time in my life, sometimes now too, but now that dirtiness and guilt isn’t really around at all, so it makes me happy to know that i may be helping someone in the same way.for any csa/rape survivors who frequent this blog, i want you to know that it really can get better. I worked very hard for years to overcome a lot of the aftereffects of my trauma, and of course there is some stuff that will stick with me for the rest of my life, but im not so bothered by that. everyone has issues of some kind, things they have to live with that are hard, and even if there are people around me and you who don’t have the exact same trauma, we can all relate to a lot of the same feelings. We can all relate to guilt, and hurt, pain, often even violation, self hate… So many people live with these things even if they didn’t go through sexual assault. No one is alone, ever, and if you can find ways of coping through the hard times, ways that make you feel better, use them. Use this blog if it helps, but also know there might come a day where stuff like this isn’t so useful, and if that happens, don’t feel like you need to cling to it. In the end, only use what actually helps, and if this blog helps, use it! Thank you so much!-love, scary-chan♡