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You had your mistakes. You're no longer a child.

[thefriendlypigeon]

Sorry I'm currently stuck in the Gosling!Verse and shipping all the things, BloodyMary (honestly who came up with this brilliant name) included! Hope you like this spicy little comic :3

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[tinytelescopes]

been reading the book

[doubletraumawhammy]

ok I’m alive, who cheered

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Fratjo……?

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Oh Zanka u will always be loved

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Bob as a teenager doodle

I might draw more sentry agent when I stop being sick

[coyotevalentine]

Some bobs plus sentryagent

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Zanka……(?)

also this is me testing all the brushes from jigsketches brush set on procreate!! This one is called thin ink

[doubletraumawhammy]

tw: self harm….(?)

even as the blood pools beneath him and the dip of the mattress brings him closer to his end

John does nothing

what else is there to do?

sit there and relish in the choices he’s made throughout the years of regret

ponder of the too many “what if” that could've been

Maybe the fact that it was always destined for him to end up this way

it wasn’t.

it was never destined for him to end up bleeding to death in his two star rated apartment here in new york

John walker couldve been so much more

couldve

and even as the blade slices deeper and the alcohol creates the buzz behind his eyes

John knows he won’t die

he could feel the pieces of skin tie themselves back together as he forms his next thoughts

John wanted to be loved

he just wasn’t worth the risk.

he never was

close your eyes john

Lemar wishes you were back him in Texas

maybe this time around your parents won’t leave you in the fire

You’ll grow up to find out soon enough

but for now

close your eyes

[doubletraumawhammy]

new brush new style

janka nation never sleeps

[doubletraumawhammy]

guess who got out of a depressive episode

also guess who got into gachiakuta

JANKAAA NATION R WE UP???!

wip

[doggedworship]

i fear he's not getting better

[doubletraumawhammy]

Waterboy save me save me waterboy

also yes I am aware I spelt Robert’s last name wrong, I was craving Robinsons ice cream while writing it

no I will not change it

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sub sub

sub John walker except he starts out as a brat first then Bob has to tame the shit outta him by controlling his body during sex

John wants to cum??

WELL TO DAMNNN BADDD BITCH YA CANT

John being the over dramatic man he is starts begging and pleading and whining his way

but because Bob is gods strongest solider (allegedly)

he doesn’t let him but a nut

so their routine is basically

Bob fucks the shit outta him

Bob gets his sweet sweet nut

John is left so close to the edge or in denial

and it stays like that for a week until John caves in and finally listen to Bob when he pulls on John’s dog tags and tells him to kneel

or idk I’m just getting gender envy

cause why cant I, a gender-fluid FAB, not have the same experience as a gay guy💔💔

[doubletraumawhammy]

Waterboy wip FINALLY UGHHHH the beach has been killing my ass

[achillesinhighheels]

This year felt like being awake during surgery

[doubletraumawhammy]

Based on assumptions and head cannons on John Walker we basically all assume he’s a southerner

maybe more specifically a catholic southerner

so do you think

while the barrel of his gun stared him down into the depths of his eye

even as his trigger finger trembled to pull the shot

do you think Jonathan F. Walker

actually prayed that night?

after he finished writing all of his goodbye notes

after arranging some bank statements so a sum would end up with the Hoskins

after cleaning the parts of a handheld gun over and over again

letting the clink of the metal drive him closer to the brink of his wits ends

after all that

do you think John Walker sat on the edge of his shitty fucking apartment bed

(he was a coward and Couldn’t stand to do it in the avengers tower)

(mostly cause he’s pussy out anyways)

do you think John Walker sat there

and prayed?

for forgiveness?

for hope that others will move on?

or do you think he sat there, within the last moments of his life, holding his brothers rosary in one hand

gun in the other

running the beads thru his fingers as he remembers days in his life when he didn’t feel like a burden

where he didn’t feel such a heavy weight on his chest

Then the trigger goes off

John Walkers eyes close for the last time

you can rest now