constantly drowning in nostalgia

the secret to life is to waste time in ways that you like. (sideblog for more personal stuff and boyblogging, view intro.)

[drowning-in-decibels]

intro

finally intro time? hey, better late than never!

this is a sideblog for more of my personal stuff and functions as a boyblog, which means that i interact from a different blog. i do have this one linked over there so you should be able to tell it's me.

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i go by spencer or atlas. im a bi trans guy i guess? im not really into labels, im literally just a dude okay?. he/him. english aint my first language, excuse any weird phrasing i might use at times.

i like movies, music, drawing, old tech&old web, anything 90s n 00s really, youtube, hanging around the world wide web, photography, architecture, big cities, skateboarding, various aesthetics and subcultures, anything related to the internet really, and probably a lot more that im forgetting rn. i also like learning about various random things

i mainly live off of nostalgia and wanderlust. im always yearning for things that seem inaccessible to me. so thats my thing i guess.

this blog wont contain anything fandom, but instead just boyblog stuff as well some random aesthetic images n stuff. blood might make an appearance every once in a while. (ps: i change my layout here pretty often just so you know)

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im very open to new mutuals and people to interact with. please, i need some homies.

no strict dni, i know how to find the block button if needed.

peace out, spencer

[ppups]

[bearstag]

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[drowning-in-decibels]

not doing okay right now

[kosmogrl]

it’s sunny the weather is so nice and yet I can’t stop worrying and I can’t get rid of this heavy heart feeling

[drowning-in-decibels]

should i finally come out to my parents after almost 7 years of being consciously aware that im trans and trying to find the "right" moment? before then i just considered myself a boy anyways lmfao.

atp i dont really care anymore, i just dont want to live a life filled with lies anymore. and to be fair, the closet is made out of fucking glass because over time and especially during this last year i have made so many not slick allusions to it that it’s now just genuinely hilarious that somehow nobody is catching on to anything?????

except for my irl friend but i told her it wasn’t that deep and that nothing is going on. SORRY!!!! i kinda regret it, but im scared that, even though i think i trust her, she'll talk abt it and then the whole fucking school will know and i really dont have the fucking patience to deal with that rn.

i already have mister buddy boy my crush going on, this random freshman i feel weirdly paternal towards because he gets bullied very badly and i want to do something abt it even though at the same time im like that doesnt concern me whatsoever, and ig i also still get bullied but wtv. so yeah. i dont need any more issues at school🙃👍

but i still dont want school to end😔

[drowning-in-decibels]

wth am i gonna do when summer break starts and i have no more silly shenanigans to look forward to anymore💔

[drowning-in-decibels]

yes these are my problems. yes i dont have a job. yes i should get a job. i know. but alas.

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bro stop hiding in the library why the hell are you even there in the first place💔

[drowning-in-decibels]

oh fuck off im so done with this bullshit

[laterkiss]

i have this deadly sickness called remembering

[hispanicnothispeace]

does anyone know how to stop desire from being the root of all suffering

[drowning-in-decibels]

please let fate be nice to me once and let monday go well and like i want it to🤞🤞

[drowning-in-decibels]

tfw the cashier at the grocery store calls you sir>>>>>>>>

[jj-vs-world]

Pain is temporary, swag is forever. Be a (trans) man.

[drowning-in-decibels]

i actually really dont want summer break to start im going to throw up

[tomhoppusdelonge]

sorry for the mixed signals I don’t know what I want or what I’m doing mostly