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21 | they/he no longer my main blog!

[dreamjest]

Bro blocked me for calling them out and backtracked like a coward LMFAOOOOOO

Not even an actual apology to Sam? For lying about them and being an ableist piece of shit??? No? Sure buddy lol

This is NOT your thing to be moving on from btw YOU caused this YOU should be owning up and apologising directly because weren't you working on communication :( or was that a lie too

[hamsamwich23]

So They deleted both the original post AND the above "apology" that wasn't even up for a full hour before they took it down. And then back tracked because my close friend called them out on their behavior. They panicked because we spoke up about it and is instead trying to act like it didn't happen instead of at the VERY least allowing their apology to stay up.

Their name is cropped out for privacy, but this is the entirety of the deleted post they made about me. A long horrific rant about how and why they wanted me to feel miserable about my decision. All because I blocked them after the first attempt to peacefully cut ties and go our separate ways was met with guilt tripping me into agreeing to a "break".

Saying I didn't at all try to talk to you, that I abandoned you without a word, that I "made myself unavailable 24/7" while I'm PHYSICALLY DISABLED. WORKING OVER 40 HOURS A WEEK, always put when I'm working in my discord status (and even then I would still reply to things I would just be slow. I told you that.), and literally asked you to come to me if you needed anything. Even if it was just to hang out for a bit. Publicly shaming me for not being able to handle how you were treating me and my friend and calling it a "massive L"... It's just shitty and scary to hear someone genuinely think of me like this, and it's nerve wracking to receive this info from a RANDOM MUTUAL I haven't talked to in forever.

I did attempt to do this without blocking them out of the blue. I do not enjoy randomly cutting my friends off without warning or explanation. In fact if it's a communication error I PREFER we talk things out before anything happens. But again it proved to have backfired on me. I had to put myself first. (Note, first screenshot was taken just today to show that the message is still there to this day. All of the screenshots are in my other post)

(cont.)

I truly hope my former friend can heal and do better. I really don't hold malice towards them. Even after this. But I can't be a part of their healing journey. Especially if it means my friends and I are treated like this. I am not obligated to stick around while people get their shit together. Especially if me and my friends being harmed is part of the "progress".

I deserve better than this. I shouldn't have to be afraid of cutting people off when needed out of fear they'll publicly talk about how horrible I am for putting myself first. Something I've always struggled to do in the past (and still struggle with).

Thank you once more for your time. I apologize for dragging this further. Please do not harass or witch hunt anyone.

[dreamjest]

Bro blocked me for calling them out and backtracked like a coward LMFAOOOOOO

Not even an actual apology to Sam? For lying about them and being an ableist piece of shit??? No? Sure buddy lol

This is NOT your thing to be moving on from btw YOU caused this YOU should be owning up and apologising directly because weren't you working on communication :( or was that a lie too

UPDATE THEY DELETED BOTH POSTS AND DISABLED ASKS I'M GIGGLING YOUR ASS WAS NEVER SORRY

[hamsamwich23]

Seeing someone I cut off months ago say they want me to be as miserable as them because I blocked them without "saying anything" is so fucking insane when I literally tried to end our friendship on good terms so there wouldn't be hard feelings and they guilt tripped me into "only taking a break". Which afterwards I realized I was really uncomfortable with that and everything else that happened to lead up to this point and ended up just blocking them. It's been two months why am I getting a vague post now. Genuinely fucked up.

[hamsamwich23]

Screenshots are in the reblogs. For some reason it's bugging out and not letting me reblog my own reblogs?

Also unfortunate correction it's been over three month since I've blocked this person and cut them off. Like....

[dreamjest]

I'm going to attempt to be civil about this, not because I give a shit about this person but because I don't want them stirring up false accusations of "harassment" after already blatantly lying.

Note: the "you" in this post is referring to the person Sam is talking about.

First and foremost:

MENTAL ILLNESS IS NOT AN EXCUSE.

This confrontation initially occurred because I confided in Sam about your behaviour whenever I was playing Roblox games with them. You were avoidant, hostile, and unfriended me from Roblox out of the blue, and I didn't know your socials or have any other reach to you, so I asked Sam if they knew what was going on. I was afraid I had upset you somehow (despite never having talked to you) and I wanted to make things right.

Your response to this was essentially "I'm jealous you have other friends :("

I would like to clarify that I understand the anxiety of feeling like your friends have "better" friends. I understand feeling like you are not good enough. But never, NEVER have I attempted to isolate my friends and act hostile towards the people they hang out with. The way you responded to this was disgusting.

Sam sent you paragraphs. PARAGRAPHS. Explaining what you did and how you had harmed them. Wishing for your friends who had cut you off due to your actions "the exact amount of sorrow" and publicly claiming you hate seeing them happy is absolutely vile. This is NOT a normal reaction.

You were not abandoned. You were given an excruciatingly clear explanation, more than once, and then you proceeded to continue. People do NOT have to deal with being harmed.

"Making themselves unavailable almost 24/7" Sam is physically disabled and has a job. You know this. Everybody who knows them knows this. They update their Discord status when they are at work or not feeling well. What the fuck are you expecting from them lmfao?

Sam has also explained to you (as seen in the screenshots) that you were more than welcome to confront and communicate with them, even if they could not respond right away. "Hey is this a good time?" is all you had to ask. You did not communicate; you repeated the process, and Sam rightfully had enough.

It wasn't a "hopeful lie," you scared them into staying by panic-typing. They came to you expressing they no longer wanted to be friends and you guilted them into "taking a break." During that break, Sam reflected on how you acted, and came to the decision to completely remove themselves.

Be a decent person who doesn't hurt and isolate their friends just for having a life outside of you idk man lmao

"I want people to feel the way I feel" yikes!

YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS DOES NOT EXCUSE HURTING, GUILT TRIPPING, OR LASHING OUT AT YOUR FRIENDS.

It is HARD to get help. Not everybody has access to it in this fucked up system that's going on, but you have to make an effort. This was a difficult pill for me to swallow as well, but your health is not anyone else's responsibility. People do NOT have to push through and deal with your actions and the harm you cause. It is YOUR responsibility to redirect.

Asking for reassurance is okay. Lashing out and harming people impulsively is not.

Also, another difficult pill to swallow:

No one owes you an explanation for blocking you.

You were given a very clear explanation, but even if Sam hadn't offered that, they did not owe you anything.

Your fucking disgusting response to this only proves Sam made the correct move.

Reflect on yourself. This is your fault.

[dreamjest]

Also vagueposting three months after this incident is insane LMFAO

[hamsamwich23]

Seeing someone I cut off months ago say they want me to be as miserable as them because I blocked them without "saying anything" is so fucking insane when I literally tried to end our friendship on good terms so there wouldn't be hard feelings and they guilt tripped me into "only taking a break". Which afterwards I realized I was really uncomfortable with that and everything else that happened to lead up to this point and ended up just blocking them. It's been two months why am I getting a vague post now. Genuinely fucked up.

[hamsamwich23]

Screenshots are in the reblogs. For some reason it's bugging out and not letting me reblog my own reblogs?

Also unfortunate correction it's been over three month since I've blocked this person and cut them off. Like....

[dreamjest]

I'm going to attempt to be civil about this, not because I give a shit about this person but because I don't want them stirring up false accusations of "harassment" after already blatantly lying.

Note: the "you" in this post is referring to the person Sam is talking about.

First and foremost:

MENTAL ILLNESS IS NOT AN EXCUSE.

This confrontation initially occurred because I confided in Sam about your behaviour whenever I was playing Roblox games with them. You were avoidant, hostile, and unfriended me from Roblox out of the blue, and I didn't know your socials or have any other reach to you, so I asked Sam if they knew what was going on. I was afraid I had upset you somehow (despite never having talked to you) and I wanted to make things right.

Your response to this was essentially "I'm jealous you have other friends :("

I would like to clarify that I understand the anxiety of feeling like your friends have "better" friends. I understand feeling like you are not good enough. But never, NEVER have I attempted to isolate my friends and act hostile towards the people they hang out with. The way you responded to this was disgusting.

Sam sent you paragraphs. PARAGRAPHS. Explaining what you did and how you had harmed them. Wishing for your friends who had cut you off due to your actions "the exact amount of sorrow" and publicly claiming you hate seeing them happy is absolutely vile. This is NOT a normal reaction.

You were not abandoned. You were given an excruciatingly clear explanation, more than once, and then you proceeded to continue. People do NOT have to deal with being harmed.

"Making themselves unavailable almost 24/7" Sam is physically disabled and has a job. You know this. Everybody who knows them knows this. They update their Discord status when they are at work or not feeling well. What the fuck are you expecting from them lmfao?

Sam has also explained to you (as seen in the screenshots) that you were more than welcome to confront and communicate with them, even if they could not respond right away. "Hey is this a good time?" is all you had to ask. You did not communicate; you repeated the process, and Sam rightfully had enough.

It wasn't a "hopeful lie," you scared them into staying by panic-typing. They came to you expressing they no longer wanted to be friends and you guilted them into "taking a break." During that break, Sam reflected on how you acted, and came to the decision to completely remove themselves.

Be a decent person who doesn't hurt and isolate their friends just for having a life outside of you idk man lmao

"I want people to feel the way I feel" yikes!

YOUR MENTAL ILLNESS DOES NOT EXCUSE HURTING, GUILT TRIPPING, OR LASHING OUT AT YOUR FRIENDS.

It is HARD to get help. Not everybody has access to it in this fucked up system that's going on, but you have to make an effort. This was a difficult pill for me to swallow as well, but your health is not anyone else's responsibility. People do NOT have to push through and deal with your actions and the harm you cause. It is YOUR responsibility to redirect.

Asking for reassurance is okay. Lashing out and harming people impulsively is not.

Also, another difficult pill to swallow:

No one owes you an explanation for blocking you.

You were given a very clear explanation, but even if Sam hadn't offered that, they did not owe you anything.

Your fucking disgusting response to this only proves Sam made the correct move.

Reflect on yourself. This is your fault.

[hamsamwich23]

Super cool list of characters for my OC centric story!!

This is a huge alphabetically-ordered list of characters that are involved in my Original Story. Though this list is subject to change at any time.

I plan on eventually making separate info sheets for all of these characters whenever I have the free time, but for now this shall do...now let's get into it!

__Gods__

Aelita ["Cherry"] Sterling, Goddess of Astrology and Space [Ageless adult, She/her]

Cyrus, God of the summer season [30, He/Him]

Connell, God of war and chaos [156, he/she/it]

Eleanore, Goddess of love and fertility [152, she/her]

Elliot, God of the fall season [103, he/they]

Ennioch, a failed bookwriter+ God of reincarnation + Guardian of Purgatory [1,014, he/him]

Faust, God of wealth luck and (mis)fortune [45, he/they]

Faeleen, Goddess of the winter season [327, she/it]

Hazel, Goddess of the Sun and the light [88, she/her]

Kallan, God of the moon and the darkness [82, he/him]

Maika, Goddess of life and nature [ageless adult, she/her]

Milo, God of dreams and wishes [ageless android + adult, he/"they"] [the they is in quotation marks for lore reasons]

MJ [Mortimer], Goddess of Judgment, Justice and Karma [38, she/her]

Nalo, Goddess of Time and knowledge [26, she/her]

Penelope, God of water (lakes, seas, oceans, ect) [41, They/Any]

Scout, God of Weather [24, Any/All]

Twenty, God of the Spring season [25, He/It]

__Former Gods__

Circi, Former goddess of life and nature [she/her] [deceased, died at 132]

God, The original God of all life and creation and the Earth. [They/it] [deceased, destroyed itself to recreate the divine system]

Novalyne, Former Goddess of Astrology and Space [she/her] [deceased, died at 138]

Wilfre, Former God of Judgment, Justice and Karma [he/him] [*deceased, died at 589*]

__Mortals__

Clay Farrow, A well known farmer and Kallan's beloved husband. Before Kallan's death and ascension to godhood, the two ran the farm together, but after Kallan got sick, the two were forced to legally divorce to prevent Clay from needing to pay off Kallan's insurance and to keep the farm financially running. After Kallan's death, Clay continued to keep the farm going in Kallan's memory until he passed away a few decades later. [He/him] [deceased, died at 77]

Delilah, medical student in training + absolute piece of shit [She/her] [deceased, died at 29]

Lucinda "Lucy", College student working towards becoming a museum curator + Cyrus's best friend before he "died" [they/them, 27]

Marceline, College student with an interest in art working towards a Bachelor's degree + one of Twenty's friends before he "died" [She/her, 28]

Skylar, Faust's ex-situationship + rumorly worked under a Mafia to make ends meet for themselves and did not tell Faust about it until it was too late. [They/Them] [It is not yet known if Skylar is alive or deceased, would be 43?]

Wyatt, College student working in science courses with an interest in the paranormal + Twenty's childhood friend before he "died" [he/him, 25]

__Miscellaneous/Undetermined__

Alcatraz, A mysterious Grim Reaper who seems to have some form of alliance with MJ and Aelita. Little is known about this one as his upbringing is rather different from other Reapers. Despite keeping his secrets he's rather friendly and loyal. A surprisingly lively companion despite his deathly nature [He/him, ageless? adult]

Esmeralda, Gabriels daughter and Disciple with a special connection to bugs. Gabriel originally brought her to life during one of his schemes, though for some reason he couldn't bring himself to get rid of her...so he brought her along and taught her what he knew....not the best thing considering what Gabriel does but she's happy. Aside from the mass murdering of cultists they seem to be a decent family. Though there's more to her history that even Es herself doesn't understand....or remember. [She/her, 15]

Gabriel, The Original Gods first angel. Due to his actions of twisting God's words to toy with the mortals he ended up getting banished to Earth. Shortly after his banishment God destroyed themselves and the rest of their angels to rebuild the divine system. Since his banishment , Gabriel has been infiltrating and taking over cults for the simple purpose of running them into the ground and psychologically tormenting cultists for nothing more than his own personal amusement. [he/any, ageless adult but old as FUCK]

Ivy Mallory, A reincarnated angel and a being of second chances. Ivy is the "outside force" that was able to successfully rescue Cherry from her black hole prison and give her another chance at living. Cherry is the only one who knows about Ivy's existence and identity as Ivy does not reside in his world. However, his presence still seems to linger...blue butterflies can almost always be seen near Cherry [he/they, 32]

The entity of Death, While There is no "God" of death existing in this world, there is a peculiar entity in place to keep the balance of the life and death cycle so that the earth may attempt to continue in peace. Almost all of The Grim reapers that roam this world are extensions of this being and tasked with guiding souls to their awaited fates, though whatever happens to the souls before and after their deaths are not in the reapers control, nor is it their responsibility to mess with the fate od mortals. Their job is to deliver as the entity exists. The entity's appearance has been recorded as "difficult to describe", though it is known that the entity has three heads, each of them seem to be their own "person" and yet they all function in unison. They are all able to speak separately and freely, or altogether. Their names are recorded below.

- Halt, Death of the past

- Ease, Death of the present

- Wail Death of the future

They are theorized to be as old as the Earth itself, coming into formation after the biblical murder of Abel jumpstarted the concept of "dying". More research is to come....

This list is subject to change at any time if additions or removals are made. But in the meantime here's the gigantic mostly completed list!! It took me 24 hours to do this but it was worth it. Reblogs are appreciated cuz this took me AGES.

Ivy Mallory belongs was created by and belongs to my bestie @dreamjest

Alcatraz, Esmeralda and The Entity Of Death were created by and belong to by buddy ol pal @silent-bull

[dreamjest]

[restyourwearywings]

I was taking to my friend about this blog and

Hi bestie @dreamjest

[restyourwearywings]

I fear Zen is in danger and this isn't even my doing!

[dreamjest]

this is how you make a post right