[dracenary]

𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇----

𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐗𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍;

#DRACENARY- - 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐚𝐭𝐡. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐊𝐘.

a canon interpretation. independent & selective aranea highwind as portrayed by valkyrie. rules. main(s): @nifhilium, @glaciastral , @departedcrown , @topmechaniic , @royalarms , @elemosyna .

[dracenary]

i literally remade my icon border and then never came back lmao

[dracenary]

yawns.

[dracenary]

dusts this blog too.

[dracenary]

I'm still around! I've just been more active on my L.ightning and OC. Sorry everyone!

[tabrettbethells]

You must think I’m a monster… for taking a deal?

[dracenary]

I'm here for a bit. I have a lot of feelings about everything that's transpired over the past few days. Anger, disappointment, the works. But I'm grateful for a community that stands up against people of that nature.

[dracenary]

𝐧𝐨, 𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈'𝐋𝐋 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐌𝐘 𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇.

independent & highly selective aranea of ffxv. lovingly penned by valkyrie.

[dracenary]

Anon I need you to understand something: I am on the phone laughing.

[dracenary]

I like.. wanna play genshin for the new update but what is the motivation to do so :standing_emoji:

[dracenary]

Please take the time to revisit my rules.

[dracenary]

…Something has been brought to my attention and on everything I know and love, I will be adding to my DNI. I will be attaching a link to this particular addition considering the severity of it all. I am appalled and absolutely disgusted. Not just as a human being, but as a mother. Which makes the fact that people are defending this behavior even worse. People who work with children or aspire to. It's one thing to simp over a character prior to knowing their age. But it's another to continue to do so as a 30 something year old individual. Doing so even now with another 17 year old (Squall).

If you sexualize minors, block me expeditiously. If you think it's okay to feign ignorance about this situation, block me. If you associate with this person in any capacity, block me. I will not allow people in my circle who see no issue in this. Fiction or not, the mindset is sexualizing a minor. It's a mentality that stems from the mind.

You're not a fucking victim. You put yourself in these situations that not only brought you on the radar, but has made so many people unbelievably uncomfortable. No it isn't "he's 17 it's fine". 17 will land you in prison and see you dragged right back to the shit hole hometown you're from. God I am so fucking grossed out right now.

[lukearnold]

[dracenary]

I don't need magic to make a man beg for mercy.

- Cara Mason (as played by Tabrett Bethell in Legend of the Seeker)

[dracenary]

I love you so very much Val! You are a credit to the roleplay community, and to those of us lucky to call you our friend. You always brighten my day, and our chats always leave me feeling happy. You've been there for me through a lot of my emotions and personal issues, never made me feel like a burden or like I was unwanted.

You have cherished me so much & I just want you to know how much I cherish you in return. I'm doing this on anon because I just want you to feel the love without any essence of 'owing kindness back.'

You deserve nothing but love on this website & off it. ❤️ You're amazing. I adore you!!!!

Look— I woke up totally unsure of what the tone of the day was going to be, but this made me SO HAPPY. I don’t know who this is and I know that was the point, but if I knew I would literally squeeze you. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to spread a little kindness my way. And never forget that you ARE wanted and you DESERVE to be cherished. With everything going on, and the things people have been through, it’s important to give a little love.

So thank you again for this. I hope you have a fantastic day.

[khml]

[cassiaslair]

from i prevail's album, trauma ( 2019 ). slightly modified to fit dialogue prompts. if it's in parentheses, feel free to omit it.

bow down.

get on your knees & bow down.

i come alive, i'll survive, take on anything.

so paint a target on my back, let 'em come to me.

i'm on another level that you'll never reach.

if you seek forgiveness, you'll get nothing from me.

you will never know, it's the price i pay.

look into my eyes, we are not the same.

i'm in control, & you'll know my name.

i gave my life, gave it everything.

the best of your best ain't good enough.

keep running your mouth, & i'ma call your bluff.

so... i had this dream, it meant everything, & i watched it come alive.

i let you in, underneath my skin, & i learned to love the lies.

now i lay awake & i contemplate... have i become what i hate?

would you go to war? would you die for it?

paranoid.

something isn't right, i feel it in my bones.

every time i look around, it follows me home.

i get so stressed out when my head gets loud.

all this emptiness inside, i can't fill the void in my mind.

sometimes i just wanna die (wish that i could tell you why).

is it all inside my head?

i just can't escape the noise.

i think i'm paranoid.

every time you leave.

all i ever wanted was to find someone.

holding it together is the hardest part.

every time you leave, i lose a little piece of me.

every time we speak, words don't do it justice.

it's just us from here.

finishing the puzzle is the hardest part.

everyday wishin' you could stay, 'cause our minds may change, but our hearts remain.

i can't believe you gotta go away again.

if you ever start to hesitate & you feel the weight, it starts to break.

we're not the same; know that this means everything to me.

no one said life gets in the way.

rise above it.

i've been patiently waiting, tying my stomach in knots.

i've been lost in the moment, going to war with my thoughts.

if you're feeling the pressure, the pressure's all that i got.

so if you think you're ready, i'm here to tell you you're not.

you're in over your head.

i'll be damned if i ever let you get me again.

i will stop at nothing 'cause i was made to rise above it.

one of these days, everyone will know (but for now i stand alone).

i count my enemies like trophies.

i've got nothing left to prove.

when i look at you, all i see are trophies.

i'm not afraid to put it all on the line (like it runs in my veins).

you cannot stop me, so don't even try.

breaking down.

i think... i think too much.

i'm a little bit paranoid.

i think i'm breaking (down).

maybe it's in my blood.

hate every single second, minute, hour, every day.

everybody's out to get you.

every time they ask me, i just tell 'em that i'm fine.

i try to hide my demons, but they only multiply.

everybody fucking hates you.

i say i'm feeling hopeless, but no one's listening.

i don't really like myself.

DOA.

on our knees, we pray as we waste away.

we dig our grave, dead on arrival.

i close my eyes & contemplate on why i chose to be great.

i find myself trying to escape from where i'm supposed to be safe.

maybe i should pray like i'm supposed to be saved.

sometimes i feel like getting even, but i choose to behave.

i'm mentally locked in a prison (& i need bail).

i wish i was more flourished. i wish i had more courage.

i wonder if it's all worth it (i wonder...).

dead is the land of the free.

am i not worth saving?

gasoline.

let's burn it fucking down.

back from the dead to tell you that i'm alive.

killed the old way (but i survived).

fuck the blueprint.

death or exile, you decide.

tell 'em all that i made my name.

now it's mine to send up in flames.

this right here is as far as you go.

this right here is where i lose control.

burn it all down, i don't give a fuck.

fuck what they say, fuck everything.

kill it all (kill everything).

nothing but red inside when i close my eyes.

break or bow down, you decide.

tell 'em all that you can't be saved.

tell 'em all that you dug this grave.

learn to live in this mess you made.

hurricane.

tell me i was never good enough.

remind me of the demons that i've been running from.

tell me who the hell you thought i was.

just blame it on the person, the person i've become.

lately, i don't give a fuck.

i can't be myself when i'm with anyone.

(&) maybe, i'm already gone.

i'll never be the same.

it hit me like a hurricane.

i don't know why i drown my mind (in everything they say).

it got the best of me.

tell me that i'm lost inside my mind.

i reach out, but it's pulling me under.

remind me i've been searching for something i won't find.

tell me i was never worth the time.

just blame it on the person you think i left behind.

look into my eyes.

believe me that the storm is coming.

let me be sad.

i'm holding back right now.

('cause) i'm numb to what's around.

i miss the life i used to have (with you right here).

now everything is turning grey.

i'm blacking out the shades for now.

let me be sad.

let me be sad, even for a little while. just a chance to catch my breath.

let me be sad, even for a little while, 'cause it's all that i have left.

can you see it in my eyes, i've been distant?

i can't tell if it's the end or the beginning.

i know i haven't been myself, i'll admit it.

i put up walls so if i burned any bridges, just know i'm doing everything i can to try & fix it (but knowing me i'll probably miss it).

these voices get so vicious.

feels like i'm ripping stitches.

i wish some days i could go back (before life changed, it was so fast).

that time is gone, & i know that (so please, let me be sad).

when all i see are memories, i don't wanna lose a thing.

low.

i'm so damn low.

i can't lie, i'm falling (the floor gave out again).

the walls are caving in.

i've got these voices in my head.

i don't know why i'm broken.

my world is sinking in.

they tell me that i'm not enough.

is it my time?

even when i'm high, i still feel low.

voices in my head won't leave me alone.

i keep falling.

i'm in over my head again.

i'm on my own, i know it.

i think i'm too far gone to save.

i can't let go. i'm holding, i feel it slip away.

the more they say, the more they cut.

i'm hanging by a thread (don't know if i let go).

i'm doing everything i can to fix the problem.

this is how it feels when you hit rock bottom.

deadweight.

i'm cutting out the deadweight.

let me take a second to get this through to you.

it's time you get put in the rearview.

cut ties, there's nothing left to your lies, i'm seeing right through.

let me lay it out so it's clear for you to see.

i'm done with the ones that don't believe.

i'm cutting out the ones who drag me down.

all this negativity weighing down on me.

admit it's so pathetic to think i'd carry you.

i'd rather watch all the lows you sink to.

now i can see what you're really all about.

turn your back & run your mouth.

i laugh at all the time you wasted.

you're bitter, i can fucking taste it.

so if you think that you can drag me down, it's gonna come back around.

keep it up, motherfucker (i'll cut you out).

i don't belong here.

'cause i don't belong here.

those days, it was all i wanted.

nowadays, it feels all the same.

used to stare at my bedroom ceiling wishing everything would change.

now it's hard when you're always searching for the life that you left behind.

time disappears, year after year.

how the hell did i get here?

i feel so far away.

minutes turn to hours & the hours into days.

i gave up everything.

you don't know what you got until you throw it all away.

looking back on the past, all the time i wasted...

i'm running from everyone that tells me that i'm fading out.

must be mistaken 'cause i don't feel anything.

you know i got this brain, it drives me insane.

some days i feel i can't take the pain.

i can't explain it 'cause i don't need anything.