Be ready and be steady

I'm live in passion. Digging more for science. Never get bored with fashion. Always interesting with sports. Exciting for challenge. Amused by wonderful things and art. Human of love and music makes my day perfect! :)

[neuroticdream]

[dotbendot]

In between

I'm in a middle of nowhere. In the age of wandering. In the time of discovering. Everything that lies between my eyes start giving a new impression. People. Wind. Conversation. Rain. Eyes. Laugh. Every single thing. I watch the world spinning, as i am the axis. I stand still. In silence. Thinking is there anybody in the world feel exactly what i feel right now. Disconnected yet lived in it. An outsider yet involved emotionally. It feels like in between. Never get too cold nor too hot, warm. Not in a frozen state nor burning like hell, dormant. Not even black or white, i am a grey. Yes i am a grey. Grey like a sky that about to cry. Grey like a fade color. Time is the only answer, they said. Neither i am going to be black or white or even turn into blue. Life at this time giving me too many mysteries. That i don't dare to put my step into anywhere. For a moment let me be like this. Be the grey. Be an axis. Be no one. Unseen. The right happening will come, i believe. - <3B

[dotbendot]

Be a smart-ass girl

Kenapa orang yang berpendidikan tinggi cenderung memiliki image kutu buku, berkacamata tebal, anti-sosial, menghabiskan waktu membaca buku, bersahaja, klinis.

Well i'm going to break those image actually. I'm not saying that i have genius IQ, no, i'm not. But i like study. aku suka belajar. aku suka berpikir. seberapapun aku mengeluh tentang tugas-tugasku, sebenarnya saat aku mengerjakannya there's a pleasure in it. Sebuah kepuasan ketika aku bisa menyelesaikannya. And it feels damn good to work your brain and see what you've created. But i'm not a GEEK, totally. Aku bukan seorang yang berpenampilan dan melakukan kegiatan seorang kutu buku!

Aku tidak memakai kacamata setebal 8 cm, aku tidak berkepang dua, aku tidak menghabiskan hari-hari ku di perpustakaan (well kadang-kadang kalau perlu :D). Satu serial TV yang aku suka, Dr. House. Seorang dokter, seorang genius, seorang yang berantakan dan sedikit gila :P What i'm trying to say is, own that f*ckin smart brain and be yourself, be what you are, not being what the "image of studying" should be. Be a mess. Do something that you like.

Kalau kamu kebetulan suka belajar, dan seorang Gothic, than be a Gothic that have a good grades! Pergilah ke kampus dengan smokey eyes dan pakaian serba hitam. Terkadang aku memakai jeans yang sobek di lutut hanya karena aku suka memakainya, tapi kadang ada pemikiran bahwa seorang pelajar tidak seharusnya berpakaian seperti itu. That's a big NO. That was what i'm trying to change. Kamu masih bisa terlihat EDGY outside and SMART inside *kayak iklan youC1000*. Don't judge the book by it's cover right. Let people like you for who you are and what you are!

[dotbendot]

you can always talk lies, pretend to be someone you're not, ignore your feeling. But instead, all your nerves, gestures, and unconscious moves shown what you're heart deeply desire.

- ♡B

[quotethat]

Surround yourself with the dreamers and the doers, the believers and thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see the greatness within you, even when you don’t see it yourself.

Edmund Lee

[quotethat]

It’s all in the view. That’s what I mean about forever, too. For any one of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You never know for sure, so you’d better make every second count.

Sarah Dessen (The Truth About Forever)

[quotethat]

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, to overcome and move on. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.

Unknown  (via quotethat)

[quotethat]

Some people show off their beauty because they want the world to see it. Others try to hide their beauty because they want the world to see something else.

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (via quotethat)

[dotbendot]

Rumahku adalah kamu

Tidak semua "house" adalah "home". Tidak semua bangunan berbentuk rumah adalah rumah yang sejati. Karena sejatinya yang dikatakan rumah bukan sekedar sebuah bangunan untuk bernaung yang diisi oleh orang-orang terdekat, namun sebuah kondisi yang nyaman bersama orang-orang yang menerima dan melengkapi kita sehingga ketika kita berada jauh dari pada atmosfir tersebut hati kita merasakan kerinduan untuk "pulang" kepada suasana yang kita sebut "rumah". Terkadang aku mendengar dan menyaksikan, bagi beberapa orang, rumah yang mereka tinggali beserta orang-orang didalamnya tidak memberikan rumah yang sejati. Mereka mencari-cari rumah sesungguhnya. Kembali hanya karena mereka tinggal disana sejak kecil. Kembali hanya karena hanya itulah tempat mereka kembali. Kembali tanpa hati. Kembali karena harus. Kembali karena tak ada pilihan. Betapa aku bersyukur karena tumpukan kayu beserta atap tempat ku bernaung adalah juga rumahku. Aku selalu terhenyak ketika menonton film asing, pada adegan dimana seseorang berkata "I'm home" padahal tidak ada satupun seonggok kayu tertumpuk maupun bangunan berdiri, namun ada seseorang disana - pasangannya. Ya. Rumah pada awalnya adalah manusia itu sendiri, yang menciptakan suasana magikal itu, yang menimbulkan sejumput kerinduan itu, yang menghantarkan setiap langkah kita untuk kembali . . . Pulang. - ♡B.

[dotbendot]

The sharpest weapon is not a knife nor a razor, but a tongue for a heart-breaking words come out of it.

[quotethat]

Unspoken thoughts get you nowhere. Speak them out. Silence isn’t always golden, sometimes it can be a burden.

(via quotethat)

[spiritualinspiration2]

[quotethat]

Strong people are not the ones who go to the streets, cry out loud and make statements. They are those who silently cry in tragedy but have the courage to wake up each day to repair the cracks on those streets.

(via quotethat)

[dotbendot]

As I grown up .. Life is getting harder, because I saw and I learned that some people is having a two faces.. I can never guess which one is their true face, it keeps changing every time..

- bendot

[dotbendot]

There will always people who's trying to take you down and break you up, and the sad part is .. when you know they are the one who's hanging around you all this time.

- bendot

[quotethat]

When a bird is alive it eats ants, yet when it dies, the ants eat it. Circumstances can change at any time and the tables usually turn over a period of time. Do not oppress, despise, or hurt anyone during your lifetime. You may be powerful today, but remember, time is more powerful than you. Just like one tree makes a million match sticks, yet when the time comes, only a single match stick is needed to burn a million trees.

The Sacred Path of Love (via quotethat)

[dotbendot]

Destiny

What is destiny? what defines it? Let me try .. Destiny is something that really meant for you, that something is can be person, situation, place, people around you. Then, who decides your destiny? who write it? Many people say it is God. Then destiny should be a secret right, but then some people try to guess it with many kinds of way tarot, coffee and many other ways.

I write this sentence last night ..

"however, something that doesn't meant to be together will eventually separate each other" in other words, "however, if you are not a part of my destiny you won't be"

But then I ask to my self. Did you really believe it? Did you really rely everything on destiny? Did destiny is really in charge of everything in your life? Did you really, really, going to let go of someone you love when the mighty destiny talk to you?

I keep on silence. I think. Until i couldn't think more.

Destiny is so blur to me, But what i know is, my decisions yesterday and today are what makes me today. And yes last night i decide something that I don't even know whether it's gonna be a right decision or a beginning of my nightmare.