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i hate this

i hate that when my first girlfriend broke up with me i sort of shrugged and laughed because it meant literally nothing

i hate that when family members died i got bored at their funerals and essentially came mostly with the intention of eating the provided lunch

i hate that i have obligations and responsibilities that i just shrug off and ignore because i just don't care

i just

don't

care

you could rip me open, force your grimy fingers into the pockets of bloody flesh and take me a part from the inside out, and i wouldn't mind

you could kick me in the face and force me to crawl on broken glass

i just

i don't care anymore

i always thought i loved twi but i've been doubting it a lot lately

it's not you, at all

if there's anyone in the whole world i'd fall in love with, it'd be you

but i don't even know that i'm capable of true love.

i learned something from my sociology class, you see

when a child is not taught the fundamentals in life such as language and basic emotion by a certain age, they will never ever be able to express these things. you can literally cause your child to be mentally disabled by not taking care of them before they reach a specific age.

my mom was always working. always. i have almost no memories of her from when i was little, other than once telling her i hated her, and her punishing me. my brother would always hit me and scream at me for getting him into trouble when they saw the marks. my sister was too busy with her friends to talk to me; once, in order to try and hang out with her, i sat in the closet while she hung out with her friends and pretended i was a part of their group. my father told me i wasn't allowed to have friends. he cooked me food, gave me the internet, the television, and was off doing other things. like molesting a teenage girl who got him sent to jail.

i don't think anyone loved me, or if they did, i never felt it.

i was so lonely that i tried to kill myself to see if anyone cared when i was six years old.

when i spent about two hours attempting suffocation and i realized no one was going to come and check on me, i stopped, because i had found my answer and i didn't want to die. i didn't know what i wanted. so i just came downstairs and used the computer. funny how old my habits are.

no one loved me

the closest thing i got to love was when i was 11 and my father told me he wanted me to touch his dick.

i'm sorry if i can't fall in love with you

i'm sorry

i freaked out for like 200 minutes b/c i couldnt find the kevedd pic kails drew me for christmas

found it tho

i almost had a heart attack

okay sooo since i haven't been posting much on here i'm making a SECOND personal blog

i know, it's awful

but i can't remember the password to that account's e-mail and therefore can't join this one

but i also have so many posts on here that i dont want to delete it

url is tendorman.tumblr.com

!!

twi is perfecto for meee

TMI...

Things I DO get off to, even though people generally don't guess them:

Things I'm interested in but am not sexually attracted to:

gore guts n' bloodplay

vomit

trichotillomania

ghosts

drug usage/alcohol

cannibalism

sleep deprivation

food deprivation

messy, desperate eating

Things people have a tendency to assume I'm sexually attracted to based on my artwork:

gore guts n' bloodplay

vomit

trichotillomania

ghosts

drug usage/alcohol

cannibalism

sleep deprivation

food deprivation

messy, desperate eating

GLAD WE GOT THAT CLEARED UP. I like those things but I don't get off to them.

...Uh.

...Well, I kind of get off to desperate eating.

#don't judge the pone

why flo

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

i don't really like flo the way she looks at me makes me really uncomfortable

it's like whenever you lose something and you're trying to look for it

it's rly weird

at work most of what i do is put things in bags, refill soy sauce containers, and sneak glances at pictures of twi on my phone

apparently my job position at work is "the office bitch" because i just run around doing random little things no one else really wants to do

buT I STILL MAKE JUST AS MUCH AS THE CASHIER

wtf so i got invited to a party this friday by flo???

I GOT INVITED TO A PARTY???

idk what to say or do

i haven't texted her back yet

but

egh

i don't know

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#sp #pixel #pixels

lynn-gunnulfsens

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Well ok Kesha, maybe it’s because you’re an auto tuned peice of shit who shouldn’t be famous, you have no Buisness being in the music industry, it’s not even your music you fuck, someone else wrote it for you to record and them to auto tune yourself. And it’s not at all good . It’s not positive either. So complain some more.

eymo

I don’t know if you know this, tumblr user koolkidseatgreens, but Ke$ha is a certified genius. She has an IQ over 140 and an SAT score of 1500. When she was younger she would go to the library and do research for fun. Ke$ha is a both feminist and an advocate for equal marriage/rights for people of any sexuality, being a queer woman herself.

Ke$ha is a smart, professional woman, and just because she sings songs about wanting to let loose and have fun every once in a while doesn’t make her a piece of shit.

Ke$ha’s songs are meant to point out the sexism in our media. She treats men the same way many men in the music industry treat women, and she is hated on for it. Relentlessly. She sings on multiple occasions about taking charge in a sexual relationship, of how she only uses men for their body parts. She sexualizes men to make them uncomfortable. She sexualizes men for a reaction, so that people can both see why women are so uncomfortable with their sexualization and also to point out the inequality between the sexes both in the media and in the world at large.

She is judged so harshly for singing about things that make many men famous.

If you listen to Ke$ha’s deconstructed album you will see that she actually has some talent, which may be hard to hear because she does in fact use a fair amount of autotune. This is because of her genre and because of the kind of music she chooses to create as an artist. Ke$ha may not write her songs, but this doesn’t meant she isn’t a good artist or a good person. This doesn’t mean she deserves your harsh words. Some singers are good at writing, but that’s hardly a requirement. Last time I checked whether or not you can sing has nothing to do with whether or not you’re a poet.

You should not be calling anyone a piece of shit, my friend, especially someone you’ve never sat down and had a conversation (or even taken the time to wonder about her feelings!), but if anyone deserves that kind of language it’s not Ke$ha.

You may think that by shaming women for expressing their sexuality and having fun every once in a while, that you are somehow abolishing sexism. That in weeding out the less ‘deserving’ women you are gaining our sex more respect. This is not the case, and the fact that you and many others feel such a strong need to shame this woman who has done nothing wrong, especially not to you, shows that we still have a very far away to go.

#GOD i love kesha

it's pretty heart wrenching to know you're second best to your friends

but it's also rather painful to know that you're less than that to your family

#s iiiiiiii gh

i hate father's day i hate it i hate it i hate it

I like hardcore beastiality and extreme gore

I think about gang banging on a daily basis, often involving large animals and/or monsters

I've been making gore horror stories since I was seven

and you're going to ask me

about how i ship two half brothers

kay

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