Sitting here at 5am, wondering how so much time has past. Gained a lot of memories over the last couple of years living London, some amazing some... not so great. But I have learnt a lot and I'm off to Uni in 3 months, which might not even happen now as I have a job interview for a Graphic Designer role which could change it all. So many options to go with and I can't choose.
I miss all the days off being back at school where I was oblivious to it all, which made it perfect. Living in Boarding School meant I was constantly surrounded by my best friends meaning I never had to go far to talk to anyone but we can't keep being naive forever. Even found my first love there, this girl was incredible but she made it hard work, even when people told me to give in I didn't because that isn't how progress is made. When I came to London I quite literally knew no one, luckily I made some mates on a website with people who wanted to start a band, which was great. Sixth form wasn't so great... everyone was a pothead knob ('cept the odd few).
I now have a great group of friends and am making new friends all the time, which I kinda feel is silly as once I go to Uni, it is gonna be like going to boarding school again, yes I will make new friends and keep most of my old friends but it isn't going to be the same but I do feel like I need a new start. Spending half my time watching tv on my laptop to escape all this boring shit called reality. I'll be honest I only applied for uni because I had fuck all else to do. I really want to pull off my festival and getting my clothing line noticed. But I also still hold onto my real dream of being in a damn band touring the world (because, yes I'm five).
Over the last 3 years I have managed to love and hate the same girl over and over again, I don't know why, it is the strangest thing ever but can't really do anything about but try get over it. Other than her, I haven't really met anyone that is really interesting. I should really be asleep but I need to vent and can't be asked who sees this.
All I can say is life is full of shit but you do get them moments, where you forget about that shit and just kinda enjoy yourself! Man I need someone to talk to about this shit who will actually give a half helpful answer....
Might just read 'The Perks Of Being A Wallflower' again, brilliant book, makes you understand.
Mini essay over, bed time!
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