I'll see you in everything

Em | He/him | 18 | main is @julystruck 

[dreamssick]

It's been over a year since I posted here.

I'm going to be honest. I'm surprised I still have followers and I'm surprised this blog is in my notifs.

I want to write something poetic, but I don't know how. I don't know what I want to do with this blog. Part of me wants to delete it, it honestly has a lot of web weavings that are a bit painful to look at. There's a some that are about someone bad from my past, and there are a lot more for people I don't think I'll ever see again.

I want to keep making web weavings, but without the pain that was a part of me, I don't really have a lot of inspiration. I know the whole "without my trauma I won't make art" is a tired path to go down, but that's kind of the case. I'm happier but I don't know if this is an art form I'll ever be able to do again.

But, I have no idea what the future will bring. We'll see what happens.

[dreamssick]

Solitude and Loneliness

Anne Sexton // Susan Sontag // unknown // Jaakko Pallasvuo // Olivia Laing // Olivia Laing // Anne Truitt // Definition // Definition // Dante Émile // Mitski

[dreamssick]

A mother's love

denise levertov // avaianblue // fuckingwhateverdude // sharp objects //katie maria // lidia yuknavitch // mcr // unknown // ella wilson // unknown

[dreamssick]

Healing

Dunya Mikhail // Mary Oliver // Clarice Lispector //  sunsbleeding //  sunsbleeding // Resmaa Menakem // Hope Moore // Roya Marsh

[dreamssick]

When I told you I loved you it sounded like barking

Yves Olade // Kaveh Akbar // Leigh Bardugo // sweatermuppet //Sylvia Plath // Tatève Simonyan // Uma Dwivedi // Grendel Menz

[dreamssick]

sometimes i cry over your grave

elle emerson // @rbhvleo // hallie bateman // sylvia plath // my writing // phoebe bridgers // silas denver melvin

[masculinepeacock]

[Image Description: A collection of a screenshot of quotes.

1: To the owner of a name I refuse to write:

I hate you. I hate being reminded of you - I especially hate when I remind myself of you. Really it's not hate. My mother, the therapist through and through, described it as disgust avoidance when I told her about it. Thinking about you makes me sick and it isn't even your fault.

2: TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER (x3)

3: "You're so hateful." "I learned at your feet."

4: "Sometimes I feel like I'm not solid. I'm hollow. There's nothing behind my eyes. I'm a negative of a person. All I want is blackness, blackness and silence."

5: you say my tenses are my most common mistake but it's hard to remember to keep you in "was" instead of "is" when I can still feel your hand around my throat

6: I hate you for what you did And I miss you like a little kid

7: how i say thank you & goodbye in the same sentence?

how do i tell you vultures only eat what they know is dead? /end ID]

[dreamssick]

sometimes i cry over your grave

elle emerson // @rbhvleo // hallie bateman // sylvia plath // my writing // phoebe bridgers // silas denver melvin

[dreamssick]

Shouta Aizawa

jon palmer // fredrik backman // my hero academia // my hero academia // b //adult mom // my hero academia // les miserables //night in the woods // my hero academia // frank ocean // @/boyfig // my hero academia // unknown

[dreamssick]

Kurogiri

lilllium //mahmoud darwish // vladimir mayakovsky // @/fairycosmos // my hero academia // my hero academia // my hero academia // anne sexton // unknown // my hero academia // my hero academia // marie howe // rosario castellanos

[dreamssick]

Tomura Shigaraki

sophokles // my hero academia // book of common prayer // aaron a brauer // my hero academia // my hero academia // janeaustenprotagonist // my hero academia // my hero academia // william dill-russell // my hero academia // jess zimmerman // clementine von radic

[dreamssick]

Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it.

safia elhillo// unkown // sophokles // jujutsu kaisen // sophia lornie // babezord // alicia ostriker // mob psycho 100 // yves olade // david foster wallace

[dreamssick]

camille norton // my poem // polypeptide // kathleen ryan // traaumaa // richard siken // kathleen ryan // penelope scott // chris garneau

[dreamssick]

Queer Lesbianism

angie sijun lou // emma hunsinger// my poem // k.flay // jennifer's body // s. jae-jones // penelope scott // water lilies // the scary jokes // miniature tigers

[dreamssick]

I lost you and I miss you

joseph fink // my poem // patema inverted // shel silverstein // louise bourgeois // jon bois // ocean vuong

[dreamssick]

Flames

beetlejuice musical // @generalxiao // taylor swift // omori // wendy cope // @godgirlesque // michael schur

[dreamssick]

Skateboards

hanya yanagihara // lany // alivia horsley // @doriantomybasil // yelena bryksenkova // texts between friends // fallout boy

[dreamssick]

Bubblegum

belle and sebastian // henry ward beecher // @alisonzai // rilo kiley // kevin abstract // anne gutman and georg hallensleben // hanya yanagihara