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Clem | 5’1 | cw: 105?? lb | gw: 90 lb | ugw: 70 lb | a big sack of fat | personal vent blog | | not pro please seek recovery | | binge free : 0 day(s) |

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hi guys i wanted to say sorry, for kinda making this account a “diary” and literally displaying all my breakdowns on here i ?? swallowed 14 ibuprofen pills so uh i’ll miss you guys

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Beautiful day to

jump the FUCK off a building

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i ate a burger today :))))) and friends and a fuckign frosty god

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anyone have advice on how to lose jaw fat other than fucking chew gum pls and ty

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fuck i feel so dumb

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why cant i have like proper thoughts??? i desperately wanna feel so fucking numb and ignore every fucking thing so i dont have to go through the hassle of faking everything every fucking day its so fucking exhausting and i dont get any time to rest i have no dreams or aspirations because i didnt expect and dont expect to live for any longer death would be better than this i know some of that is just my exhausted pussy self talking but theres a part of my that just wants it to happen i dont even feel that bad right now ive felt worse ill stop

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no matter what i fucking do my thoughts always trail back to how much i fucking hate myself?? and how much i wanna fucking die?? i feel so edgy

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about three weeks later and i still cannot fucking handle this keeping this shit up is not gonna happen long term and honestly at this point i doubt i’ll make it past the year whabdbdkdkn haa thoughts dont work fuck

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can my mind like stop??? thinking about how much i hate myself and like let me sleep??? because i stg half of me is tempted to get up right now and literally stab myself in the fucking gut but noooo i have s c h o o l and i gotta s l e e p

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im really tempted to buy myself a cake to celebrate the 5th time ive almost killed myself 🥺 celebration time

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is it a normal thing to feel incredibly and genuinely suicidal during and after going outside?? i can never stop thinking about the multiple ways i can kill myself during school and then almost executing them after e x e c u t i n g

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is it normal???? to be so panicked when outside the house?? its so unsafe and theres so many people and noises i cant handle this

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figured hey if im going to die might as well be for something worth it dbsk we all know thats a cop out im just a pussy

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alright so i lived

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this is it for me lads chances are i’ll fucking pussy out but ireally hope i end up going through

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i just wanna die i really just want to fucking did it’d be so god damn easy and i want to do it so bad i dont know whats stopping me theres nothing really stopping me is there i can do this it’d be so easy too easy fgod fuck i cant even fype my shit without thinkinng “wow thats so edgy you literally sound like a fucking child complaining about tshit no one cares about just fucking suck it up and kill yourself “ and honestly thats fhe fuck ong truth i think im going to do it later tonight, i want to do a couple things before i decide to “bite the bullet”

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i wanna cry so bad but i cantw hy cant i fucking ddcry why cant i cry