drowning in vagueness

drew perthshire seventeen. hufflepuff. twin to caleb perthshire. a girl with a chameleon soul. a human being who isn't sure who she is or what's real. neutral. ━ ━ ｛ ☀ ｝ ━ ━ ❝ she cannot decide what she desires, but today it is enough she is a body in the world, wanting. ❞

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haythamxfitz:

At the mention of Halloween, Fitz’s brows tightened further, and his eyes narrowed almost to form a slight grimace. Holidays, whatever the celebration, had never amounted to form a good memory. “Right.” He nodded simply. As the bubbles came flying towards him, he moved side to side, merely by an inch, as he tried to avoid them. “Never been in a room with so many…” He glanced at the commotion that’d captured everyone’s attention. A small smile cracked at the corner of Fitz’s lips, and he turned back to Drew. “Know what I mean?” He cleared his throat. “What about you? You having fun?”

"No offense, but a lot of time I don’t know what you mean. You speak so little and when you do, you often trail off.” Her gaze followed his before she caught his eye, smile curling onto her own face that was bigger and bolder than Fitz’ own. “But this time, I think I get what you mean. You’ll find that though Hogwarts is vast, it’s hard to be alone in the castle. So it’s better to blend into the crowd.” She put a halt to her parade of bubbles, tucking the tip of her wand under her chin. “I always have fun at parties. Whether they are the type with tea and proper etiquette or vodka with a bit more rowdiness. Though something tells me that you would be even more stiff if you were forced in a tux.”

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qveenavery.

               “ I don’t like  a n y  of those options, Drew. And I couldn’t even win him back, because he doesn’t WANT me anymore. ” Amma drew in a shaky breath. “ Maybe. Maybe you’re right?? A nice mango scented one, ” she nodded, trying her best to muster up some positivity. Unfortunately, it didn’t last. “ No boy has ever been able to  h u r t  me this bad, ” she blinked out another few tears. “ Can you believe me, AMMA AVERY, was silly enough to think love was, like, a real thing that actually happens to people?? ”

Drew didn’t know what to tell her. She hadn’t discovered any secret foolproof remedy to heartache. “You have to face REALITY.” Yet this was coming from a girl who lived in a drift of fog that lacked any clarity. “And this can be a lesson to you to look after yourself first. What better way to do that than treat yourself to a home spa day?” Drew had been hurt a fair amount of times in the past. Most had been results of her own making, however. She didn’t know Amma Avery’s story. “Love does happen to people. I think the fact that it’s real is what makes it capable of hurting you, you know?”

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qveenavery.

              By ‘left in the cold alone, ’ Amma Avery had officially burst into tears. Completely sober due to a lack of desire to drink, ( or do much at all, ) this was all BROKEN HEART and no alcohol induced hysteria. “ But I don’t want anyone else!! No one else is him. ” She cried into her hands. “ And I am going to be left in the cold  a l o n e,  I’m going to, like, die alone, Drew Perthshire. I haven’t even used a deep conditioning treatment in weeks. I don’t even know if I CAN wing my eyeliner anymore. ”

"Well, you’ve got three options: move on to someone new, embrace independence, or win him back at the cost of your pride and self-worth.” Perhaps she was being harsh, but Drew knew little about Amma to draw much sympathy for other than her sympathy for her as another girl who knew the sting of heartache. “Look, cry your eyes out and let your mascara run if that’s how you feel, but don’t neglect basic self-care regimes. You’d feel tons better I’m sure after a deep cleansing face mask treatment.”

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haythamxfitz.

With a pinky finger, Fitz popped one of the bubbles that’d flown towards him. “Feel cosy already,” he idly mumbled. If he hadn’t already felt so out of place, then this party had definitely driven that home for him. “Are these parties always like this?”

Drew turned to address her      foster brother? She was unsure of how she was to label him. She didn’t know what to make of Haytham Fitzgerald, not yet. “Well, usually they are a bit more upbeat. And there’s far more alcohol. Looks like whoever is hosting on this one really skimped out, but maybe they are saving their resources for Halloween.” She pointed the tip of her wand toward, bubbles spitting out the end. “You aren’t having any fun, are you? You look totally rigid.”

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marymacii.

“I still want my jacuzzi but I GUESS you’re right,” Mary frowned, blowing some of the bubbles in Drew’s direction, b r e a k i n g apart of her halo. “Whoops, looks like I broke your halo, angel.”

"Are you trying to be s l i c k with me, Macdonald?” Drew’s eyes twinkled, throwing a wink in Mary’s direction playfully. “Since you broke my halo, does that mean you’re going to drag me to hell by tempting me with sin?”

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qveenavery.

              On the verge of tears ( as she had been for a good two weeks, ) a tipsy Amma watched the lively Drew with a self pitying huff. “ You know who used to have Jacuzzi baths, Perthshire?? KIRAN AND ME, that’s who!! But, like, not  a n y m o r e,  and not ever again!! ”

The rumor mill at Hogwarts was impossible to muss through these days and Drew had given up on trying. But she had heard something about Avery and Khan apparently shacking up together briefly. Pursing her lips and setting down her wand, Drew flicked up her gaze to the other girl. “Then find someone else to cuddle up close in the Jacuzzi with?” Drew had little in the way of words of comfort to offer. “Winter is fast approaching, and you don’t want to be left in the cold alone, do you? I’m sure it won’t be too hard to replace one fuckboy for another.” The slight made against Kiran wasn’t personal. Perhaps there was just a part of her that was envious, like always.

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Doing a twirl on her heels, stray, wet hairs clinging to her cheeks, Drew waved her wand to create a path of bubbles like a halo around her shoulders. “This is no real substitute for a Jacuzzi but it’s the best that we’ve got.”