Donuts fill the void

I lied nothing fills the void.

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I think I might just be a bisexual mess of daddy and mommy issues with low self esteem. I think this is most relevant in my love life. I think I’m gonna uh. yeah.

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MaCoFi

Its been a year since her. I loved her. So much. And she was so selfish and spoiled and i didnt care. I loved her. Whole heartedly. I was upset that you had other friends. I was upset that you didnt find happiness in me anymore. I was upset that you didnt love me. I still love her. I saw her on the street once and wanted to say something but. My mom said no. That we already passed you. I still resent that. Fuck. Fucckkkk. fuck.

-♡Bananana

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It’s been three years and now i finally get to talk to you again 🧡 I’m so happy :) someday when we’re not unbelievably busy, we’ll get to hang out. And it’ll be fun :)

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Spaghetti Trumpet

You’re my first. Hopefully in a lot of things. You’re the first person to like me, for. Me. You’re the first person to force me to play super Mario Odessey. Which shouldn’t be so hard to play I’m gonna fight you. You’re the first person to shamelessly flirt with me unsolicited. (You’re not slick but you sure are cute) You’re the first person to constantly accidentally make lewd jokes and then get flustered about them. You’re. Great. I hope you become I first true love? My first boyfriend definitely. At this point you don’t really have a choice. You’re the first person to ask me out. Not on a dare, not because you felt obligated to, but because you wanted to? I realize that if I wasn’t so weird and so nosy you wouldn’t have said anything but geez it’s envigorating to know that like. People can like. Like each other at the same time. I’m so smitten by how weird and awkward you are it should be ILLEGAL to be that cute. It’s a good feeling to know that. someone could like. Me. 🥰🥰🥰

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However, you were my first. Boyfriend. That’s all. Imagine having a good girlfriend, but then you just. Mistreat her? Wow couldn’t be me. Unfortunately, all of my relationships end the same way, with me being abused and discarded. It’s all good though, at least you hold no authority over my life. I’m an adult now, it’s probably time I acted like it huh?

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IZ

You’re so beautiful. You’re nice and pretty and so so so special. I’ve never actually been this flustered around another girl before and I’m scared because I don’t think you like me?? But maybe I’m just projecting my own feelings of self loathing on to you. Maybe I just think you’re so pretty that you could never like me? You’re so nice and funny and I really really like you. <3 Bursha

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I told you and you don’t hate me?? I hope. Dunno.

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Belle. You. Are a monster of a person. And so unbelievably unashamed about it too, it’s quite embarrassing to be quite honest. I’m obsessed with you, you say, how? I haven’t mentioned your name in months, I haven’t thought about you, even your abuse and blatant mistreatments of me in about a year. You’re delusional. It’s sad. You want attention. Sit down sweety no one cares.

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Spaghetti Trumpet

You’re my first. Hopefully in a lot of things. You’re the first person to like me, for. Me. You’re the first person to force me to play super Mario Odessey. Which shouldn’t be so hard to play I’m gonna fight you. You’re the first person to shamelessly flirt with me unsolicited. (You’re not slick but you sure are cute) You’re the first person to constantly accidentally make lewd jokes and then get flustered about them. You’re. Great. I hope you become I first true love? My first boyfriend definitely. At this point you don’t really have a choice. You’re the first person to ask me out. Not on a dare, not because you felt obligated to, but because you wanted to? I realize that if I wasn’t so weird and so nosy you wouldn’t have said anything but geez it’s envigorating to know that like. People can like. Like each other at the same time. I’m so smitten by how weird and awkward you are it should be ILLEGAL to be that cute. It’s a good feeling to know that. someone could like. Me. 🥰🥰🥰

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Sally. That Girl♡

I miss him. I miss our stupid talks about the most random shit (that one talk about masturbation was gr8 btw) I miss out stupid lingo and references ((sammy bread and butter wya???)) I miss his wild ass afro and tripping on purpose and actually hurting himself. I miss you. Ughhh. I miss you. And i cant just say that! You’d be all like “we see each oher at school everyday???” But its not the same. I fucked it all up iver the summer. And i know i did. And i hate that i did. I mean. Where would I be without screwing something up.

“ And don’t feel like something you’re nowhere near” …..what happened to these days???

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I mean. You’re still my same lovable dumbass two years later. I love that we just. Picked up where we left off, we always do that, just. Pick up after not talking for days or weeks or a whole year and a half. And things are only slightly weird after I asked you to take my virginity but that’s okay. Because. It’s not that bad. I’m just afraid it’s never gonna happen mostly. Idk. Insecurities and issues are wild. I still miss you. And we don’t even see each other at school anymore... it’s such a wild time to know that you’re still here, making no where near tasteful jokes in an attempt to make me feel better because Jesus I’m so sad. And I hadn’t even realized, that I’m just. So sad? All the time? And if I’m not sad I’m unbelievably tired and frustrated. You’ll always be my favorite smitherbutt. Always.

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IZ

You’re so beautiful. You’re nice and pretty and so so so special. I’ve never actually been this flustered around another girl before and I’m scared because I don’t think you like me?? But maybe I’m just projecting my own feelings of self loathing on to you. Maybe I just think you’re so pretty that you could never like me? You’re so nice and funny and I really really like you. <3 Bursha

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I told you and you don’t hate me?? I hope. Dunno.

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IZ

You’re so beautiful. You’re nice and pretty and so so so special. I’ve never actually been this flustered around another girl before and I’m scared because I don’t think you like me?? But maybe I’m just projecting my own feelings of self loathing on to you. Maybe I just think you’re so pretty that you could never like me? You’re so nice and funny and I really really like you. <3 Bursha

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MaCoFi

Its been a year since her. I loved her. So much. And she was so selfish and spoiled and i didnt care. I loved her. Whole heartedly. I was upset that you had other friends. I was upset that you didnt find happiness in me anymore. I was upset that you didnt love me. I still love her. I saw her on the street once and wanted to say something but. My mom said no. That we already passed you. I still resent that. Fuck. Fucckkkk. fuck.

-♡Bananana

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Sally. That Girl♡

I miss him. I miss our stupid talks about the most random shit (that one talk about masturbation was gr8 btw) I miss out stupid lingo and references ((sammy bread and butter wya???)) I miss his wild ass afro and tripping on purpose and actually hurting himself. I miss you. Ughhh. I miss you. And i cant just say that! You'd be all like "we see each oher at school everyday???" But its not the same. I fucked it all up iver the summer. And i know i did. And i hate that i did. I mean. Where would I be without screwing something up.

" And don't feel like something you're nowhere near" .....what happened to these days???

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Remeber that one girl who no one believed? Or if they did, they never said anything? Remember how you were such good friends with her? But you were in 6th grade and didn't know how eating disorders or sexual assault worked? But now you feel guilty whenever you think about her? Remember how your own teacher, a person who was supposed protect the both of you, laughed at her and said she was lying behind her back? How he said she just wanted attention? How now it makes you sick how he was blatantly homophobic and sexist? But you still feel like he's good person, just that he should stick to teaching history.... You miss her though.