Chasing Waterfalls*

"Cause darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream." These are my unspoken words and my truest feelings, I can only hope that they're worth something to someone out there. *My title gives creds to the childhood fav, TLC.

[kushandwizdom]

[kushandwizdom]

Vibes

[dopiesworld]

My fatal flaw.

[dopiesworld]

Oh the things that I would tweet if I were one who subtweets.

[dopiesworld]

I share clothes with my boyfriend 💙 I'm glad he has good winter style

[dopiesworld]

Belly button upgrade 👌😁

[dopiesworld]

Today I did something bold and by bold I mean that I conquered my fear of needles and I got my belly button pierced. I think I did really well...because well... I didn't faint. That's a win in my book. ✔️ yea so I think my tummy looks kinda sexy now. I've never felt that before that's something cool. Today was a good day. I was spontaneous and I had fun doing something out of my comfort area. I hope he likes it. I didn't really run it by him but he seems to think it was a good plan so we will see.

[dopiesworld]

Lol

I am 5'2" and I weigh 123 pounds. I have a ridiculous complex that makes me feel like I'm fat. I have taken action and started using a fat burner to make me feel better. I don't tell people because they will laugh at me and judge me. Maybe they should, I'm kind of being picky.

[dopiesworld]

Stay fierce. Lol cheetah print makes every day better.

[dopiesworld]

Almost went to a 90s party tonight. I wish I lived back then, the fashion was sexy as fuck sometimes. Like suspenders. They just make things fun 😉

[quotes-shape-us]

I think I’m losing it—I don’t know what’s happening, what happened, but I look at you, I look at you, and I love you so much. Not because of anything you’ve said, or done, or anything at all. I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you.

[kushandwizdom]

I keep a lot to myself. Thinking a million things while speaking ten things. -Mark Patterson

my name is simple, easy to remember but not unforgettable. i tell myself that i like social interaction but sometimes im just so different than other people. i dont know what i mean by that at all but i know that i feel out of place. even when i try i always feel like im somewhat of an outsider. it makes me miss some of the friends that ive had throughout the years. maybe not miss the exact people but just the quality of the relationships that i had. i didnt realize how much i liked some of the people i hung out with until now. they made me happy all the time and always seemed genuinely concerned with how my life was progressing. my point is that now i dont know how many people whose lives would be drastically impacted if i wasnt around. THAT IS NOT A LIFE THREAT. im just speaking from my thoughts right now, suicide is something that just does not sit still with me and honestly i dont think i would have the cajones to go through with it. okay so beside that, i just dont feel like im doing anything for the world right now and i really dont like it. i should be doing something that makes an impact on the world. there's so much to be done and i feel like im in some college town sitting on my ass learning about shit that i really dont care about, to acquire my label as an intelligent individual, so that i may end up working at a day-care, changing diapers and telling myself that its the american dream. bull. shit. why does that have to be my life? im not just acting out as a weird hippie. really, why does my life have to look so concrete? there are so many things to do in the world, so many places to go and things to see. i want to go see people in a more quiet form. that may seem weird but i honestly want to spend some time with people that havent been tainted by all the horrors in the world today. i need to go somewhere im needed. somewhere i can see the impact that i can make on people and pray that their impact on me will bring me some sort of sanctity in this hell of a world. i want to go somewhere i can love all the people around me and be reminded that world can be a good place if you just find where you're supposed to be and be happy that you're there. 

my goal: before august 19, 2019, i will be on my way to a place where my happiness will be endless. i dont know where this place will be but i do know who i want by my side. i can only hope that he will want to be there too. 

[lovequotesrus]

[dopiesworld]

exactly. i just want everyone to start trying to focus on the good things that they have in their lives instead of dwelling on the bad. it's all about perspective. i'm forcing myself to have a good outlook on life right now even though it kinda sucks. i mean life doesn't suck it's just that some bad things have happened lately and it's sort of discouraging. but i'll be fine and i know that, thats why i'm trying to be happy every day. 

and this is in all lower case because that's how many fucks i give about formality on my tumblr. 

[kushandwizdom]

[dopiesworld]

To whom it may concern:

At the end of the day all I really want is someone that will give my way of life a chance and maybe try to see why I am who I am. Sometimes I feel so forgotten and belittled. Like what u like or think or say really doesn't matter and everyone knows it but me. It's almost like I've already been ruled out an idiot by everyone but I didn't get the memo. I just hope that someone will like the little things about me like I do. Because I've spent way too long thinking that I wasn't important when really, I'm not all that bad. I try to make life better every day and I can only hope that someone might see that about me.

[veryfunnymemes]

[kushandwizdom]

Good Vibes HERE

[words-of-emotion]

[dopiesworld]

people say that I steal boys from other girls. this is all that I do, people just want to feel like someone really cares about them. its not that hard to just not be a bitch and actually care about something more than yourself.

[my-teen-quote]

[pr0meteus]

[dopiesworld]

I feel like this is how my life would be pictured sometimes. Shit everywhere and I'm just sitting in the corner trying to exist to the best of my ability.