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bellyxache​:

          he’s used to not showing his true emotions, always hiding behind the image of the player frat boy that people often project onto him. it’s easier to fit into someone else’s expectations than be himself so he can come off like a douche sometimes. however, jason can tell there’s been a shift in the air that demands his attention. he could chalk it up to alcohol but he’s also never seen shelby like this before. it concerns him; he doesn’t hide it. ❛ hey. ❜ his hand reaches out for her but stops right before he places it on her back. is this overstepping ? does he have the right to comfort her ? despite his brain questioning his actions, his body moves on its own ( as if it’s following his heart rather than his brain ). instead of settling on her back, he reaches his arm around her in a protective one-armed hug. now they really look like an album cover, and in another circumstance he’d probably laugh about it. ❛ i have my car. do you want a ride home ? ❜ he looks at her with sincerity; he can feel the anxiety crackling in the air and there was no way he was going to leave her alone. alcohol and negative feelings do not mix well — jason is very familiar with that concept. ❛ i didn’t drink. i can drive. ❜

        shelby pursued jason because she thought it was going to be easy. she wanted someone who knew when to keep quiet, someone she knew that she could vibe well with — jason had piqued her interest almost immediately, & her intuition had been right. she enjoyed playing games & fooling around with him. she enjoyed exchanging pointed looks with him at parties, meeting in closets, & feeling like what they had going on was some kind of big, juicy secret, even though it... really wasn’t. everyone in shelby’s sorority knew about her & jason, & the unspoken rule of ‘dibs’ was supposed to keep them safe. however, shelby didn’t feel safe anymore; she felt like she had overshared, like she’d made their no strings attached arrangement into something a lot more complicated than it was supposed to. she felt like she had seriously fucked up, & she isn’t put at ease when jason puts his arm around her, either. since when did he ever initiate touch like this ? ❛ it’s okay. jenn’s coming. ❜ under any other circumstances, shelby would’ve loved to spend some real alone time with jason... but right now ? the idea of that terrifies her. how much of this is genuine, & how much is him just compensating for all of the information that she just dumped on him ? ❛ thank you, though. ❜ she sighs, laying her head down to rest on jason’s shoulder, her eyes shutting. she doesn’t know if she’d be able to find the courage to face jason again after tonight, so for right now, at least, she’ll indulge.

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bellyxache​:

          if you had told jason this morning that he’d be having this conversation with shelby later tonight, he would’ve punched you in the face. this was extremely unexpected, but surprisingly enough he isn’t running from it. maybe because he knows that being at home alone with his thoughts is much, much worse. he shakes his head and dismisses shelby’s worries once more. ❛ i don’t really like talking about myself anyway. ❜ and that is definitely not a lie. ❛ you should be careful. ❜ he seems to be saying that a lot these days, specifically to her. but this time his tone is very different since the last time he used that exact phrase with her. he lets out a long, tired sigh because even just sitting here is exhausting him. ❛ people might take advantage of you if you’re not at your best. ❜ even jason could say the same has happened to him, but he’s also a man. ❛ do you need water ? or crackers or something ? ❜

        shelby still fiddles with her fingers, something that had originally started as a way for her to occupy her mind but had obviously turned into a nervous habit of hers. she was nervous — why was she nervous ? jason choi was not someone for her to be nervous around. & yet, here she was... unable to make eye contact, even boozed up out of her mind & all of her inhibitions lowered. she didn’t like feeling nervous, & especially not around him; he was supposed to be a safe space, with no strings attached ! ❛ they already have. ❜ she laughs quietly, bitterly, & then feels around for her phone to text her little that she was ready to go home. she can feel it rising up in her throat — the urge to run. to bid her farewell to jason & then never meet up with him again. she could count on one hand how many of her sisters knew about how crossed her wires were, & yet, she’d just spilled her guts to jason sitting on the curb outside of a bar. it’s enough to make her sick even without alcohol in her system. ❛ i’m okay. thank you. ❜ she’s buzzing, but this time with anxiety & not intoxication. it’s a feeling that she’s familiar with, & she abhors it. she’s now perfectly inclined to sit in silence until her ride shows up. she was on a cocktail of medications, was actively learning about how to treat her own ailments, & yet... her favorite coping mechanism was still shutting down.

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          she’s silent for a brief moment while trying to soak in his words. teddy isn’t wrong — she does sound crazy. byeol hasn’t been acting like herself at all, even her own parents can attest to that. lots of things happened while she was in korea. good, bad, and worse. ❛ don’t think for a second that i wasn’t completely torn by our breakup, teddy. ❜ her tone is less angry now and more evident of guilt. ❛ it wasn’t easy. and i’m not saying it was for you, but you have to understand. ❜ she swallows thickly. ❛ and i know who that girl was. ❜ confession !!! ❛ you think i didn’t stalk your social media for months after we broke up ? that i didn’t ask my friends to tell me what was on your story ? or find out who you were talking to ? ❜ her voice quivers, but byeol is determined not to let a single tear leave her eye this time around. she has much more to prove now — she’s a strong, grown, independent woman. ❛ i was sixteen, teddy. i was barely a fucking teenager, living in a whole new country by myself spending every single day being yelled at and scrutinized by grown men and women because i wanted to be famous. ❜ her eyebrows furrow together, because recalling those times has been especially difficult for her recently. ❛ look, you’re not wrong, okay ? you’re right. and i’m sorry i didn’t call or text you or contact you, but by the time i realized how stupid i had been acting, i wasn’t a teenager anymore. so much time had passed. i honestly didn’t even think you’d care about me anymore. ❜ she shakes her head. ❛ when i moved back home, i wasn’t even expecting you to talk to me. i thought you’d hate me at the very least. so…… fuck, i don’t know. ❜ she pushes the hair back from her face and rakes her fingers through the brown locks frustratedly. ❛ i — i don’t know ! i don’t know what i want, and i don’t know why i can’t let you go !! ❜

        ❛ i know that you were, byeol ! i know that. it was hard for me, too. understand what, though ? what am i supposed to understand ? ❜  he shakes his head at her words, not expecting anything else from her but also not wanting to respond. he’s trying the best that he can to empathize her, no matter how bad she’s been pissing him off lately. he can hear the way that her voice breaks, & he’s fighting back the urge to hold her & tell her that everything was going to be okay. as far as he was concerned, in regards to the two of them... nothing was going to be okay, at least not anytime soon. ❛ and that’s okay ! it’s okay ! but you can’t keep doing it this way ! you don’t have to let anything go, but you can’t treat me like this. i didn’t cheat on you, i didn’t neglect you, i loved you with every fiber of me being. i bought every single one of your albums, voted for you on music shows, did everything that i could to support you way beyond the span of our relationship. i did everything right by you, and now that you’re back, you’re trying to find every reason to blame me or to justify hurting me in the same way that you hurt —- and that’s okay. i understand that much, byeol. you can be confused and conflicted and scared and hurt, but you cannot keep waiting for time to reverse itself and for us to be dumb and in love again. i’m not dumb anymore, and i’m not in love, either. things ended between us for reasons other than ourselves as individuals. that needs to be something that you can live with. ❜

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bellyxache​:

          for once nina actually wasn’t being flirty when she asked for a distraction, but she’d be lying if she said she wasn’t turned on by the way he spoke into her ear like that. oh, to hear all the other filthy things going on his head. ❛ screw you, dae. i didn’t even mean it like that ! ❜ she gives his chest a light slap, urging him to get his mind out of the gutter but of course secretly enjoying it. ❛ don’t do this to me. you know how hard it is for me to resist you, ❜ nina whines with a pout. she finds solace in the warmth of his hands and scrunches her nose up at the male, feeling a lot better than when she first entered the apartment. ❛ and i have a confession… my bias is jaehyun. ❜

        ❛ hey, c’mon, you knew it was coming ! ❜ he laughs, eyes crinkling at the corners. nina made him happy—- really happy. happier than any other relationship, any other idol, any other person has ever made him feel. he felt gratified, & more than just sexually; he’d finally found someone who could keep up with him intellectually & emotionally... & also sexually. ❛ you’re telling me, baby. i haven’t seen you for the whole day, and now you’re telling me to behave ? it’s cruel. ❜ he tilts his head at her ‘confession’, his hands slipping down around her neck as he smirks. ❛ is he ? i’ll make sure to relay the message, and i’ll also tell him how much you like having hands wrapped around your throat, too. ❜ he gives her a short squeeze for emphasis.

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          ❛ it’s cute. you’re cute. i love this, thank you. ❜ first of all, angela has never gone on a date so thoughtful. second, she’s touched that addison had remembered her favorites. she had high expectations and he completely met them. ❛ as much as i love your bad boy look, i have to say i really enjoy this whipped boyfriend thing too. ❜ but before she grabs at any of the delicious foods and treats laid out for them, she places the reusable shopping bag she was carrying earlier between them. ❛ i have something for you, too. well, us. it’s not as romantic as this, but… ❜ she reaches into the bag and out comes… a bong. ❛ this is what i was talking about earlier when i came in. and i was planning on getting absolutely zooted later, if you’d like to join me in my room after this tasty dinner. ❜ she raises her brows at him. ❛ i hope you say yes because i’m way more fun to hang out with when i’m high. ❜

        whipped ? boyfriend ? slow down, angela ! ❛ hey, whoa, ang. boyfriend ? i haven’t even popped the question yet. stop being so eager ! ❜ he’s just kidding, of course, but not really ! he planned things out, so it’s only fair that he takes things all the way himself. his eyes follow her movements, eyebrows quirking up when she reveals what had been instead: a bong, naturally. ❛ we should have high sex. ❜ the words come out before he’s able to realize what’s happening & now, he’s nothing but a stuttering mess. ❛ i mean—- fuck, i didn’t... i mean, we should, but like—- i didn’t mean to say it, y’know ? not out loud. not right now. fuck, i—- uh... let’s just eat. ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          he didn’t expect spending his thursday night having a heart to heart conversation about his mental stability with a drunk, almost close to blacked-out sorority girl outside a cheap dive bar. healing sometimes comes in the most funky ways ( something his therapist had been right about after all ). ❛ …… okay. ❜ it’s all he can respond at first, because he’s pretty confused right now. normally he doesn’t like being vulnerable, but it feels good right now for some reason ? he blinks. ❛ actually, um… ❜ so should he tell her that he has bipolar disorder and that he’s tried to kill himself in high school, or is that not a good conversation topic for a drunken thursday night ? ❛ well, pamelor sucks. all i did was sleep when i was on it. ❜ pause. ❛ and prozac just makes me numb. ❜ another pause. ❛ uh, i’m on lithium now. you should know what that does with your big psych brain, right ? ❜

        shelby retracts her hand, facing forward, feeling like now wasn’t the time to be touching up on jason. they were talking about some serious shit, & she can feel herself sobering up with every passing minute. maybe her buzz is finally wearing off, or maybe she’s willing herself to get sober; she definitely does want to remember this in the morning. ❛ hm. ❜ it doesn’t feel right to not give him a real response, but it also doesn’t feel right to start prying & asking questions. how often does she get jason choi sober, ready & willing to talk about himself ? this was likely a once-in-a-lifetime chance, & she did not want to squander it by being too pushy. ❛ for me... pamelor has left me feeling dehydrated, i think. increased... sex drive. it makes my anxiety bad, too. to the point where my anxiety medication... doesn’t... really work anymore, either. i don’t sleep much nowadays. ❜ she plays with her fingers, fiddling with some of the rings that she had worn to go out that night. they were there to be defensive, more than anything else; the reality of being a girl in the twenty-first century. ❛ i’m sorry, i... i want to talk about you, but not be invasive, so i’m talking about me. is—- is that okay ? is it wrong... for you ? ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

         ❛ addison ! you’re not gonna believe this ! ❜ she calls out to him as soon as the front door opens and she steps foot into the apartment. angela pulls her face mask off and locks the door, not at all paying attention to what could possibly be happening inside. ❛ the smoke shop by the grocery store is considered an essential business and just opened again today, so i saw this really cool bong and—- ❜ the rest of the sentence is lost when angela finally notices the living room. she stops in her tracks, still standing by the front door with a look of surprise on her face. she knew addison was planning something, she just didn’t think it was going to be today ! ❛ what—- did you do all this ? ❜ a picnic in the living room… how romantic is that ? a smile blooms on her face at the sight. ❛ i promise i’m happy, i’m just—- i wasn’t expecting this ! ❜ she says while taking a seat on the ground across from him.

x

        ❛ i said that i’d figure it out, right ? you’re surprised, so that’s good ! ❜ addison is beaming, his heart pounding with both excitement & nervousness. he’s sure that angela knows what’s coming; he told her that he wanted to properly ask her to be his girlfriend, even if they definitely hadn’t waited to do... other things, things that some people usually don’t do unless they’re dating. he’d pulled out all of the stops: tacos from angela’s favorite place, bubble tea, a dozen cupcakes that they could eat all of & then regret later, & all while socially distancing & wearing a mask in the stores, too ! ❛ this is cute, right ? it doesn’t exactly fit our—- well, my—- alternative bad boy image, but i’ll let you catch me slip, just for tonight. ❜

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bellyxache​:

         ❛ i’m sorry, ❜ she begins, one of her perfectly manicured fingers tracing patterns on his chest. ❛ i just get distracted by your amazing good looks. sometimes it’s hard to focus on what you’re saying. ❜ she’s joking… but it’s also lowkey true. and a content sigh leaves her lips as she imagines a world where she could actually move into daeyeol’s place with him. with the cat, too. ❛ poh is very much included in this relationship, what are you saying ? ❜ she’s about to joke more when her phone’s ringtone goes off, and the latest comeback song of daeyeol’s group pierces the air. nina doesn’t even bother looking at the caller id — it’s most likely her manager and she does not want to deal with that right now. instead, she tosses her phone onto the couch and snakes her arms back ground her boyfriend’s neck. ❛ distract me, please ? ❜

        ❛ oh my god, enough about poh. ❜ daeyeol huffs, starting to close in when nina’s phone goes off. he sighs, frustrated, having dealt with plenty of calls today himself—- but then he registers what her ringtone is, & he starts laughing. ❛ seriously, that’s not even my part ! you have your ringtone set to jaehyun’s part. oh my fucking god. is this how sasaengs work ? they get close to one member just to try and get close to the one they actually want ? ❜ he lets out another huff, but then his eyes hood as soon as three beautiful words leave nina’s lips. if nothing else, daeyeol was really good at being a distraction. he cradle’s nina face in both of his hands, leaning down but stopping at her ear instead of his lips, his voice thick & low. ❛ always. how do you want it ? ❜

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bellyxache​:

         ❛ i never asked for you to wait for me, teddy ! ❜ they are clearly not on the same page here, and it’s like every conversation they’re going to have from here on out is going to end up back to this: how they broke each other’s heart. byeol scoffs. ❛ gee, i’m sorry i fucking asked. i’m sorry that i confessed that i still loved you and thought it was weird seeing some girl leave your house ! ❜ she’s yelling from across the street now. it’s a complete rollercoaster — one second it’s arguing about still being in love, the next about moving on too quickly. all this fighting is completely new territory. ❛ i’m not the person i was when i was a trainee and neither are you. i don’t know why you’re bringing it up — i ended things because i loved you ! i did it for you ! ❜

        ❛ byeol, are you fuckin’ kidding me ? you said you still loved me after five years of not talking to me. you lived your little idol life, did your shit, and then came home and expected everything to be the exact same, huh ? ❜ back when they were younger, teddy would’ve never dreamed of swearing at byeol, but he’s tired of being tested like this. if every single one of his choices was going to be scrutinized, even as their future was still really unclear but they were definitely not together, then he would prefer her to be back in korea. ❛ so i’m in trouble because i waited for you, and i’m also in trouble for not waiting for you. are you listening to yourself ? you sound fuckin’ crazy, byeol, seriously. i don’t love you—- not right now, at least. is that what you need to hear ? you came back into my life and expected more than i was willing to give on day one. don’t fuckin’ turn me into the villain here ‘cause you think everything that i do is with the ulterior motive of involving you. ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          they definitely look like the cover of an album and jason can’t help but feel like he’s experiencing the worst part of a coming of age movie. he sighs and looks over at shelby, and for the first time this night takes a better look at her. they’re just two kids being hella emo while their friends party behind them. what else can he say ? ❛ you do make me feel good. don’t be dumb. ❜ his words are honest and he dismisses her with a shake of his head. ❛ i’m just depressed. ❜ a bitter, sarcastic chuckle leaves his lips. it’s slightly ironic how he’s opening up like this while completely sober when normally you wouldn’t be able to get anything out of him even after multiple jello shots. ❛ it fucking sucks sometimes. ❜ he sighs and looks up. the sky is dark and riddled with stars, surprisingly still visible despite all the artificial lights around them. ❛ most of the time, actually. so i’m sorry if i’m not very fun right now. ❜

        ❛ jason ! ❜ she gasps, a little too loud, & so she covers her mouth while she leans in closer. ❛ i don’t—- i literally could not care less about you being ‘fun’ or what the fuck ever. ❜ she turns to look at him, too, her eyebrows knit together in concern. she reaches forward, her hand cupping the side of his face so she can make sure he’s really seeing her in this moment. ❛ i want you to... tell me, okay ? if you—-  if you... feel like you can, tell me. whatever you feel. and you can always, always, always use me as an excuse, even if i’m not actually there. ❜ for the first time that she can think of, shelby actually regrets getting wasted. if she had known jason was feeling this way, even just a little bit, she would’ve stepped in like the ‘friend’ part of ‘friends with benefits’ included. ❛ do you... do you—- fuck. do you take anything for it ? i take... um, i take pamelor. ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

         ❛ it’s just funny to me, i guess. ❜ she tosses the magazine aside and takes off her sunglasses so she can look at him more clearly. ❛ if i had known you were rebounding, i would’ve done the same thing. ❜ that is definitely not true; lord knows how distraught byeol was after their breakup, and it’s not easy to date in secret as an idol. she’s not the type to do flings either. why does she want to push teddy’s buttons so much ? is it because she knows this is the only way they can talk ? ❛ i didn’t expect you to move on so quickly. ❜

        ❛ rebounding ? i waited two years, byeol ! are you physically unable to go more than five minutes without foaming at the mouth at the thought of me being happy after our breaking up or something ? ❜ it’s a good thing that there’s an entire street between them, because otherwise, teddy would be back on the yoo’s front lawn, red in the face as he argues with byeol. ❛ was i supposed to stay heartbroken about you for the rest of my life ? i would’ve thought living alone in korea and trainee life would’ve made you a little bit more mature, but obviously not. ❜ when teddy had first seen byeol moving back in, there was a sliver of hope that they’d end up giving their relationship another shot; the way that things were going, however, indicated that that was not the case.

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          her eyebrows raise at his words. daeyeol never ceases to surprise her; nina doesn’t know whether or not she can take him seriously with him smiling so sweetly like that. but she loves it. it gets her all hot and bothered and her mind off the thousands of people talking about their private life on the internet right now. ❛ does that mean i can stay the night tonight ? ❜ she already knows the answer but asks it anyway as her arms wrap around his neck. their bodies press closer together as she stands a little taller so she could reach his lips. ❛ i wanna be with you. just us. and poh. ❜

        ❛ did you listen to anything i just said ? you can literally move in with me. spend the night whenever you want, and gradually start moving your stuff over here. i don’t mind at all, baby. ❜ & there he is, back to being sweet ! such duality. his hands drop to her waist, trailing just a little bit lower a few seconds lower. he’s tempted to boost her up & hold her against the nearest wall, but he refrains. it’s cute seeing nina struggle with their massive height difference. ❛ don’t bring my cat into this like he has any real estate in this relationship. ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          for someone who’s drunk and in heels, she walked damn fast ! if he hadn’t looked in time jason would’ve been left behind, but eventually finds himself outside. he stands by shelby with his hands in his pockets and briefly glances around their environment. just a bunch of college kids stumbling around and a group of guys sharing a cigarette over by the ally. he hates it here. ❛ sorry for what ? ❜ the male sits down beside her, finding the ground more interesting to look at than their surroundings as he stares down at it. the atmosphere has changed in the matter of a few days and jason knows it’s probably annoying. he may play games because he enjoys them, but also because he’s used to them. his own emotions are difficult to understand. ❛ if you’re apologizing for being drunk, i have a lifetime of apologies to make. ❜

        she laughs quietly at his words, only because she knows they were spoken with intent of humor; in reality, they weren’t very funny. the atmosphere that they’ve been enveloped in isn’t a good one. they’re just two college kids, both sad for their own reasons, sitting on a curb. if they weren’t careful, their picture would be taken & used for some angsty alternative album or wattpad fanfiction. ❛ for... ❜ she trails off, contemplating how to word it well. ❛ for being... like this, when you’re... like that. ❜ she’s afraid to look over at him, though that’s what felt right in the moment, so she just lowers her head & rests her chin atop her knees. ❛ i like to—- to make you feel... good, and i can tell that you don’t... right now. ❜

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

          nina knows he’s holding a lot back, and although she’d appreciate the honesty, she also is very much grateful for him trying to help her out. when she was little, she’d dream about being with a prince like daeyeol. she chalked it up to fairytales later in life, but here he is right in front of her. nina places poh back down on the ground so she can take daeyeol’s hands into hers, making sure to interlace fingers. ❛ you keep saying stuff like that and i might fall in love with you. ❜ it’s definitely bold of her to drop the L word right now but she’s not lying either. ❛ you wouldn’t want me around twenty four seven. i wouldn’t be able to keep my hands off you, even when you have stuff to do. ❜ re: their studio hookup.

        ❛ that’s the point, ❜ daeyeol teases, bringing up her to hand to kiss her knuckles once she’s laced their fingers together. he tilts her head as she speaks again, eyebrows knitting together but an amused smile remaining on his face. filthy words paired with a sweet smile was daeyeol’s speciality, as nina would soon enough find out. ❛ baby, we need to have a serious conversation if you actually think my multitasking skills are so bad that i can’t get work done with your hands all over me. i’ll fuck you while writing lyrics, finger you while on zoom, eat you out during a conference call—- i couldn’t care less. ❜

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bellyxache​:

          a surprised squeak leaves her lips when he pulls her closer because she was definitely caught off guard. in the back of her head is a voice that comments on how she must’ve been heavy, but angela closes it behind a door and chooses to handle it later. ❛ i just realize i have really high expectations and i don’t know if you’ll be able to meet them ! ❜ it’s entirely a joke, evident by the playful smile on her lips. she tilts her head up, but doesn’t bring herself any closer. ❛ kiss me then. ❜

        ❛ high expectations ? ang, you literally kept your starter villagers. you got reneé and yet, you still kept her. your expectations of me can’t be that high. ❜ he gets impossibly closer so that his own lips are just a few millimeters away. ❛ kiss you ? what would i want to do that for ? ❜ it’s a good thing addison is cute. he shuts himself up by finally closing the gap, the kiss heated from the first touch as a result of built-up momentum from their last sessions just ten minutes ago. his eyes have fluttered shut, one hand cupping angela’s jaw while the other one rests on her thigh, his hand slipping down so that his thumb can rub back & forth over the soft skin of her inner thigh.

[drearnlaunch]

bellyxache​:

         ❛ no way ? ❜ he jokes sarcastically. at least she’s self aware, he can say that. noticing her sensitivity to light ( and most likely other things too, like the loud chatter of drunken twenty-something year olds and the bartender yelling out drink orders ), he steps in front of her to block some of it. if anyone asks why he’s being so nice, it’s because he’s trying to prevent shelby from yaking all over the place. ❛ fine. ❜ his answer is curt because he doesn’t want to talk about it. he just started new antidepressants, hence his lack of alcoholic drink, and also total lack of reaction to anything going on around him. he just feels numb. ❛ are you sure you’re okay ? do you need air ? ❜

        shelby could tell that jason wasn’t ‘fine’ before she even asked the question. she had gotten used to his mannerisms by now, knew him well enough to figure things out, even while drunk. as badly as she wants to press, to fix whatever was hurting him, she knew she wouldn’t be able to do that right now, with at least eight shots of vodka in her system, or... maybe even at all. ❛ air... air is good. ❜ she wishes that she’d be able to remember this night in the future, to remember the little things that jason was doing to help her. it was subtle, but still noticeable, & it’s regrettable that she had gotten wasted on a night when so many strange things were happening. she’s out the door first, not bothering to check behind her to see if jason was still there because she just had a feeling he was. she sits herself down on the curb, knees tucked into her chest. ❛ i’m—- i’m... i’m sorry, jason. ❜ she sighs again, a hand reaching up to massage her one of her temples. she was definitely still intoxicated, but she was finally coming down from the adrenaline that had accompanied her to the bar. now, she didn’t even have dim bar lights to hide herself; she was vulnerable, & also really useless at the moment.

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bellyxache​:

         ❛ hm. ❜ just hm. she has no words; byeol doesn’t even want to comment on it, to be honest. of course teddy would have more suitors besides her — he’s attractive, kind, and supportive through anything. it’s not a surprise. ❛ does she know about me ? ❜ she asks him. ❛ do any of your… flings know about me ? ❜ because she wants those girls to know that they won’t ever be her and there isn’t a single girl out there like yoo byeol. so maybe she’s acting a bit possessive, but she can’t help it. after five years it still feels weird hearing about someone else in his life, even if none of them were serious.

        he knows exactly what she’s doing; the pouting, the short responses, the nonchalantness... teddy doesn’t want to entertain any of it. it was okay when they were younger, when they were still teenagers & in high school, but now ? c’mon, byeol. ❛ yes, byeol, they all know about you. i didn’t forget about you. ❜ he’s pretty close to wanting to roll his eyes, but even if she wouldn’t be able to tell from across the street, he knows that she can probably read him just as well as he can her, so he’s doing his best to keep himself in check. what was she even trying to get at here ?