trans is beautiful

my transition blog 26 • he/him • trans masc [T: 31/1/2021, TS: 26/3/24]

[thetransangels]

Imagine this

- You wake up. You lay in bed with that special beautiful person by your side, and you hold them against you, skin tight. You are shirtless, flat and comfortable with your body. You couldn’t be a happier person than you are right now.

- You wake up and put a shirt on, only a shirt. You haven’t owned a binder for many years now. You no longer have to layer yourself. You feel free.

- You can now wear those clothes you really liked in the shop. You bought them; they fit and suit you perfectly. No more baggy, ugly clothes.

- You look in the mirror and see your sharp jaw line, facial hair and adam’s apple. Your eyebrows are thick and your hairline is masculine. You smile, because you finally love and feel comfortable with the way you look. You feel attractive.

- You are walking down the street and the warm breeze hits your chest from underneath your shirt. You can feel the wind, it gives you shivers.

- You can stand up straight, run, swim and hike. You are no longer in pain. You enjoy being able to use your body and exercise to its potential.

- You can sleep over at another person’s house, hug, dance and cuddle without worrying about your binder.

- You speak in front of your family, friends and peers; your voice is deep and mellow, you feel confident. You are no longer afraid to speak, nowadays people can’t shut you up!

- Your family sends you birthday cards: “Son!” / “Brother!” / “Uncle!” / “Father!” - They accept you for who you are.

- You look down and touch your chest. You no longer find your body unnatural or misplaced. It is now what it was always meant to be.

- You use the men’s toilets and locker room. You no longer feel scared or paranoid, it’s just a toilet/locker room. It’s natural.

- You look at your birth certificate, ID and passport, it has “M” next to sex.

- The elderly neighbour asks, “How are you, son?”

- The shop keeper asks, “Would you like a bag with that, sir?”

- Your peers all refer to you as “He” and “Him”

Keep holding on. Transition is a slow and painful process, but you will see these things happen to you. Maybe not now, but they will come, and that is why you need to stay strong and keep pushing forward. You deserve happiness and to love your body, and you will as long as you keep going. Soon, I promise.

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

This is the post I found six years ago and I still think about it to this day 🥲

[empermoth]

Every breath a trans person takes is an act of revolution …So keep breathing

Short one page comic to help remind you to breathe even when you feel like you’re suffocating.

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

2025 update

Just wanted to share some updates on here ☺️

I’ve grown so much since I started this blog. When I first made this space I just needed somewhere to vent. I was still in the closet and just couldn’t imagine a life where I was actually happy. I want to cry writing this and wish so much I could hold younger me in my arms. “Everything it going to be okay” I’d reassure him. Getting here has sucked and it has not been easy by any means. I sometimes wish I didn’t have to spend my life’s savings on surgery in my early 20’s but I wouldn’t change that decision for the world.

I remember reading a post on here very early on in my transition that when I could lay in my lovers arms, scars faded, sun warming our skin, I’d finally feel content. Well, I’m now in my late 20’s, in a t4t relationship, we’re both nearly a year post op and my scars are starting to fade a little, I wake up in his arms and just feel peace.

I share my story with others, and use my experience to actually write policies in the workplace and advocate for trans people. I talk about being trans openly with my mum, something I would have never imagined a few years ago. I feel so free and at peace. I even forget what wearing my binder felt like now. My gender identity and dysphoria no longer consumes my every moment.

Is this finally what I’ve been searching for? *euphoric tears*

[tallwife]

due to personal reasons i will be happy

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

I have my top surgery consultation tomorrow 🙈 I’ve been waiting years and feel so excited, I can’t believe it’s finally happening

Hopefully I’ll get a date tomorrow too which will just be amazing. I can’t get used to having any time reference for this at all lol, it’s been a “one day” thing for so long I just can’t fathom it 😊

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

Completely forgot to update my blog !!

So uh I had my top surgery today!!!!!!

Feel great emotionally, am in pain with the binder being very tight for a plus size guy, and had a whacked out recovery afterwards with my health conditions

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

I have my top surgery consultation tomorrow 🙈 I’ve been waiting years and feel so excited, I can’t believe it’s finally happening

Hopefully I’ll get a date tomorrow too which will just be amazing. I can’t get used to having any time reference for this at all lol, it’s been a “one day” thing for so long I just can’t fathom it 😊

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

Lads I came out as trans to my parents!!

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

So I came out nearly two years ago, I posted a lot on here about how hard it was for my parents to understand and support me in the way I needed. It was a dark place.

Today I had my one year HRT review, my mum came with me and it felt like any other medical appointment. She helps parents locally understand their trans child and speaks out in her school for trans students.

Two years later and I’m happier than I ever thought possible. I feel normal, I feel like me.

I never thought I’d get to this point with my transition but it does get better, wow what a moment

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

Btw I’m nearly two months on t ✨✨✨

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

coming up to seven months on t !!

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

Btw I’m nearly two months on t ✨✨✨

[tallwife]

due to personal reasons i will be happy

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

Would anyone be interested in a follow up post about my experience with IVF? I’ve been through gamete storage last month so I’m happy to help anyone out with it

(I’m ftm trans btw)

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

I know I haven’t been updating on here much but just wanted to say I have my first endo appointment in half an hour!!!! Let’s goooooo

(It’s taken a long time to get here, both finding the emotional strength to start my transistion and all the hiccups along the way with the pandemic and everything. But I’m so excited and I feel ready now, I can just imagine how much better I will feel in a couple of months time. Hope everything goes well today and I’ll try to keep updates on this blog again!)

[ta2vox]

[dreamer-justlikeyou]

I’ve got a date through for my first gender identity clinic appointment!!!

[weallneedoxygen]

boys with soft stomachs, belly rolls, and stretch marks really have no business being that lovable, huggable, and perfect

[queerpeachy]

when he calls you pretty boy or lover boy or baby boy and you literally transcend into a whole different realm cuz yeah me too

mlm & nblm

[paintstainedprince]

me, when I thought I was a girl: uhh I don't get what the big deal with boys is I mean sure they're cute but I'd never go boy crazy or anything

me, a trans man, now: I want a boyfriend. I want to be a boys boyfriend so bad. boys are so pretty and cute I want to be held by one right now. I want to be in love with a boy so bad and for me to be his boyfriend I can't,,