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This thought occurred to me the other day and has been nibbling at me ever since.

I met the boy at some point early in the semester I was studying abroad. I don’t know the exact day, because I was meeting a lot of people all at once and it didn’t strike me as particularly life-changing, just your average run-of-the-mill friend making. That was in my sophomore year of college, and I’ve just recently graduated.

With some simple math, it is a fact that I met him slightly less than 3 years ago.

I’ve known the boy for less than three years, but as of today [and being completely honest, for a while now] I can’t picture a future without him in it.

I just find that a bit amazing.

#life is good #sad lonely hag #thoughts about the boy

I know three separate couples who got married today. And while on one hand it’s very happy and nice and very exciting for them, on the other it just makes me feel even more alone over here in my apartment all by myself, a minimum of 2 weeks away from seeing my boy again.

#sad lonely hag

Living alone has given me way too much time to think about the boy and the things I would like to do with him

it doesn’t help I’ve been watching sappy girly shows on netflix and it just makes me have ALL THE FEELS

but I know he loves me and I know he someday wants to marry me, but DANG, I just want him to ask me already so we can be engaged and then get married and then move in together and have babies and be together for the rest of our lives because honestly I can’t think of a better way to be

that boy just makes me so stupidly happy it’s unbelievable

#chronicling the boy

So I spent the past weekend with the boy in his new apartment, and in typical fashion I woke up much before he did both mornings. So I would read while waiting for him to wake up on his own, and occasionally look over and just watch him sleep a little.

and I realized each time that damn is he beautiful

Especially with the relaxed face you have when you’re asleep, he just looked so peaceful and calm and happy... and I noticed that even though he breathes through his nose he leaves his mouth open a little bit most of the time, and his lips were just so full and soft-looking...

clearly I read a lot of that book

#chronicling the boy

fun things happening right now: literal tons of doubt about long-term-ness with the boy, yaaaaaaaay

#like I get this is a thing a lot of people experience #but it's a bad sign I'm scared to make a pro/con list right #because I think there may be more cons than pros #yikes

teenagecrush

Uhm, so I just checked and I last looked at it October 11, so literally 2 days later is when he decided to put in writing his intentions so WOW

#chronicling the boy #spring 16

So I looked at that document again. I don’t remember when I looked last, but I noticed before I opened it that it was last modified in October of 2015. I glanced at it quickly and it looked mostly the same, but then something caught my eye at the top that seemed slightly different. It was in a list of 20 life goals.

Then I saw it. What had used to be ‘Get married, become a great father and husband’ now reads ‘Marry Lyn, become a great father and husband’

I just

what

...

since October

OCTOBER

:}}}}

#chronicling the boy #spring 16 #everything is coming together

so this past week has been crazy....

Earlier in the school year I had been applying to literally every open position in the country with a certain company because I really wanted to work for them and didn’t really care where I ended up. I wasn’t surprised when I didn’t hear anything for a while because they said these positions were available depending on something they anticipated receiving by the end of quarter 1.

So then a couple weeks ago on April 1 [day 1 of quarter 2] I got an email from them, first point of contact, requesting I fly out and interview with them on their dime. So I set it up and this past Tuesday I flew out to them for the interview on Wednesday. I thought it went pretty well, and then came back to school that same day. Then on Friday afternoon I got another email from them offering me the position. Just like that. So quickly... it was insane!

If I hadn’t gotten contact info from a friend earlier in the semester to talk to a different company, this would have been literally my first interview for a post-graduation position, and I got it!

Sooo, now I’m in negotiations with them, going over benefits packages with my parents and boss in HR here at school and discussions about salary and WHAAAAAAAT

#spring 16

I meant to post this the same day I posted last time but honestly I completely forgot.

So, I first asked the boy to come home with me for Easter last year, but he was busy and couldn’t come and honestly that was fine. He didn’t decide till the day before I left, so he said he would definitely come home with me for fall break. Fast forward, he forgot and his parents ended up coming here for fall break, so he couldn’t exactly change those plans. Also fine.

I asked then if he would come home with me this Easter, and he said if he could pull the time off his project he would. I kept reminding him so he would know to work a little extra during the week so he could still come. He seemed fine until this monday, when I asked again. [maybe it was tuesday? which ever day I made the last text post]

He basically made it abundantly clear that he could in fact come but didn’t want to anymore. He said it was because it would be awkward, but I got the feeling that it was also that he was nervous about meeting more of my family and being in my house. Obviously I would get upset by this, because he had said if he had the time he would definitely come, and now that he definitely had the time he was looking for a way out.

I didn’t want to yell, but I felt like I would. Also, whenever I was about to say something intentionally calmly, I felt like I was about to cry. So I just ended up being silent for about an hour. In that we watched one of our shows, and then went back to doing our own thing.

I didn’t want to force him to do anything, but I wasn’t calm enough to talk about it more without getting angry or cry, which I didn’t want to do. He could tell I was upset, and eventually I think he put together why, so by the end of the night he decided he would come.

Thats about it. It seems kinda manipulative now that it’s all typed out, but honestly, I was just trying to not cry and not yell, because I knew I would regret either.

#chronicling the boy #spring 16

It would appear I have somehow gotten the boy to agree to come home for Easter with me, after some concessions on my part we reached a compromise and he’s coming with me :] I may have accidentally twisted his arm a little, but I’m not allowing myself to feel bad about it because A) I didn’t do it on purpose, B) He didn’t list it as a reason he decided to come. I will explain more later today when I have more time

#chronicling the boy #spring 16

awesome-picz

Meet Juniper, The Pet Fox Who’s Basically An Orange Dog.

#precious bbs

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I wish I could make a post like this on my main, but because I know that I can’t express myself clearly I can’t risk that, BUT:

I’m really sick of the posts just hating on straight people strictly because they are straight, or het people just because they are het. I just saw two back to back posts that did, and it’s so dumb. [One was one of those conversations, and it said ‘straight person: blahblah. me, a normal person: blahblah’ and the other just lumped all ‘cishets’ and made them out to be intolerant satan spawn].

I know the people who make these posts have been facing the same difficulties, which is why I try to do my part in changing perceptions and attitudes. But just because you have been treated like trash does NOT give you permission to turn around and do the exact same thing to a different group. That makes you no better than the people who did it to you.

Tumblr users love to defend this site and say it’s this lovely rainbow magical place of progress and acceptance, but it’s not and I wish people would just admit it. Most people on here are lovely and tolerant, yes, but there’s a growing number of people who fall into the camp of ‘You represent people who are intolerant simply by being yourself, and we will not tolerate you. You identify with the gender you were assigned at birth, which matches your gentials? You feel attraction in a way which is socailly accepted? Well clearly you are the worst thing ever.”

I am a white, American, middle classed, able-bodied, Catholic, cisgendered, heterosexual female, about to graduate from a private university. My boyfriend is a white, American, middle classed, able-bodied, Protestant, cisgendered, heterosexual male, about to graduate from a private university. There is nothing wrong with that, but posting that on this site is somehow offensive.

#LGBT #intolerance #fight me #what have I done to be so hated

cybergata

maruhanamogu

#precious bbs #cats are fluid

TTBDTASAH

5: When he gets slightly nervous and has that little chuckle mixed with intense eyes

#spring 16 #just a note #TTBDTASAH

TTBDTASAH

4: When he is tired and doesn’t wait for me to leave before taking off his shirt and pants because he just sleeps in boxers

#spring 16 #just a note #TTBDTASAH

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