dreams w eyes open

anna. 30. est. she/her. semi-selective

[drcamsx]

hi hello allow me to introduce myself as this is something i've been meaning to do for ages and my tired brain said lets do this...

i'm anna. i'm new to indie. im 31 years old and in the est tmz. i'm honestly just getting into the indie world so please be patient with me. i do also work a full time job so please know i'm not ignoring you i just dont have the energy some days to write but i promise i will get back to you as soon as i'm mentally able to. i just wanted something easy and quick for those on mobile and for me to be a little more organized.

work in progress: 0updated: 5/23/24

rules/guidelines | muses | wanted plots | wanted opposites

[angelsdvsts]

it was nice to have somebody in the world that she could trust completely, wholeheartedly. nobody she ever felt this close to back at home, "think we were meant to be in each others," she mutters softly, smiling as his eyes flutters open to glance at her. melting into his touch, as if she was in a trance. "i'm glad that i could make coming home the best feeling, i do always try to have something nice for you awaiting for you when you come back."

[drcamsx]

he smiled softly nodding his head as he meets her eyes, "i think we were too." he says softly as he leans his forehead against hers a soft chuckle escaping him at her words. he truly felt and knew how honest she was because whenever he did get home if she had gotten in before him she always had something waiting for him, "you really do and i don't think i thank you enough for it."

[angelsdvsts]

his lifestyle wasn't for everyone, he's well aware of it -- it's why he wasn't one to commit to anything. but the more he hangs out with the blonde, the more he enjoys having her around, not really giving a fuck about what anyone else thought about it. "eh, what can i say? the rockstar life gets to their head." and at one point it probably did the same to him. a smirk appears across his lips, "nothing when it's just the two of us."

[drcamsx]

when they had first met luna didn't think it would have ever gotten to the point of where they were now. it felt weird at times they didn't hang out and what was supposed to just be a meet up once or twice when they were in the same place somehow turned into enjoying it more and more when they hung out. a light snort came from her at his words as she shook her head, "i think it could be argued that it can get to anyone's head." she said smiling up at the male tilting her head just a bit at his next words, "i think we've proven once or twice that things could go wrong." she stated.

[angelsdvsts]

"oh, so now it's banned when it comes to us?" he playfully jokes, although he knew that he hated that word -- he always had, nobody knew that more than the female standing before him. eyes rolls at her eyes, "yeah, right -- like i believe your ass, you totally would insult me any chance you get." maybe not as of lately, as of lately the two rely upon each other. it was a nice change. head shakes at her, "nope, never... mm yeah, yeah whatever we'll watch it." although, he wasn't sure he'd pay much attention to the movie at all. at her thanks, he lifts his shoulders into a shrug, "no need to thank me." he mutters, before rolling his eyes. "oh, shut up. you know i've been upgraded to favorite person now."

[drcamsx]

"uh yeah.. that word has always been banned for us when have we ever used the word." she laughs shaking her head. it was the one word they fully agreed on not liking, though having sung a song about him she could see his argument coming. raising a brow she looked up at the male, "really? and can you name one insult i've thrown your way recently?" she questions squinting at him slightly knowing they've been on some neutral ground as of recent. she still was in shock at his words, "yeah it is a must watch.. i can't believe you've never seen it." she said though she knew he probably wouldn't pay attention to the movie at all, especially if he was as tired as he said he was. shaking her head a but she rolled her eyes, "you have no proof of that accusation."

[angelsdvsts]

maybe neither of them reached out because both of them knew how much it still hurts -- how perhaps maybe there's something more in the underlying factors that they brush over. "you could've reached out to me as well," he mutters out, though he wasn't there to throw blame, especially when he needs her help. tongue darts out to dampen his lips as he lifts his shoulders into a shrug, "won't be so suspicious if i say that one's for sleeping the other's for. . ." head tilts as his eyes darts down her body like she should already know what he meant. "but, if you want one bed to share with me all you had to do was say that." he teases, hoping to ease whatever tension they had with one another.

[drcamsx]

she looked away from the male at his words shaking her head just a bit knowing his words were true and she didn't know why she didn't, but chalked it up to being hurt. instead of saying anything she pursed her lips and nodded a bit. turning her head back quickly to look at him not missing the way his eyes looked her over, "no we're not even putting that idea in their head. get two beds i don't care." she said letting out a breath, "just thought it would look suspicious but what do i know maybe they'll still view us as kids and make us stay in two separate rooms and that would be our saving grace." she put on a smile knowing it was falling flat.

[angelsdvsts]

watching the girls leave, nathan's attention were upon the guys -- at a total loss feeling confused about the entire thing. "okay, well.. we should start doing something before we get yelled at more," nathan mutters, circling around the kitchen to try and figure out what to do as a huff escapes his lips, "i mean, i would've helped with planning more, but she always enjoys to do those things, so i thought she would be okay with it. i didn't realize that i was putting so much on her." waving his arms in desperation. iridescent and ayla made their way outside, seating themselves on each side of elizabeth. a concern look plasters over their features, giving one another a look before focusing upon the sadden girl. "what's been stressing you out?" iridescent inquires curiously, tilting her head to the side. "you didn't kill the vibe. i think nathan's more so confused and think that he did something wrong, but obviously if you're feeling stressed about planning everything just let us know. we'll be more than happy to help," ayla adds, placing a hand upon her knee.

[drcamsx]

both men felt as confused as nathan looked but easton couldn't stop the chuckle that fell past his lips, "i don't think we're going to get yelled at, but start making the apps we'll wow all of them-- and you" he points over at kaiden, "say something encouraging this is totally you're area of encouragement." he said moving to look at what kind of dessert he could make with what they had. kaiden looked between the two of them before letting out a breath, "dude i'm just as confused as to what happened but we're helping now one less stressful thing for her to plan and next time we all plan it instead of letting it fall onto one person organize a trip for eight people." he said with a shrug but smiled, "or worse comes to worse you pour her a big glass of wine and take it her and tell her you got all the planning for the rest of the time." looking out in front of her wrapping her arms around her legs as the girls sit on each side of her she let out a breath, "work.. my agent keeps texting me even though i told her i wasn't available but she's fighting with me to get me on a plane to make some appearance at some event so i've been fighting with her all day." she let out a breath, "and i didn't mean to make the comment about me planning everything because i did think we'd just figure it out as we go for dinners and such because i know we'd probably explode if all eight of us spent every minute together." she looked between both girls, "i didn't mean mean to snap no one here is making me stressed, i'm not stressed that i'm here it really is just my agent..."

[angelsdvsts]

arms securely wraps around his girlfriend, keeping her close to ensure that she was safe. hand drawing little circles around her arm to try and sooth her anyway that he could. "okay, well listen to me. . . i can assure you that nothing and nobody is going to hurt us or come in between any of us." he states, eyes flickering over towards the group of people in the other room. "we all love you, we're here for you and we won't let anything happen to you." eyes flickering over towards her, pulling his forehead against hers. "i love you, thena -- nothing is going to happen. we can all just hang out here until morning, yeah? figure out what they want when you're ready."

[drcamsx]

as he spoke she soon became more calm, each little touch his fingers against her skin calmed her even more. her eyes closed for a moment taking in another calming breath before she opened her eyes looking up at him nodding her head at his words as she followed his gaze to the others in the other room. keeping her eyes on the group she spoke, "i don't care if something happens to me, i don't want anything to happen to any of you." she said softly looking back at kai a soft smile making its way onto her lips, "i love you too." she said softly before nodding, "one big giant family sleep over? if my parents don't hurt us, benji is a close second to doing that with all of us under the same roof all night." she said looking up at kai, "i don't think i ever want to know what they want but i am okay with the until morning plan."

[angelsdvsts]

"yeah, but you don't have to -- which makes me extremely grateful to have you in my life," bridget points out when her gaze falls upon his features. hand moving to brush against his jaw. "of course i do, you made living here so easy and freeing.. i don't think i would've survived without you -- asshole and all. but you definitely made this place feel like home."

[drcamsx]

he couldn’t stop the soft smile that took over his features at her words, “i’m grateful for you in my life too.” he said his eyes closing feeling her hand on brush along his jaw before he opened his eyes looking down at her a soft smile playing at his lips, "you make this place feel like home too." he said quietly his hand coming up to gently hold her wrist of the hand that had brushed along his jaw, "you make coming home the best feeling in the world."

[angelsdvsts]

it was clear that the more they hung out, the more stupid comments that will fly from his bandmates. jett was ready to shut down anything they had to say about her. "they most definitely do, they're shitty people." but also extremely talented, which was why their actions were often overlooked. "what do you say we go get a drink and enjoy ourselves?"

[drcamsx]

luna knew that even though something was being said about it now it would still happen especially the more she hung around jett, though she never thought it'd get this far if she was honest. making a face her nose scrunching up just bit she gave a nod, "you said it not me but they are kind of shitty." she agreed blowing out a breath. she took a moment looking up at the male for a minute thinking of his question before she lifted her shoulder rolling her eyes playfully, "sure why not. what could go wrong there."

[angelsdvsts]

"excuse me, i think that's why you love me so much," there goes that cocky smirk of his, as slight laughter escapes his lips. rolling his eyes at her words, "oh, i don't know if that's an insult or not.. but i believe everyone should party like they're young, after all we only live one life." lifts his shoulders into a shrug, as he glances over towards her. "would you hate me if i told you that i never seen it?" and he had no interest in watching it either, but for her he would. "don't get sappy on me now, my brain is too tired for this," he jokes, playfully nudging her shoulder.

[drcamsx]

"not the L word again... i thought that was banned between us." she said ss=haking her head looking over at chad a small smile beginning to play at her lips. shaking her head she pinched her lips together for just a second, "i would never insult you. that would just be plain rude of me." she said her eyes going a bit wide at her own words before her jaw dropped at his confession, "you've never seen it? come on iconic dancing the lift?! chad!" she said in shock, "come on now we have to watch it." she said with a shake of her head. "i'm serious though... thank you for this." she said bumping her shoulder with his. "you're not so bad after all these years."

[angelsdvsts]

his brow furrows in confusion, unsure why he didn't just reach out sooner when it was clear that it was something they both wanted, "i had no idea.. especially after how we left things, i just assumed that you hate me, want nothing to do with me." and he doesn't blame her for it at all, except he was miserable without her. head nods, clearing his throat before letting out a breath. "um, nothing else besides the fact that we'll be sharing a room.. i could make it two full size beds so you don't have to share with me. i'd also come pick you up and drive us both down."

[drcamsx]

she knew they were both at fault in the giving space department. she knew they both should have reached out but she also knew they were both stubborn and had always been that way. looking away from the male she shook her head, "well you know what they say about assuming.." she said softly keeping her eyes locked on the table between them. at his next words she lifted her eyes to meet his, "wouldn't that be suspicions if you requested two beds?" she questioned, "especially if we're trying to sell the whole we're still together thing?" she asked before also nodding her head figuring they'd have to drive together.

[angelsdvsts]

iridescent was beginning to second guess if her and easton should've done a solo trip instead, regardless -- she's still determined to have a good time with the group despite the tensions arising. all eyes flickers towards the boys as elizabeth made her way outside. "food always makes thing a bit better, so go ahead and try to wow us boys," ayla teases before moving towards iri's side. giving easton one small squeeze, iri clings onto ayla as they make their way towards the door. "dude, did i say anything wrong?" nathan inquires as the girls left the room. whereas, the two went outside to check on elizabeth. "hey," iri starts, "we wanted to see if you're doing alright," ayla finishes.

[drcamsx]

easton looked down at iri before he also watched elizabeth had made her way outside before his eyes went to ayla as she spoke. shaking his head he chuckled, "don't worry we will totally wow you guys," he said before he gently squeezed iri's hand one last time before watching her and ayla follow after elizabeth. kaiden waited until he heard the door open and close again before he looks back at his best friends with wide eyes, "dude, i don't think you did.." he said with a shake of his head. easton also shook his head, "i don't think anyone did anything specifically ... i think she was just stressed or something else happened? i mean she was really quiet all day honestly." elizabeth kept her eyes on her phone as let out a breath hearing the door open and close but completely locked on the message she was reading. it wasn't until she heard iri that she looked away from her phone causing her to close her eyes for a second then look up at her own best friends. nodding slowly she locked her phone and setting it down beside her she let out a breath, "yeah.. i'm sorry i've just been dealing with something that's been stressing me out." she said softly, "i didn't mean to kill the vibe in there.."

[angelsdvsts]

once everyone was inside, they continue the celebrations while kai pulls athena aside -- trying to figure out what entirely was going on to have her so freaked out. regardless, he was there and he wasn't going to let nobody hurt her. strong arms wraps around her frame, allowing her to cry upon him. "yeah, i get that.. so, why are they here then? what could they possibly want from you?" he inquires, after all she seem pretty content without them in her life, she built her own family. "calm down, it's okay.." he squeezes her digits trying to ground her, while making sure she was focused upon him. "everything will be okay."

[drcamsx]

she stayed wrapped in his arms truly believing everything was going to be okay as long as she had him everything she was worrying about was going to be okay because the ones she chose as her family were safe and here with her. shaking her head she looked up at him, "i don't know.. i haven't spoke to them in years.. they shouldn't be here." she said softly desperately trying to blink back more tears, taking a deep breath. she let kai ground her, him seeming to be the only one who could these days, "i need everything to be okay." closing her eyes for a second she let out a deep breath, "i don't want them to hurt you guys.."

[angelsdvsts]

jett been stuck with his bandmates long enough to already know how they were, if he said something to them they would quit being idiots and making comments towards her -- it was the least he could do. "exactly, those idiots need to be put in their places," he states while a sigh falls from his lips. "you have full permission to whack them around, i mean -- they sure as hell deserve it."

[drcamsx]

luna hadn’t want to make a big deal about what was going on she just knew her face sometimes gave away her feelings but if jett was willing to say something she would take that for the time being. “okay.” she said softly with a nod of her head before giving the male a soft smile, “they definitely deserve it most days if i’m honest.” she said with a soft shake of her head.

[angelsdvsts]

"the only frat boy you know? oh, c'mon that can't be true, but seriously you think there's still like fifty year old frat dudes? get real now." he was sure there were some cases like that, but he was never going to get to that stage.. but he would still know how to have his fun. "dirty dancing?" he makes a face before sighing, "whatever i don't give a fuck," because he wasn't going to watch the movie, "alright let's go then -- the cars outside."

[drcamsx]

“correction. the only frat boy who still acts as a frat boy.” she said with a shake of her head, “there has to be like the guys that never grew up and still try to hang with the younger crowd. i can see a fifty year old frat guy out there doing that.” she shook her head before her brows scrunched, “what’s wrong with dirty dancing? it’s a classic, chad.” she shook her head before following, “thank you for doing this i know you said you could use a break but like i really appreciate you getting me out of my head.”

[angelsdvsts]

"i thought you wanted space, i was waiting for you to reach out.. which is probably dumb of me, i should've done so a while ago, but i just didn't want to ruin whatever you had going on in your life by randomly popping up again.." so what the hell was he doing asking her to pretend that they were still a thing. a sigh falls from his lips, his heart felt heavy, but he nods his head. "yeah, uh we leave this weekend. wedding will be in vegas, i could take you shopping if you want?"

[drcamsx]

she couldn’t help but tilt her head at his words knowing right now was a contradiction of what they were doing here right now, “the last thing i needed was space from you…” she said quietly with a shake of her head. letting out a breath she looked over at him, “you don’t have to take me shopping i think i have something in my closet.” she said looking down at the cup in her hands, “is there anything i should know before we go?”

[angelsdvsts]

if iridescent could, she would definitely pull easton away and they have their own personal fun with one another, but it was clear that the group needed them more. a wide grin appears at how her boyfriend tries to ease the situation, "perfect! east and i got dessert, ayla and kaiden got main course, liz and nathan why don't you guys do appetizers?" ayla nods her head, "i think there's wings you guys could heat up?" but as elizabeth excuses herself, they all collectively looked at one another. "should i go check on her or should the girls?" nathan inquires with a wince.

[drcamsx]

easton smiles down at his girlfriend knowing that the tension filled room was nowhere they wanted to be especially after having finally been in a great place but he also knew they couldn’t leave their friends when they’d been there for him. “may the best couple w-“ kaiden began to say before elizabeth had excused herself causing him to look around everyone else. pursing his lips he looked from the boys to the girls before nodding, “i think the boys should handle the food see if we can wow the girls.” he gave a nod looking at iridescent then ayla, “you guys go check on elizabeth and in like five minutes we’ll send nathan out unless you guys say not to?” kaiden suggested with a shrug. outside elizabeth kept tapping away at her phone opting to sit on the top step trying to not stress about what was waiting back home and let go for the time she was with her friends.