harlequin girls

There ain't nothing I can do or nothing I can say, Some folks will criticize me, So I'm gonna do just what I want to anyway, And I don't care if you all despise me. Autumn Crosswell | 17 | Eagle

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  Well, no I get it. I mean it’s hard to tell the difference between real feelings and hollow feelings sometimes. It’s human nature to want to occupy time which leads to crushes or intense feelings that we think are real but really aren’t. Romantic feelings, obsession, interest, hell feelings in general are quite hard to dissect, so I understand. Is this girl someone at home or…?

Yeah, like I said I like learning, even if it’s about things I’ll never really use in my life. Here’s to the knowledgeable ones then. I dunno apparently you’ll stumble across it when the time is right. I’m not quite sure who exactly it is that decides when the time is right but I guess the Hindu just expect you to be patient.

Oh. Well, alright I suppose you’re right, it takes more than just a single chat to become friends. Acquaintances then, how’s that sound?

Are you kidding, mate? We’ve just got started, I’m pretty sure we’d never shut up if given the chance. If you’ve gotta go then by all means, I’ll see you around but don’t flake on me. I like chatting with ya, it’s stimulating, it’s not boring or forced and I think that’s cool as shit, that’s real hard to come by so if you gotta go then you gotta go but I don’t think I’ll so easily miss out on a chance to be comfortable and enjoy another person’s company. And between you and me, I don’t think you should either.

[drippingmascara]

I suppose you're right, I rather not think about the philosophy of feelings. I'm already having trouble deciding what I'm feeling, don't tell me I've got to figure out if those feelings are real or illusions too. You understand? Detlev I..she's not like, it's not a serious thing where I want to date her or anything. And no, she's not. 

...Well whatever it is, I hope I don't have to wait long to stumble upon it. 

.....Yeah....cool. Sounds cool, acquaintances.

Like I said I'm...not much of a talker. This whole thing took me pretty off guard so, I don't know. I'm a little nerved about that honestly, never shutting up. I uh...[Rowan didn't know how to end the conversation, partially because he didn't really want to, but he was afraid what would happen if they kept going.] Oh..it's just, that's a first so. I'm probably going to see you again, anyway, with Davis and all. Oh yeah, I'll try not to pass up a chance to be in your company. I don't...but yeah, I should probably, be on my way, currently. I..we should, yeah well hopefully we do see each other over the summer. I think I'd like that.  

[wilhelmcaprio]

[slytherin-arrogance]

  shhh it’s been so long since ive done anything for theo just LET ME DO THIS ofc he loves her he always will she literally like set him on the right path and made him human again i cant even explain

yeh tbh there’s no way there was any kind of antagonism with the breakup. i believe it was evie’s choice in the end like theo would’ve been like, im terrible for her but im too selfish to be the one to leave it’s gotta be her but all he wants is for her to be happy like he’d do anything for her pls

and he’d keep his distance too even tho all he’d want in the moments after she left and then years afterwards would be to run after her and make her stay somehow

in the end it’s like, he knows there’s an ugliness in his soul that she shouldnt have to be around bc shes the opposite of him in so many ways

im thinking my endgame for theo is that he does some groundbreaking spellwork and dies young from something stupid like a bullet wound and refuses to make it heal bc he’s just done and he sends evie a message while hes in the hospital like can i see you one last time and she comes and idk im hella rambling this is all your fault

[drippingmascara]

no dont ever stop i love it i rlly do u know that 

BASICALLY THAT LIKE i dont think ever that it was this big painful thing i feel like it was inevitable and they both saw it and were kind of waiting for it for her to break it off but i feel like even for a while she knew she was going to but she couldnt bring herself to? bc she enjoys him so much and she fucking loves him in a way she will never love anyone so she knew she had to let him go but she pushed it off as much as she could and then it jsut happened and it was easy to stay away bc she was in america and he could just go back home. 

UGHHHH STOPPPP she obvi thought about him and like when ppl asked her abt her love life/exes she'd kind of just laugh and be like yeh and god she'd talk about theo like he was perfect "so why didn't it work out between you two?" "i don't know, really, so many things didn't work out between us. but it's kind of like..being so good for someone you're bad for them?" and i feel like she'd compare a lot of boys that tried to date her to him but she got over it eventually when she married but still no one was like theo 

wOW STOP THAT SHIT RIGHT NOW BC IDEK WHAT SHE'D DO I THINK EVIE THRIVES SO MUCH ON KNOWING HE'S OUT THERE? LIKe when she thinks about him randomly she just thinks about the fact that he could be anywhere doing anything and she tries to make up the best scenario possible bc it helps her sleep and it makes her happy to picture him soaring, so if she knew he was dead idk how she'd feel. he's kind of like a dream to her, like something she keeps and no one rlly knows about but her, so when she tells stories of this boy she loved it's special, bc she remembers it as a special thing and since she doesnt see him now its like he never happened to anymore, but she remembers him idk its confusing /its a dream/ only she dreamed it 

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  Someone that people consider bad? I’m not quite sure I understand that, but we don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. We don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to talk about so you can let out that breath you look like you’re holding. [He smiles genuinely and with his eyes.] It’s all fine, mate.

Hinduism happens to be another religion I read up on and according to their lore, if you come across a strong enough reminder of your past, or something that was significant enough in your past life, the memories of your last lifetime will return to you so I guess you could always give that a try. You are quite welcome, glad to have provided a learning experience for somebody today. Of course, any friend of Davey is a friend of mine too. Plus you’re a cool dude so there’s that.

Well, you should certainly try to work things through with this friend. It’s so important to have an anchor in this life, someone who knows us through and through, better than we know ourselves. I consider myself extremely lucky to have Dave by my side.

Hope is the best thing we’ve got really, the only thing that’ll drive us. Hey ah…you alright, mate? Suddenly you don’t look so hot. You feeling ok?

[drippingmascara]

I feel like I'm making it sound a lot crazier than it really is just because I'm not the best at explaining things. I'm intrigued by this girl, and I say intrigued because I'm not sure if I even like her rather I like studying her, but she's not a good person. I'm also not creepy, I-yeah there is no way..I'm going to make this sound okay so... [When Detlev mentioned the breath, when he mentioned the fact that he could easily tell Rowan was struggling, it only made things a little worse. Rowan could tell Detlev was just trying to comfort him, but what was bothering Rowan in the first place was the fact that Detlev just...knew. He didn't even know Rowan until this day and yet he knew things, and Rowan didn't like it.] I'm fine, thanks. 

I find it interesting how you read up on stuff like that, because I..well I like it too so, that's cool. How am I supposed to do that? Can't really plan something out that I don't know. I think I needed it, the learning, so thank you. We're not..we're..we're not friends. Not..yet. I-

[Rowan couldn't wipe the confusion. He wanted to be his usual blunt and careless self and tell Detlev that they weren't friends, that they couldn't just be friends just like that, that's not how it works. But at the same time, Detlev was so nice, and he made Ro feel like a better person. He didn't know how to be mean to him, and that was off balance. Detlev's comment was taken the wrong way, his acting if Rowan was okay made Rowan feel like he was teasing almost, and he felt vulnerable.] I'm fine. I just, I don't think we have anything else to talk about. I should uhm, we should stop talking now. 

[littlelionboy]

  Cute. I honestly don’t even know what Greg is up to nowadays; you think I would with our twin telepathy and all. He’s like an enigma. But then again, I’m best friends with one.

[drippingmascara]

Yeah, I'm surprised I haven't heard his voice in a while. He's usually everywhere you are. What did you do to him? 

And he's very proud of that, being the enigma, that is. Also uhm, I talked to Detlev today. Don't scream. 

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  [Detlev’s lips twitch up into a small smile when Rowan chokes and he waits patiently for Ro to gather himself.] I can understand that. Plus, you said yourself that you’re the only magical one, I can only imagine what it must be like to have to be in an entirely different environment for even two months out of the year. Oh…well I’m sorry you’ve had to experience something like that, mate. Heartbreak’s a right bitch, it is.

Oh, alright, my bad, I didn’t mean to pry. Show me? Well, I’d be honored, but like I said, I’m sorry to pry, didn’t mean it. 

I believe that’s what they call an old soul, mate. Solve, not so much, they’re under the assumption that there’s nothing to solve. That I’ve just got the Quidditch thing and a pretty face going for me and that’s the end of the story. To be honest, I know a lot of people but I have very few friends because, well I’m not just Quidditch and a face and not all the people that try to associate with me understand that. Save you a lot of trouble, huh? Do you have experience getting troubled bye Quidditch folk then? Tell you what, I’ll only pick something up if I happen to come across it purely by coincidence, ok? I won’t go out of my way, but if I happen to find another volume, I’ll pick it up for you, one friend to another, sound good?

It’s a good relationship to have, you know? To have a friend you’ve known through thick and thin that has gone through changes with you and has been with you no matter what. I can just tell by the way our dads look at each other that they’re glad to have that kind of support and I’m sure you and Dave will be too down the line.

Yeah, Davey told me you’re more of a listener, which honestly makes it that much better. People who listen have absorbed so much detail that their thoughts tend to be the strongest. Yeah, I know what you mean there, I mean they say that ignorance is bliss for a reason, right? Because being knowledgeable is a burden most times? Which begs the question is it better to be knowledgeable and sad or ignorant and happy? Yeah, you do that. Let me know what they say. My parents would be more than happy to talk to your folks and let them know you’ll be safe and all that. Like I said, they’re used to having me come home with friends.

[drippingmascara]

Yeah, it's..hard? I can't seem to find the word. But at the same time, I grew up most of my life not really knowing a thing about magic, so I can't even tell if being at home is a different environment or being at Hogwarts is. Mm, I hear that. I wouldn't say I experienced it first hand, but I've...felt things for someone..people consider bad? This is confusing, it's confusing. I don't really care to talk about it anyway. 

.....................Sorry. No, it's fine. 

Old soul, hm? Is there anywhere I can do research on my past self, maybe it'll help me out a little in this life. I..am that person that is literally what I feel like sometimes with people but you...proved me wrong on that so I supposed I learned something today, so thank you for..being you, yeah. I know what it's like to live under first base assumptions. Coincidence? O..kay. I guess I'll just have to trust you on that one, ....friend? Uh... 

You're right. I don't know if I'll ever have that, at least not one that starts from really young. I have this one friend back home who is the only person I actually like there, but I don't know if..he understands, yet, me, so, maybe. I have Davis, though, I do hope we stay in touch beyond Hogwarts. 

[Detlev's talking seemed seamless, effortless. He wasn't saying anything to purposely make Rowan feel uncomfortable, but that didn't change the fact that he was. Detlev seemed to understand Rowan's character more than he did himself, and it was all so much at once to take in. Rowan clammed up, not knowing how to respond.] ...Makes sense. ..Those are two choices, but I'm hoping there is knowledge that brings happiness? The knowledge that brings completeness, or uncovers something that needed to be shown. Ignorance only brings faux happiness, how do you know when it's..real? Kay. I'll let you know. 

[littlelionboy]

  You say that like you’re the one who willingly comes up to visit me in the first place.

[drippingmascara]

Your brother doesn't count, Davis.

[littlelionboy]

Okay, who planted the stink bomb in the Gryffindor Tower? I know it’s the last day, but that’s pushing it.

[drippingmascara]

Mmm, not visiting you for a while.

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  It’s hard to pin point things like that which come from deep inside of us. Not wanting to associate with your parents, or from what it sounds like, your American society even, sounds like something that comes from deep inside. Ohio…where exactly is that? What’s it like there? [Deltev chuckles at the underdog comment.] Hey, between you and me, the pretty girl tends to be kind of a bitch, so you probably dodged a bullet anyway. There’s a reason they end the movies where they do-so you don’t see the epic romance crash and burn in a few years when the lead characters realize there are no heroes in real life. There are realistic occurrences that pose realistic choices and people who do good and bad things. That’s it. Anyway, I’m rambling, sorry.

Mate, what did I tell you about importance? Let me decide what’s important and what isn’t, yeah? Go on, what were you saying about biking back at home?

You are? Oh, you don’t look it, my bad and you certainly don’t sound 16 either. Yeah, I was waiting in her office for a tutoring session and she had the book out so I figured I’d read it to kill some time. People don’t expect me to do much reading because of the whole Quidditch image, but I actually really love it. I love absorbing knowledge no matter how trivial. It runs in the family, actually, my dad, brothers and I sometimes just sit around the living room and read for hours. Eh, don’t worry, it isn’t any trouble, pops and I wander around book shops frequently anyway. Hey, if you spend a few days with Dave over the summer you’d inevitably run into me since our families have each other over for dinner every other second. Our dads are best friends, you see, they use any excuse they can find to hang around.

Yeah, but honestly, I haven’t had a conversation like this in a while. It’s been some time since someone’s been able to stimulate a conversation with me about something that’s not Quidditch and it’s real refreshing. You’re great talking to, mate, I dunno if anyone’s ever told you that. You’re got a heavy brain in there and that’s a good thing. Yeah, you know if your parents wouldn’t mind you hanging back in the UK for a bit you could even crash with me. I’ve always got somebody or other hanging around in the house so my parents don’t mind in the slightest having company. Actually, I think maman enjoys it-as if having 3 boys isn’t a handful enough.

[drippingmascara]

...I m-[Caught off guard by how Detlev seemed to be analyzing him, Rowan felt uncomfortable, and when he went to talk he choked and started coughing.] -Fuck. Erm, I don't know if it's lack of association, I just don't feel like I'm part of them sometimes, exclusion I suppose. It's complicated. It's near Kentucky and Indiana. It's okay, boring to me. ...It's funny you say that because..well I know from experience. 

...No it's uhm-it's private, kind of personal. Maybe some day? I mean, maybe I'll be able to tell you some day, or show you, or something. 

Oh? I get that sometimes, and sometimes I get the opposite, really depends on what the person in question gets out of me. I'm glad though? That you..thought I was older, I feel older. Yeah I'm gonna be honest I was pretty surprised when you mentioned it too, but it's cool, not being a basic riddle. Everyone's always trying to solve you, aren't they? I like it that you're not the stereotypical quidditch guy, saves me a lot of trouble. Oh....kay. If you want. You still don't have to, please don't...give me things. I don't need it. Yeah I know, Davis says we're going to be like that in the future. 

....You're kidding right? I mean, I'm not really..I don't usually...like, I'm not the guy people go to for long detailed conversations. I-I actually don't talk this much personally, kind of shaken by the sound of my own voice sometimes. Thank you? I'm...honored, I guess. Same, honestly, with the talking. Thanks, but having a heavy brain isn't always a good thing. I'll.....ask. My folks. 

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  Well either way, I’m glad you came to Hogwarts cause it brought you here, now, today. You say they as if you don’t want to associate yourself with them. There a reason for that? Where in America do they live by the way? Haha, like an indie film, huh? You sure as hell look the part, like you could star in an indie film I mean. Sorry what was that? Where do you bike?

Well, we’re eighteen damn years old, I don’t think we’re supposed to have complete control of ourselves just yet. That’s sort of what Buddhism is about, isn’t it? Finding an internal and external balance and thus achieving the perfect state? I read about it in one of the books Professor Lyla has in her office once. Probably, I’ll ask my dad if he’s got the rest or if he can find them for you. Yeah, we’ll chat, mate, keep in touch over the summer, shoot me an owl or something. I wish you didn’t live in America so we could hang. I wonder if intercontinental floo is a thing. It definitely should be if it isn’t already.

Yeah, I’ve known the kid my entire life, I probably know her better than I know myself at this point. Honestly, sometimes I see little Quidditch trinkets in shops and think, hey Davey would love this and then I think, wait, I’d love this too, why didn’t I think of that first, dammit? It’s strange and also pretty great. Has she? Well she’s told me a few times that I’ve gotta talk to you sometime but you made yourself too scarce to run into. If she was pushing you to though, you should’ve come and found me earlier, mate, I can’t imagine I’m very hard to track down with the way I’m running around all over the place. It would have been good if we got on earlier, I would have liked to spend some more time with you over the year than now when we’ve gotta go off for the summer. Wish there was some way you’d stay in the bloody continent in the least.

[drippingmascara]

Mmmm. [Detlev was treating Rowan like someone he'd known for a while, and the compliments were starting to make Rowan uncomfortable. Half because he didn't believe them, or didn't know how Detlev could make that assumption that he was important so fast. Rowan noticed he had begun to open up with Detlev, and started closing himself off a bit.] Uh-yeah I mean there has to be, I don't really know though. Ohio. I get that a lot, everyone wants to root for the underdog, and I look like the kid that gets his face bashed in and doesn't get the pretty girl till the end. [Rowan cracked a small smile to show he was kidding, laughing at himself made things easier. But it waved into a lip bite as he considered talking to Detlev about his favorite place back home, he scratched his head and chuckled halfheartedly.] Nothing-nowhere, it's uhm, not important. 

I'm 16, actually, barely. Yeah, that's a good example. You did? I read up a bit on different religions as well. Oh, you uh-you don't have to do that you know. If it is they'll probably have copies in the library. Hmm, that sounds cool, I could do that. I don't think my parents would mind, Davis has already begged I spend some time and if her folks let her she'll come to American for a weekend or something. Maybe. 

Well you like her, I guess that's what it's supposed to feel like. Heh, yeah, I'm more of a background kind of person. You've...just met me. [Rowan didn't mean to sound suspicious, but he couldn't help but be. A part of him was honored, he felt good hearing these words from Detlev. However, a part of him was defensive as well, and he didn't know what Davis had told the older boy, he didn't want to be a pity case either.] But uh-yeah, you're really cool so that would have been nice. I can try, if you really want and what not. 

[drippingmascara]

i am the one true rowan u r nothing u r dirt under my feet get out of here son. GUESS WHO'S OVER THE AGE OF EIGHTEEN IT'S ME U JELLY

that’s not very nice rowan you’re giving your name a…bad name 

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  Oh ok, well that makes a lot more sense now. Do you guys live in America or do you live in the UK now? Just wondering why you’re here instead of Salem, that’s all. Yeah, I can imagine you’d have to be a heavier set kind of person to be able to take and deliver tackles like the ones on tv. You’ve got the perfect build for Quidditch though, lean enough to balance a broom nicely. I get it though, to each his own. Well, technically Hogwarts is a boarding school so they’re not entirely lying. Different how? Sorry, I don’t mean to pry, it’s just, it’s a different world, you know? It’s hard not to be curious.

Right! Right, that makes a lot of sense. It would explain why people are so hell bent on external conquering instead of finding internal balance and all that. Yeah, no problem, let me know if it’s any good. And you know if you come across any wild facts or anything please share.

Yeah, she does that. She’s like a puppy with a jet pack most of the time and it’s pretty great. Well, you should. You should think yourself important because clearly you are. I’m going to take that backhanded compliment and I’m going to treasure it, Ro. I’m glad I can live up to the hype delivered by my jet pack pup.

[drippingmascara]

America. They-we live there..I go back in the summers. I-uh..ha I actually uhm, I did some research when I got my letters. Hogwarts seemed...I don't know, but, yeah. I thought I'd find...myself? In a less coming-of-age indie film way, or maybe more. Mmm, no coordination. True. It's fine, I just don't hm, talk about it often? It's different, I don't think I can give much insight since I'm not really...involved with the people there? I bike off to this open la- never mind. 

.......Yeah. (!!!!) That's basically, yeah, I uhm-never really know where to start with either, honestly. Between conquering and balance, that is. It seems you can't fully have one without dipping into the other. I will, definitely. I'll probably be uhm..yeah I'll definitely have my head in it for a while. It's probably part of a series. Uh...really? If, if you want, sure. We'll chat? 

That's probably the most accurate description of her I've ever heard. .........O.k. I encourage, that might be the only one you'll get out of me for a while. You..sure do. She'll be happy about this, you know, she's been trying to get me to talk to you for a while now. 

[drippingmascara]

I've had it up to here with badly done silencing charms.

[diederich-malekai]

  Well clearly you are five because you just “Detlev, that’s gross” -ed me at the mention of sex!

Wait. Party? What party?

[drippingmascara]

Noo, I "Detlev, that's gross" -ed you at the mention of listening to other people have sex. I'm not that kinky. 

...What are you talking about? Party? 

[griffin-rose]

Mm.

[griffin-rose]

  [Normally, in this situation, Iris would be freaked out. Her anxiety would kick in and she would stay quiet and probably walk away from the situation. But it really bothered her that she felt like this boy’s face was so… familiar. It made her curious. Unconsciously, in a whisper, she muttered:] … Do I know you? [She flinched at the sound of her voice, unaware she had spoken her thoughts aloud. Her posture stood upright, but her eyes still locked on the boy.]

[drippingmascara]

[It had come to an uncomfortable point in time when the girl was looking at him intensely, with squinted eyes as if he had something on his face, and it made him nervous. His own eyes flickered around and he checked to see if he was the only one that noticed, which he obviously was because no one ever really looked at him this hard. As a reflex he started to get his things together as though to leave the scene, but when the girl mumbled something he could just barely hear the escape window grew smaller.] Uh.... [Rowan studied her, watched as her body tensed, should he respond or was that not supposed to come out. He tried to think back on whether or not he'd met her before. He knew he hadn't.] No. I don't think so.

[Ro thinned his lips but stayed with it, he leaned forward a little.] ...Do you know me? Uh-people usually don't. 

[drippingmascara]

I've had it up to here with badly done silencing charms.

[diederich-malekai]

  The sexy times, Luce! Have you been listening to other people have sex through bad silencing charms??

[drippingmascara]

Wh...No! Oh god, no! Detlev, that's gross! I thought you were talking about the party going on. 

...sexy times? What am I, five? 

[diederich-malekai]

I've got a huge Care of Magical Creatures encyclopedia sitting in my room

[diederich-malekai]

  American football, huh? That’s not a very popular sport here in the good old U  of K. Football seems a little aggressive. I mean Quidditch is aggressive too sometimes, but football just seems flat out painful. Is everyone in your family non-magic? I mean that must be a hell of an experience, being a part of two worlds at the same time. Both my parents are as pureblood as they get so I wouldn’t really know, but Merlin, your knowledge of how things work in the world must be so much more vast than the rest of ours.

Well, there’s just something about the stuff that hides in the deep dark corners that’s intriguing, right? Say, why don’t you take it? You know, the encyclopedia? Take it off my hands, I’m sure the pages will get turned a lot more with you as its owner and you’ll do it the justice that my dad meant for it. He’ll be proud knowing someone’s making good use of it.

Rowan, hey! I’ve heard about you too! Davey’s told me you’re there for her at times no one else is. Hey, and I’m sorry you have to hear her go on about me. If it’s any console, you could bond with my friends over the fact that I quite literally never shut up about her either. Anyway, it’s good to finally meet you, mate. It’s always good to meet someone who means so much to Dave.

[drippingmascara]

Yeah, my parents are American...if you couldn't tell. It...is. He tried to get me into it multiple times but I'm..not really built for it. I don't like sports, too much...contact? I'm the only one. Yeah it's weird, they tell everyone I'm at boarding school. I...guess? I don't know, but yeah home is uh-different. It's all very different, but people, they're the same.

That's a good way to put it. Sometime's it's kind of like, we can't figure our own selves out, so we try to figure out other things? Kind of? Oh uhm- wow okay I-thanks. I'd be happy to, thank you.

Really? Oh...that's nice to know, she kind of stuck herself to me and now we're here. Something tells me that would only make things worse. I didn't think myself that important but I guess, if you say so. It's...good, nice, yeah to meet you too. I was afraid I wasn't going to like you very much. Davis describes everything she loves as really perfect so I tend not to hold every word to it's truest form. 

[drippingmascara]

I've had it up to here with badly done silencing charms.

[diederich-malekai]

  The silencing charm, are you talking about them being used for what I think you’re talking about them being used for?

[drippingmascara]

That..is strongly dependent on what you think they're being used for.