#1YEAR
hello dearest arthur. so ive been writing this for a few days trying to figure out how to phrase everything and everything i have to say, which is definitely a lot. cause this day is very important and im gonna make this as long as possible.
ps i wrote this on my phone so no gifs fml ////:
so yeah here we go.
so first off, wow. wow is pretty much one word to sum everything up. wow. one year. a full 365 days that we've known each other. and definitely the best year of my whole entire life. and im going to tell you why.
so is it bad i remember out first conversation??
alright so i made this post saying that i wanted to be friends with a niall anon.
and its crazy how that one post changed my whole life. you changed my whole life. normally when you meet someone, you just kinda brush it off, you know? like you dont think theyll make that much of a change. but you did. and its crazy. i never in a million years thought that someone would come into my life, and stay. and stay for as long as you have.
so anyways,
you came to my ask saying "i saw your post, hi :) x" and i answered like "fhjakskaksjallskf hi :)" and thats when it started.
lets get a little off track here. but isnt it kinda crazy how fate works? how everything happens for a reason. how theres a certain time and place for everything. how its the littlest things that you do that really change you the most. and its crazy, all i can think about how my life would be if i never made that post. if i never said that, if you never came to my ask and said that. if we drifted apart. i dont know what id do.
and you know how my life was before everything and yeah, but you changed that. you made me realise that theres good things in life even when you feel like you're living a hell. you changed me, a lot. you keep me sane, you're honestly the reason that im alive. before and back then, i had nothing to live for, i had nothing to fight for, and i let everything happen, happen. but everything changed once i met you. i was constantly happy. pretty much always. i needed someone to talk to, and you gave me that. a friend. someone whod listen and keep me happy. but you didnt just give me that, you gave me a bestfriend. someone who i can tell anything. someone who i can trust, someone who i can be myself with and theyd accept me for who i am. someone who i honestly just became close with from the start. and i think back on that day, today, exactly one year ago, and think back about everything that happened with you. you were there for me with anything and everything, and i really need to thank you that. you've done so much for me that its unbelievable.
so after talking i realised that you were someone special. i really realised how much you meant to me when you got hurt that one day. and its so true, you dont know what you got until its gone. and the thought of that scared me. i realised what you were worth to me. i cried for hours and hours, and it sounds so pathetic saying that now omfg. but i knew you were something special. i knew that once i talked to you again, id never let you go. you were special and i dreaded that fact or even thought of being without you. without you in my life. and im never letting you out of my life. ever. i refuse to let that happen.
so we got closer and closer and soon enough i called you my bestfriend. but you're better than anyone else ive met. im so so lucky to have met you. like there a people actually dying to be your friend and im your closest. i love knowing that i can be myself around you. nothing fake. because you know you live life trying to impress everyone, and i feel like me being myself impresses you enough. i dont need to try with you, and let me tell you that.
and i love how you're comfortable around me too. like how you tell me anything and all your feelings and that stuff u make me tell u :(((((((
but anywho
i love how you're like british and i try to be british for you and you wont appreciate that hmph. kidding. like ////:
oh and dont forget our song. lil bird. my lil arthur birdie. and you told me how that all started but i completely forgot i am sorry. but it was along the lines of you: "i like ed sheeran" me: "omg me too" you: "whats ur fav song mines little bird" me: "OMG ME TOO" and basically thats what happened. but that was a v long time ago that was like way back in march ish like we werent that far in our friendship when that happened.
oh and i love how you're obsessed with my grandmom. like i swear dude you love her more than you love me like no stop. ging. ging loves you. oh yeah i love how like literally every one of my friends and family know you and love you sm. like they dont even love you arthur they are in love with you i swear my whole family always talks about you so i just omfg. <\p>
i love how you put up with my obsession with jesse and beca and i put up with your perks obsession. and you watch it like literally every day like how do you not get sick of it. but i always watch pitch perfect and tell you about it.
OH YEAH and we're gonna read perks together bc we are v cute<33333 but really we need to start that soon im so bored and i wanna start reading and yeah. but i love how we do stuff like that, like how cool are we. we always find a way to make it seem like you arent half way across the world, and 9182819382 miles doesnt seem so far!! omg i remember when we met like the day after my first one direction concert we were talking about meeting and you said we'd go to nandos because we love nandos lets face it.
AND I HATE HOW YOU'RE GETTING OLD. like no stop dont get too old. you make me feel like a baby compared to you i dont know if i necessarily like it. stop aging thanks. well you arent just my little bird, but you're my lil spice. was it #arthlie i think it was. and we just randomly because spices because arthlie > garlie > garlic and ofmgmg that was so so funny. i love how we laugh literally at everything we say and how we're so chill but can be serious when need be. like everyone needs someone like that in their life and you're definitely the one for that. and im pretty sure it was our 6 months when we got the icons and yea how cute are we. aw the icons what are the odds that we both had icons made like?? i dont know!!!
well you're amazing. it was random but its true. you're amazing. the things you say are amazing. the way you can cheer me up so fast is amazing. you really get me. you understand me like no one else does. its hard for me to open up about that kind of stuff, and even when i didnt know you for long, i felt this attachment to you and i felt as if i could tell you all my problems, like ive known you for years.
i remember one time you told me "we are young" was your favorite song, and everytime it was on i thought of you and it was like really weird because i dont think it was actually your favorite song ofmg. but its not just that, like its weird but a lot of things remind me of you. whether it be our inside jokes LIKE NOP sigh i love nop or something about ed or england or chocolate milk ((cecemel)). and its also really weird how i remember pretty much everything you say. well not everything but most. or the things that calm you down or the things that make you happy or sad. i know a lot more about you than i realised. like how when you're stressed you make yourself tea because it calms you down and makes you tired and yeah you get it. or how you love they dont know about us or how much you love your sister. off track but your sister is perf ok. anyways. but yeah.
and remember that one time when we made the numbers? it was probably the dumbest thing we've ever done while talking but we still used them. and use them only sometimes now. we tried. an effort was shown.
or how i obsess over danger and we both read it like danger makes me cry i dont know if you knew that but it does. like danger i just i am just done that is all.
or how that one time i did that helium thing and you started calling me sassy because i said like "can u not" or something and you couldnt stop laughing at me :((((((
and you always put up with my shit. i know sometimes im "short" or "cold" or whatever you say for your lil language. and somehow you manage to never leave through the times im like that, and i cant thank you enough for that.
so now im going to start talking about you but yeah. like i said before, you're amazing. like everything you do is amazing. the things you do for me, how you change my mood instantly. and you're sweet. you're sweet, the things you say are sweet. you do anything in your power to make anyone and everyone happy. you do a lot for others, and that is amazing and sweet. you're also cute, how you try to make me smile when im sad, or when you say the dumbest things ever. and all of that makes you perfect. you need to start realising that. theres times where you think very lowly of yourself, and i hate that. because you need to see how perfect you really are. the things you do and say, and just you. i cant even find one thing thats not perfect about you. you're flawless, and its just crazy. i always thought no ones perfect, and you changed that. its still at the point where im still in awe with you, and its all surreal that someone exists that is as perfect as you are.
when i met you i had no idea youd mean this much to me. you mean to me pretty much more than anyone else, and i dont even know what id do without you anymore. when you take breaks, i just feel empty. i feel lost. and when you're there, everything seems okay, even if its not. and you probably have that effect on everyone. you're really something special. you're unique, and theres really no one like you. and im so happy to have someone as amazing as you in my life. and i dont want you to leave me ever. i promise you i wont ever leave you. because if you love me as much as you say you do, then me being gone would kill you as much as it would kill me. and i refuse to let that happen. i need you more than ive ever needed anyone, i really need you in my life. so i swear i wont leave you if you wont ever leave me. good promise? yes ok good.
and its weird like, you know "i love you more" fights? its weird thinking thats you possibly love me as much as i love you. i love you so much its unbelievable. and to think that you think you love me more is absolutely insane. ive never loved anyone as much as i love you. you're my bestfriend, my number one, and you really changed me. this past year has honestly changed so much.
and it all started with one little post.
